Beanie level: Errand boy

Hello my lovelies! Its been ages since I last spoke to you guys. How have you been? What are you guys watching?

I’m doing much better now. I got accepted to the University of Exeter for my MA in English Literary Studies for the Renaissance nad Medival pathway. I had been stressing about this for some time, but now that I got in that burden’s been lifted off my chest.

I’ll be going in September and would love to meet some beanies sometime. Anyone living in the UK?

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    welcome back deary..missed you so so much.
    soo happy for you that you are feeling better than before and good to know you are planning to do what you wanted to….
    all the very best for your future and welcome back once again…

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      Hi chingu! I missed you too! I missed all our conversations on Ye-sem, lol! You changed your name so I couldn’t recognize you. Thank you for your words they mean a lot. Yes I’m happy to be feeling better and not down like I was a couple of months ago. Taking time out really helped put things into perspective. I did watch dramas in between though not as frequently. I loved Life on Mars and the ending really teared me up. Currently watching 30 but 17 which I just love love love! I ship her with our resident puppy as much as I ship her with the main lead! This is going to lead to some heartache soon. 🙁

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    Perfect! Just in time for the September Beanie meet-up.

    http://www.dramabeans.com/members/saya/activity/580601/

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      OMO! This is so freaking cool! I so hope I can meet you guys! *off to make a Rabb.it account*

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    Congratulations!
    And sending hugs for making it through the past few months. I haven’t seen your last post before, so I’m sending them only now. You made a good choice and you’re an inspiration to me. Good luck with studying and welcome back!

    You haven’t missed anything important EXO-wise. Everyone is just waiting… For a comeback. Getting desperate. It looks like September/October so far.
    D.O will have a drama in September (main role, 100 Days My Prince). Chanyeol in November (secondary role, Memories of Alhambra). EXO wrapped up Elyxion with two concerts in Macau. The probability of OT9 comeback is low, but we’re not losing hope. This was EXO news, thank you for attention.

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      Thank you chingu! It means so much to me to hear you say that and to come back here and still find you guys as supportive and welcoming! I’ll carry your words in my heart for the rough days!

      I heard about the D.O’s new drama and I’m really looking forward to it since it looks like its gonna be a hoot! He’s always so good at his acting roles that I’m sure I’ll end up loving this drama. Chanyeol though, I’ve my doubts. He’s my third bias but my baby really cannot act lol! I hope he has improved though so keeping my fingers crossed for that one!

      I so wished I could have gone to the Elyxion concert. I think they might soon be sending some of our boys to the army though. This year was too hectic and I think they wanted to give their all before being sent to the army. 🙁 Hopefully we hear some good news soon and they can push off army duty fir anther year. But I really don’t think we will have a comeback anytime soon. But still as you said, keeping my hopes up high and my fingers crossed for some good news soon!

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        Of course! Always here for you chingu. 🙂

        I am so proud of him for getting a leading role in a tvN evening drama. I feel like he’s the only EXO member who could possibly make people appreciate his acting regardless of their K-pop preferences. (Sorry Suho.) I think Chanyeol is good when he’s playing himself. I saw Missing Nine and his acting seemed fine to me there. His role was 90% Chanyeol though (he said so himself). If his role of a younger brother in this new drama is similar, he’ll be fine. Hopefully.

        I’ve heard Xiumin might get one more year off because of his Masters. Their comeback will happen this autumn, that’s sure, after NCT Dream and Girls’ Generation comeback. NCT Dream is scheduled for the beginning of September, so October sounds realistic. Lay is also releasing a new album, everyone’s been hoping it would come out before EXO’s comeback, but it got posponed for some reason, so OT9… Doesn’t sound as realistic.

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    Congrats 🎉🎉🎉🎉 missed you a lot.

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      I missed you too @waadmay!! I missed seeking you oppa posts early morning as well. I’ll be sure to check out your wall and save some pics of my favorite oppa for the coming months lol!

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        Of course anytime honey 😘😘😘😘💝💝💝💝*hugs*

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    Welcome back!!! Glad to hear things are going well 🙂
    I’m currently watching 30 but 17 which is the cutest, fluffiest thing I’ve seen since Shopping King Louie.
    Also watching My ID is Gangnam Beauty which is addressing issues of beauty standards and bullying but is also still a pretty light, fun watch.
    I’m very slowly “binge watching” Gaksital and Reply 1994. I’m about 3/4 of the way through both and have kiiiiind of lost interest but I’m definitely going to finish them.
    Are you watching anything?

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      Thank you! I’m glad to be back!
      Yes! I’m also watching 30 but 17 and crushing hard on both guys! Can I not have sad puppy boy for myself? I just want to save him from the inevitable heartbreak when he realizes his uncle likes her as well. 🙁
      I’ve only watched 4 episodes of ID Gangnam so far and its really good as well! I’m trying to pace myself though since I’m don’t want to end up crying over the lack of episodes to watch. I like it so far. I also have a severe case of SLS when watching it because damn, but that TA is just super super fine! I mean I’ve been crushing on Kwak Dong-yeon since his seguek hair days in Moonlight so yeah. This will probably hurt before it gets better.

      Also yesss! I got my brother to binge watch reply 1997 with me. He hates Korean dramas so it was such a surprise that he started watching it with me and then got totally hooked into the story line! Its still one of my favorite shows even though its super long and exhausting at times. Also, Gaksitaaaaaaaaaaaal! Lol that show killed me with the bromance. I watched it a while ago and still remember some very epic moments from that. Its my second favorite Jo won drama after Good doctor. But yes it does get tiring after a while.

      Recently I watched Life on Mars and cried my way through the finale. I don’t care if it was real or all in his head I just want to think of them solving crimes and all living happily ever after. I’m also watching Your Honor and although I really like the story and the characters, I feel like Yoon Shi yoon is overacting in a lot of places and it really takes me out of the drama. Comparatively You‑Young Lee is a lot more natural. But they are both so adorable that I end up enjoying all of their scenes together!

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        The inevitable heartbreak is killing me. I hope Chan gets his own happy ending.
        I think Gaksital is going to get better now. I was getting tired of the will-Shunji-find-out the-secret-or-not plot that was going on for five or six episodes but he just found out so I’m excited to see what happens next.
        That’s awesome that you got your brother to watch Reply 1997 🎉🎉🎉 My family is totally uninterested in kdramas 😔
        I heard that Life on Mars was super good but I wasn’t able to watch it since Viki and Dramafever didn’t get it.
        Kwak Dong Yeon totally rocked that mane of glory in MDBC 😍 I’m loving him in Gangnam Beauty too. It’s great to see him playing such a nice guy after his brief cameo as the two-timing boyfriend in Fight My Way.

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    Wow, congrats. That sounds amazing!

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    Congrats and welcome back @silvermists! I missed your posts! Will keep an eye out for them now:D

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    Missed you! Congrats on the move! What an adventure. Have fun and good luck!

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    Welcome back! Good to see you!

    Congrats on your acceptance to the university! 🙂

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Good morning beanies! How have you guys been doing? I miss posting comments and having conversations with you guys. I’ve been feeling a little depressed lately. Last month was particularly bad with my mood swinging all over the place. I would be fine one moment and just irrationally upset the next. Whenever I get like that I tend to just shut myself off from people which is just the worse thing to do. This time around though I’ve actively been working to make sure I don’t shut everyone out of my life or avoid people. It was hard but I went out and met some friends and told them what was really going on with me. It felt like a burden had been lifted off my chest and I wasn’t awkward round them or anxiously trying to avoid people. It was fine for a while, but last night around 3 am I just broke down crying in my room. My chest felt suffocated, I couldn’t breathe, and I just wanted to scream all the pain away. And it hurt. It still hurts this morning even though I look perfectly happy and fine. I’m at work tying this right now. I felt like I needed to share this with you guys.

I decided last night to take some time off for myself. I’m quitting my job in two weeks. It’s been a long time coming and I handed in my resignation 3 months ago. I think it’s time to take a break, breathe, and do some soul searching without feeling the overwhelming guilt of not doing anything relevant when all my friends are off to different countries living their lives. I want to take a break. I want to declutter my room and my life. I want to start yoga or go running and take care of myself. I put on about 7KG’s this year from just stress eating. Which is insane. I just let myself go in so many ways from feeling overwhelming guilt and not feeling good enough. Which is also insane because I’ve never lacked for self-confidence before. Feeling sort of worthless is new for me and yes it sucks. But this isn’t a pity party. This is me putting myself first and taking care of myself and taking a break to figure out my life and take control again.

All this is to say I might take a break from Dramabeans. I will be lurking here and reading/liking comments for sure. I’m still watching dramas (What’s wrong with Secretary Kim, Lawless Layer, Investigation Couple) but just not post as much. I have been working on my writing, writing reviews on Goodreads. I would also like to write some articles on what dramas mean for me. It’s something I’ve been meaning to do for a while and now that I have free time I want to get to it. Hopefully you will see my posts soon. I love you guys. You have no idea how much it means to me to be on this Dramabeans and talk to you guys and gush over dramas. I’ll see you guys again soon.

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    We will miss your obvious presence but enjoy your break from DB and work. Until next time!

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    I feel you on the part about worrying you’re not doing anything relevant while your friends are well on their way to bigger things. But taking time off to take care of yourself and bring yourself to a better place emotionally is more important than any other material achievements.

    Take care, you know us Beanies will still be around when you’re back ^^

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    take care of yourself and all your words above hows just how much you have been suffering all within you.
    And very great decision to take time for yourself and not worry abt the world… hope you feel better soon and enjoy the life which is given to you.
    also you are brave to post it out open and keep it up….and we are here forever if you need support…

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    Take all the time you need for yourself and please take care. We will wait for your return!

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    I empathize completely, I have felt the same way – cranky, moody, depressed and not much like talking to people. I know that mine stems form not actually seeing other people than my kids all day – my kids are 22, 22, 15 and 12 so it’s not like being with toddlers all day, but I still need fresh faces and alone time – I hope that your time away refreshes your batteries and lifts your spirits.

    Sending hugs!

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    *hugs* I completely understand, and I’m proud of you for being able to prioritize yourself. We’ll all be waiting here with arms wide open when you do return! Good luck!

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    Bravo for taking time to replenish yourself. Take care! *Fighting!*

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    Take care, Silvermists! We’ll miss you, but good on you for taking your well-being as the priority.

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    So sorry to hear about your struggle *hugs* , I wish I was near to give you a propre hug 😘😘😘
    Good decision to take time for yourself and don’t feel like you have done nothing in your life while your friends are out there doing thier things cause you did do something or many things to people in your life or around you and you didn’t notice maybe cause you are a gentle caring sensitive human being and beanie
    Luv ya take care 🤗🤗😘😘😘😘😘💖💖💖💖💖

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I’m just coming out of my drama hiatus to say Lawless Lawyer is perfection and I’ve the biggest crush on Seo Ye-ji and Lee Jun-ki and I ship them soo hard. That is all!

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    i guess i agree after 5 episodes… i had so bad reaction after 4th one but 5th one was better and finally made me realized how deep m in love with LJK and his acting and action..

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      I’m still on episode 3. Had to stop watching and go to sleep last night. But I’m going to catch up again once I go home!

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        ahh take care of urself and your sleep.. thats the most important thing.
        do share your views after finishing

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I’m also going to try and do a 24 hour readathon over Fri-Sat because why not?? I haven’t done that before officially. But I read through the night till morning all the time so why not?

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    Everytime a new Harry Potter is released, I’d read it almost non-stop (I need to get food then continue reading while eating plus bath room breaks) until I’m finished. I remember the Order of the Phoenix,read it in 16 hours, after I got my hands on it,after lining up for 3 hours in the bookstore and traveling back & forth in 4 hours.

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      lol.. totally me..

      i don’t think i slept when beta version of potterworld was launched.. because they would’t disclose time or zone of opening the quiz page.. and it was supposed to run over 7 days… and i think within seconds system would find its lucky beta users daily..
      was so crazy..

      if Marvel and DC have their world.. harry potter world is just as awesome!

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      Omg yes!!! I couldent stop till I finished reading the entire book and wouldn’t get up for anything other than very quick bathroom breaks! I inhaled the books as soon as they came out!

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        There was something about HP, but the loooooong wait for the next one didn’t help.

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Its the freaking weekend (once I’m done with work that is)! Guess who is gonna binge watch My Ajusshi once she’s home??? Lol its me. No one is sleeping tonight!

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    Enjoy! That show is a gem and that’s still an understatement.

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Me when I watch a drama that is sooo good that I’m just satisfied from start to finish:

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    *sighs in contentment* *ahhhhhhh* *sweet dreams of our cotton candy couple*

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    yeahhhh i was waiting for your “me” posts…such a lovely way to explain all ye liners’s thoughts.

    Cotton Candy Couple.. what a lovely name @ravennightstar

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      Hehe thank you!
      It might just be all fluff… but when it melts in your mouth… full of sugary goodness, it’s perfect. Like our couple. 😍

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      Hehe @kdramaswimmer I try to post more often but life calls! So glad you agree with the quote. It sums up my feelings for this drama do completely! I was scared for a but that the ending might be dissasppointing. Only thing I regret is that I wish we had gotten to see the rest of the hospital staff’s reaction to Dr. Ye and Boyoung dating! I bet that would have been so hilarious!

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        yes i hav to agree cause thats all i feel abt this drama and Ye Love Line…. and your posts make me feel so glad that i am not feeling so.

        again on agreement abt the rest of the hospital staff’s reaction to Dr. Ye and Boyoung dating!
        i was so expecting their shocked expressions knowing their dating news…esp how Dr. Kim told BY that Dr.Ye cherishes her…
        hospital staff’s reactions would another hilarious scene to watch.

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Me when I’m just trying to live my best life and stay motivated to do stuff but then reality smacks me in the face like:

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Me when I come home to dramas after a long day of work and just snuggle in with my favorite show like:

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    your talk is so “kdrama-ed” which i love from the bottom of my heart… so well said

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      Thanks! Yes sometimes my love for kdrama just makes me so happy that I started watching it. It’s not just entertaining but you also learn so much about people and relationships as well. It just leaves you feeling warm and fuzzy. Or makes you feel pain. But the point is that it makes you FEEL.

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        yes absolutely it evokes so many feels inside. Just like BY allows us to be in touch with our emotions.

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Me to me when the writer decides to kill off my favorite character after subjecting them (and me) to a lifetime of pain and hurt and endless suffering:

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Me to me when a character is going on a downward spiral of depression and I know shit aint gonna be going well anytime soon:

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Me when my friend entrusts me about their favorite shows or books and then tells me why they love it so much and to not hurt their babies:

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Me to people when they see my resting bitch face and never approach me so they don’t know I’m actually an extremely awkward, weird person IRL:

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    lol… its so apt for me too… and everyone around me wonders why i am like this…

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      Haha I know right?! I have to swear to people that I’m nice person when people get to know me but approaching me! 😂

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When I try to think about what DB means to me and I can only describe it as a friend

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Me when I finally like a new actor enough to stop calling him by his character name and go into full on stalker mode:

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Do you ever just type out the acronyms you use on DB and get frustrated when APAD or BTIOFL doesn’t immediately generate results and then you have to manually type out the words??

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    I understand your frustration. When I opened an account on db to comment for the first time for BTIOFL, I had to keep typing sehee and jiho’s name repeatedly. After some time my keyboard got the hang of it. But unfortunately, now it’s reverted back. The keyboard should have long term memory, like how you type harry, they automatically suggest potter.

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Morning Beanies! Since we had a conversation regarding work yesterday from one of the beanies I thought I would also share. So I have been working as a faculty assistant at this college for about a year now. But about 3 months into the job the management changed hands and went a 180 degree change in policy. Basically they told us we don’t have much of a budget and started firing people in every single department. The result is that we now have 1-2 person per department. I kid you not! In the midst of this chaos and a lot of shitty behavior from people in charge, a lot of people also resigned.
My position is more of a jack of all trades as some people like to think because they ask me to do almost everything. From scheduling appointments/ meetings to substituting classes when a faculty member is absent. I also substitute for the librarian when she’s absent. And most recently the VP secretary quit, so I’m also doing her work. So yeah, a bit of everything means they don’t want to let me go. But I knew once she quits I would have to do her work plus the stuff I was already doing without a raise. So I decided to stick around for a bit and before quitting this semester (at the end of June when everyone goes for vacation). And this way they have plenty of time to look for a replacement and also don’t need me in the interim.
Now the issue is, I haven’t told anyone other than the HOD and the VP that I’m quitting. For one thing I don’t want people to come and ask me what I’m going to do next. I had planned to do my masters this year in September, but those plans are still a little undecided and I don’t really want to go through the whole process of explaining my family situation to others. The problem is, somehow one of my colleagues now knows that I’m quitting and keeps passive aggressively hinting at me not being a good friend because I haven’t shared the news with her. I don’t really consider us to be friends. But she keeps talking about how she’s watching those who are leaving etc. She kept asking me months ago if I’m quitting and to tell her if I was and I told her I would tell her when I’ve decided. But now I feel pressured to say something when I just really don’t want to. Do I tell her anyways since she seems to think I should? Or do I wait like I planned and tell her next month along with the rest of the faculty and staff?
Sorry for the long rant!

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    you are in tough spot dear.
    and before any suggestions i’d want to know how close you 2 are. do you really think of her as best friend and genuine well wisher ?

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      We are not really friends just colleagues. I’m a very private person so I don’t really open up to people that well IRL. So while we have been friendly as in when I pass by her office I stop and chat. Mainly about work and she mainly does the talking. But I haven’t really thought of us as friends. She added me on FB recently after asking me if I was going to quit but I’m hardly on fb so again we haven’t talked.

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        so she is just a colleague and you don’t owe an explanation to her. and all above you said is like she is leading herself on her own without you being interested in more than a formal official friendship.

        so you can ignore her talks whenever she does abt people leaving n hiding and all.

        but at same time if you are feeling bad abt it then try to be diplomatic and dont disclose the things black n white. As if you want to take some rest after all this hectic work and overload so you might think abt leaving sometime in future still not sure when exactly… this is only in case you cant keep things hidden.

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          Thanks for the advice chingu! I definitely feel better about this now. I’ll keep quite for now and see how things go. If I have to absolutely say it I’ll take your advice! Thanks! *finger hearts*

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            ur most welcome… and hope things get better for you….
            i had tough time keeping things hidden for my job change too. and i dint tell anyone abt my selection and all process untill i had the offer letter with me with everything confirmed.

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    No and nope. Even if you were friends, you are under no obligation to tell her your plans until you’re ready to. It sounds harsh but YOU are your own person. This is something I’ve learnt from being on the other side – the one not being told something.

    Sorry to hear about the mess at the College.

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We threw a farewell party for one of our colleague today and got like a ton of food to go around. Most of the women here are just picking up salad and I\’m here with my plate full of pizza, fatayer, and cinnamon rolls. One of my colleagues is side eyeing me. But I don’t care. I’ve been proctoring exams back and forth since morning and answering stupid questions all day while also having no time to eat. So yeah Karen. I need food!

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    You go, girl! Get your food!

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    Huh! Show ’em how food should be eaten!

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    Food is life… thats it…

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    Wow, give me some 😊😊😘😘 and what kind of fatayer plz???! 😋😋😋

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      Ohh they have cheese, spinach, and oregano! *saves some for you*

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      I have never heard of this food till now. I had to google it. Looks very tasty!

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        That’s why I asked, it’s a food of our cuisine *Syrian,Lebanese..etc* so I had to ask 😊😊
        Did you get what it is??! It’s basically a dough filled with (cheese, spinach) and sometimes it is a sauce spread on the dough like olive oil and oregano or tomato with red pepper

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          It makes me hungry!!! Is it eaten as a lunch food? Or is this a snack? Or would this be dinner?

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            It’s mostly eaten as a breakfast 😊 but I eat it for lunch and dinner🙄😆 and sometimes as a snack 😉😉 *it’s not big in size 1-2 would be considered as a snack *

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            I would not have guessed a breakfast food. Hahaha. It makes me want some right now since it’s morning here. I wonder if there are any restaurants near me that would serve such a dish.

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    Yessss!! You eat that food! If it makes your stomach happy, and makes your heart happy, who cares?

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To the beanie who posted the You Drive Me Crazy kiss scene that made me watch this drama: THANK YOU! The kisses and sexual tension is killing me. I\’m ridiculously happy to be watching this right now!!

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    that peach/apricot kiss was possibly one of the best kisses i’d seen in a while because finally they didn’t let a moment of tension go to waste and i also loved how he just kissed her back urgh i’m getting feels just thinking about it.

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      Omg yes! My heart just started pitter pattering like crazy! I just finished watching and it was the cutest thing ever!! I want a guy like him who can cook, clean, draw perfect eyeliner, and make beautiful art like that! Plus I also want a hedgehog? I’ve been wanting to adopt one for ages now and this just makes me want to get one even more!!

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So um, that gummy bear almost kiss scene in You Drive Me Crazy is really something else. I um, might need a break after this! 😛

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I’m going to save Greasy Melo to binge watch once it finishes airing. This writer writes really weird relationships that just hook me completely. I love/hate her love triangles. So I’m going to save this to binge later because watching this live will kill me. I already ahev whiplash for this month from APAD. I would like to watch one thing in peace without worrying about the ships. Having said that, I ship my babe with Junho for obviously reasons:

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