3815k - less the better.

CRICKET - yeah yeah yeah - Test cricket season's start a test that is being affected by rain. Heh. This is fun of test cricket - whether plays such an important role.

Good to get fully drenched in rain to get some respite from this heat. Summer surely isn't much fun without good downpour. At the same time no cricket spoils the mood. Hard choices.

So normally, after 2 weeks sleeping in my living room and living in my kitchen, I will be able to rearrange my bedroom! After a water leak from the ceiling, the management had accepted to redo the 4 walls, the ceiling and the wood floring even if only one wall and a part of the ceiling were really damaged.

Has anyone watched this Japanese drama - Oshin? In the late 80s, my parents were hooked to it.

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-57005333

Another week, another major player is talking about spending more in k-drama. But there is a catch.

SEOUL, May 31 (Yonhap) CJ ENM, an entertainment giant, said Monday it will invest more than 5 trillion won (US$4.48 billion) in content creation over the next five years to become a global content creator.

"We will become a comprehensive entertainment company through diversifying content creating systems and meeting consumers' demands on a real-time basis," CJ ENM CEO Kang Ho-sung said in a press conference. "And we will move on to the world stage and compete with global platform and media powerhouses."

CJ ENM had increased profits during last year's pandemic shutdowns and interruptions, mostly due to cost cutting. The company is rushing ahead as a vertically integrated company as it can produce and distribute content on its own media platforms. It is also investing in a US studio to expand its market reach.

Their newest business is TVING, its streaming platform. Song Ji Hyo's new drama, The Witch's Restaurant" is going to be shown on TVING. Which begs the question, does that mean international fans will have a lesser chance to see it (with English subs?)

Steaming platforms have weakened cable TV because they are a way for viewers to go a la carte and only pay for channels they want instead of expensive cable bundles. I would expect a content producer like CJ ENM to license their shows to other platforms or networks to enhance revenue, but there may be a delay if their own channel has an exclusive time period.

Hello Beanies!

Happy Friday. Hope everyone is well.

It’s a gorgeous day here, and there are now flowers blooming in my backyard, so I feel like things are definitely looking up (even if life remains something of a roller coaster, lol).

I’m so behind on all my k-drama now! Just finished My Unfamilar Family, which I found slightly underwhelming and incredibly exhausting at the same time.

I did binge-watch the final season of Kim’s Convenience” yesterday, and I’m sad that the journey is over. There were allegedly all sorts of off-screen issues and it was probably time for the producers and cast to move on, but I will miss this show so so much.

My dearest Beanies

It has been a while since I last commented, because I am struggling with my mental health.

Things quickly went downhill at work early May. I had fulltime call center duty even though I felt that I did not understand my job well enough yet to consult people through telephone. So phone calls took too long, callers got angry at me and on top of that my boss started angrily messaging me in the midst of those calls that I had to shorten them and do better. Not even a week later I get an email out of the blue that I am receiving my next evaluation that afternoon…. A very bad one of course.

It turns out that when my boss and colleagues said that they respected my choice and that it was fine when I decided not to attend an April team party to avoid passing covid to my loved ones, or decided not to take on extra telephone shifts in April to get the hang of it because I was swamped with work already, they were lying. I thought I had found a nice team of colleagues, but instead of talking to me about any missteps I did they talked behind my back to the boss, and now I am ruining the team spirit and need to work on my attitude or I will fail my internship. Other interns are better at the job and do not wallow in self pity as much as I do, apparently.😢

I admit that there is some truth in there. I have been voicing my difficulties out loud and made some mistakes that made it very obvious that I indeed am not cut out for that job and do not fit into that work culture, judging by how strongly my boss reacts to everything I do and don’t at my workplace. However, no matter how often I apologize or try to defend myself, I remain the bad guy, so they are just looking for anything to kick me out it seems. It saddens me how there is zero empathy for my negative feelings.😧

As of mid-May I am on sick leave, because heart palpitations, nausea, panic attacks, crying fits, insomnia, loss of appetite and weight loss among other things on a nearly daily base caused a nervous breakdown. Unfortunately my job is not the cause, but the last straw. I have been nagging here every week the last five years about my unemployment and dismissal from previous workplaces, but the alarm did not go off in my head then. Neither did it go off when I dealt with similar symptoms and obstacles during any period in my education trying desperately to reach university graduation.

A lot of collected puzzle pieces throughout the years are finally fitting together and might point towards an undiagnosed mild form of autism. It might explain why I am too slow and cannot perform well under pressure and stress in the normal job places among other things. Fortunately my doctor and parents are on my side, which made it easier for me to finally accept that I need professional help to get the right treatment and to find the right job in the right place afterwards.

Sick leave is not helping much, to be honest. I am still experiencing the symptoms and I cannot find any...

I was watching Jdrama Happy Marriage and it left me feeling so suffocated. Dropped it mid way. Workplace harrasment, extremely selfish father and contract marriage all treated in a light hearted manner just left me deeply uncomfortable.
Was watching Jdrama 'I don't love you yet' ( In time with you). I did not want to feel too much angst so after 4 episodes watched the last epiaode to see a happy ending.
Watching 'Stove league' - It makes me want to work hard and be smart too. So started studying today onwards. I like these kinda of dramas which make me want to feel smart and work hard too.
A character in it is differently abled and it being a plot for angst to our Hero was the only thing I wished had not happened.
Watched a bit of 'The Imperial Coroner'- 5 episodes I guess. The story is good so far but I wish as an audience I too could guess into who did what with the clues presented.
There should be a youtube compilation of Hwang Shi Mok always leaving his food before first bite to attend his work duties. They even repeated it in season 2. Lol

Hello!
Master in the House has taken an interesting turn in format to resemble Abnormal Summit with some of the same foreigners from that show. The discussion this past week was the international ramifications of covid from the perspective of the various countries represented there. Lucky from India filled in the panel and viewers with the grim news from his home. It looks like the format will continue at least for a while. I like it very much.
Kingdom the Legend ended this week with fabulous performances from iKon, The 👦 z, stray Kids, BTOB, ATeez, and SF9, all impressive efforts and stages. No spoiler on the final winner ...
Watching Racquet Boys, Youth of May, Doom, and Bossam. Waiting for Hospital Playlist 2, perhaps a quick rewatch of 1 as a kickoff!
Happy weekend Beanies! ❤️🦉