The first time I really saw her, I cringed. She wasn’t too pretty, she was awkward and a bit of an obnoxious know-it-all. Easy going and the procrastinator I was, I accepted her without thinking too much about it.
But as I grew more self aware of my surroundings, I bullied her relentlessly, to the point of her crying every night. And it made me feel good. Except it didn’t.
And when she received love from my close friends and family, it pissed me off. Why? She’s a try hard with no personality and she’s ugly. I didn’t get it.
She was always there, but I never really got to know her. I do know she tries hard to make me happy. She gets me gifts, she talks me up to everybody. Her intention was genuine, but deep in my heart it annoyed me. Who is she to help me like that? Who do you think you are? You’re nothing.
Although I have known her 23 years, I have yet to have told her “I love you” or “You’re pretty”. Yet she still sticks to m3. And I’m working on it. I’m learning to get to know her, her quirks, and all the amazing stuff I’m told about her.
Loving and being aware of yourself is indeed a challenge, and every day Im working on believing that I’m worth it.
If life is a 80 episode drama, we won’t expect the heroine’s growth arc to be complete by episode 23!!
Be generous to this beautiful heroine that I see, and even if the show starts to get a bit messy or parts of it feels draggy mid-run, I know that there is already a solid fan base for this heroine (me included!!)
Learning to love ourselves isn’t easy, but it’s important to remember that we’re worth the effort. Thank you for the reminder.
(Also I thought this was a gay love story at first…🙈)
JustMe
February 1, 2019 at 6:50 AM
The first time I really saw her, I cringed. She wasn’t too pretty, she was awkward and a bit of an obnoxious know-it-all. Easy going and the procrastinator I was, I accepted her without thinking too much about it.
But as I grew more self aware of my surroundings, I bullied her relentlessly, to the point of her crying every night. And it made me feel good. Except it didn’t.
And when she received love from my close friends and family, it pissed me off. Why? She’s a try hard with no personality and she’s ugly. I didn’t get it.
She was always there, but I never really got to know her. I do know she tries hard to make me happy. She gets me gifts, she talks me up to everybody. Her intention was genuine, but deep in my heart it annoyed me. Who is she to help me like that? Who do you think you are? You’re nothing.
Although I have known her 23 years, I have yet to have told her “I love you” or “You’re pretty”. Yet she still sticks to m3. And I’m working on it. I’m learning to get to know her, her quirks, and all the amazing stuff I’m told about her.
Loving and being aware of yourself is indeed a challenge, and every day Im working on believing that I’m worth it.
Working on love,
February
JustMe
February 1, 2019 at 6:51 AM
@kimbapnoona @bammsie @justme @greenfields @leetennant @sicarius @egads @wishfultoki @raonah @ally-le @moana @anothernicole @snarkyjellyfish @khalessymd
@hotcocoagirl
@waadmay
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2019 at 7:02 AM
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2019 at 7:03 AM
Tried to send a gif of a hug ~ but just know I really relate to this one Jus, thank you for sharing ~
bam 🐢🐌💖~
February 1, 2019 at 7:12 AM
*monstrously big hug* Thank you for working on it, it is terribly hard, but you got this.
Le__Ssy
February 1, 2019 at 7:15 AM
💜 The struggle. 😭
*hug*
🍙 kimbap noona
February 1, 2019 at 7:36 AM
If life is a 80 episode drama, we won’t expect the heroine’s growth arc to be complete by episode 23!!
Be generous to this beautiful heroine that I see, and even if the show starts to get a bit messy or parts of it feels draggy mid-run, I know that there is already a solid fan base for this heroine (me included!!)
moana
February 1, 2019 at 2:09 PM
This is such a good analogy!
Waadmay
February 1, 2019 at 7:41 AM
You are so worthy and beyond *Hugs and more Hugs* 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
another woodalchi nicole recruit
February 1, 2019 at 8:30 AM
Honest, raw, and real. I can’t think of a better way to start writing about love. <3 Thank you for sharing this. <3
greenfields
February 1, 2019 at 9:04 AM
Self love is so important. 💕 I wish you and her all the best and all the love, and a long, loving life. 🙂
RaOnAh loves Jay B 💚
February 1, 2019 at 9:10 AM
*hugs*
natzillagorilla
February 1, 2019 at 9:41 AM
Love you, Jus! <3
moana
February 1, 2019 at 2:14 PM
Learning to love ourselves isn’t easy, but it’s important to remember that we’re worth the effort. Thank you for the reminder.
(Also I thought this was a gay love story at first…🙈)
JustMe
February 1, 2019 at 5:09 PM
Hehehehe plot twist. That was the intention 😉
moana
February 2, 2019 at 3:12 AM
😄 This plot twist is drama worthy.
oppafangirl
February 1, 2019 at 2:22 PM
Hugs! Fighting! We are all work in progress, don’t let corruption of feeling unworthy stagnate you !! And you are worth it!
💜🍍☠ Sicarius The Queen of Melonia ☠🍍💜
February 2, 2019 at 12:24 PM
💜