We seldom ever talked
But you were always trying
I was filled with hate and resentment
Because Dad, you were seldom ever right
But now you’ve passed away
I feel as if my heart has caved
I don’t know how to feel
Because you were never completely bad
And you did love me, just as I loved you
But then you died in my arms
It was just a matter of seconds
I feel so incomplete
I feel so ashamed of myself
I wish I were a better person
I wish I’d made more of an effort
I feel like the world’s biggest jackass
If I could rewind time
We could go back to the happy days
Where you were telling me weird stories
And I loved you more than anything else

Love,
February