Beanie level: Entertainer-in-training

The Light In Your Eyes/Radient.
This is really dark. Whatever I’d expected, it certainly wasn’t this. I..do like the show, but oof!

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An RL friend today asked for some music recs and ofc I took the chance to send some K-pop. I return victorious, my friends. She liked the recs – all of them. And is checking out more K-pop. *fingers crossed*

Here’s the winner, from among my recs:

“Kpop rec #2. Songs that tell a story. Like this one, where a woman turns to a radio for comfort, and it speaks to her.
Click “CC” for subs.”

*P.S. I just realised that Gong Seung Yeon is in the M/V. I really don’t pay attention the M/Vs. ^^;

**Note: I used Kpop as an umbrella term for music from Korea, in the Korean language. Not all of the recs were idol pop.

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Stray Kids. 💖
SKZ.

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It\’s my birthday today, and I\’m inching closer to the 30s – which is actually a good thing. I\’m so done with the 20s and the quarter life crises. Let\’s hope for a better 30s! One more year to go.
Love, Febrary
Love, me

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*notes for self*
Current Drama Status #46
1. The Crowned Clown. Ep 9.
2. Romance is a Bonus Book. Ep 6.
3. Touch Your Heart. Ep 2.
4. Haechi. Ep 1.

Completed.
Under 19. Congratulations to those who made it to 1THE9! ^^; Hope to see a few of the others here and there.

Pause.
Boksoo. I really tried, but its not my kind of show

To-watch list.
Dance Sports Girls. Ep 1, 20 mins
SKY Castle.
Mother.
The Light in Your Eyes

**When I watch a lot of shows like this you can tell I\’m overly stressed. Haha. Ha, ha ;_;

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Jung Il Woo Oppa is back! 💕 The only actor I’d ever call Oppa.

Haechi is a sageuk sageuk, and I’m fond of these when done right. Ep 1 was rather serious, and Oppa, effortlessly (but not quite) cool. ^^;

Welcome back to dramaland, and to my screen, Oppa! ^^; Just so you know – I got into K-pop, and found a bias while you were gone. The Bias is The Bias is The Bias after all, but Oppa is Oppa. ^^

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I debated over posting this, but since everyone here has been so brave, I thought I might try to be brave as well.

Love, February
Post for Feb 11

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    About 29 years ago on this day, I was due to be born in another 12 days,
    But the doctor had to go on vacation,
    So he did a C-section 10 days early, 2 days from this day, 29 years ago,
    And I was born.
    How silly.
    And laughable.
    My sweet mother of frail health had medical issues after my birth,
    She could not handle giving birth to another child,
    Knowing this, my loving dad said,
    “Why would I want another child?
    This way our love is not split among many.”
    Mum was just happy her child was healthy.

    Nearly 30 years ago.
    Thanks everything mum and dad.
    You loved me, and sheltered me, so much so that though
    I want to be a better daughter, I’m at a loss.
    Two days to this day, 29 years ago,
    You’ve been taking care of me.
    I’m sorry I’m unable to give you anything back.
    Something as meaningless as that fancy car dad wants to buy,
    Or as meaningful as giving more of my time to mum,
    Or the grandchild they want to play with,
    Something as extra as that extra home in a nice part of town,
    Or expensive medical check-ups,
    People to walk the dog so you don’t have to do it,
    People to drive the car and clean the home once dad retires,
    So you don’t have to do it
    And can age comfortably,
    My dear sweet simple mum of somewhat frail health who tires so easily,
    Who worked under stressful, even unsafe conditions
    Because she wanted her own income and identity,
    Who now strives to make daily life comfortable for dad and me,
    And my dear sweet strong dad who does everything for his wife and daughter
    So they don’t have to take the trouble to do it themselves,
    I’m sorry I eat better than you,
    Travel more than you,
    And lived thoughtlessly till now,
    So wrapped up in my own self,
    I didn’t pay attention to you.

    29 years ago to this day, plus two days.
    I’ve been trying to make up for it lately
    But two years are nothing in comparison to eight,
    And I’m getting there slowly
    Please hold on a little more,
    Four-five years till dad retires,
    That’s the time I ask,
    And for your patience,
    With your somewhat thoughtless child.

    Love,
    February

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Music like this. I guess this is why I’ve become such a big fan of South Korean music. I’m sure there’s a lot of it in other languages as well, it just didn’t come my way.

“CC” for subs.

Love,
February

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To the dramas I watch,

Thanks for comforting me at the end of a long day,
But seriously, can you please just let me sleep?

Love,
February

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This may be TMI but I really enjoy wearing colourful, patterned, lacy, bras and undies. ^^;

As a kid, I wore whatever my mum got me – they were black, white and utterly boring pieces meant to be worn under the white shirts of school uniforms.

In uni, I went to buy them with my girlfriends – and suddenly the world of \”innerwear\” came alive with colours.

I\’m a small, pretty standard chest size so I have little difficulty finding a good fit among many brands.

Over the years, the \”innerwear\” I purchased – especially my bras – became more expensive and more fancy.

Wearing it made me feel like I was doing something just for me. Even if one else could see it, I was fabulous and I knew it.

Sadly, since I started litigation, my daily wear has regressed to the white shirts of school uniforms the Courtroom, and my collection of beautiful bras has dwindled down to the last one.

I have little to no free time, and even less energy to go shopping for nice things, so I just order the plain, boring stuff online – at least I know it\’s a guaranteed fit.

Please wait one more year, me! You\’re nearly done with this field. One more year to go, and you can come alive again.

Love,
February 💕

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*notes for self*
Current Drama Statusย #45
1. Under 19. *Finale this weekend. ^^; Excitement* 💕💕💕
2. The Crowned Clown. Ep 9. 😱😱
3. Boksoo. Ep 2. Yoo Seung Ho is SO CUTE 😱 This is my first time watching him in anything, and SO CUTE. He has got to be a player IRL. I may not continue the show because as I\’d thought, it\’s not my kind of show. But honestly, he\’s SO CUTE. 😅😂💕
4. Romance is a Bonus Book. Ep 4. 💕💕💕

Completed.
Kingdom.

To-watch list.
Dance Sports Girls. Ep 1, 20 mins
SKY Castle.
Mother.
Lee Dong Wook-Yoo In Na drama

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I read about you in a book,
I watched you on the screen,
I strained to catch a glimpse of you from the distance, even as
I heard your voice in my ears,
I felt your thoughts in my heart,
I longed for you then,
I long for you now,
So far away, worlds apart.

Love,
February

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Romance is a Bonus Book.
This show is making my heart flutter. ^^; I think this is what I felt when I first started K-dramas, or when I had a crush back in school? It\’s unspeakably adorable.

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    Welcome to the club~!
    The show is def. heart fluttering. I’ve never been so thankful to a established relationship in a drama! I love watching the leads together.

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      Definitely! 😊😊 That they already share this amazing friendship makes the show even better.

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    It makes me miss the love of my life. Which wasn’t my ex-husband. 😂😂😂

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Only complaints and unhappy words come out today, thoughts that shouldn\’t be given an expression.

I am reminded that sometimes silence is golden. Since I crave silence today, I choose to offer it back – unless I must speak.

Love, February

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Kang Dan-i. 💕
I\’ve met the best Kdrama heroine ever. Please don\’t change her, show.

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    Agreed. She actually reminds me a lot of my mom, which both makes me love her more and also breaks my heart a little.

    I love how she’s got pride but isn’t proud (if that makes sense). She’s pragmatic and realistic about her situation, but she’s also got this spunk in her that makes her stand out. I love her little goofy quirks. I also love that she’s so proactive in changing her situation and taking her things into her own hands. I loved how she dealt with her idea being stolen — not by feeling sorry or wronged but by basically being like “That’s a shit thing to do, but c’est la vie”. I think that attitude comes from having once been a professional and also from being a mother.

    I also love how they kind of did away with the whole being excited over having a badge/cards thing with her because she’s done this all before, but there was still a feeling of happiness to be holding those things again.

    OK, I could gush all day but I need to go over the notes from the dep I just took. I’m pretty sure I looked like an idiot, but it’s done and I need to focus on the positive. Maybe I’ll mentally draft my Love, Feb. post…

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      Okay I have to agree with all of this. Kang Dan-yi is the woman of dreams. I love her.

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    Absolutely!! I really wanted to do a post on her. Havenโ€™t had the time.
    It breaks my heart that she gave up her career for that scum. But well, we all make mistakes. I like how she didnโ€™t dwell on her misery but tried to move on and make it on her own. She believes in her abilities and her smartness!!
    But when shit hit the wall, she boldly walked into her friends house, all
    Drenched and cold, and said I need to sleep here tonight.
    I totally completely get her!!
    Canโ€™t wait for her to grow in her career.
    Am not here for the romance :))

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      I LOVE HER, and cannot believe some man could walk out on her like that. He was scum, for sure.

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The crush that Just Won’t Go Away. *facepalm
Where’s the pragmatic lawyer who can’t watch romantic scenes without cringing? Its been 14 months now. I’m in my late 20s. Supposedly an adult. This is stupid.

Sincerely,
Someone who needs a wake-up call

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It\’s the peak of winter & the temperature is around 12C (~53.6F). On a lazy Sunday, a group of girls – maybe three, maybe four – can be seen seated with their breakfast (dosa, sambar, coconut chutney & jalebi) & big cups of coffee, on wooden benches under the sun. They\’ve dragged the benches to a small pond outside the mess. The girls are sitting in a circle, feet up on the benches. The occasional laugh can be heard even from a distance. A stray dog sleeps nearby.

No one has had a bath yet, and no one will, until they wrap up and retreat to their rooms after a prolonged lunch.

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Friends, lazy Sundays, warm sunlight on cold winter days, dosa breakfast, terrible coffee in gigantic cups, laughter, easy conversation.

My days in law school weren\’t the best, but those winter mornings nearly made up for the rest.

Love,
February 💕

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The Crowned Clown, Ep 8.
The acting prowess of Yeo Jin Goo has me O_O. He may truly be one of the best actors of this generation, world-wide. I\’m simply O_O.

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Is that food I see on the table?

WOOF!
Is that food I see on the table?
Oh damn, you’ve taken all the chairs away.
So sly, how am I to jump onto the table and eat it?

WOOF WOOF!
Is that food I see in your hands?
Sharing is caring,
Didn’t your mother teach you that?

BOW WOW WOOOUU!
Is that food I smell in the kitchen?
You didn’t even call me,
Tsk, tsk, now I’ll need to clean mess on the floor.

BOW! WOW!
Oh a belly rub! Nice, nice!
There, there, now that I’ve let you give me love,
How about adding some snacks?

WOOF WOOF!
What is this shake hands, lie down, roll?
You foolish human
The food is getting cold.

GRRRRRR!
Who’s that sneaking into the house?
I don’t know you. A robber?
Oh is that food? Welcome, friend!

WOOF!
“All food is dog food”,
As the wise saying goes
Do remember to respect the doggy knows.

Love,
February 💕

**The GIF is for Beagle representational purposes only. The publisher regrets to announce that she was unable to hold the author still in one place for an appropriate picture.

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Speaking of “First Love” on Day 1 of Love, February, I thought it fitting to include a song of that very name, by my favorite artist. I’ve put this up on my wall many times so it’ll be familiar to some.

A song that brought tears to my eyes when I first heard it over lunch at work. Suddenly I had stopped and the world lived on. A phone rang here, somebody tapped away on their computer over there, others walked by, papers in their hands. I could only sit still for a few moments with unshed tears in my eyes before I shut down the screen with shaky hands and went to the bathroom to be alone for a bit.

No doubt this song will not affect most the same way. I still don’t know why I was swept away in the artist’s emotion, but there you have it.

Love, February

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    โ€œEven when I resented meeting you
    You were firmly by my side
    You didnโ€™t have to say anything
    So donโ€™t ever let go of my handโ€œ

    💜💙💜 Iโ€™ve heard you talk about this song before, but hearing about it never gets old, because itโ€™s so clear how moved you are by the music, how powerful it is. I love your personal love letter to a.. personal love letter. The song lyrics are stylized in the same manner as the posts weโ€™ve been sharing, arenโ€™t they..

    *gently squeezes your hand*

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    Such a great song!

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    this isnโ€™t normally the kind of song i gravitate toward, but i found it incredibly compelling!! i can totally see how you could get swept up in the singerโ€™s emotion. itโ€™s so intense andโ€ฆsomethingโ€ฆi donโ€™t know what word i want. but it was so impressive. thank you for sharing!! 💕💕

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    Thanks for letting us peek through this at your thoughts & feelings.
    It’s lovely green, & as bam says, it never gets old to hear your love for this song & the artist over & over again ^^
    Thanks for sharing

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    Adorable G , I purple you 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

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    Oh. I think I get it now. So much emotion. So much symbolism. So much life.

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      Ally? I think you may have posted on the wrong post? 😅 Because if this is for Yoongi’s song, I’ll be very, very happy.

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        No. Itโ€™s ths one. Of the piano, Suga. That piano symbolized his life, his insecurities, and then gave him strength to fight for his successes. It was insurmountable as a child, discarded as a young teen, found and loved again, but also hated at times. Lots of complexity in that song and the rap was Daebek!

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          To add a bit of info and context to what you say, the piano may symbolise the piano (Yoongi does play the piano – he’s rather crazy about it, in fact) or music itself. There are references to specific moments in his life, like him clutching his crushed shoulder and thinking he can’t do this anymore – that’s a vehicular accident from his delivery job during his trainee days.

          I’m glad you enjoyed it. ^^; It’s impossible not to feel happy when someone appreciates your bias’ work. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    Your love for Suga and music is inspiring and so, so very sincere.

    And this song
    So true of our first loves, the things we yearn for but struggle to keep as the expectations and struggle of life overwhelm us.

    Anyways, thanks for sharing ~

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      Thank you for using “inspiring” & “sincere”. ๐Ÿ™‚ Sincerely.

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    I wasn’t expecting this to be about a piano.

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    You introduced me to this song and I still listen to it regularly on my way to work, @greenfields. Thank you.
    I can definitely relate to Suga’s struggles growing up studying music.

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      *sends hugs* I’m really glad you liked this one. 😊 Because somehow as a music person yourself, it’s extra nice to hear your views on music stuff.

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