I want to talk about Chan-young and the guys a bit but I’m getting late for my workout, so gonna go and come back later and write my thoughts here!

Okay, I’m back 💃

My heart broke for Chan-young when he said that a person can still feel lonely even if he’s surrounded by people, I know he means himself and how he feels around the other guys BUT I also blame him for that because right now it seems to me that he’s isolating himself from everyone else!

I saw the flashback in this episode (When Jin-hyuk breaks the news about the replacement to the guys) and I know that the guys didn’t accept him in the beginning, I understand that it must’ve hurt him, seeing the guys together without him, knowing how close they are, feeling like he’s nothing but a replacement but it’s not like that now and he needs to understand that, he needs to try and see it from the guys’ point of view, yes, it was tough for him but it was tough for them too, I wish he could just open up to them, talk about this, and let go of the past resentment, he isn’t an outsider anymore!

I also feel like Chan-young and Han-gyul are a bit similar, both acknowledge each other’s talent and both feel inferior to other in that, the reason why Han-gyul left the band in the first place is because he felt Chan-young was much better and he himself wasn’t good enough, and for Chan-young he feels like he could never fill Han-gyul’s place in the band and in the friendship, he’s just a stand-in in both! I don’t think Han-gyul feels that way toward Chan-young anymore but it’s not the same for Chan-young, he can’t seem to get over his inferiority complex and that’s why he so badly wants to be the producer of Mush & Co. he wants to seperate himself from Crude Play and create a new name for himself!