I thought I knew you
I mean I knew you since I can remember
But time passed
We grew up
I saw you always there but I chose to ignore you
I chased after loves that were never returned
So I chased after a career but something still felt empty
When I finally noticed you, I realized
You were there waiting all the time
Did I know you? Did I like you?
The answer to both questions was no
Why?
Because I thought you didn’t deserve it
You had a smile on your face but you always hid your emotions
You were nice to everyone but yourself
You burdened yourself and was okay not being noticed
Why were you the way you were?
I wanted to know
It’ll take some time
But I want to get to know you, like you, maybe love you
Please stay patient with me like you always have

A letter to myself

Love,
February

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    I’m not a regular poster and it took me a while to write this, but all the love February posts encouraged me. Love you guys!

    @kimbapnoona @bammsie @justme @greenfields @leetennant @sicarius @egads @wishfultoki @raonah @ally-le @moana @anothernicole @khalessymd @hotcocoagirl @waadmay @oppafangirl @katakwasabi @mindy @isthatacorner

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      Ahh thank you so much for sharing!
      “You were nice to everyone but yourself”
      I started this challenge several years ago when I was struggling to feel love, for anyone, leastwise myself. I’ve learned a lot about needing to care for yourself, at the least because yourself is what you offer others. For a long time I was very empty.

      Thanks for sharing, for helping us all to feel less alone as we struggle to feel whole and loved. ☺️

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        Thank YOU! I knew I could write this in DB and be ok sharing this. Everyone is so loving and supportive. Thanks for sharing your side as well, I’m happy to find comrades in the struggle to love ourselves. Love is such a strong word and this is partly why I definitely love DB and all our beanies ❤️

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    This had me tearing up acacia. *warmest of hugs to you*

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    Yes to this. I need something deeper, stronger, than the words I have been using in response to these Love February posts, but thank you. Thank you.

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      Thank YOU! Your words are perfect ❤️ All the beanie posts are so beautiful I’m so thankful that you all started this ❤️❤️

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    “Know thyself.” Man, the philosopher was right. It takes courage to look at ourselves and ask the questions you are asking. And it’s even harder to write about it and share it. Well done. 👏🏻

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      “Know thyself” such a timeless truth. All the beanies who carried the Love, February posts gave me encouragement so thank YOU!

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    This is amazing. And relatable. **Hugs**

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    THAT ENDING THO. acacia this is l o v e l y. i was loving it as i read it, without knowing what the last line would be, imagining all the various people it could be about. but that ending hit me in the best way. amazing. i love it. (and yaaaaay so glad you joined us for this!)

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      Thank YOU! You all are amazing with the Love, February posts! So much love in DB ❤️❤️

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    Very sweet 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
    Love oneself should be a goal to achieve loving others *Hugs*

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    Hugs! This is so beautiful and awesome! Thank you for writing and sharing such lovely words.

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