Beanie level: The Goblin’s underpants

I just need a medium to vent out my feelings.
Yesterday my boyfriend of 10 years told me that he told his parents about us 1 month back and tried convincing them a lot even asking his relatives to convince them but they didn’t agree. They are not in a good health condition.
I had my MD exam last week so he didn’t tell me anything so that I can give my best but I failed to do my best in that also.
My life is complete mess right now. I don’t know how to move on from now on wards. My mother died in 2011 and now he also will move away from my side. He was my best friend too. Losing him is just devastating and worst thing tomorrow 24th July was going to be our 10 years anniversary.
I feel angry that he’s not trying enough but somehow I understand his situation too. I just wish I could have been a selfish bad person or a person indifferent to feelings.
Letting him go from my side is just way too hard.
We both were schoolmates and so we have common friend circle. I’m so scared about how things will be in future.
I’m a complete mess right now. Whole night couldn’t sleep and from morning had loose motions and vomiting with stomachache. I was controlling my tears as my dad was at home. I felt so bad that he had to make lunch on his own and was worried about me that I tried to tell him but was scared as my dad is anti-love (Indian family) but when I tried I started crying and he was so tensed which I could see on his face and was on the verge of crying that I had to make him calm and then while crying I told him that I like a boy and his family are against our marriage. He told he’ll get me married with a good boy and all my money is yours only- I felt so bad that he was not angry with me- I just cried and apologized and diverted the topic.
I had no desire or appetite to eat but just for my dad I’ll try hard from tomorrow.
No goals in life.
I’m a homoeopathic doctor by profession but I have Vitiligo and it’s not just small spots but on 75% of my body.
I try to give my best and I’m not depressed about the disease as I truly believe beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. I stay happy only but being a doctor having a disease just drives my morale somehow low.
Many patients are really happy but some I feel are skeptical.
I can’t open my own clinic where I stay as I don’t know the local language.
Not doing well in my exam means I don’t have any options left.
How to move on from now onwards guys? Need help but will I be able to fly again in life?

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    I don’t know what advice to give you since I’ve never been in your situation but I just wanted to tell you that everything will fine. Hang in there and everything will work itself out. Also, you will be able to fly again, as long as you believe you can. All of my luck and good wishes are sending out to you right now!

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    Ahh, your post is hitting close to home. I can only offer you my sympathies and all the hugs in the world.

    You life is hard and breakups are always hard, even if you understand why. Change is also really hard. Being indifferent is hard. And you have your own /other/ problems to deal with. I’m speaking from recent experience, though I’m not going to compare.

    It’s ok to cry and be lost for a little while. It’s ok to take your time to figure things out one thing at a time.

    What helps for me to move on is the little steps – not the long term goals or finding the meaning of my life or whatever. But. Getting that dentist appointment booked that was long overdue. Getting some administration done. Finally fixing the doorhandle that broke months ago. Even though I’m moving and starting a new job and just went through a breakup, it’s the normal little things that feel productive which I can check off my to-do list that keep me going. And at some point I’ll have the strength to do the big things, like moving out, finding a new thing to study, set goals that stretch beyond the next week or two.

    It’s ok not to have everything figured out and it’s ok to be upset and it’s OK to be overwhelmed. Moving on takes time, but you can take it slow.

    Hwaiting!

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    I am sorry to hear what you are going through. I wish you well and hope you find peace soon in your life. Every time I feel things have gone too bad I tell myself this – ‘This is it, you have hit rock bottom. You can only go up from here’. Somehow I feel I have always come out of the bad phases. You will too. Time will pass and you will look back at this and see that life indeed taught you some valuable lessons.

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    I really hope you can keep your head up. With everything going on, you still show a positive attitude, that means that there is a way out. Reading your words tells me that you are a strong person and strong people are never beaten down by circumstances.

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    You are going through extreme emotions but you don’t need to blame yourself for everything. It is completely fine if your dad made dinner, after reading about your mother it seems like you might have been in a semi caregiver role hence, it is ok to relax and give yourself some time to unwind. If your patients had doubts about you, they would’ve changed their doctor by now. And you should just be proud that many are satisfied. Not everything in this world that is happening to you is your mistake. Your friends, it might get awkward with them for a while but the true ones will stay with you. So just take your time, relax, unwind and try to get over this relationship positively.

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    Hugs dear!
    Everything gonna be okay!
    I don’t know if you have watched my Ahjussi but I wanted to say this line from it for you: This is no big deal, you will get over it.
    (If you haven’t seen it, it’s perfect drama to watch and share your sadness with)
    On personal/ professional front, I would highly recommend you to learn that local language (which language is it?) Learning Language will provide with the most required distraction right now and keep you busy and also give you the only thing that you need to be able to open your own clinic (okay there are other things as well but this one is the most important one) and also if you go to some language class you will meet new people and have new friends and you can now have a different set of friends as well. This will help you to move on as well.
    And it’s okay to be sad today and cry today but remember tomorrow you have to get up and be ready for new things!
    And you can always find us here to chat !
    Hugs again
    Go Google language courses in your city and look at your city from the eyes of its local language, it will be a new experience and very exciting as well !

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    Dear Mimu,
    Wow you’re homoeopathic doctor!? This is an amazing achievement! I’m sure a lot of people see you as someone very successful and respect you so much!! This includes many of your patients who believe on you!
    Remember, people often feel frustrated because of losing hope and faith in life, love or something else. We’ve all been there at some point in our life! People who see you from outside might see you as someone very successful, inspiring and respectable, but if you lose hope you might not see it in yourself!
    Try to make a small plan for yourself everyday (for the coming day, it does not need to be long-term, or exceptional)! Just make a little hope every day! Remember that, End is not the end, in fact E.N.D is “Effort Never Dies” & if you get NO in answer then remember NO is “Next Opportunity”… keep living your life and make small efforts no matter what!! Good luck my dear!

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    Venting is therapeutic. I hope you feel better soon. But it sounds like it will be a while before you will. You are accomplished and valuable. Someone else will see that. I know what you mean by finding worth in your career, but sometimes that’s not enough. Having a disease makes you more human to your patients too and more empathetic as well. Get up every day and breathe, do something small for yourself, try to talk to new people, network, and maybe you will find your niche. Or find someone else who has no family objections to you, or someone else who will fight for you in spite of their family. I’m sure you can.

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Beanies!!
I loved Ten Miles of peach blossoms & Ashes of love. I started Legend of Fu Yao but it’s not captivating my interest. Can you guys recommend me any other Wuxia dramas?

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    “The Princess Weiyoung” is another good one!! 😁😁It can be found on Netflix, YouTube, and Viki
    Just like the other ones (though I have not watched Fu Yao), the female lead is pretty strong and isn’t a damsel that needs saving— it’s one of the reasons why I love wuxia dramas so much, they’re not afraid to make strong female leads 👌🏻👌🏻

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      Thank you so much. 🙂 Seriously the girls are so strong female leads which captivates my interest.
      Btw by any chance are you watching The lost tomb 2? I had watched The lost tomb which had less episodes and liked it so I was thinking to start.

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        I haven’t watched the Lost Tomb series at all, but I’ve heard great things about it 😉😉 And shorter episode count seems like a relief 😂😂😅😅

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          Yang Yang was there in The last Tomb and I was happier that I liked him even Before Love O2O. You can give it a try it’ll be worth watching. The sequel has 42 episodes and the leads are not the same so I’m perplexed about starting it.

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Beanies!!
Which one is better Legend of Fu Yao or Ashes of love?

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    ashes any given day..
    fu yao.. just watch kiss scene and skip everything else

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      Thank you. 🙂
      I started Ashes after reading the spoiler about the ending of Legend of Fuyao.

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        nothing psecial about ending.. that show is subpar at all levels.. even romance..

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    I’m on ep 5 of Ashes. It is a cotton candy world, but that is what I’m in the mood for right now.
    I dont know the other one.

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    Never watched Fu Yao because I can’t stand Yang Mi in period dramas (the only reason I don’t like “Three Lives, Three Worlds, Ten Miles of Peach Blossoms”), But she’s fine in modern dramas

    “ASHES OF LOVE” ALL DAY. EVERY DAY 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️
    Seriously, I’ve legitimize lost count of how many times I’ve rewatched it already— all 63 episodes (60 on Viki) or bits and pieces

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      I’ve watched only Les interpretes and Ten miles of peach blossom drama starring Yang mi. So can’t speak much about where she’s much better but for sure the story line of ten miles of peach blossom was so awesome that I got interested in Chinese period drams.
      Before i used to watch only modern day dramas.

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I’m happy Woo Do Hwan joined The King : The Eternal Monarch.
He always reminds me of Kim Woo Bin & Ji Chang Wook.
https://www.soompi.com/article/1329367wpp/woo-do-hwan-confirmed-to-join-lee-min-ho-and-kim-go-eun-in-writer-kim-eun-sooks-new-drama





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Moon Chae-won is looking so awesome. ❤️__❤️

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Congratulations to them!! ❤️__❤️ ❤️__❤️


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That’s me today as happy as Yoo Seung-ho. ❤️__❤️

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😍



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❤️__❤️


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This scene cracked me up. 🤣🤣🤣🤣





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Gosh!! Cha Eun-woo is extremely handsome. ❤️__❤️


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❤️__❤️





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These three, I can watch them anytime.😍





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I’m so ready for him to get his Nose kiss.😍😍





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This scene.🤣🤣





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They’re so cute together.❤️





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Yes!!! you’re Hong-shim’s husband for sure.❤️__❤️



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He’s looking so handsome and cute.😍😍




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Major life lesson taught by the great Do Bong-soon. 😍🤣🤣


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These two and their chemistry.❤️❤️❤️❤️




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