I’m convinced I’m in a toxic relationship with my tutors/lecturers. I spend most of my time chasing after them – whether it’s my thesis or because I’m supposed to shadow them – and they spend all their time ignoring me.
I get angry and upset cause I shouldn’t be treated that way! I get angry for feeling small around them. Then, they turn around to smile at me, and call my name, ‘Esther!’ And it’s all forgotten. I don’t know what to do with my anger anymore. Now, I’m singing praises to my friends, ‘Dr. asshole isn’t an asshole!’ As they tell me they’re going to hurt me again! And they do… the very next day!
Sometimes, all they do is just explain the consultation they just had with ONE patient (while I’m sat there like decoration as they see their 15th patient that morning) and I’m happy.
This is toxic!! How do I break up with them even though it’s not a relationship?

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    I had this with my thesis promotor. Me and my friend joked we were going camping in front of his office every time we went to try and catch him. We did spend a lot of time waiting around.

    We even tracked his movements and pieced together his schedule, by spying on people and questioning the other students who had class from him, his phd students and other master students.

    He was the kindest sweetest and most invested academic I had ever met and I was lucky to have him. But sometimes contacting him required a little detective work…

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      Yea same, we used to slide notes underneath his office door. Or hang around the previous years lecture halls

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