I’ve watched enough dramas to know that a bit of story fatigue at this point is to be expected. Part of it is on my end, and part of it is on the drama’s end. But since we’re pretty near the end now, I’m telling myself to remain optimistic. This episode shows some story movement and a few light-hearted scenes that add humor, which has been lacking in recent episodes. So those were very welcome.
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EPISODE 13 RECAP
Ji-wan demands to know why she and Kang-jin can’t be together. After hanging up the phone call, Kang-jin struggles with his emotions and starts to rise, but sinks back into his seat. At the hospital, Ji-wan glares at Chun-hee, who bursts out, “Don’t tell Kang-jin.”
Ji-wan’s reply is barbed:
Ji-wan: “Why? Are you unable to see him because you’re sorry? Are you even sorry? How sorry are you? Don’t you want to know what a farce of a life Kang-jin oppa has been living because of you, or how he’s living now, or how he will continue his preposterous life in the future?”
Feeling anguished over Ji-wan’s words, Chun-hee says, “I’ve committed an unforgivable sin against you and your mother. I’m sorry.” Still overwhelmed with resentment, Ji-wan says, “I’m sorry, ajumma, but I won’t accept that apology.” She leaves with those angry words, and both women spend the night brooding over the conversation.
Kang-jin ends up driving to the hospital, but rather than going in, he parks outside. He stays there all night long, and as he sits with his eyes closed, he misses seeing Chun-hee stumbling out and grabbing a taxi.
After the confrontation, Chun-hee has left without warning, so when Ji-wan finds the room empty, she rushes out. She doesn’t see Chun-hee, but she does recognize the car that pulls away from the curb and merges with traffic: Kang-jin’s.
At the Cha & Seo atelier, we have a welcome bit of humor between Jae-hyun and Woo-jung, who bicker. (She has forgotten that she’s the lowest employee here and Jae-hyun the boss; he instructs her to use formal joendaemal language with her.)
Young-sook has taken a liking to Woo-jung and pulls her aside for a chat while making lunch, asking about her family. (Woo-jung plays it down, since being a chaebol’s daughter might make their dynamic awkward, and would also requires explanation for their rift.) She helps Young-sook make mandoo (dumplings), though she admits that she hasn’t eaten them since she was ten, when her mother died. Nobody else’s mandoo could measure up.
Kang-jin looks over to see Young-sook patting Woo-jung’s hand, telling her to treat them like family now. She also says that her son Ji-yong may seem stoic, but the way he treats Woo-jung is different from all other women: “I think he cares for you.” Kang-jin just smiles and leaves them to their talk.
Feeling upset over the Chun-hee situation, Ji-wan asks Tae-joon for help, since he has regular contact with her. She doesn’t explain their relationship, saying merely that she left before her treatment was finished.
Chun-hee isn’t at her coffee stand, but the kimbap lady is able to direct them to her apartment. Ji-wan sends Tae-joon away, wanting to speak with her one-on-one, and hesitates a long while before mustering the nerve to knock on the door.
Chun-hee is not happy to see Ji-wan, and tells her to leave; she should just pretend she never saw her. Ji-wan assumes a brisk doctor’s demeanor, explaining that Chun-hee needs further treatment and medicine, and wants to take a look at the injury.
When Chun-hee insists that Ji-wan go, Ji-wan refuses: “I told you I won’t forgive you, and that I won’t accept your apology. You have to be healthy in order for me and Kang-jin oppa and my mother to be able to hate you.”
Ji-wan starts packing a bag of Chun-hee’s clothes, intending to bring her back to the hospital. She promises, “I won’t tell Kang-jin oppa. When you’re healed, meet him yourself. He’s your son — you should meet him at least once.”
Woo-jung and Kang-jin step out to the porch for some air. She looks up and asks:
Woo-jung: “Do you want to fly? You must want to flutter away, like the clouds, or a bird, or the wind. Then fly. Run away — take Han Ji-wan’s hand and run away wherever. Fly off somewhere. She said that you’d given up, but that she hadn’t yet. You’ve done enough here. What are you hesitating over? Life is short — go.”
Kang-jin replies, “Should I? Should I just do that?” But he says this without conviction, and walks back inside.
We do see, however, that Ji-wan’s still #1 on Kang-jin’s cell phone. She misses his phone call, which she returns from outside the house. He comes out to talk to her, saying she should have come indoors, but she answers, “But I came to see Cha Kang-jin, not Han Ji-yong.”
Ji-wan asks him on a date, acting cheerful and putting up a bold front. We can see that the bravado is an act, as she visibly relaxes when Kang-jin agrees, as though she’d been afraid he’d refuse.
In the car, she wonders, “If your mother came back, what would you do? If she came back, what would you do about my mother?” He doesn’t respond.
At a restaurant, Ji-wan orders ten bottles of beer and drinks from hers, though Kang-jin doesn’t touch his. He says he doesn’t feel like drinking, but she calls him on it: “Liar, you’re not drinking because you’re afraid it’ll make you honest, right?”
She guesses that he must have felt disturbed and confused by her phone call last night, and admits that she saw him at the hospital. He should have called her: “I was dying to see you — you should have called. Dummy. Coward.”
Suddenly, Ji-wan stands and swoops in close, leaning over the table and stopping just inches from his face. But she pulls back, commenting on his surprise: “I won’t touch you, so don’t worry.”
She says, “Let’s stop acting now. How can we be siblings? Even a passing dog would laugh at that.” They can’t live like this forever, so she wants to tell her mother the truth and deal with the consequences.
Ji-wan stands to go, and he grabs her arm. She tries to break free, and orders him to let go.
He responds in a challenging tone:
Kang-jin: “I won’t stop you — but do you really feel confident you can do it? Want to take it there? Fine, let’s go there. Like you said, we went through so much to come this far. And we like each other so much, so what’s there to fear? Let’s go, then. Let’s go as far as we can go.”
They head back home, Kang-jin acting with firm, decisive movements as he pulls Ji-wan along. They head to Young-sook’s room, where he sits down before her and says, very seriously, that he has something to say. He holds Ji-wan’s hand and puts it on the table in plain view, clasping it tightly even when she tries to pull away.
He declares, “We like each other. So we don’t want to lie anymore, or walk on eggshells around each other, but date as a man and a woman. Please give your consent.”
The announcement stuns Young-sook, who uneasily tells Kang-jin to let go of Ji-wan’s hand. He says no: “I’m not Ji-yong. I’m Cha Kang–!”
Ji-wan claps her hand over his mouth to keep him from finishing that sentence, and Young-sook falls over in a faint.
A little while later, the doctor checks up on Young-sook and repeats his diagnosis that she is deliberately erasing and editing her most painful memories. He warns them not to subject her to shock.
At first, I thought Kang-jin was being stupid by “burying the lead,” so to speak: Why didn’t he OPEN with the “I’m not your son” line before making Young-sook think weird incesty thoughts? However, as Kang-jin is surely not dumb, I believe he did this all for a reason — he was deliberately trying to force Young-sook’s reaction with shock.
He’s also proving something to Ji-wan, challenging her earlier intention to end the acting. He asks, “Want to go further? Shall we go further?” Point made. Dully, she answers, “No.”
Young-sook calls out for Ji-yong, and Kang-jin goes to her. She’s in a rueful mood, asking, “I collapsed again, didn’t I? Why was it this time? This is bad, and I’d gotten a lot better so I thought I was fine now. I had another bad dream. It was really terrible. You came with Ji-wan and…” She can’t finish that thought.
Kang-jin apologizes, which makes her say that she’s the one who’s sorry for causing all this trouble.
Pointing out that Ji-wan has been drinking, Kang-jin drives her car back to the hospital. In the car, he holds out his hand to her. At her hesitation, he asks, “Are we unable to even hold hands?”
She looks at it for several moments, and just as he drops his hand, she takes it. They keep holding on for the duration of the ride.
When he drops her off at the hospital, Kang-jin mentions that her mother made mandoo soup for them today, and he’d never had something made with such love. His own mother had had too many of her own worries to cook like that for her children.
Kang-jin: “I don’t think love is everything in life. I could live like this. I could endure it.”
Inside, Bu-san is making a bit of a scene by crying in the hallway. Jin-kyung now works here, and had told him about Chun-hee being a patient thinking he would see her, but he refuses to meet the mother who abandoned him.
Upstairs, Miss Shin greets Chun-hee with relief, having looked everywhere for her. Chun-hee asks hopefully, “Does Bu-san know I’m here?” Miss Shin sighs that Bu-san is refusing to see her, and Chun-hee asks, “Does Kang-jin know?”
Miss Shin says no, but adds bitterly, “His life was completely ruined because of you!” Not comprehending, Chun-hee asks for clarification, so Miss Shin fills her in on all that transpired with Young-sook’s illness. This is so shocking that Chun-hee immediately gets out of bed, intent on confirming this with her own eyes, because she can hardly believe it.
Kang-jin tries to get his brother to explain what has him so worked up, treating him with some concern but also some teasing — what’s a grown man doing, sitting in a hospital bawling? Just as Chun-hee comes around the corner, Bu-san asks, “Hyung, don’t you miss Mom?”
Ji-wan glimpses Chun-hee just before the latter pulls back and hides behind a column, but Kang-jin doesn’t. Therefore he answers easily, “I don’t want to see her. I don’t even remember her. All right?”
This is a blow for Chun-hee, compounded when Bu-san pouts, “I’m not going to see her anymore either. It’s bad enough to be abandoned by my father. My mother shouldn’t leave me, too. Right?”
Kang-jin speaks without malice or bitterness in his voice, but that doesn’t lessen the sting. When Ji-wan checks on Chun-hee later that night, she finds her choking back her tears.
Tae-joon comes by the atelier to talk to Jae-hyun (as Kang-jin is out), because he’d like to work together on a project. He figures they can test out the adage, “Together we survive, apart we die.”
He’s surprised to see Woo-jung sleeping in the office, unaware that she’d returned to Korea. Last he’d heard, she was still in Paris. Tae-joon eyes her with pity as Jae-hyun explains that she returned after she’d run out of money, and now she’s working with them.
She asks him for a ride, since she had long since sold her car — another fact that makes Tae-joon feel sorry for her. Over lunch, he wonders why she’s working with Kang-jin — is she still hoping that she has a chance with him? Why doesn’t she start dating someone else? She could get a guy much better than Kang-jin.
Woo-jung turns his words around on him teasingly, saying he could do the same with Ji-wan. Touché. Tae-joon says that he’s glad things have become so comfortable with them — in the past (“When I saw you as a woman”) it was really hard to be around her. She says the same of him, and they both sigh that it’s a little sad that they no longer see each other “as a man” and “as woman.”
Ji-wan comes upon Bu-san in the hospital as he loiters in front of his mother’s door. He has been fighting his conflicting emotions, trying to decide whether to see her or not, but now decides not to. He asks Ji-wan not to tell her that he was there.
Chun-hee prepares for her discharge, and Ji-wan’s presence adds a strained atmosphere. Miss Shin, ever the voice of reason, tells Chun-hee that she doesn’t need to feel so sorry toward Ji-wan anymore, not with her family claiming Kang-jin as their son. They’re even now.
From the hospital, Chun-hee heads to the school campus where she has heard Kang-jin is teaching. She just misses seeing him as he leaves his lecture and heads outside to meet Young-sook, who has brought him lunch. He greets her warmly and leads her inside.
When Chun-hee finally does spot them, she’s startled to see how happy and loving the two are with each other, as they link arms and head to the cafeteria.
Chun-hee remains at a distance while Kang-jin eats, and it’s a hard sight to bear. She keeps her face hidden when Kang-jin gets up to leave and asks Young-sook to wait an hour until he’s off work. He heads off, and once he’s gone, Chun-hee approaches and sits down in front of Young-sook.
Young-sook doesn’t appear to recognize Chun-hee, and looks at her blankly. Chun-hee asks if she recognizes her — “I’m your friend Cha Chun-hee. Don’t you know me?”
The answer surprises her: “I know.” However, it soon becomes clear that Young-sook is not seeing her as we do; she speaks as though they haven’t seen each other in a very long time, and asks if Chun-hee ever married or had kids. She doesn’t recall Chun-hee moving back to Sancheong or opening the tearoom there. Her memories are locked at some point far in the past.
Chun-hee is shocked, but pleads anyway: “It doesn’t matter how you remember me, or how much. If you hit me, I’ll take the hit. If you curse me, I’ll listen. And if you kill me, I’ll die. Just let go of Kang-jin.” She grabs Young-sook’s hand and implores, “Just let go of my Kang-jin, please.”
Yet none of this makes a bit of an impact on an uncomprehending Young-sook, who excuses herself to meet her son Ji-yong.
But that’s not going to be the last of Chun-hee’s attempts, because later that night, Kang-jin answers the door at home to find his mother standing on the doorstep.
I know I’m not the only one experiencing story fatigue, as I mentioned above. Some of you will say it happened for you ages ago, but for me, I was pretty content through Episode 10. And because I knew that letdown must be inevitable following that climactic moment, I braced myself accordingly and made it through 11 and 12 relatively well. Knowing that the drama will be over next week means that this is the week that would/could give me trouble, and yeah, I sorta feel it.
On the other hand, it’s not like I had to force myself through the episode, which is more than I can say about a lot of dramas, so that’s good. Or is that damning with faint praise?
A few things I liked:
I sorta love how angry Ji-wan is in the early-episode confrontation with Chun-hee, because it’s about damn time someone showed anger — and expressed it verbally — rather than taking their lumps with a stiff upper lip. (I hate when people in dramas just don’t TALK with each other and therefore create a lot of their own problems. This drama has actually been pretty good about setting up the missed communication with logical reasons, but I still greatly prefer when people just say what they feel. Points to Ji-wan.)
I think her statement that she wants Chun-hee to be healthy so she can hate her is similar to what I was saying in the previous recap about Young-sook’s illness. Because of how everyone has committed sins against each other, Kang-jin feels he still owes Young-sook and the Han family, so he can’t feel free to assert his desires while Young-sook is still ill. If she were well, perhaps they could call it even and he could be happy with Ji-wan. But the very fact of Young-sook’s illness is his family’s burden, so he feels with his overly righteous sense of justice that he owes her her happiness.
I am also very, very glad that Chun-hee is back in the picture, because I’m getting a little weary of Kang-jin being the victim here. I still stand by that whole long essay I wrote in the previous recap, that the Ji-yong plot thread does ultimately make sense in my brain because of all the layers of meaning and character interactions that back it up. However, it doesn’t mean I have to like seeing him played as a victim, so I want to see Chun-hee claim her son and put an end to this farce.
I don’t know if Chun-hee will be the one to jolt Young-sook out of her delusions, but if she does I can see no better person to do it. She’s also the only person (still alive) who has more history with Young-sook than the kids, so she has the “power” (so to speak, in a symbolic sense) to jump in here. Kang-jin may not feel free to shatter Young-sook’s delusions, but Chun-hee has more leverage and history with her old friend.
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