Beanie level: Errand boy

Hello Beanies. ^^ Nice to be here after a long time. I moved to a new country, started higher studies and now I have time to watch dramas again. Hope to talk a lot about dramas, dramas and dramas and ‘life’ again. πŸ˜€

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Familiar place..

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Right..

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Isn’t this the most surreal thing? I don’t think anything I have ever watched in kdramas evoked this type of emotion. Everything, every feeling this drama tried to bring for the last 9+ episodes make complete sense now. It was mostly the feeling of longing, love for hye ja’s husband, and overall that 25 year mark which hye ja always longed for, that’s how it all evolved. The ever melancholic tune of this drama is sad and at the same time so beautiful. I am so in love with this writer now.

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What’s the point of being a priest if you’re this hot. :/
*Honey Lee and kim nam gil, I like the idea of them together. ^^

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While this year is passing by, I realize how much I have lost and how much I learned through the pain, heartache, depression, and sadness that I had to deal with. There\’s this saying the time that you give to someone[ or even to some phase I guess], is most precious, cause once gone they can\’t be brought back, so I sadly remember the precious time I have lost. And then again, what\’s this life, if not a tunnel of ups and downs, highs and lows. I hope I won\’t be lost in this dark hole of indescribable pain and agony again. That they live trapped in this year of 2018. #ramblings#nondramarelated

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    Hope 2019 is better for you and you find your peace.
    Am sorry for your loss.

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      Thank you so much! Happy 2019 to you too! 🌟🌟✨✨

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    Wish you a much better 2019 and onwards. Truly , truly may these terrible things remain trapped in 2018.

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      Thank you so much dear green! Many many good wishes to you too for the new year. ✨✨🌟🌟β˜€

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    Losing someone is very painful. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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    I’m very sorry for your loss *hugs*

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      You’re such a sweetheart. Thank you for the hugs!

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I’m obsessed with this pretty man. Please helpp.
*the one at the right. 😍😍💓💓🙈

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Sudden realization, what moo young needed was a park dong hoon, and his neighborhood, not a Jin Kook. πŸ™ Ji An even killed a guy and she survived. So why can\’t moo young have his redemption? :/

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    I agree, but his murder really wasn’t justifiable self defense, like how Ji-an’s was πŸ™

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What. Did. I . Just. See :/

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Loll this drama is hilarious. Please tell me why isn’t this a full-fledged drama? This also makes me think, I could totally see the 2018 version of you’re beautiful based on these boys lol.

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Omg I’m not going to watch this if they go with the original ending. 😭😭 I may have found my new crack drama after my ahjussi. 😭😭

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    What is the ending of the original though? It’s completely fine to give spoilers to me. I am just intrigued because I already know the premise. I personally thought they won’t make her the real sister in the kversion.

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      I don’t know about the ending wapz. Just the fact that they are siblings in the original was already heartbreaking for me! πŸ™
      I’m also hoping she’s not his sister in this one. Although the question remains if they can do it with sincerity and make it credible. :S

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        Also I’m avoiding any other major spoilers from the Japanese one, but would that matter anymore since we know the biggest one? Haha. I don’t understand jdrama’s obsession with sibling love. :/

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          Yes haha we already know the most importanat one but I am still expecting them to come up with a twist. Though I haven’t watched any such makjangs but I don’t think kdramas have ever made real siblings fall in love, they always add some sort of birth twist or adoption. Since, they are different in nature to j doramas in this aspect, they might not follow the same track.

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            Oh you’re right! They have their own history of birth twist/ children swap for ages, so their skills might come handy this time haha. I am also hoping that there’s some kind of major plot twist, something that will do justice to the complexity of the story!

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        Honestly, I’m kind of scared to watch this drama, because I know the ending. This might be one that I’ll wait to watch until its finished airing. Now how to avoid spoilers… Oh, who am I kidding? I’ll probably actively look for them anyways.

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I have tons of things to do, like looking into these hour-long software tutorials, but then all these new and old shows are tempting me, also how do you stop looking at a cold and distant looking Lee Je Hoon. I really really loved the premiere, the writer’s quirks seem to be there in small bits for now, but I am definitely captivated by lee je hoon’s aloof manners. Also I loved how CSB’s character doesn’t shy away from speaking her mind, even if that makes her work profile appear dangerously controversial lol. I sometimes tend to do that forgetting who is in front of me, like even if that is some high officials so I get where she’s coming from. :S

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Sometimes listening to some songs make you realize that you don\’t want to go back to that particular time or people or memory, just to that feeling those moments evoked. πŸ™

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    Are you having a hard time fay??? Or you reminiscing about the past???

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      Ah just reminiscing about the feel-good moments safeenah! I don’t think I am missing them though haha. Just you know how sometimes you just want to feel like the same way you felt before except you have lived those moments and it won’t be as fresh again? I do hope I get the chance someday though. Did that make sense? Heheh.

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        Yep it makes sense….but at least we have the memories to look back on…

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    preach!

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There were so many different emotions evoked in the movie \’Beauty Inside\’, despair, sadness, the feeling of being helpless. I was moved deeply by the traumas that the woman had to face, mainly due to the fact that she just couldn\’t stop loving the man, but at the same time the pressure, the pain of connecting to a new person, a new face was too much for her to handle. It was a fictional story, yet at the same time, it felt so real. And romantic. The silent expressions and the silent mood was persistent throughout the movie and it never lost its tempo. And needless to say, han hyo joo was magnificent as the woman who still waited for the person whose face kept changing after every night. I remember watching it and feeling as much bothered as her, wondering how I would have felt if I fell for someone like that.
Sorry for the long rant lol, but I just watched the trailer of the drama version, and I feel like the whole mood is totally lost, at least as much as I saw from the trailers. I don\’t know what tone are they going for in the drama, but the seriousness is all gone, and it feels too easy since the male lead has already figured it out it seems, the skill of recognizing her easily, which was the main challenge in the movie version. The cool colors, the furniture designer, his passion for making furnitures even with such a troubled life, and the silent deep ambience totally drew me in-, so I am feeling a bit disappointed. πŸ™ Um, maybe in han hyo joo\’s hands at least something of the movie would have remained, or maybe not. Sigh..

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    I still listen to the movie’s OST while traveling or if I’m on those moody days. Still remember Kim Joo hyuk’s scene in that one 😢

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I\’m wondering why the bot posts are getting through. There are a disturbing amount of words used in the text and sometimes even some particular words are censored when \’we\’ make any post, so why not ban these IPs too if possible? It\’s just a bit of a dampener amidst our happy kdrama discussions. :/

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    It’s *extremely* difficult to block spam posts. There are literally billions of possible IP addresses and it’s pretty easy to spoof them. I’m pretty sure the bots never use the same IP address twice. Censoring words might help, but the more words they add to the censored list, the more difficult it is for us non-bots to have a post go through. Things like recaptcha might help but I despise recaptcha and would rather just scroll past the spam posts.

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      Ah yes recaptcha could help.. but I’m really curious what caught their attention and made them come to db lol.

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        I don’t think they care what the website is, they just go everywhere. I have a couple hobby sites which no human ever sees, yet the spambots come to visit in droves. πŸ™‚

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    It’s no fun but I just ignore them. Spam bots are everywhere and unfortunately it’s hard to block them. For every one blocked, 10 more pop up.

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So handsome! Um more like mature and handsome? I am already blushing just from the stills. 😍😍

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Chan isn\’t doing the drama with Kim So Hyun? But noo why?? 💔💔💔😪😪 I was only at peace with his heartbreaks on \’30 but 17\’ because he would get the girl on love alarm but not happening anymore. πŸ™ At this point I\’m wondering if he\’s making these drama decisions or his agency doing that for him? Two good offers and both rejected! I get the reason for the first one but this one i was really looking forward to. :\'(

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Life has been so good lately! The new turn of events frustrates me and agitates me, but I\’m still loving it. They are stepping up the game, and it\’s really doing wonders for the drama.
I am kind of annoyed with president Gu because of the recent events. Somehow I feel like he\’s one of those humans who do shady things at work, but a good son to their parents, kin, lovers [maybe], so people praise them..but that doesn\’t really make them good humans. So in the facade you are impressed by them, but then you realize for whom these people really work, the rich conglomerates and moneymakers, who have no ethics and no sense of morality. I don\’t know if he\’s gonna change, but I do hope jin woo succeeds in his fearless ambitious projects.

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    okay, remain faithful to their lovers*

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    I think he’s been humanized by his hospital stint, and judging by the preview for episode 12 (when so and so brought up the Ye brothers), he’s maybe now considering the implications/ethics of his actions… he’s doing these things out of duty and necessity, but it’s still BAD lol. I wonder what conclusion he’ll come to.

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Sorry for the random question lol, but I have been thinking about this a lot lately and I wanted to ask you all, maybe seeing how others face/handle this could help.
Would you step out of your comfort zone in any sector of your life [personal, professional etc.], to achieve something? Or would you think it\’s okay if you don\’t achieve it or go after it since it won\’t be easy for you? :/

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    I stepped out of my comfort zone last year when I quit my job and moved to another state. I failed miserably and am now worse off than I was when I started. I would do it again. As AWFUL as a whole hell of a lot of it was I learned that the only thing holding me back from a lot of stuff is me. And that I’m capable of getting out of my own way—even if its hard. Even if it doesn’t work out.

    It was a good life lesson.

    And I complained and whined and threw all the fits here every step of the way.

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      You are very very brave isa. πŸ™
      Like the way you say you will do it again, that means you ‘are’ on the other side of the ocean and you did it.

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      you’re who I want to be when I grow up

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      @isthatacorner I do want to ask you though, how did you handle it? I mean did you have panic attacks, or like a little voice in your head which keeps telling you how you would not be able to handle it? Lol I know there is no solution to issues like this one but I am also mad at myself for not being cool about it. 😩😔😔

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        I had panic attacks, I cried a lot. I gave up A LOT. But, this may not make a whole lot of sense but it help me: how do you even quit, anyway? And I follow that rabbit all the way down the hole. When I was in CO and I quit my train of thought went a lot like:
        I QUIT! I am NEVER looking for a stupid job in this stupid place again! Done! I’m going to binge watch a drama now!.
        If i never find a job then….
        I wont be able to pay my cable and internet bill so (no more dramas)
        I’ll get evicted from my apartment so I’ll live in my car (and have to use public restrooms. gross)
        I wont be able to pay my car payment so my car will repossessed
        So I’ll be homeless (back to this public restroom business)
        And when you’re homeless you have to ask people for money for food and such
        And I hate talking to strangers (except for when I’m in the library)
        So I’ll ultimately starve literally to death.

        I tell myself (and told myself) things will get better or they wont. Either way I have to take the next step. Sometimes, the next step is admitting defeat. I have a playlist for that! Its my πŸ™ playlist. I listen to Jason Mraz’s 3 Things (which talks about taking a breath and letting the chapter end. Its only when you do this will a new chapter begin). I listen to A Life That’s Good from the Nashville Cast to remind me that I’m not wanting something impossible and One Step At a Time from Jordin Sparks to remind me that things don’t happen all at once (this was my go-to when I was applying for grad school and not getting in) and Almost There from The Princess and the Frog OST.

        I prayed a lot. I’m still in that place. I’m still in recovery mode as my life is STILL a disaster and I have NO IDEA how to fix it or what to do next and I would very much please like someone else to be in charge for awhile because I am screwing up all the time and I’d like to see what its like when things dont suck—just for comparisons sake.

        But–knowing everything thats happened this past year? Would I do it again? In spite of all of the ugly sobbing that occurred? In spite of the hits that my self worth and self esteem took? In spite of the fact that I was almost practically kidnapped by an insane person would I do it again? Yes. I don’t regret going on my big adventure as awful as it turned out to be because I learned a lot about myself. And I honestly learned a lot about who my friends are and aren’t and who I can turn to when the chips are down.

        Dude. Why do you have to be cool about it? Where is it written that you have to be cool about it? I have been a HOT FREAKING MESS about this ENTIRE thing. There were days where I literally sat on the floor in my pajamas and sobbed. All day. Thats it. I got up to use the restroom. I didn’t eat. I didnt drink. I just sat on the floor and sobbed until I had no more tears and I did that dry sobbing/gagging thing that always makes me feel like I’m going to throw up.

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          Thank you so much for sharing Isa. I think next time whenever I will have doubts or panic attacks I will come back here and read your post again and again. πŸ™

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    @fay17
    This is a good question and one I’ve been asking myself lately. I think that I will regret if I DON’T step out of my comfort zone to go after that which makes my heart sing.

    It has been said many times that on their deathbeds, many people don’t regret the things they did, but the things they DIDN’T do.
    Go for it! Try so you won’t have that regret!
    fighting!!!

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      Thank you so much @stpauligurl! I think you are completely right. Also knowing that a comfort zone exists, that means I have a lot of unconscious fear, so I guess no other way to overcome the fear than to embrace it.:/

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        I don’t know if this will help, but 11 years ago, I left my home, family, and job to move across the states and back to my hometown to take care of my aging parents. It was really scary and I didn’t know what I was doing – but it was the BEST decision I ever made.
        I was lucky and got to be with my parents when they died. It is the one thing in life that i have NO regrets about.
        So just try it!!!

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          Wow you are mentally very strong. It’s an incredible feat to leave your job and family altogether, so I think that’s really commendable. I mean at this stage, when I am kind of struggling with my own limitations, I feel like I didn’t learn anything all these years at all lol. So I really give value to the people who can perform at times of need [and take major decision like this one] when they need to do so. Thank you for sharing dear. I can imagine how being there for your parents at that time gave you the strength to overcome anything. My mom still misses my granny so much cause she wasn’t near her when she died, so I know how precious the experience is.

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            I miss my mom and dad every single day – but I’m surrounded by things they loved and photos of them, and I know that they are in my DNA so they aren’t really gone.
            However, when I see dramas about elders with Dementia it breaks my heart – but I’m still glad and would do it again.
            So go for it @fay17! Try stepping out of your comfort zone – at least once to see how it feels.

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            I bawled my eyes out watching Go Back couple and how Jang Nara missed her mom. You are so incredibly strong, brave and positive, I hope I can persevere to be some of that at least. Just makes us realize how precious people and memories are.

            @stpauligurl Thank you for all the cheers and words of encouragement dear. 😊😊 Let’s see, I hope I can go for it. *Nervous laughs.

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    True, to actually being able to pull it off should be a success in itself. And a karaoke career, wow! Sounds really awesome Tim!

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    It is really hard for me to step out of my comfort zone. There has been more times I’ve regretted not stepping out than doing so. I’ve taken a couple steps that have worked out well for me.
    But, know yourself. I’m an introvert and sometimes I feel like people do not understand that I do recharge and thrive on alone time. Sometimes I am just being shy and in my comfort area, but other times it is where I need/want to be.
    But I agree with taking the chance.

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      Oh when you are totally fine or at peace with where you are, it should be okay though right? My problem is if I don’t get out of the comfort zone I know I would regret it, but then again I know the fears that come with taking the chances. Heck, even thinking about it is stressful I guess. 😅

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    Ohh. Sorry I missed the pun haha. And yeah I totally agree. Like the director of ladybird says lol, ‘my love for direction is greater than my talent’.

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    I’ve done it twice & my only suggestion is that you plan it out carefully. Be sure that XYZ is what you want to do, as well as what your first few steps need to be. Other than that, have the resolve to face the consequences without regret. Not everyone who tries, succeeds. But those who succeed, only do so because they tried.

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      I think many of the people who succeed fail many times on the way to their success. Part of it is how they handle the failures along the way.

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        Most definitely.

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        There’s a really nice twitter hashtag called #ShareYourRejections – which serves to show just how normal rejection is. It’s my very fave thing on Twitter.

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          (rejection, mistakes, failure all being the same side of the same coin – apologies for responding in three parts) ^^

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      I don’t know what I’m gonna do, but I am really taking into consideration each and every bit of advice, so do know that this really helps. I really needed this I guess. Thank you!

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    I think stepping out of your comfort zone is one of the ways you grow and change as a person. Whether it works out well or not, you learn more about yourself. It might help if you have some healthy coping skills ahead of time – whether it’s exercise, meditation or something else that helps you relax and deal with stress.

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      That growing and changing part is definitely something that I am looking forward to the most. Thank you so much for the precious words!

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    My karaoke career is stopped by the thought of it being a win-lose. Win for me, lose for any unfortunate listeners.

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    I recommend trying two thought experiments.
    One is to imagine what you would tell your best friend to do if she asked you the same question.

    The second is to try to project how I feel after I’ve made each of the choices, say maybe a week later and a month later (get creative; sometimes you will know 5 minutes after you choose, or you want to think about a year later). You choose to step out, how do you feel? You choose to remain in place, how do you feel? Write down the feelings like you would a pro/cons list. It may make something clear. For example, once I thought about how I’d feel after I resigned my job, I realized I was already soooo gone from that job in my mind, that was my answer.

    And then here’s a weird suggestion, watch “Moana” if you haven’t seen it lately. It’s really good for thinking about having to step out of your comfort zone. Good luck!

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      Very good suggestions! I’m much grateful to all of you, really.
      This is actually such a big step that my answer keeps changing at different occasions lol. But for now, I have decided to take a deep breath and go with the flow.
      I haven’t watched Moana, will sure do so. Many many thanks again for the words.

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Omg I have a new bias. <3 __<3 🙈🙈😂😂Call me shallow beanies all you want, but those veins. 😍😍🙈🙈

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    I just watched this yesterday! It was cute and I liked the heroine a lot. I first watched him in Kurosaki kun no Iinari ni Nante Naranai with Nana Komatsu. 😁

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      I loved the movie too and became a fan of nakajima kento in the process lol. So much that I binge watched the movie you mentioned in one go, all 3 episodes of it. 🙈😅 Although it was a bit questionable but I have to say the main leads had amazing chemistry! I really hope they appear in some other movies in future!

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