Beanie level: Wrongly accused fugitive

Iโ€™ve spent most of this week thinking about my relationship with love and how it has been influenced by my past. I grew up in a household where I love youโ€™s, hugs or any kind of affection was never present. In addition, growing up with divorced parents, it was excruciatingly difficult to believe that love – specifically romantic love – even existed. Maybe thatโ€™s why I donโ€™t believe in love or have no desire to get married. But over the years, I have found the ability to find love in the smallest of things.

So Iโ€™d like to take this opportunity to talk about some of them:

I love the colors that illuminate the sky as the sun says goodbye every day
I love the smell of fresh coffee (despite the fact that I hate the taste)
I love that in-between weather where itโ€™s not hot but itโ€™s also not cold
I love binge watching my favorite shows
I love the smell of old books waiting to be rediscovered
I love seeing the smiles on my friends’ faces when I take Polaroids of them
I love bubble tea (I AM AN ADDICT)
I love comfy sweaters that swallow my entire body
I love the way the moon encourages me to spill secrets that otherwise would be hidden during the day
I love visiting the turtles 🐢 at the pond by my house
I absolutely love my city and all the attractions it has to offer

And I love my friends.
Theyโ€™re the people in my life who have taken me under their wing, raised me and helped me navigate the transition from pre-teen to teen and now adulthood. There is no way I could be where I am today without them.
So to my friends, thank you for loving me unconditionally and giving me a kick in the butt when I need it.
Youโ€™re my family for life 💗

Love,
February

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an open letter to my healing heart

I miss you?
(can I actually say that)

I miss the way youโ€™d talk about the sunset as if it was the most beautiful thing in the world
I miss the good morning texts waiting by my bedside when I arose every morning
I miss the look youโ€™d give me before you said โ€œfuck youโ€ after I roasted you
I miss our stupid arguments
Like that time we spent 3 hours arguing about whether or not I could lay eggs
I miss all of our inside jokes
And the way youโ€™d continuously mock my need to do a facemask every night

I miss the way youโ€™d hesitantly share your favorite bands, as if you were afraid I wouldnโ€™t like them
Now my spotify is littered with all of OUR songs
The songs you gave me, when you were vulnerable enough to admit that you werenโ€™t okay
I miss sharing ghost stories at 3am when neither of us can fall asleep
I miss everything about you
And it killed me when you started ignoring me

I was prepared to list out all the reasons I hated you
But I canโ€™t.
Today in class you smiled at me and took my side in an argument and I swear I melted on the inside
I couldnโ€™t hate you even if I wanted to
And it kills me that I donโ€™t know why

Did I love you as more than a friend?
Only the moon knows the answer to that
I did feel something for you
And I am not ashamed to admit that
Maybe it was on an intense platonic level
Or maybe it was infatuation

Either way, thank you for letting me love you
Thank you for letting me experience a level of friendship I didnโ€™t know I could achieve
Thank you for always having my back
Thank you for encouraging me to continue writing
Thank you for having such a profound effect on my life
And most importantly, thank you for making me feel something,
Even if it lasted for a short while.

Love,
February

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question for anybody: what’s a website that you wish existed but doesn’t?

example: Tindaurant is a modern way to select restaurants. Youโ€™ll be able to browse restaurants based on filters, input reviews for restaurants and save restaurants to a list for the future.

My assignment for class is to propose an idea and build the site

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    uri smart gio, it’s been a while! <3
    I'm pretty sure there must be something like this already, but I'd love to have a place for book recommendations (I'm only thinking about reading, but music, dramas, even food would be great, too) based on what you like. Like having a list of titles displayed for you after you've picked authors or genres or even books you enjoy…
    Sorry if this was useless!

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    Your example sounds a lot like yelp.

    Iโ€™d like a website that can help you mix and match your wardrobe and pick out what to wear.

    Not sure if thatโ€™ll be any help to you. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    How about a site that you can snack ratings. Iโ€™ve regretted so many flavors of chips😂

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      *can find

      PS. Snacks are important to drama bingers.

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    It sounds a lot like Zomato. Perhaps check whether your region has Zomato

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    A website that tells you what dramas are on what (legal) sites. It should scour the drama sites daily, because this info changes all the time, and arrange by country. It should know ALL the 19 different English names for any one particular drama.

    Or, if someone can just give me the algorithm to see what dramas are currently on Netflix USA, I would be most grateful.

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      Okay, so I’m not the only one who finds the Netflix algorithm maddening? I hate that they changed everything so much that Recently Added shows a bunch of old stuff.

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        Thatโ€™s cuz they always adding old stuff. You should be looking under New Release for brand new shows

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          When I say old stuff, I mean stuff that was added weeks ago.

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            They donโ€™t add shows every day. You can set you notifications to get updates.

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ooooo what is love february? 👀

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Can someone take a look at my film project and give me feedback? 🙏🙏

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    What kind of feedback would you like? 🙃

    (And I got a perfectly delicious melancholy feeling while watching it. The way itโ€™s shot, along with the music and pitter-patter of the rain complement each other to make a lovely, cohesive atmosphere.)

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    I too like the sound and the melancholy feeling, but I kept thinking something would happen that would tell me what I’m watching.
    Maybe scroll across a sign or something to give a little context. You showed several shots of people who help others, but I still didn’t see the point.
    I like how you used the coming into focus from the bokeh, but I think you might want to do it a wee bit faster.
    Overall I think you did well to describe a mood with the lighting, sound, and music, but I was left with wanting a little more. Does that help at all?
    This is a good start…..

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    I love the focus on the colors red/orange and how that ties into transportation and the presumable association with coming to a stop, standstill, or end. The tail lights, the sirens, and traffic lights and signs. I can’t help but focus on the ambulance and the responders a bit and the presumed tragedy, maybe death by accident? Life goes on however as the pedestrians continue walking by. If I’m on the right track, I like the end with the one way and stop signs coming together. Life is a one way journey that can be stopped at anytime.

    Like the others have said, there is that melancholy vibe to it through the music, gloomy weather, and rain. If there is one thing I really did not like was the sound of the rain. Was that intentional? Could you go for something less harsh and more natural sounding?

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      That’s the one thing I didn’t like too. I think I’d soften it a little to blend in with the music, or make it a little less staccato. Yes, a little less harsh.

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        It may be the headphones or sound system that Hades and I are using…

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    Whatโ€™s your topic or title? So we can say whether you hit the mark? Not sure if context.

    If not – Iโ€™m not sure why you use blur to sharp focus for every change of scene? And I feel it was a little slow Bokeh (learnt that from a Beanie) use nice.
    As others have said your choice of BGM is good. Rain and acoustic guitar gives a melancholy flavour – add to that the night scene.

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    I hope this would help!
    I love your music choice mix with raindrop sound.
    I’m not sure if you choose rain theme, or just happen to like that sound… I just think that the sound should be more connected with the video. I saw wet roads, people with umbrellas, but not really any rain scenes, or raindrops…
    And maybe you could add some text or scene that’s show where this is, or why you chose this rain theme… as your ending logo/slogan is not clear enough.

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Can someone take a look at my website and give me feedback on the type of media I create, what thoughts come to mind, etc. It\’s for homework🙏🙏
http://giocare.me/

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    Thatโ€™s a very creative hand youโ€™ve got there. I donโ€™t know much about art, but I appreciate it. Love your use of colour – itโ€™s bold and striking. I also liked the images containing silhouettes; they give off a very elegant feel. Any details re your inspiration behind them?

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    I don’t normally click on random sites but when I saw someone else do it, I took a chance.
    Great start! Your navigation is clear and the work is impressive. The only thing I would suggest is you add more information about the particular designs – what is your inspiration for any one of them?
    Also I like how you separated out your use of tools – I’m impressed with your use of Illustrator! I’ve worked in a bit, and it is NOT easy!
    Your posters/flyers are stunning, as are you! What a great photo!!!
    Keep working on it, add more information about why you do the designs you do etc.
    Also, I clicked on the tribute page and it came up with the HTML code at the top. You might want to change the display settings.
    Good job!

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    hey @giocare i loved ur site… and Flyers are sooo cool and looks so professional…. and website is easy to navigate too.
    i have one suggestion, as it works for Photographers.
    you made the navigation as Portfolio and under that you have all different categories. I’d suggest you update portfolio as one page(instead or one menu entry) and there add 2 images of each category (to give visitor a chance to look at your best work all together) and there you can add hyperlink to page of respective category of work…

    let me know if that understandable if not ill try to explain more.
    Btw i am so in awe with your work and how great you are with Adobe tools. Keep it up girl.

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    My favorite are the flyers. My eye is drawn to them and they convey their information without being confusing. My favorite illustration is Starry Night. It makes me feel a warm summer evening full of hopes and dreams.

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@greenfields I keep forgetting to send you these yoongi gifs

yoongi

yoongi

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    I haven’t seen these pictures/videos/gifs before. That’s DNA era – early 2018 hair, I think. So beautiful. <3 Thanks *bookmarks* this is the the Yoongi of the time I fell in love. ^^

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I heard that there is a party going on🎉🎉🎊🙌
#DBParty

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@estee #girlpower

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    Thank you! I know HyunA from Triple H and as a Cube artist, I had no idea until recently that she was in 4Minute!

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@waadmay @wakimary @kdramaswimmer @bammsie @natzillagorilla @shindy @seashell @lcaro13 @aliaa @fatcat007

My Punishment: I lost a bet on the Mexico vs Brazil game so my punishment is to change my avatar to a drama i dont like: Beautiful Gong Shim. Beautiful Gong Shim had some great moments BUT gong shim was robbed!! Nam Goong Min\’s character single-handedly stole the show from her when her name was in the freaking title. And for that I will forever remember the pain this drama caused me. #JusticeforGongShim

Thinking about this show makes my blood boil. To add to my punishment here are some gifs of this show:

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One of my favorite moments from the show!! *fingers crossed* i hope the gifs work this time

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Tried korean barbecue for the first time today and i was blown away. Will definitely come back for more😱👍

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Is it just me or are the beauty tap ads taking up most of the page? I was okay with the slideshow but this is too much. A newcomer might think that they’re on the wrong website

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Sooooo Are You Human Too?, What’s Wrong With Secretary Kim?, AND Life on Mars are premiering this week ??? How am I going to watch all of them in addition to the currently airing shows >.<

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I have 499 GB of Kdramas on my computer >.<

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A question for all beanies: what shows are you currently watching? + what shows are you planning to watch?

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A few weeks ago I was interviewed by a reporter and this morning the article was published on USNEWS. It’s so crazy waking up to see my name on a news site ^-^

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I’m not even watching APAD (because life got in the way) but I appreciate all the poems beanies are posting

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Accidentally stumbled upon a poem from You Who Forgot Poetry and I\’m in awe at what I just read. Seriously considering watching the show

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I spent the day at a korean spa resort and it was truly an amazing experience. One takeaway from today is that I do not need my phone as much as I think I do. For 8 hours I was disconnected from the world and able to breathe clearly for the first time in months.

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