It is all Korean to me. When I watch Korean content, it all sounds the same to me. OUR BLUES episodes feature a rarity: Korean subtitles. Jeju Island has its own dialect. The actors have been praised for capturing it in their performances.

I am aware that TV news anchors are trained for perfect pronunciation. Even so, there is a text summary at the bottom of the scene to help viewer comprehension. Variety shows often use text overlays to punch the joke or comment that may have been lost to the viewer. Normal Koreans speak fast and loose, often omitting subjects, objects and verb tense because it is contextual language. Dramas simplify the dialog in short sentences and characters do not speak at the same time, even in an argument.

We all are familiar with accents like Southern US, Boston, British, etc. An accent is a distinctive mode of pronunciation of a language, especially one associated with a particular nation, locality, or social class: a distinct emphasis given to a syllable or word in speech by stress or pitch. But OUR BLUES features the Jeju dialect. A dialect is a particular form of a language that is peculiar to a specific region or social group. Words, sentences and context have different meaning. So, at times, it must be like speaking a foreign language.

MOTHER Earth Day

Climate change - who cares.

Human world - This day, that day. Everyday. formality of smile and acceptance but what's in heart is completely different.

Mother Earth over anything - always.

The real enjoyment is upcoming future to prove you really deserve to be a child of Mother Earth. Fight on.

Something that my teacher/boss always says to me is "don't think, that isn't good for you. You're always overthinking things. You'll be fine".
Before getting the job I told him I'm not good with people, I shouldn't be around people and he was like "You know what you're studying, right? LOL. Anyway, you're gonna do great. I know it. Believe in yourself the way I believe in you"

Two months later: I told my teacher/boss I was done and I just wanted to go home. He was like "nahhh, you can do it. You just need to go to the doctor again, take a break for two weeks and let's change some things about your duties. You're going to be part of the investigation team. You don't have to go to the school like before, just go once in a while to help with the activities." I asked him if he wasn't going to regret giving me another chance and he was like "hell, no. I believe in you. You're gonna be fine. You can do it. Don't overthink it".

Three weeks later (2 weeks break, first week back to work): I got nauseous when I was going to the school and when I was leaving I felt like I was about to collapse. Everytime I entered a classroom I wanted to cry. When the little kids saw me and welcome me with a hug and their teacher said hi to me I felt even worse. Giving fake smiles to them felt so wrong (I love those kids, they deserve better). And when the big kids asked me what happened to me I totally froze (thanks god my sunbae told them "life is like that" or something).

When I got home it was like nothing happened. I did an awesome job blocking that morning from my mind.

Today, I need to do some work, but I don't want to think about work. I don't want to think about yesterday or all the things that happened before. So I'm not doing anything. But I have to do something. I kinda hate my boss for believing in me when I'm like this. I feel bad for disappointing him again. I've disappointed him like three or four times already, as a student and now as an employee too.

I'm an ungrateful brat that doesn't want more chances in life, I just want to go home. Is that so bad? I'm the happiest just laying in bed watching a movie with my brother, doing karaoke with my sister, eating ice cream with my bestie or just talking with my mom. I don't really need anything else so I have no idea what am I doing here. I hate this city.

I love this quote from Fight For My Way:

—I’m not going to dream anymore.
—Must everyone have a dream, anyway? Even if I don’t have a dream, the world turns very well.

Can this year end already so I can graduate, go home and be in peace? I don't care if my view of life changes later, I don't live for later. I'm stressed today.

Finding myself rolling a step deeper into the Johnny Depp-Amber Heard fiasco these days. What with it appearing every few posts on my social media feed. I'm #TeamDepp, especially in the context of this particular case. My heart breaks for what's he's gone through and is still going through because of this mess. 😔

Happy weekend Beanies and keep Beaning On!
Tried sleeping as a new hobby this week and my first impressions are very positive. First of all, you become a whole new person overnight. Pun not intended. I barely slept Monday night because Tuesday was a long triggering day as expected, but I slept like a log on Tuesday night and felt sort of at ease from Wednesday onwards.
Sleeping also creates better time management. I went to bed early out of boredom a few times and got up to start my day earlier as a result. Then I finish sooner than expected and am left bored because sleeping also decreases worrying and leaves you with a quieter mind.
Finally sleep, aside from many other good things, gives you determination to do well. Whether that means actually addressing worries instead of suppressing them with an overflowing (K-dram) schedule, or finding more activities to do to kill the boredom.
I should print out this post as a reminder, before I fall back into my old bad sleeping habits!😴💤