Beanie level: Errand boy

Safely made it out of the Airbnb situation. Now at Oxford for the day. I’m going to Leigh Bardugo’s book signing and I’m practically vibrating with excitement!! 😍😍

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    I have her Shadow and Bone and Six of Crows series (got them as gifts) just sitting on my shelves, haven’t got the motivation to start reading them yet!

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      Ohh I know what you mean! Have so many books on my shelf that I just haven’t gotten around to reading yet. I can’t read books when I’m not in the mood for them

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        Yes, me too! I realized that when I’m watching dramas I don’t read and when reading I watch nothing at all, there is no in between for me!

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    I saw her a couple weeks ago!!!! She’s so much fun. You’ll enjoy yourself.

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      Ohhh I’m really excited! Got here 2 hours early and already there’s so many people here!

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    Oh my goosh I’m so jealous! A friend recommended her to me and I’ve read every one of her books so far- they’re so good!

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Currently in Bath for the day and staying at a kind of sketchy Airbnb. This plus the fact that I haven’t told my parents I was staying here overnight is giving me major anxiety. Too keyed up to watch dramas so I’m spending time on dramabeans instead. I dont know what it is about Asian parents but man does this make me feel guilty af.

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While the world was watching Six Flying Dragons I was watching Sassy Go Go. No regrets but damn i missed the hype! Going through old dramabeans recaps about it helps though

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I’m so so late to the hype train but My Country is still airing and I refuse to watch it till it’s done so I’m watching Six Flying Dragons instead. It’s so freaking epic!! Why did I not watch this??

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Just wondering, any beanies living in Oxford who would be down to meet up?

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Kang Ha neul isn’t even trying in Camellia and I already fucking love him sooo much!! Why is his character the perfect blend of idiotically goofy and ernest?? Why is he so perfect??

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    Right???!!! I am in love with this character already.

    His temper comes from people being wronged, no him, others. Yes, I would have kneed that suspect as well.

    And also add, he is also a bit dim but that is alright.

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      Yess!! I love that despite being a little dim he’s just also very righteous and loses his temper when he sees someone doing wrong to himself or others. The dimness just makes him that much more endearing!

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    This writer must have a thing for idiotically goofy, earnest, and kind of dim male characters. Apparently, I do too.

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      Hahahhaa! Yess! I laughed my way through episode 1. Cannot wait for him to turn into a completely love sick fool! His earnestness just kills me!

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        He slayed me when he clutched his heart while listening to her assert herself and put that jerk in his place

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          Lmao yess! He basically got shot in the heart with cupid’s arrow and it was the most hilarious thing!

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            It’s pretty awesome that he was more taken with her when she was being (a very polite) badass than her pretty face

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I’m really happy they didn’t have Tammy suddenly decide she wanted to marry Park Morgan after all. In almost every single Kdrama, the powerful, independant, ambitious woman finds a man and then somehow realizes she’s wanted that nuclear family dream after all. She compromises bits and pieces of herself to fit his ideal better. To be the softer woman.

Its probably not intentional. The changes are supposed to show how love changes a person. She’s not that cold, harsh woman anymore. She melts, her sharp edges softer. Think I need romance 3 where a top career woman ends up falling for a younger guy who teaches her not to be so jaded and to believe in love again.

I love romances but I’m just so sick and tired of watching women date and then end up marrying when she’s been against marriage her whole life. I love love. But marriage isnt for everyone. That kinda life isnt for everyone. As someone who doesn’t want marriage and kids, its fraustrating to watch shows that keep telling me that the woman will eventually change her mind and settle down when she finds “the one” like my feelings are totally invalid. Like I don’t know myself.

I’m so happy that they dont do that for Tamny’s charcater. Yes she loves Morgan. And yes they reconcile. But she makes it clear that they haven’t talked out their differences. They will probably bring this up again and fight again and break up again. But the show leaves it there for the audience to interpret. Their future isnt set in stone and tammy doesn’t compromise her beliefs. I’m happy to just leave it there.

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    Agreed. This was a fantastic ending to that arc of the show to be very honest. I was very happy with the way it was done.

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Search WWW: Finale thoughts

YOU GUYS!!! IM SCREAMINGGG!!! That whole finale episode and I was so scared they wouldn’t be able to wrap up everyone’s arcs. But then the last 15 mins or so just fucking killed me???

Seeing Song Ga Kyeong getting in her mother in law’s face and tearing her threats down was just soooo fucking satisfying!!! And then when she threatened her back?? SCREAMING! This is why they shouldn’t have backed her up against the wall. People with nothing left to lose are scary motherfuckers.

And speaking of, I knew she was going to have a change of heart and stand with Barro. But i never bought her explanation to Scarlet. But the whole end reveal scene when they show her fishing the dirt. She put up the statement on purpose when she knew what she had to gain and ahakkakakaka this woman’s fucking ruthless ambition just kills meeee!! I fucking love her!!

The ending stayed true to her character while showing how far along she’s come. But her scenes with her ex husband really broke my heart. I get why she had to lose everything to destroy the people in power. But its still sad.
I have hope they will end up together someday once this whole mess clears out.

And that ending scene. I totally thought it was her ex husband come to pick her up but when they revealed it was Tammy and Scarlet instead????? AGAJAKLALALALALALALAA!!!!!

You don’t know how much this show means to me. And for them to have an ending like that? With our powerful women on the top of their game. With them climbing the ladder of their ambition. And not sacrifising their ambitions, goals, or themselves for the sake of their male leads?? You don’t know how happy it makes me. I legit started to cry when I realized that’s the ending they were going for: not having our women compromise for the sake of love or worse, married and settled. But together. Powerful. Ambitious. Intelligent. And just being their boss selves. And doing it together. Competing with each other but having each other’s backs.

I just cry because that’s never the note that shows end up on. It’s always a compromise. It’s always a wedding or a fixed relationship. But this finale leaves things open ended. We don’t know where the road will lead our girls. How they end up in their relationships. But we know their friendship is solid. And that no matter what they will come out of it stronger in the end and always on top.
And that’s all that you really need to know about the future. It’s female.

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    “not having our women compromise for the sake of love or worse, married and settled. But together. Powerful. Ambitious. Intelligent. And just being their boss selves. And doing it together. Competing with each other but having each other\’s backs.”

    YES and YES. I want more television like this! Please. Let’s tell our girls a different story and give them a different dream – you don’t HAVE to get married and have kids. That’s NOT the only way of life.

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    love. this. thank you for sharing 🙂

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Search WWW: Incoming Rant:

For once I would like a woman to say she’s not interested in marriage and for the world to just leave her be! Why does she have to change her mind somehow at the end of the drama for it to be a happy ending?? Why does the guy have to somehow manipulate her into things??? It happened with Esom’s character in “Because this is my first life” and I feel like it’s going to happen again for “Search WWW”.

I like Park Morgan and Bae Ta Mi. I like their chemistry. But no way in hell do I think he’s mature enough for her to consider marriage with him. Especially after seeing her insane chemistry with Wookie. They didn’t say much and yet you would read the history behind their gazes. His maturity is such a sharp contrast to Morgan’s specially these two episodes where he feels like a whiny kid. I like him, but I just feel he and Ta Mi are two completely different people in different stages in their lives. And that they want different things out of life. And while I’m fine with them dating I don’t want this drama to end with Ta Mi somehow realizing she wants to get married to him suddenly because love. I don’t see them being together long term and so help me god if she ends up married at the end I’ll riot!!!

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    This drama *should* end with three independent single women doing the Goblin walk out of a gorgeous sunrise into a brilliant future.

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    *expands bail fund started for revenge club so it includes potential riots*

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At this point I’m just so damn tired of Park Morgan and this stupid back and forth they both keep doing. Clean we just eliminate the men as romantic lead from this drama?? They serving no purpose??

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    I guess I don’t mind. I think they’re trying to show us her not at work personality, but there are better ways to do this. Or maybe it can’t be a Kdrama without the romance angle?

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OMG! Someone talk to me! Is Search WWW going where I think it’s going or was that a weird bit of editing?? My shipper heart can’t handle the disappointment if it’s the latter!

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You guys! I had to come out of my self imposed exile to rant about my week! I binge watched Possessed and He is Psychometric this week and I wasn’t prepared for the feels!!! IT HURTS! RIP me.

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Hello my lovelies! Its been ages since I last spoke to you guys. How have you been? What are you guys watching?

I’m doing much better now. I got accepted to the University of Exeter for my MA in English Literary Studies for the Renaissance nad Medival pathway. I had been stressing about this for some time, but now that I got in that burden’s been lifted off my chest.

I’ll be going in September and would love to meet some beanies sometime. Anyone living in the UK?

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    welcome back deary..missed you so so much.
    soo happy for you that you are feeling better than before and good to know you are planning to do what you wanted to….
    all the very best for your future and welcome back once again…

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      Hi chingu! I missed you too! I missed all our conversations on Ye-sem, lol! You changed your name so I couldn’t recognize you. Thank you for your words they mean a lot. Yes I’m happy to be feeling better and not down like I was a couple of months ago. Taking time out really helped put things into perspective. I did watch dramas in between though not as frequently. I loved Life on Mars and the ending really teared me up. Currently watching 30 but 17 which I just love love love! I ship her with our resident puppy as much as I ship her with the main lead! This is going to lead to some heartache soon. 🙁

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    Perfect! Just in time for the September Beanie meet-up.

    http://www.dramabeans.com/members/saya/activity/580601/

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      OMO! This is so freaking cool! I so hope I can meet you guys! *off to make a Rabb.it account*

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    Congratulations!
    And sending hugs for making it through the past few months. I haven’t seen your last post before, so I’m sending them only now. You made a good choice and you’re an inspiration to me. Good luck with studying and welcome back!

    You haven’t missed anything important EXO-wise. Everyone is just waiting… For a comeback. Getting desperate. It looks like September/October so far.
    D.O will have a drama in September (main role, 100 Days My Prince). Chanyeol in November (secondary role, Memories of Alhambra). EXO wrapped up Elyxion with two concerts in Macau. The probability of OT9 comeback is low, but we’re not losing hope. This was EXO news, thank you for attention.

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      Thank you chingu! It means so much to me to hear you say that and to come back here and still find you guys as supportive and welcoming! I’ll carry your words in my heart for the rough days!

      I heard about the D.O’s new drama and I’m really looking forward to it since it looks like its gonna be a hoot! He’s always so good at his acting roles that I’m sure I’ll end up loving this drama. Chanyeol though, I’ve my doubts. He’s my third bias but my baby really cannot act lol! I hope he has improved though so keeping my fingers crossed for that one!

      I so wished I could have gone to the Elyxion concert. I think they might soon be sending some of our boys to the army though. This year was too hectic and I think they wanted to give their all before being sent to the army. 🙁 Hopefully we hear some good news soon and they can push off army duty fir anther year. But I really don’t think we will have a comeback anytime soon. But still as you said, keeping my hopes up high and my fingers crossed for some good news soon!

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        Of course! Always here for you chingu. 🙂

        I am so proud of him for getting a leading role in a tvN evening drama. I feel like he’s the only EXO member who could possibly make people appreciate his acting regardless of their K-pop preferences. (Sorry Suho.) I think Chanyeol is good when he’s playing himself. I saw Missing Nine and his acting seemed fine to me there. His role was 90% Chanyeol though (he said so himself). If his role of a younger brother in this new drama is similar, he’ll be fine. Hopefully.

        I’ve heard Xiumin might get one more year off because of his Masters. Their comeback will happen this autumn, that’s sure, after NCT Dream and Girls’ Generation comeback. NCT Dream is scheduled for the beginning of September, so October sounds realistic. Lay is also releasing a new album, everyone’s been hoping it would come out before EXO’s comeback, but it got posponed for some reason, so OT9… Doesn’t sound as realistic.

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    Congrats 🎉🎉🎉🎉 missed you a lot.

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      I missed you too @waadmay!! I missed seeking you oppa posts early morning as well. I’ll be sure to check out your wall and save some pics of my favorite oppa for the coming months lol!

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        Of course anytime honey 😘😘😘😘💝💝💝💝*hugs*

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    Welcome back!!! Glad to hear things are going well 🙂
    I’m currently watching 30 but 17 which is the cutest, fluffiest thing I’ve seen since Shopping King Louie.
    Also watching My ID is Gangnam Beauty which is addressing issues of beauty standards and bullying but is also still a pretty light, fun watch.
    I’m very slowly “binge watching” Gaksital and Reply 1994. I’m about 3/4 of the way through both and have kiiiiind of lost interest but I’m definitely going to finish them.
    Are you watching anything?

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      Thank you! I’m glad to be back!
      Yes! I’m also watching 30 but 17 and crushing hard on both guys! Can I not have sad puppy boy for myself? I just want to save him from the inevitable heartbreak when he realizes his uncle likes her as well. 🙁
      I’ve only watched 4 episodes of ID Gangnam so far and its really good as well! I’m trying to pace myself though since I’m don’t want to end up crying over the lack of episodes to watch. I like it so far. I also have a severe case of SLS when watching it because damn, but that TA is just super super fine! I mean I’ve been crushing on Kwak Dong-yeon since his seguek hair days in Moonlight so yeah. This will probably hurt before it gets better.

      Also yesss! I got my brother to binge watch reply 1997 with me. He hates Korean dramas so it was such a surprise that he started watching it with me and then got totally hooked into the story line! Its still one of my favorite shows even though its super long and exhausting at times. Also, Gaksitaaaaaaaaaaaal! Lol that show killed me with the bromance. I watched it a while ago and still remember some very epic moments from that. Its my second favorite Jo won drama after Good doctor. But yes it does get tiring after a while.

      Recently I watched Life on Mars and cried my way through the finale. I don’t care if it was real or all in his head I just want to think of them solving crimes and all living happily ever after. I’m also watching Your Honor and although I really like the story and the characters, I feel like Yoon Shi yoon is overacting in a lot of places and it really takes me out of the drama. Comparatively You‑Young Lee is a lot more natural. But they are both so adorable that I end up enjoying all of their scenes together!

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        The inevitable heartbreak is killing me. I hope Chan gets his own happy ending.
        I think Gaksital is going to get better now. I was getting tired of the will-Shunji-find-out the-secret-or-not plot that was going on for five or six episodes but he just found out so I’m excited to see what happens next.
        That’s awesome that you got your brother to watch Reply 1997 🎉🎉🎉 My family is totally uninterested in kdramas 😔
        I heard that Life on Mars was super good but I wasn’t able to watch it since Viki and Dramafever didn’t get it.
        Kwak Dong Yeon totally rocked that mane of glory in MDBC 😍 I’m loving him in Gangnam Beauty too. It’s great to see him playing such a nice guy after his brief cameo as the two-timing boyfriend in Fight My Way.

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    Wow, congrats. That sounds amazing!

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    Congrats and welcome back @silvermists! I missed your posts! Will keep an eye out for them now:D

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    Missed you! Congrats on the move! What an adventure. Have fun and good luck!

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    Welcome back! Good to see you!

    Congrats on your acceptance to the university! 🙂

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Good morning beanies! How have you guys been doing? I miss posting comments and having conversations with you guys. I’ve been feeling a little depressed lately. Last month was particularly bad with my mood swinging all over the place. I would be fine one moment and just irrationally upset the next. Whenever I get like that I tend to just shut myself off from people which is just the worse thing to do. This time around though I’ve actively been working to make sure I don’t shut everyone out of my life or avoid people. It was hard but I went out and met some friends and told them what was really going on with me. It felt like a burden had been lifted off my chest and I wasn’t awkward round them or anxiously trying to avoid people. It was fine for a while, but last night around 3 am I just broke down crying in my room. My chest felt suffocated, I couldn’t breathe, and I just wanted to scream all the pain away. And it hurt. It still hurts this morning even though I look perfectly happy and fine. I’m at work tying this right now. I felt like I needed to share this with you guys.

I decided last night to take some time off for myself. I’m quitting my job in two weeks. It’s been a long time coming and I handed in my resignation 3 months ago. I think it’s time to take a break, breathe, and do some soul searching without feeling the overwhelming guilt of not doing anything relevant when all my friends are off to different countries living their lives. I want to take a break. I want to declutter my room and my life. I want to start yoga or go running and take care of myself. I put on about 7KG’s this year from just stress eating. Which is insane. I just let myself go in so many ways from feeling overwhelming guilt and not feeling good enough. Which is also insane because I’ve never lacked for self-confidence before. Feeling sort of worthless is new for me and yes it sucks. But this isn’t a pity party. This is me putting myself first and taking care of myself and taking a break to figure out my life and take control again.

All this is to say I might take a break from Dramabeans. I will be lurking here and reading/liking comments for sure. I’m still watching dramas (What’s wrong with Secretary Kim, Lawless Layer, Investigation Couple) but just not post as much. I have been working on my writing, writing reviews on Goodreads. I would also like to write some articles on what dramas mean for me. It’s something I’ve been meaning to do for a while and now that I have free time I want to get to it. Hopefully you will see my posts soon. I love you guys. You have no idea how much it means to me to be on this Dramabeans and talk to you guys and gush over dramas. I’ll see you guys again soon.

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    We will miss your obvious presence but enjoy your break from DB and work. Until next time!

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    I feel you on the part about worrying you’re not doing anything relevant while your friends are well on their way to bigger things. But taking time off to take care of yourself and bring yourself to a better place emotionally is more important than any other material achievements.

    Take care, you know us Beanies will still be around when you’re back ^^

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    take care of yourself and all your words above hows just how much you have been suffering all within you.
    And very great decision to take time for yourself and not worry abt the world… hope you feel better soon and enjoy the life which is given to you.
    also you are brave to post it out open and keep it up….and we are here forever if you need support…

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    Take all the time you need for yourself and please take care. We will wait for your return!

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    I empathize completely, I have felt the same way – cranky, moody, depressed and not much like talking to people. I know that mine stems form not actually seeing other people than my kids all day – my kids are 22, 22, 15 and 12 so it’s not like being with toddlers all day, but I still need fresh faces and alone time – I hope that your time away refreshes your batteries and lifts your spirits.

    Sending hugs!

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    *hugs* I completely understand, and I’m proud of you for being able to prioritize yourself. We’ll all be waiting here with arms wide open when you do return! Good luck!

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    Bravo for taking time to replenish yourself. Take care! *Fighting!*

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    Take care, Silvermists! We’ll miss you, but good on you for taking your well-being as the priority.

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    So sorry to hear about your struggle *hugs* , I wish I was near to give you a propre hug 😘😘😘
    Good decision to take time for yourself and don’t feel like you have done nothing in your life while your friends are out there doing thier things cause you did do something or many things to people in your life or around you and you didn’t notice maybe cause you are a gentle caring sensitive human being and beanie
    Luv ya take care 🤗🤗😘😘😘😘😘💖💖💖💖💖

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I’m just coming out of my drama hiatus to say Lawless Lawyer is perfection and I’ve the biggest crush on Seo Ye-ji and Lee Jun-ki and I ship them soo hard. That is all!

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    i guess i agree after 5 episodes… i had so bad reaction after 4th one but 5th one was better and finally made me realized how deep m in love with LJK and his acting and action..

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      I’m still on episode 3. Had to stop watching and go to sleep last night. But I’m going to catch up again once I go home!

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        ahh take care of urself and your sleep.. thats the most important thing.
        do share your views after finishing

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I’m also going to try and do a 24 hour readathon over Fri-Sat because why not?? I haven’t done that before officially. But I read through the night till morning all the time so why not?

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    Everytime a new Harry Potter is released, I’d read it almost non-stop (I need to get food then continue reading while eating plus bath room breaks) until I’m finished. I remember the Order of the Phoenix,read it in 16 hours, after I got my hands on it,after lining up for 3 hours in the bookstore and traveling back & forth in 4 hours.

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      lol.. totally me..

      i don’t think i slept when beta version of potterworld was launched.. because they would’t disclose time or zone of opening the quiz page.. and it was supposed to run over 7 days… and i think within seconds system would find its lucky beta users daily..
      was so crazy..

      if Marvel and DC have their world.. harry potter world is just as awesome!

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      Omg yes!!! I couldent stop till I finished reading the entire book and wouldn’t get up for anything other than very quick bathroom breaks! I inhaled the books as soon as they came out!

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        There was something about HP, but the loooooong wait for the next one didn’t help.

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Its the freaking weekend (once I’m done with work that is)! Guess who is gonna binge watch My Ajusshi once she’s home??? Lol its me. No one is sleeping tonight!

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    Enjoy! That show is a gem and that’s still an understatement.

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Me when I watch a drama that is sooo good that I’m just satisfied from start to finish:

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    *sighs in contentment* *ahhhhhhh* *sweet dreams of our cotton candy couple*

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    yeahhhh i was waiting for your “me” posts…such a lovely way to explain all ye liners’s thoughts.

    Cotton Candy Couple.. what a lovely name @ravennightstar

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      Hehe thank you!
      It might just be all fluff… but when it melts in your mouth… full of sugary goodness, it’s perfect. Like our couple. 😍

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      Hehe @kdramaswimmer I try to post more often but life calls! So glad you agree with the quote. It sums up my feelings for this drama do completely! I was scared for a but that the ending might be dissasppointing. Only thing I regret is that I wish we had gotten to see the rest of the hospital staff’s reaction to Dr. Ye and Boyoung dating! I bet that would have been so hilarious!

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        yes i hav to agree cause thats all i feel abt this drama and Ye Love Line…. and your posts make me feel so glad that i am not feeling so.

        again on agreement abt the rest of the hospital staff’s reaction to Dr. Ye and Boyoung dating!
        i was so expecting their shocked expressions knowing their dating news…esp how Dr. Kim told BY that Dr.Ye cherishes her…
        hospital staff’s reactions would another hilarious scene to watch.

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Me when I’m just trying to live my best life and stay motivated to do stuff but then reality smacks me in the face like:

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Me when I come home to dramas after a long day of work and just snuggle in with my favorite show like:

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    your talk is so “kdrama-ed” which i love from the bottom of my heart… so well said

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      Thanks! Yes sometimes my love for kdrama just makes me so happy that I started watching it. It’s not just entertaining but you also learn so much about people and relationships as well. It just leaves you feeling warm and fuzzy. Or makes you feel pain. But the point is that it makes you FEEL.

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