Beanie level: Fan club president

365: Repeat the Year. Ep 1.
Just the type of show I want to watch. Bring it on. Really enjoyed ep 1.

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Current Drama Status #75
Now that my state is officially in lock down, my to-watch list encompasses (almost) all upcoming dramas:

Mon-Tues
I’ll Find You When the Weather is Nice. Ep 6. up-to-date
(Plan to watch) 365: Repeat the Year. Okay, this sounds fascinating.
(Plan to watch) Piece of your mind. Jung Hae-in as yet another goody-two-shoes? Hmmm…

Wed-Thurs
Hospital Playlist. Ep 2. up-to-date
Find Me in Your Memory. Ep 2/4. Not yet sold on this show.
(Plan to watch) Welcome. L as a cat? Bring it on.

Fri-Sat
(Plan to watch) Rugal. Very tentatively interested to not at all.

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    I’ve just started catching up on all ready airing dramas that I still think of as new. And now this new batch.
    Piece of Your Mind and Welcone are on the must try. I cant remember what Rugal is.

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      That’s also a lot of dramas. Rugal is the new OCN/Netflix crime drama – its based on a webtoon so might have a consistent storyline but…per se..this doesn’t sound good. From MDL:

      “it’s the story of a police officer whose attempt to bring down a nationwide criminal organization ends up with him losing not only his beloved wife, but also both of his eyes and the person he once was. He’s forced into becoming a murderer, and after he receives artificial eyes with unique abilities created by the special organization Rugal’s biotechnology, he sets himself on a mission to wipe out the criminal organization. “

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The doctors of Hospital Playlist are walking liabilities. Having dealt with medical negligence cases extensively, I can’t believe how easily they admit fault to patients. Like in Ep 2, the younger doc is trying to convince the patient that Prof. Min who will be doing the surgery isn’t specialized in it. *facepalm. When that surgery fails, the patient’s wife has ample fodder to sue. ALSO the Hospital shouldn’t allow it if he has no experience, no? Anyway. The lawyer in me is seeing all sorts of red flags.

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I’ll Find You When The Weather Is Nice. Ep 6. Turned every single trope on its head. Eun-seob is clearly the second lead by a large margin. He stays in the background and quietly helps out, whereas Oh Yeong-woo is your typical drama lead alpha male with a tender heart towards the heroine. But despite his grand deed for her in their high school days – grand enough that in her own words, it changed her life – Hae-won loves the quiet Eun-seob who does the small, everyday things while hanging in the background, and will be there for her always. For me too, this is a “healing” drama. Very happy this is airing.

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    her interactions with both Yeong woo and Eun seob gives us a clear contrast and as audience we see who she is happy and most comfortable with…in many dramas the romance and tension always gets amped at the expense of ‘comfortableness’ (not sure thats the correct word) of the female lead…

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      Yes! I think that’s a wonderful observation. Couldn’t agree more.

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        I believe we all make it our to find our ‘comfortableness’ partner… Who knows sometimes It might be your own self.. Which is just fine… #emma Watson said nothing wrong 😁😁

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    I love it when the usual second lead character actually becomes the main lead. This one is tough because Yeong-woo is awesome too but I’m still picking Eun-seob.

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      Yeong-woo is indeed awesome, but by now Eun-soeb has won our hearts (along with Hae-won’s) so Young-woo never really stood a chance

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I’ll Find You When The Weather Is Nice. Ep 3 really hit close to home. Eun Seop’s story about the boy that looked at humans through the wolf’s silver eyelash, and its personification through Hye-won’s experience and even (it seems) Eun Seop, nearly made me cry. It was beautiful and cruel. Ah, now I’m sad early in the day.

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This may or may not fit the theme of March Music but the first song that came to my mind is an exchange of love with my favourite artists of all time. It’s been over two years now – the intensity of my love has seen highs & lows, but the love is there, strong as ever. As I’m reminded again by some of the songs on the latest album. So here’s a 2019 non-comeback title I loved despite everything, and that kept me company during an otherwise dry period.

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Current Drama Status #74
Continuing my weekly tracking after 3 months gap!

Mon-Tues
I\’ll Find You When the Weather is Nice. Ep 2. Such a sweet, \”healing\” show. I love it so far.

Wed-Thurs
The Game: Towards Zero. Ep 12. I\’m not really feeling this one but its an easy watch, so here I am.

Guys, please suggest a sweet romance I could watch? I\’m in the mood for a sweet show, but nothing comes to mind.

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    I don’t know which dramas you’ve watched Greenfields!

    But did you see the Taiwanese drama Emily’s Five Things? (Also called Five Missions) I thought it was utterly adorable and… it’s possibly niche enough that you haven’t watched it yet?

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    Curious to see what suggestions you get.

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    Please watch my first first love if you haven’t already..and school 2017 also

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    Perfume. The start was rough but overall the journey was super sweet. It was sugary sweet. Yido and Jaehee foreveerrr~ ahaha

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    What happened to Hi, Bye Mama?

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      It’s a beautiful show, but a little to heavy for me at the moment. I want something light and easy. Am anxious enough waiting for my results. Are you watching it?

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        I’m not! I’m waiting for other beanies to weigh in. I need to be in a particular mood for sad shows, so I want to first gauge how sad this show is.

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It’s been over 2 years & I still haven’t moved on from my crush on Suga.

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    What’s a Suga ????

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    That’s because he gets better every year.

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      You’re right. Better and better. It’s unbelievable.

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        He’s one of those people who either becomes smarter with age, or he’s able to express his thoughts more clearly. I appreciated the way that Fallon presented their interview so that they could each express themselves. It was so much better than the typical group interview with expected English sound bite answers.

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          Yes! I also loved the subway Olympics. I miss seeing them on Korean variety shows and it was sort of similar.

          And yes to yoongs just becoming clearer with age. He overall hopefully seems happier too and I hope that’s the case.

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    I don’t know what that’s like at all wow how sad for you

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      I have seen your wall and ascertained the veracity of this statement. Let us be sad together mindy. Why are we doing this to ourselves?

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        Sometimes I think I’m over LMK, when I watch something with him and don’t feel quite as joyful, and then I watch something without him and feel absolutely nothing and realize I’m not over him, I’m just sad

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I\’ll Find You When The Weather Is Nice is surprisingly good? I was expecting it to be boring but it isn\’t really – it has more of a quaint charm. And a lot of it can be attributed to Seo Kang-joon who has this amazingly adorable crush on Park Min-young\’s character and is So Incredibly Adorable about it. Seriously, look at him being a puppy here:

Also Lee Jae-wook does not even remotely look their age, but for now I\’ll try and accept the fact that he plays their classmate. 😂

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    I haven’t watched it yet but I was thinking maybe it has a JBL kinda charm? Understated but relaxing and charming at the same time-atleast that’s what I thought it would be.

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      You may have watched it by now. I think that’s a good analogy!

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        I still haven’t lol. Depending on viki and it’s still not subbed there however I couldn’t wait and checked the first episode. It’s good, the start is almost ASMR-ish with louder sounds. The story though I’m not sure if the show will be anything other than relaxing.

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    LJW is their classmate!!! Lol. .
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    am still laughing. He can pull it off I guess?But we know our puppy is a baby.
    Will watch this for him anyway. Have to find who is streaming it in the US.

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    Seo Kang Joon is a puppy regardless if he’s himself out of a drama or in a drama as his character, period 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

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      Yes to that!!!!

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      I’ve caught a fan I see. 🙂

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        LOL I’ve actually never watched any of his dramas or movies (I KNOW!!!! I surprised myself, too!! But I went and took a look at his filmography, and yea, I’ve NEVER seen any of his dramas or movies!!!), but I have seen him on variety/reality shows (“Roommate”, and “Law Of the Jungle – Tonga”), and he indeed is a sweetheart and puppy in real life 🙂

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    It looks like it has the potential to be one of those quiet, lovely, character driven healing dramas and I’m kind of in the mood for that right now. Haven’t had a chance to check it out yet, but I am looking forward to it. Good to know you liked it.

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      I love the quaint vibe. I find myself smiling softly even when there’s not much happening. And Seo Kang Joon playing an awkward introvert is way more entertaining than him playing a snobby rich jerk in my opinion

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        I’ve never really cared for Seo Kang-joon one way or another, but I can see him really pulling this role off. More than him though, I’m looking forward to seeing Park Min-young in a more melo role. I like her in rom-com and her characters there are always fun, but I think her real talent comes out in other genres when she gets more meaty material rather than the predictable fluff (which I love, but I’m not above calling it what it is).

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      Agreed. That’s why I checked it out despite finding the synopsis boring. Had a chance to catch ep 1 yet?

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        Not yet. I’m at the mercy of the Viki subs, so it probably won’t be until the weekend now. I may check out Hyena or Hi, Bye Mama! in the meantime since they have piqued my interest.

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        I just watched the first episode and it’s everything I wanted it to be – it’s quiet and thoughtful and character focused. I love that the setting feels like a part of the story, and the sound and music editing is amazing. Very much looking forward to this one.

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    Unlike most Korean actors, I find that Seo Kang-joon does look his age. Most other actors look preternaturally young (Kwak Dong-yeon being a huge exception; he looks older than he actually is).

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I picked up this C-drama, Find Yourself, on @wapz\’ suggestion, and I have thoughts:

1. I love noona romances, they really are my catnip. There\’s something exciting/fulfilling about (watching) a relationship survive the real stigma placed by society.
2. This drama didn\’t exactly do that. T_T

In the beginning, I found Yuan Song incredibly disrespectful of He Fanxing, and thought the older guy was a better match, then the older guy got annoying and Yuan Song became perfect. Then the whole show just disintegrated because stupid decisions were made that made no sense. PLEASE TALK TO ONE ANOTHER SO THAT WE CAN WATCH CUTE KISSES (albeit dried fish ones sometimes) AND BACK HUGS AND SNEAKING AROUND THE OFFICE AND WHAT NOT.

3. These young Chinese actors are ridiculously charming. This guy, Song Wei Long, is \’99 born. The only way he\’s able to be so charming is because an older director, a script writer and god knows who else are telling him how to be so swoon-worthy. He;s a baby and I can hardly take him seriously, but still, here\’s a GIF. :/

4. I was happily surprised to see a face I know — f(x)\’s Victoria playing the lead. <3

5. This scene is a blatant rip off. But I love seeing it in romance movies/dramas. Always makes me 🤣🤣.

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    Oh sorry that it didn’t work for you. I thought Find Yourself was reasonable all along because in some aspects it was a social critic on how women above 30 are treated and what sacrifices they tend to make. For the romance I thought it flowed well too and it’s probably the only show where I felt that the post breakup part wasn’t that angsty and if you’re on discord, you might have seen many peoppe say they liked the second half better because of the restrictions and issues HFX and YS had initially. After trying being with a compatible person that the society approved of she realized that that’s not what she wants to settle for. I get it, this part was a little frustrating as if she was playing wigh YS back and forth but as someone who was in so much pressure, I understood where it came from. Other than that I liked how every character’s story was important so even if the main leads were being frustrating we had so many other characters to care about coated with a little humor here and there. The thing is I compared it to most contemporary Chinese dramas than Korean, they tend to be very straight forward with romance and little foreshadowing of another story beneath that but FY balanced all stories.

    Song Weilong was very charming here. This is wrong, he’s a baby and I have never liked younger actors lol he’s breaking my rule.

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      Haha no I haven’t gotten that far yet. I’ve watched around 17 eps then read a little about the direction the plot takes because I can see tropes coming. I can also see why my post is misleading. I should’ve written, “this drama isn’t quite doing that”. What’s FRUSTRATING for me is things like how she returned the necklace he gave her, then had the older dude buy the same necklace to keep fooling the younger dude. 🙄🙄🙄🙄

      But it IS working for me in the sense that I’m her and watching it addictively. 😊 Thanks for the recommendation

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        No problem 😊 and sorry I think I spoiled it a little for you. Lol HFX was stupid to make that decisions and that was indeed frustrating. But rest assured the second half is better and you’ll hopefully like it more onwards.

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      It is one of if not the best c-drama I have ever watched or tried to watch. Very realistic to me.

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    This drama can be frustrating initially. But it gets better as the show progresses. I liked that all characters were real, with flaws et al, and no one was truly a villian. And Little Fox (yes that what we call YS!!) grew on me slowly.
    And the stigma is there, in the background and in her head. That’s what I liked. It was not in your face, but i’ts how societies thinking somehow makes us fall into that notion and align with the idea that ‘we are too old for this or him’.

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      Yeah. I definitely agree with the stigma being there. I also think it makes sense that Yuan Song went for her – he’s young and fearless after all. Little fox? LOL

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    Well you had me at Noona Romance. It’s on my to watch list!

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      When/if you watch it, let me know your thoughts!
      “Noona romance” was all I needed to hear as well. I’m a sucker for them. 😂

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    I watched this show recently. I hated it. Absolutely hated it. The main two annoyed me throughout. The female lead is indecisive and self-deceptive, while the dude is incredibly haughty and also sort of pushy. The dude became better as the series progressed, but the female lead got worse (seriously, how can somebody dither so much?). I also found the dynamic between them completely stilted. Somehow, it felt like he was much older than her, which was especially odd because he looks like he’s 16.

    The overarching problem, though, was the pacing of this show. It was just so goddamn slow. They could’ve taken the 40 episode run and turned it into a 16 episode show and it still might have been too slow.

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      Thanks Maq. I do agree with you. He was very disrespectful of her position as his boss, and a senior at the start of the show, and I completely disliked him. I actually think the older guy was better suited to her. AND yes, she kept dragging things for too long. It just didn’t get the dynamic of thigns right.

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        I will say that one of her colleagues, the guy who got appendicitis, he was really cute and a real gentleman. I liked him and his relationship.

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Hi, Bye Mama. I dunno if I was laughing or crying buckets but what an amazing opening episode. Seriously recommended.

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#BTSComeback2020 – It couldn’t get better than this! 😍😍
BTS, my loves. I haven’t heard the whole album yet, but do absolutely love this title.
Also Yoongleshwar my man, killing those expressions!

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Life update: interviews done! Now it time to wait for decisions in March.

Which dramas should I watch?

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    Um, azzo’s wall?

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    But for real, Crash Landing was great! I’m catching up on Tale of Nokdu, which I missed last winter. I liked My Country too—but pretend the main FL isn’t part of the story. Do Hwan and Se Jong were excellent in this—oh, and Jang Hyuk too! I’m looking forward to Hospital Playlist from the team that brought Prison Playbook. I’m also in until the end of Romantic Doctor 2 next week!

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      nice! I did catch CLOY, and mostly enjoyed it. YES looking forward to Hospital Playlist! Yay! Glad to see watching dramas as always ally! *hugs*

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    – Kdrama rec, “My Holo Love”
    – TWdrama rec, (but I personally have not watched either), “Yong Jiu’s Grocery Store”, “Someday or One Day”
    – Cdrama rec, go thru the whole cycle for “The Untamed” (again, if you have not already done so)… Manhua, donghua, audio drama, “The Untamed”, “The Untamed” Special Edition
    – Jdrama (also a BL drama if you’re into BL), “The Novelist”, “Indigo Mood”

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    Hi, G. Good to see you again.
    Beanies seem to be swept up by the swoony Hyunbin-Sohn Yejin pairing in Crash Landing on You. So if you are in the mood for epic romance, this one might be a good place to start.
    I’m waiting for Hi Bye Mama to air this Saturday (Lee Kyu-hyung is back!) and also Hospital Playlist next March.
    Oh, and from the very lively discussion, Itaewon Class also seem to be good as it tackled many social issues.

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      Hi gadis! I looked up Hi, Bye, Mama after your message and oooooh – I like the premise..just in time as well since it’s started airing. 🙂 Also Lee Kyu-hyung in a lead role? You must be pleased!

      I watched CLOY too! Haha.
      Not feeling Itaewon Class – I’ve dropped it after ep 5.

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    Your Fukubukuro (Chinese Drama) 你的未来已签收
    the ep are short and it’s just 12ep in total
    it’s a simple, nice watch, a delight 🙂

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      Hi kudo! Thanks. 🙂 I didn’t know there were short C-dramas as well! I’m glad, since the length is my biggest issue

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    Welcome back Greenfields. I have seen you logging in sometimes and I am glad you reached the interview stage and will hopefully get that cleared too.

    For dramas, I’d say start with the C drama Find Yourself. I don’t know if you watch C dramas or not but lately they have been better than kdramas. Find Yourself is perhaps the best contemporary C drama I have seen. I know your choices and I am sure you’ll love it. While there are 41 episodes, they are only 40 mins long and in no time you’ll find yourself (lol) binging them and perhaps finish it before any kdrama. On the kdrama side, have you seen Be Melodramatic? That is great and I love it but my first recommendation to you will be to watch Find Yourself.

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      Hey wapz! Thanks a ton. I’m hoping to hear good news from at least one school. >_< *all fingers crossed.

      Thanks for the recommendation – I also trust your choices, so Find Yourself it is. I don't watch a lot of C-dramas because of their length but 41 eps on a good drama is definitely a length I can do. I watched Be Melo last year when it aired. Absolutely loved it. 🙂

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    BLACK DOG!!!

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    Welcome back!

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    Stove League was great.

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Hot Stove League
Give me season 2! Such a good show. Sports dramas like this are always incredibly satisfying.

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The premise of #ItaewonClass bugs me. This brilliant 18 yr old girl dedicates her time/\”life\” to make an average 27 yr guy \”amazing\” whilst wrestling for his love against another brilliant, beautiful, driven woman who also just happens to love him.

The average dude is worth these two amazing women (well, one woman & one girl) because he\’s got integrity, a heart of gold, honour & life has treated him unfairly. Never mind that he\’s an ex con and all that, he\’s got lots of potential.

I…don\’t like it. :/

Also Kwon Na Ra & Kim Da Mi are putting up a superb, compelling performance & that\’s the only reason I\’m watching. I\’m okay on Park Seo Joon. This is not a stunning performance & not his best work – I can imagine a dozen other actors pulling off the same role in the same way.

By ep 5, I think I\’ve had enough.

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    I’m intrigued by the comic book style it has going as well as Kim Da Mi and Lee Joo Young’s characters. And as someone pointed out (@egads I believe), it’s kind of a reverse candy trope (with Park Seo Joon being the candy). I’ll be fast forwarding most of the evil chaebol antics.

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      Reverse candy is a good observation. It kind of is..but also isn’t? I think Saeroyi somehow still retains a lot of “power” and “autonomy” – as in, it’s still very entrenched in traditional Asian ideas despite being otherwise okay? Like the cool transgender character.

      I like what you say about comic book style. Definitely evident in their hairstyles and obvious identification marks. 🙂 Now that you point it out, I sort of see it and it’s nice indeed

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    Honestly? The moment I heard about the premise my first thought was “the author is a guy”.
    Then again, majority of kdramas are two highly successful, charming guys spending time on an average girl with a heart of gold, who was treated unfairly by life.
    *Eye roll*
    I would definitely prefer if none of those tropes excited and shows had a realistic, belivable lovelines.
    The average girl meets an average guy and they both work hard to become brilliant.
    The brilliant Ceo meets a brilliant lawyer or someone with the same outlook on life/goals and they fall in love.

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Dear Beans, I\’ve been following your Love February posts without signing in, and I have to say, this is indeed the best month of the year. You are all amazing, beanies. Thank you @hotcocoagirl for Love February.

I don\’t really have much to say, except to express fear that my efforts over the past year, the heart and soul I poured into turning my life around, will come to naught at very final stage.

So this post is selfishly dedicated to me, less than a week from my 30th birthday, a pat on my back. You\’ve done well, me. A little bit further to go. Don\’t lose heart.

Love,
February

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    We were thinking about you the other day on discord and were hoping things go well for you. Fighting!!

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      We were, and we were saying that we miss hearing from you, but wish you all the best as you move forward on this new adventure. (Fingers and toes are crossed with the hope that all your hard work is acknowledged)

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        Thank you. *fingers crossed. To be precise, of five applications, I have three interviews, one rejection without interview and one waitlist/ding (unknown). So it’s not bad. The interviews alone are a massive confidence boost. 🙂

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          Good luck on your interviews.
          Just be yourself with maybe some Suga confidence sprinkled on top.

          I dont follow BTS but think you usually post about how he overcomes.

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          3 interviews out of 5 applications already seems like a huge achievement. Applications are really competitive!!! This alone means your hard work has been acknowledged and you deserve to make it in. Now you just have to pass the next step.
          So close!!

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            Second this. When I was looking for my first job, I only got 1 out of 50. 😢

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            Thanks Sat. *fingers crossed! I’m pleased but still worried. 🙂

            (@msrabbit – this is for school 🙂 hence the high rate of conversion. Job interviews are a whole other ball game)

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      Thank you blue! They actually are going good. I just have a last difficult hurdle to clear. 😅 And am becoming worried. Can’t wait to be done and join dramabeans again.

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    Good luck! And remember – age is just a number and there are no rules about what you need to do or where you need to be at any time in your life. Don’t let it overwhelm you. Personally, for me, life got infinitely better after 30. You’re doing exactly what you need to do, and you’re exactly where you need to be, and what’s meant to be will be. You have done well, and I applaud you for taking the steps to do something with your life that will make you fulfilled. No effort is wasted effort when it comes to growth. Rooting for you and sending you all the good vibes!

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      Everything will be fine after 30 is like my life’s motto. I’m pleased to hear it is the truth for you. Thanks Snarky. I hope all is well with you?

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        Things are good here, except for the world being on fire (both metaphorically and literally). Still dealing with crazy work but not as overwhelmed as I was before. Hopefully I’ll be able to take a proper break soon. Good luck with your interviews! Are they coming up soon? I miss seeing you around these parts.

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          Ooh I hope you’re able to take a nice break soon? Have something planned?

          Thanks for the best wishes. Yes, I’m done with one interview and have two more coming up. They’ll be done in Feb – and then I cannot wait to return full time to this little corner of the net.

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            Well, I was planning to go to LA for a long weekend, but now I may have to go to the UK for a family wedding (so, need at least 5 days – because desi) so that’s a little up in the air. Also may need to go to Canada which also messes with my LA plans. And I wanted to make it to New York and DC this year because I haven’t been to either in a while and I have friends and family in both. But LA my priority and is happening the moment I can get it to work.

            Basically I will go somewhere by June, the question is mostly when and where. After June my mother is having surgery so I need to be here to help with that.

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            Wow that’s a lot happening Snarky. Hope your mum’s surgery goes well! I hope things are ok with her?

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    Ahh just a little more!! I’ll be cheering for you from half across the world.

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    Hi @greenfields Happy Advanced Birthday and welcome to the 30’s! All the best with your interviews too 🙂

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      Thanks parkchuna, I have a related question – how did you deal with the 30th birthday? 😂 I’m feeling old.

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        a lot of whining! but snarky up there is right, age is just a number, once you hit 30 you’ll realise it’s no big deal..until you’re reaching the next decade and change of digits that is 😅 To comfort myself, I just think that everything has a time and place; and God’s timing is never wrong.

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    a friend said to me yesterday, and I think it’s everything I want to say to you,

    “You’re perfect, and tomorrow is a new day. We just need to keep going forward.”

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    Fighting greenie!!

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    잘 했어 ~!!!!!

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    thank you for sharing some news, hwaiting and good luck for the upcoming interviews Greenfields !
    and happy birthday in advance 🙂

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    Best of luck GF! Even the first steps towards making a change take courage, and to stay with it is not easy. You definitely have done well and we Beans are cheering for you 😊

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    One of my favorite quotes:

    T. E. Lawrence. All men dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dreams with open eyes, to make it possible.

    May you be dangerous. Fighting!

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Life update:
Applications Done. 💃🎶😊 Now to wait and hope to receive interview invites.

I’ve applied to 5 schools, so total no. of interview-invite outcomes: 2^5 = 32

That means there’s a 31/32 chance that at least one school will interview me?

That feels…pretty okay? Note that applying to more schools would have probably adversely affected my chances since the quality of each application would have dropped. So a probability of 31/32 is optimal, really the best I could ask. Only a 3.125% chance of no interviews at all, but a 96.875% chance of at least one – though of course, I want the 3.125% chance of all five.

*fingers crossed*

In the meantime, BTS released an awesome song by Yoongi. A nice reward for the applications / Stage 2 of applications that consumed an entire 2 months of my life.

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Happy 2020 everyone! I wish you much joy and cheer in the coming year. <3

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Crash Landing on You: Taking ridiculous to new heights!
🥴🤣
There’s suspension of disbelief, and then there’s…this?

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I have to say that applications are extremely challenging & I alternate between extreme confidence (\”yes, why not Harvard!\”) and extreme lows (\”I\’m aiming too high, none of these schools are going to accept me, gosh what will i do when i\’m rejected by them. ive made this mistake, im definitely out.\”). Ugh. A yo-yo. Someone save me from myself. Also I can\’t network to save my life. I\’m trying, but I honestly suck at it. I have no idea how to sell myself, and I\’m groping in the dark here.

Anyhow. Random thoughts of an MBA applicant who is feeling the pressure.

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    I feel you because I’m the same. I either undersell myself or wonder why I’m even trying to get in the room. But remember – you are a lawyer with experience, and even if you think it’s not relevant experience, it’s something. Look back at all your work, and ask yourself what you were proud of. If that is too much, what can you look back on now and ask yourself you learned from the things you did? And break down what you learned – were you able to adapt your writing to fit different styles? Did you learn new research methods? Did you become an inadvertent expert on something totally random? etc. Remember, it’s not always about the end product being good, but rather that it’s in the steps we take to create an end product where we grow.

    You got this! Sending you good vibes and lots of luck!

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      That’s seriously good advice. I feel like I have a block when thinking about myself, though I go very deep into everything else. I’ll take your exact questions and see if I can add strengths to my essays. I’m aiming to hit submit on all my applications by the 31st, and whatever video essays remain, by the 3rd. *fingers crossed*

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        Good Luck! I know you’ve got this. Remember – just break things down into smaller pieces and look at the big picture later.

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    How exciting. Are you thinking about international schools? I wish I’d taken school more seriously and used the time to expand.
    I say go for it all even the ones you think are a shot in the dark.

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    I am dealing with the exact same thing applying for undergraduate colleges. Except I was deferred from one of my top schools which made me doubt myself even more, so I’ve been leaning towards the extreme lows recently. I’m trying to keep going though and apply to more schools before the quickly upcoming deadlines.

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      Take heart, you were deferred and not rejected! I will cross my fingers for you!

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        Thanks bbstl! The acceptance rate for deferred applicants is crazy low, but I know there’s so many other schools out there so I’m trying to remain hopeful. It’s hard not to feel the pressure though…

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          Of course, the pressure is terrible! Terrible! I wouldn’t be your age again for anything. Well, maybe for some cute oppas … but I digress. Does it help to think that a year from now you’ll already be home for Winter Break from the school you do pick? Your first semester will be under your belt! I know the day-to-day grind can really wear a girl down while you’re going through it but chin up, young person! Amazing what will happen in a year 😘

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            Thank youuuu this helped a lot! I definitely need to keep the big picture in mind.

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      *low five*? Applications are tough indeed.
      Sorry to hear about being deferred from one of your top schools, I hope the others reply with positive news!

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    Hang in there! When I mistakenly thought I didnt get accepted in grad school I was a mess. Turns out I was looking at an old list. What a dummy. 🤣 I have been rejected by the university 2x (undergrad, med school) so i def thought i was too dumb. I went to different university before which was also great, but this application was torture. Yo-Yo feelings are normal. Talk about your fears. Just like bungee, friends and fam will pull you right back up. 💜

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      I totally understand. I remember reading your posts Le_ssy. First about not getting in, then actually getting in haha. 🙂

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    Take Snarkyjellyfish’s good advice and dont beat yourself up. Seriously. Every single step of my becoming a librarian was a ridiculously difficult path (Its a library job! Shouldnt be this difficult!) including but not limited to not getting in to like 3 of the schools I applied too, FLUNKING OUT (whooooo boy, there’s a story there if you ever need a story of school and life going horribly, horribly wrong) gathering my courage to try again, get accepted and come thisclose to flunking out AGAIN (and this time with no outside influence, just me not being quite good enough). And honestly, everyone here knows the rocky employment path I’ve walked since I’ve graduated.
    Its been harder than anticipated a whole heck of a lot of them time. But? As I sit here in my own little apartment on my own little couch? The victories, when they come, are worth it.
    You’ve got this thing, man.
    And you’ve got a whole international network of beanies to remind you if you should happen to forget.
    And networking is hard. I think that theres a very small percentage of the world that is actually good at it—but that percentage is filled with loud people and they’ve convinced the rest of the world that we need to be good at it too. They stink.

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      *hugs* yes, your determination has been amazing to follow, and I’m sorry you had so many hurdles. Congratulations on the victories.

      They stink. 200% and now this person who is bad at networking will hopefully beat some of them at at least one school.

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    Don’t let applications drag you into the pit! It’s not a fun or helpful place to be. I know, I know, easy to say all of this, hard to actually practice it (I know from personal experience). But you can do this!

    Side note: Law to MBA? Switching careers? All I know about the MBA application process is that it requires the GMAT and that the math part of the GMAT can be hard unless one practices a great deal.

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      Switching careers yes. Though if I’m rejected from all the schools I apply to (which is possible, I’m aiming very high), then I’m still a lawyer. 😀
      Have you finished your legal studied maq?

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        I’ll be praying for you success in the application process!

        Starting my final semester in January! I’m excited about starting work in July, although I’ve been told by many of my mentors that the first 5-ish years as a lawyer are hellish (although things apparently get much better afterwards).

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