Dear suk,

Yesterday, you received early admission to the top public school! You were overwhelmed with gratitude and cried many tears of joy. It was a perfect birthday present. You realized the true weight of your burdens when you finally set them down for the first time. Being hard on yourself has gotten you very far, but I don’t believe it will drag you any further.

In this next month, as you anxiously wait for the other decisions, I want you to admire life the way it is. You are so blessed with loving parents and close friends. I understand that there will be no shortage of challenges, but I hope you struggle through them for the right reasons.

Soon, this world will fall back to reveal a new one filled with even more opportunity. When you return, your room will feel so much smaller than it once was.

Everyone is stumbling through life, mistake after mistake, but sometimes we all find a gem to treasure for a moment. I want this part of your life to be imbued with good memories rather than stressful ones.

Love,
February

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    I’m so excited for you, early admissions! Congratulations! Everything else you have said here is so true, it’s just hard to remember😉 You’re way ahead, you already know it!❤️

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    Congratulations!

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    Congratulations!

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    Hi sukkie dear,
    I’ve been thinking of you a lot and wonder how you’re doing during Covid. What has happened to your (other) school admissions, how did you feel about your senior year-end being cancelled? Are you doing something special for graduation?
    Of course, where have you been? Have you given up kdramas? I hope not but the Beanies have slowed down quite a bit 😕
    Anyway, just wanted you to know that this old lady in St Louis has been thinking of you and wishing you all the best ❤️❤️❤️

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      I’m so sorry it’s been an entire month and I haven’t logged onto Dramabeans to respond!! Thank you so much for thinking about me. It really means a lot that somebody I connected with through kdrama cares about my wellbeing. I’ve been watching kdrama these past few months, but not nearly as frequently. However, recently I’ve re-discovered my enthusiasm for it and I would like to say I’m dedicating myself to be back on Dramabeans!

      College admissions was truly a roller-coaster. In the end I decided to attend the school I talked about in this post, and I’m becoming more and more excited about it. Senior year-end being cancelled was very sad, but I knew that my problems with Covid couldn’t even compare to what other people were facing so I didn’t focus too much on my own disappointment. Although graduation was not grandiose, I still really enjoyed it. Overall, this time has been for relaxation, gratitude, and looking forward to the future.

      감사합니다 for checking in! Let’s get excited about kdrama together again!

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        Aieyeeee! I’m so sorry for not answering you 😯 I’ve been obsessed with the news for these four months and pretty much never stop watching and reading. I need to watch more kdrama 👍🏼
        Well, I’m excited that you’re excited about starting school! I’m sorry I won’t be able to see you at WashU 😁 but you will have a great experience wherever you are.
        Are you watching anything? I’m watching It’s Okay. And rewatching MLFAS in order to make myself feel better. And Hamilton, I’ll do that today!

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          I loveee that you’re watching MLFAS again! Maybe I shall join you in that rewatch.. What episode are you on? I am also watching It’s Okay and LOVING all the pretty and Seo Ye-ji’s voice. Other kdramas I’m watching are My Unfamiliar Family (for the makjang!) and Backstreet Rookie (hanging on for Ji Chang-wook). I watched Hamilton yesterday! It was deeply emotional, I wish I had the opportunity to see them perform live.

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            Hi! Boy, I really fell off the edge of the earth there🤦🏼‍♀️
            How are you? I didn’t end up watching much of MLFAS but man, IOTNBO is blowing me away. Isn’t it great? Gosh, they’re all so good. I cry every episode and that never happens to me anymore.

            I watched Hamilton on Disney for the first time as well. What a great experience! THEY were all so incredible! Being old, I was greatly helped by watching with the captions on 😄 It was quite emotional for me as well given the state and direction of our country right now. Oh, to have leaders that can form complete sentences! And that’s the least of it. One day you will see it live, I feel sure.

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            @bbstl I’ve been well! I decided to move to campus and I already enrolled for my first college classes. It all seems so much more real now. I dropped Backstreet Rookie, but still going strong with IOTNBO and Unfamiliar Family. I’m watching IOTNBO with my mom and she has the greatest commentary. Somehow, she catches all the nuanced details and helps me learn a lot about life. Also, I highly recommend Unfamiliar Family! You should watch it if you get a chance.

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      @bbstl I’ll tag you since I forgot how DB notifies users about comments on beanie posts

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        You don’t need to tag me, I get an automatic notification when you reply.
        IOTNBO is kind of wrenching my heart out and I keep realizing things about myself and my childhood, so I’m not surprised that your Mom sees a lot in the show. How great to have her for your watching companion ❤️
        How can you already be on campus? I thought all the colleges in the country were closed down, is that not true? Will you have online or in person classes? That’s probably starting in just a few weeks, how did it already get to be August? What a weird year *shakes head*.
        Well, however weird it is it’s the new normal so try to enjoy every minute in its own weird way 😁 Not to sound all ominous, but you’ll only get this time once. And the memories of it will be vivid forever.

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          I don’t think I have enough life experience to truly understand the things IOTNBO is conveying. Every time I ask my mom a question about the drama, she tells me I’m too young and that I’ll learn eventually. I guess I was always rather proud of my ability watch kdramas depicting mature topics, but IOTNBO has me defeated LOL On another note, we can’t stop staring at Kim Soo-hyun. His beauty is so unconventional, it’s refreshing to see his face every time. wow

          Our college gave us a choice: to move to campus or not to move? I chose to move because like you said I wanted to cherish as much of my 4 years as possible. Unfortunately, there have been changes and everything’s up in the air now because California residents can’t comprehend mask wearing and basic courtesy. I really hope I’ll still be able to start college normally (all classes are online though!!), but it doesn’t seem like that will be possible anymore. Sighhhh goodbye independence ;-;

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            Huh. That’s very interesting. I wonder what your mom means? Well, you can ask me anything and I’ll be part of your “growing up” 😉 although right now I’m two eps behind. Why am I glued to the news all day when I could be watching those beautiful people? Like as if the news can’t happen without me 🤦🏼‍♀️ Did you see the picture where someone combined half of KSH’s face with half of her (can’t think of actress’s name) face? They are sooooooo similar!

            I’m very interested in hearing how your student eXperience goes, it will be unlike anyone’s I’ve ever known. I saw a YT of two guys interviewing people at Huntington Beach about why they weren’t wearing masks. I was so surprised, I never expected there to be so many boneheads in CA. Here where we are a Trump state, we expect that everywhere. Our rates are jumping up every day as well. Our Governor just said that the kids have to go back to school on time, yes they will get sick and no they won’t be in hospitals, they’ll just go home and get well when they do. Everybody just get over it. Okay! I wonder why I live here 🤷🏼

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