Beanie level: Eunuch in drag

I thought I knew you
I mean I knew you since I can remember
But time passed
We grew up
I saw you always there but I chose to ignore you
I chased after loves that were never returned
So I chased after a career but something still felt empty
When I finally noticed you, I realized
You were there waiting all the time
Did I know you? Did I like you?
The answer to both questions was no
Why?
Because I thought you didn’t deserve it
You had a smile on your face but you always hid your emotions
You were nice to everyone but yourself
You burdened yourself and was okay not being noticed
Why were you the way you were?
I wanted to know
It’ll take some time
But I want to get to know you, like you, maybe love you
Please stay patient with me like you always have

A letter to myself

Love,
February

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    I’m not a regular poster and it took me a while to write this, but all the love February posts encouraged me. Love you guys!

    @kimbapnoona @bammsie @justme @greenfields @leetennant @sicarius @egads @wishfultoki @raonah @ally-le @moana @anothernicole @khalessymd @hotcocoagirl @waadmay @oppafangirl @katakwasabi @mindy @isthatacorner

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      Ahh thank you so much for sharing!
      “You were nice to everyone but yourself”
      I started this challenge several years ago when I was struggling to feel love, for anyone, leastwise myself. I’ve learned a lot about needing to care for yourself, at the least because yourself is what you offer others. For a long time I was very empty.

      Thanks for sharing, for helping us all to feel less alone as we struggle to feel whole and loved. ☺️

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        Thank YOU! I knew I could write this in DB and be ok sharing this. Everyone is so loving and supportive. Thanks for sharing your side as well, I’m happy to find comrades in the struggle to love ourselves. Love is such a strong word and this is partly why I definitely love DB and all our beanies ❤️

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    This had me tearing up acacia. *warmest of hugs to you*

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    Yes to this. I need something deeper, stronger, than the words I have been using in response to these Love February posts, but thank you. Thank you.

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      Thank YOU! Your words are perfect ❤️ All the beanie posts are so beautiful I’m so thankful that you all started this ❤️❤️

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    “Know thyself.” Man, the philosopher was right. It takes courage to look at ourselves and ask the questions you are asking. And it’s even harder to write about it and share it. Well done. 👏🏻

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      “Know thyself” such a timeless truth. All the beanies who carried the Love, February posts gave me encouragement so thank YOU!

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    This is amazing. And relatable. **Hugs**

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    THAT ENDING THO. acacia this is l o v e l y. i was loving it as i read it, without knowing what the last line would be, imagining all the various people it could be about. but that ending hit me in the best way. amazing. i love it. (and yaaaaay so glad you joined us for this!)

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      Thank YOU! You all are amazing with the Love, February posts! So much love in DB ❤️❤️

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    Very sweet 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
    Love oneself should be a goal to achieve loving others *Hugs*

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    Hugs! This is so beautiful and awesome! Thank you for writing and sharing such lovely words.

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I didn’t realize how much I liked Coffee Friends until I straight up put citron tea honey in milk to pretend like I was drinking the tangerine milk in Coffee Friends.

Verdict: not half bad but I still want to try/make the tangerine milk.

Fun fact: the name for tangerine milk (우유에 빠진 귤) in Coffee Friends can be literally translated into tangerine dunked in milk OR the tangerine that fell in love with milk.

A comparison of reality vs Coffee Friends for you below

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    Where are you watching Coffee Friends? I keep on hearing about it but can’t find it anywhere.

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    Yang Sejong is precious~
    And everyone is so…calm and polite 😂😂😂

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      🙂 clearly i am the only one getting irritated with him and worse i hate myself for feeling that way because he is a nice kid

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        He was irritating at first but the self talk really seems to help him so he got cuter as the episodes passed. One thing that bugs me is his “are you done now” after hearing customer’s orders. It’s weirdly not rude but can be taken as rude

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          oh.. its not his self talking that irks me.. just his overall demeanour.. it is very underconfident and confused…

          like i fear if i ask him to get a pen from the drawer, he will just get lost in 20X20 room

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        Ohhh… I didnt know that 😅😅😅
        His self talk kinda cute to me cause it reminds me so much of my friend who did that whenever she in the new environment and feeling awkward. 🤭🤭🤭

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          It grows on you because he is so cute and genuine lol but I could see how it could be distracting to some people 😂

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          I have to talk aloud to keep myself on track when doing anything complex, otherwise I can get very confused. If I’m in a place where I can’t talk aloud, I whisper.

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      I agree! Sejong is adorable!

      With the “calm down” motto they have they at least try to be 😉 but it seems like they found their groove now

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    We drink it hot and without milk. We have been known to add whiskey and call it ‘medicine’

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      I usually drink it with hot water too! It was my first time trying it with milk 😊 I’ve never heard of taking it with whiskey before though. Does it work? Lol

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    Someone should actually make this tangerine syrup and market it in Korea. I bet it would sell like hotcakes! They can donate the proceeds.

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      I agree! I wonder why it was never made in the first place like citron 🤔

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    i want tangerine milk.. that is the only thing on the show’s menu card that got me excited

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      I’m not a coffee person so I didnt expect to like this show THAT much. Of the items they have, definitely the tangerine milk takes the cake 😊

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It’s not often that writers and directors leave a long message after a drama ends so I decided to translate it for anyone who hasn’t watched this drama. Despite being a scary drama these comments spoke to me (except the last sentence about the peace part) and made me think. A lot of the times we are so quick to put blame on others for the problems in this world but taking initiative and putting some of the weight on ourselves is not a bad thing either.

We sincerely thank all of you who have viewed this drama despite watching such a dark story and spending sleepless nights. -Writers Kwon Sora and Suh Jaewon

Thank you to all who have watched and loved Sohn: The Guest. Sohn: The Guest tried to look at society’s problems in a different perspective. The thought that perhaps all bad things start within people’s hearts is the perspective we tried to portray.

Like the old saying “People are the scariest” we thought, maybe we ourselves are the problem. Like you viewers called YoonHwaPyung Yoon Peace (t/n HwaPyung in Korean is another word for Peace), we made this drama hoping to bring peace into your hearts (t/n wait what??? After scaring us every episode??) Again we thank you for watching our drama. -Director Kim HongSun

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    Thank you!!

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    thank you

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    Dear, you know Korean language, right? May I ask for a favor. If it’s not rude to ask..🙏🏻 It’s about the meaning of a sentence..

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      Not a problem! It’s not rude at all. I just take a bit of time bc I’m not on DB as often as I want to if you dont mind!

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        Not at all. And it’s so kind of you.
        There is a scene in My Ahjussi where IU’s character is in hospital and they are talking about her listening to Park Dong Hoon the whole time.

        She says “I liked all the sounds you made, mister.”

        And I’d love to know her dialogue in Korean.
        ❤️

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          If you post a clip or tell me the episode number and give me an approximate time mark I can do it for you 😊

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            Sorry, I wish I knew how to post a clip and make it easier for you.

            But the episode number is 15 and the time is 0:52:06 till 0:52:33. Ji An’s dialogue.
            🙏🏻❤️

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            @marina
            This was alot shorter than i thought it would be, I’m so sorry it’s so late! I wish I did this earlier! Happy belated New Year marina!

            아저씨 소리, 다 좋았어요
            I liked, all your sounds
            아저씨 말, 생각, 발소리…
            You words, thoughts, the sound of your footsteps
            사람이 뭔지, 첨 본것 같았어요
            I feel like I saw what it meant to be a person for the first time.

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            @marina

            Just in case I’ll put a romanized part too

            아저씨 소리, 다 좋았어요
            Ajusshi sori, dah joahsuh.
            아저씨 말, 생각, 발소리… 다
            Ajusshi mal, saenggak, bal sori… dah
            사람이 뭔지, 첨 본것 같았어요
            Sarami munji, chum bon-gut gatahsuh.

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            Thank you soOo much my dear. It meant the world to me❤️
            And happy belated new year to you too. I wish you beautiful days full of happiness and love.

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I’ve decided to only post on dramas that have completed after being completely burned by Ghost Detective… sigh. I rarely post on dramas but tho ones I have posted on (Misty, Ghost Detective) have such terrible endings despite wonderful cast with Ghost Detective definitely being the worst. On that note: The Guest was so awesome. Director and Writer notes will be translated very shortly.

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    I know how frustrating it can be to be disappointed by drama endings when there was so much promises at the beginnings. But don’t lose hope! There will be another drama which will carry you away, hopefully until the last second! 😉

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    I feel your pain, I got traumatized with Radio Romance, it’s not that bad, I really liked the OTP but I was so disappointed with the plot and at one point it became a chore to watch it every week. And to think I was so hype and happy watching the 1st few episodes, sigh.

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      Same… It started off well and I was so excited to see the potential. Choi Daniel and Park EunBin were a plus too. There were hints that the writer didn’t know where she was going with all the plots she was trying to weave in and now I cant get myself to finish the last 5 eps. 😭

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – favorite screencap of this episode. Thoughts in the comments!

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    Yet to catch up on recent episodes. Hope he doesn’t go to the dark side.

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      Same here! I think it’s a bit ridiculous that he is so sure he’s gone to the dark side. He’s technically a “new” ghost. He can touch things becuase of those “strong emotions” and had two outbursts of “evilness.” He doesn’t even ask if there is a possibility to stay good and just runs off on his own! YeoWool was frustrating in her own but he’s starting to get me frustrated… sighs

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        I kinda lost interest on yeoWool few weeks back. Don’t know if it’s her character or acting or both.
        I am curious about the reporter joining the team.
        And I completely don’t get the sister boyfriend. Just like that he went evil? He seems comfortable doing bad things. Even a tad happy.
        Hoping I catch up on all episodes this weekend.

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          Yeah.. It’s hard to redeem YeoWool’s character now. I wish she continued her persistence and quickwittedness of ep 1.

          The reporter was really unexpected. I didnt expect him to have a connection with Hye. But yeah.. Gyeol is so weird. It’s hard to understand his perspective. I wont be able to catch up until next week but it looks like there are still twists to come which I’m excited for. The unexpectedness of some parts of the drama is still keeping me with this drama.

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – This deserves it’s own post. He was scary but those cheekbones!

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – The pitiful characters of this episode (I never thought I would pity Hye… but Ep11 made me really think.. definitely not everyone is meant to be a parent)

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – Aesthetically pleasing scenes (From more serious to “are you serious?”)

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – The twist of these episodes that I didn’t know I needed. Welcome to (forcing yourself into) the team Reporter!

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – So little screen time for my favorite lady. Looks beautiful as always

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – the dream smiles of this episode but luckily I can just stare at their beautiful faces with screen caps

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – the real smiles of this episode

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Ghost Detective Ep 10-11(Ep19-22) – Haven’t caught up with this week’s episodes yet due to life but I kind of felt like I was barely hanging in there because of these cheekbones. (Luckily I read @superwhopotterlock’s post that makes it seem like this week’s episodes are pretty good so I’m looking forward to them!)

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    Don’t just base it on my opinion. It’s more of the same thing. The rest of the crew is efficient while the 2 leads…not so much. But they’re trying their best, so I can’t really blame them. I’m just tired of sunwoo having the upper hand all the time.

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      I’ll keep that in mind. I wish they gave us more from the leads than giving us awesomeness from the other characters. But at least there are a few unexpected turns that are keeping me excited. But I’m not as dedicated watching it as I was before 😢

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        Yes there are some unexpected twists and turns but I feel that at the end, it’s all futile. The leads can’t seem to catch a break! I don’t see how they can pull off an ending where the team comes out safe.

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Ghost Detective ep 8&9 – My favorite scene (idk how to make gifs yet.. someone teach me ). Spoilers and thoughts in the comments.

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    (1) OK REALLY??? I’m glad he’s alive and all but… WHY??? What happened to “if you’re a semi-live spirit you disappear every day into your real body”???? That means he should’ve disappeared every time Red Lady disappeared!!!
    (2) You really had to break Detective Park’s heart like that huh?? Poor thing. Dear Writer, please let Chaewon and Detective Park end up together… I know imaginary otp Chaewon and DaIl won’t happen so give me this as consolation. Thank you.
    (3) YeoWool… I see you trying girl. But I can’t like you like I did in Ep 1. You were so GOOD then!! I miss old you. I appreciate the communication efforts but you just lost the spunk I saw in ep 1 😭
    (4) If you haven’t noticed.. I love Chaewon. Gah. How I wish we could change up things.
    (5) Something else is going on with the CEO guy and Lawyer Baek than just helping because they saved the CEO’s daughter. I hope it’s good. 🤞🏼🤞🏼
    (6) Ok… glad Nurse redeemed himself a bit but… really? The only person you could think of to take care of DaIl was Red Lady’s real mom???? What logic is that?? She’s definitely not right in the head so what made him think that was ok????
    (7) Really??? Kim Gyeol needs some supportive people around him. I mean I kind of understand him but I definitely don’t understand him more than I understand him. I thought he was going to part of the crew!!!
    (8) I promise I like this drama. It’s a lot more unexpected than most kdramas which I absolutely adore (one of my weird criterias in determining my favorite dramas). But I can’t help but see the potential it had!

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      Re 1. I think because Da il hadn’t gained powers and was just a harmless spirit, he hadn’t become a fetch yet. From what I understood, they’re usually bad spirits right? So maybe they need to go back to their body for recharging or something?

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    He and chief have an electric chemistry!!

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    Yay but my snailpace brain is still processing the idea of DaIi’s alive!

    Gifs – you can upload your gif at Gifer for gif host (it sounds weird is it) .. i put my gifs here before share them with DB.

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    The easiest way to make a gif, at least, for me…
    (1) Cut a video of the scene, must be 15 seconds or less and less than 100MB for Giphy. I use iMovie or Samsung Movie Maker.
    (2) Create gif using Giphy. You can add captions and adjust the gif length further in this step. Once you’re satisfied with how the gif looks, upload it.
    (4) Once uploaded, use GIF Link from the Copy Link selection in use URL in DB.
    Hope this helps! I’m addicted to gif-making now. Haha

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Ghost Detective ep 8&9 – Ok… this was kind of sweet… but I still love my make believe otp 🤷🏻‍♀️

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Ghost Detective ep 8&9 – Why does it feel like he’s just pretending to be all cool and suave? Oh yeah.. LOL that character was too strong

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Ghost Detective ep 8&9 – The moment I wished for a different OTP (the potential!!!) thoughts about this potential pairing in the comments.

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    I really didn’t think about it until the EXACT moment of this screen cap. I mean, what if they had meshed YeoWool’s character and ChaeWon’s character??????? (except the character needs to be more like ChaeWon because she’s the stronger of the two characters imo) It would’ve been so amazing!!! And they have chemistry even when she doesn’t see him OR hear him???? So many should’ves could’ves would’ves 😭 They look so good together in the screencap 💔💔 We can argue that she doesn’t have enough time to do everything YeoWool is doing but COME ON, kdrama characters have all the time in the world and can neglect their job. Plus she already is neglecting her job! You should’ve given her the main lead. (Sorry, I promise I like this drama.. really)

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      This drama has so many potential pairings. They all have a solid chemistry with each other.

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Ghost Detective ep 8&9 – The moment my heart broke 💔

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Ghost Detective ep 8&9 – My least favorite character (WTH MAN??)

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    I don’t blame him for not killing himself for Yi rang. I think his character was not well written. In the process of keeping it a suspense we didn’t see his suffering or his background.

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Ghost Detective ep 8&9 – My favorite character… she’s seriously so beautiful.

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