Flowers For My Life: Episode 10
Ah, Flowers For My Life, you keeeeel me. So many great moments in this episode, and the ending sequence was wonderful.
I’ve said this many times before, how I don’t care about ratings, but this is utter travesty. The last episode garnered ratings of 3.3%, and that’s just wrong. It’s criminal. How can utter pedestrian crap be consistently rating upwards of 20%, 30% percent, and leaving gems in the dust at 3.3%?
It’s disheartening, and all we can do is send the cast and staff our best wishes and hope they aren’t too downspirited about it, as the Korean fans are doing on KBS’s Flowers forum.
Well, anyone who’s still onboard can enjoy the bittersweet thought of being part of a small, exclusive club of people who get that Korean dramas are more than recycled love polygons and showcases for great wardrobes at the expense of fresh stories. Flowers must just be ahead of its time. When I started watching, I thought that it was amazing that kdramas had advanced to this level, but I guess they haven’t. Flowers is just waiting for the rest of the country to catch up.
(Random) SONG OF THE DAY
Mot (못) – “나는 왜” (why me), because it seemed fitting to pair an atypical band with an atypical drama. [ zShare download ]
EPISODE 10 SUMMARY
Hana coldly sends Ho Sang away acting as though she’s angry at him for lying to her about being Wang Dae Bak, but heartbroken inside.
Although she lies to her parents that nothing’s wrong, her parents know something’s up and assume she and Ho Sang fought. Hana takes her drama tapes and cancer books and throws them away, determined to end things completely.
Worried over Hana’s reaction to hearing the truth about Ho Sang, Nam Kyung asks him what happened. He merely says that Hana didn’t have much to say, and Nam Kyung assumes that’s good news, that Hana was understanding. She tells Ho Sang that Hana must be confused and upset over being deceived, so he should do his best not to make things harder on her. Ho Sang just drinks, although his body doesn’t react to it well.
Hana goes drinking as well, wondering why she chased after a guy like Ho Sang in the first place. Eun Tak asks if she’s finally regained her senses, and she says yes, she even dumped Ho Sang. Eun Tak tells her she shouldn’t feel hurt over breaking up, considering all the things Ho Sang put her through so far. Hana says she doesn’t feel hurt, she feels unjustly wronged, “For all the time and effort I put into Wang Dae Bak, for feeling upset, waiting for him, feeling heartbreak… It feels unfair.”
Hana tells herself with tears in her eyes, as though trying to convince herself to believe her words: “I don’t like Wang Dae Bak anymore. A guy without money, with a short lifespan… I was crazy to like him. A guy with nothing, possessing nothing, just waiting for his death to come, I hate him. Because he’s so disgustingly pitiful, I hate him.”
Pil Gu senses that Eun Tak’s worrying over Hana, and asks if he really has feelings for her. Eun Tak says he just keeps worrying about her. Pil Gu: “That’s a scary thing.” He advises him, “If you think this woman is the one, don’t ever let go of her. It turns out there’s nothing more foolish you can do than that.”
Nam Kyung gets a call from the hospital telling her the test results came back with problems, and they need to see Ho Sang for more tests. He tries to get out of it, but Nam Kyung convinces him to go back.
Hearing that Hana got completely drunk the night before from her mother, he worries about her and sends her a text message asking to meet briefly. He’ll be waiting at the bus stop. Hana sends back a message saying she’s not going, so he shouldn’t wait.
But Hana can’t shake her concern, and thinks about it all day. Eun Tak can tell she’s thinking of Ho Sang, and tells her, “Don’t waver. I know that the thing you can’t control the most in this world is your own feelings. So I know you’re going through a hard time now. But I hope you won’t soften toward him and go back to the way you were before.” Hana says she won’t.
Ho Sang waits all day and evening at the bus stop, anxious to see Hana. Hana finally arrives, but as she starts to approach, he gets up to finally leave, and she watches from a distance as he boards the bus.
Hana sits in the seat where Ho Sang sat waiting all day, as Ho Sang rides away in the bus, finally appreciating how hard it is waiting for someone: “It must’ve been hard on you, waiting for me all those times.”
And thank god for the next sequence, because things were starting to get a little too sad for me.
Eun Tak skulks around outside Hana’s room, trying to work up the nerve to knock on his door, and it’s so cute seeing Mr. Cool (and Hot) acting insecure for once. He suggests they go out together with a pretty weak excuse (“Come with me to buy books. I’m done with mine.”), and when she turns him down, he mutters how she’s got no sense of awareness: “Let’s go on a date.” He doesn’t like seeing her hole away in her room, and he’s uneasy thinking she’ll go back to Dae Bak, so, “From now on, see me as a man.”
Which is a conversation Hana’s mother overhears. Thinking it over, she approves of Eun Tak — he went to a good university, he’ll take over his father’s business, he’s a nice guy. Hana’s father is resistant because he considers Ho Sang a done deal since they’ve even slept together, but Hana’s mother informs him that they never did — that was a lie. Plus, they’re over now.
Hana’s mother pushes the two kids together, sending them on an errand together to pick up some cosmetics. At the store, Eun Tak picks out a lipstick for Hana, and Ho Sang, who happens to be nearby with Nam Kyung, happens to see Eun Tak giving it to her.
Ho Sang tries to get away quietly, but knocks into someone and draws attention to himself with a loud crash. Ho Sang attempts to laugh it off, but the meeting between the four is strained, and he makes a quick exit.
The encounter leaves Hana distracted and silent. Eun Tak is disappointed to see that as she gets out of the car to go into the house, she leaves behind his lipstick present in the car. Aww, so sad.
That night, Hana goes to Ho Sang’s place, but only looks on from the outside…
Nam Kyung hears from the doctor of Ho Sang’s illness — advanced pancreatic cancer — and is deeply shaken at the news. Thinking she should tell Hana about it, she pressures her to meet and tells her Ho Sang’s very sick. To Nam Kyung’s shock, Hana reacts with a cold, “So what? Don’t tell me anything about him anymore, whether it’s good or bad news.”
Nam Kyung asks how Hana can react so coolly, and Hana counters, “So what do you want me to do? I’ve already decided to finish things with him. But you want me to go back to him because he might die? What right do you have to ask that of me? If you’re so worried, then you stay by his side.”
Hana walks away from a stunned Nam Kyung, but as soon as she turns the corner, she fights tears as she doubles over at the pain.
Eun Tak and Pil Gu pay their respects at his mother’s grave. Eun Tak confesses there’s one thing he feels sorry about, which is that his mother wanted to meet Pil Gu before she died, and he opposed it. “She told me that I’d know you’re a good person once I met you. That I’d understand why she kept you in her heart all her life.”
Upon arriving home, Pil Gu knowingly watches Eun Tak watching Hana, and takes Hana’s mother aside. The ensuing conversation between the adults is too cute, as both parents approve of the kids getting together, but want to make sure the other parent isn’t unhappy. Hana’s mother explains that Hana didn’t really spend the night with Ho Sang. She feels confident that she’ll get over Ho Sang in due time. And Pil Gu expresses his concerns that Hana’s parents might think worse of Eun Tak because he’s his son. But Hana’s mother assures him that she thinks Eun Tak is wonderful.
Eun Tak tries to talk to a reluctant Hana, but Hana pushes him away, asking if he knows why she broke things off with Ho Sang. He assumes it’s because he kept upsetting her, but Hana contradicts him: “No. It was because he has no money. I like money best in this world, but he doesn’t have any. I can forgive him everything else, but I can’t forgive that. Why else would I have chased him around? It’s because he said he had lots of money. But he doesn’t.”
Eun Tak reacts with a mix of disbelief and confusion, and Hana tells him, “It seems like you’re trying to be nice to me because I seem pitiful, but I’m a bad person. I only care about money.” Eun Tak asks why she’s telling him this, and she says, “So you’ll be careful. You’re from a rich family too. Since I’m done with Dae Bak, what’ll you do if I decide to go after you too? So if you don’t want to be latched onto by a cruel, awful person like me, be careful.” Eun Tak angrily responds, “You really don’t pay me any attention, do you? If you were at all worried about what I thought of you, you wouldn’t have told me this. I don’t care if you pursued Dae Bak over money or whatever else. But it’s hard to take you treating me so lightly.” She tells him not to take it, then.
Wanting some comfort, Hana goes to Ran, who has good news for her — she’s going to have a baby. They again manage to communicate despite their language barrier, as Ran apologizes for only thinking of her own good news when it seems Hana needed comforting. Hana assures Ran that she’s thankful that Ran’s good news allowed her to be happy for a moment too.
Hana’s father talks to Ho Sang to confirm they’ve really ended things, then offers Hana some words of wisdom. He tells her, “He lied to appear good to you. I’m not saying it’s a good thing he lied to you, I’m saying you don’t have to feel hurt over it. It wasn’t a lie to take something from you, but to win your heart. Really bad men are the ones who don’t even worry that their women will be hurt because of them.”
Overwhelmed with concern for Ho Sang, Nam Kyung insists he move in with her. If not for him, she wouldn’t have had the courage to get over her fiance. She can’t stand by and watch him go through hardship alone, especially seeing how Hana seems to really have made up her mind to get over him. To herself, she worries, “I don’t know what to do. I can’t find the courage to tell you the frightening news. I don’t know what’s best for you. I wish someone would tell me.”
Nam Kyung decides to tell Ho Sang that the hospital informed her of his results, and merely says that his body has become weaker, so he has to be careful to watch his health and eat nutritious foods. She then asks, “Ho Sang, would it be okay if I was beside you, instead of Hana? I know your feelings are with Hana, but we have 10 years between us. You liked me all that while, and waited for me. So I feel I still have a chance. I want to be happy too, and I feel like I could be, with you beside me.”
I really admire Nam Kyung. She’s not exactly lying to Ho Sang, because her words are sincere, but she’s framing the situation in a way that doesn’t make Ho Sang the pitiful one. It makes it seem like she needs him more than he needs her, and whether or not it’s the “right” thing to do, she’s doing it all in service of a friend. She’s a pretty amazing person.
Meanwhile, Hana receives a package from Ho Sang — his seashell arrangement, which he tried to throw away but couldn’t bring himself to. It comes with a note: “I hesitated to send this, thinking it might burden you. I don’t think I got to tell you properly how grateful I was for you. You have to be happy. I will be, too.”
Finally shaken from her cold stupor, Hana clutches the frame to her chest as she runs through town, arriving in front of Ho Sang’s place. Her eagerness turns to alarm seeing an ambulance in front of the building, and in a panic, she begs them to open the door so she can see who’s inside. To her relief, it’s not Ho Sang. I’ll only say that I really love the contrast of the last shot of this episode to the last shot of the previous episode — lovely contrast — and leave the rest to the imagery…