Beanie level: Errand boy

Someone call an ambulance. I’m officially dead 💀 The victory kiss in Skate into Love was one of the best and most swoon-worthy public confessions in a drama ever. It was so SO perfect. From her rushing down the bleachers almost in tears from joy, his grin when he sees she will honor the promise, ripping his helmet and gloves off in determination, princess carrying her across the ice and then the killer kiss to finish it off. Stop trying to swoon me to death drama!! ❤


(Image courtesy of the wonderfully dedicated fangirl @13infamyss)

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    I loooooooooooove everything about it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

    Add the beautiful OST to the recipe and it couldn’t be more perfect!!!! I love their love for each other. So freaking much. I couldn’t have asked for more. They’re just into each other. They give the same amount of love and affection.

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    @infamyss’s posts made me watch this drama and I will forever be grateful for that. I just love them!!!

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It’s the weekend which means it’s time to bing-binge! #SkateIntoLove #IceGod 😍

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If anyone is looking for a sweet, fun and swoon-worthy OTP, I highly suggest Skate into Love. It’s pure love and adorable. I love Master Tang and Bing-Bing and love them together even more ❤️

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    Kyaaaaaaa they kissed!

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      That’s the victory kiss that happened this morning! And I… yeah died Ayan. 💀 Can’t wait to watch the rest of it and gif it tomorrow! 😬😬😬😬

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    Bing Bing is soooooo hot in that scene. I can’t wait to rewatch that super sexy victory kiss. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I love their love for each other. 😭😭😭

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      I’m too far away from this scene! You all watch this so fast! But I think I’ll catch-up over the weekend.

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        Yaaaay awesome. Can’t wait we all spazz in real time. I have the feeling that I’ll be the one going to be behind once everyone is caught up since I won’t be able to watch until 11pm-12am ish lololololol 😭😭😭😭

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Six words is not enough words

#AprilSixWordsChallenge

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If DB wants tons of donations all they have to do is add an edit button as a benefit and the donations will just flood in 😉

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Time to release some of my worry and stress on all you poor hapless Beanies as it has been a very trying few weeks. Sorry in advance for this long expose into my life.

A few weeks ago my mom went in for a brain surgery that is supposed to be a pretty non-invasive surgery. She has something called trigeminal neuralgia which causes intense and almost constant pain shooting down the right side of your face. She has suffered with this condition for nearly 20 years, but the last few years it has gotten to the point where it was impacting her life. So she decided to go for the brain surgery so she could finally enjoy her retirement. I was of course super worried and stressed about the whole procedure but she kept reassuring me that the doctor has done this procedure a lot and she is in good hands. My mom had told me (and the rest of the family) to not bother taking the day off from work as she would be in the surgery for a few hours and it would be later in the day. My brother, who doesn’t currently work, was there for her so we listened to her and carried on with our normal workday while being kept updated on what was happening from my brother. I am glad I was working as it kept me distracted from the fact my mom was currently undergoing brain surgery. We started to get worried when the estimated timeframe for the surgery to be completed past the hour mark. And then we got the news. During the surgery there were complications. When they tried to wake her she wasn’t really waking, so they did an MRI to see what happened and discovered she had experienced a stroke. Her stroke was a bleeding stroke and she was bleeding out into her skull which was putting pressure on her brain and causing her to be tired and not waking up. So they rushed her back into surgery to drain the blood that was pooling in her skull. The second surgery was successful but they were going to keep her under until the next morning and we wouldn’t know how much damage the stroke had caused until she was awake. It was one of the hardest and most stressful nights I had experienced. I stayed awake most of the night just worrying. The next day she was woken but due to the drugs and the swelling of her brain she was barely aware of what was going on and was mostly in and out of sleep and awareness. She was also in intense pain. I visited her that evening and seeing my strong and independent mom laying in the ICU looking like a shadow of herself broke my heart. I had to go into the back of the room to cry, hoping she wouldn’t hear me. My mom always was strong for me and this time I had to be strong for her.

The next few days were brutal. She could barely keep consciousness and when she was conscious she spent it rolling around the bed in pain. They could only give her fentanyl hourly which is one of the most powerful pain meds but it wears off quickly so they have to give it to her hourly. By Friday she seemed to have been over most of the pain and thankfully she didn’t really remember the last few days, but the effects of the stroke were showing. Due to the location of the bleed and what was impacted by the pooling blood it affected her strength and coordination on her left side and the muscles of the right side of her face. The neurosurgeon felt confident she would regain most, if not all, of her movement and coordination on her left side as that seemed to be mildly impacted, but he wasn’t sure on the right side of her face as that was more seriously impacted. She had problems swallowing, her speech is slurred, her eyesight is now seeing double and she has a pronounced droop on the right side of her face. She was talking a lot but I could only understand about 1 word in a whole conversation. She spent a week in the ICU but was finally able to move to the rehab ward. She will need dedicated therapy for the next 3 weeks to get her into good enough shape for family to be able to take care of her at home.

She is improving every day, especially with her strength on her left side. She has been able to walk a little with some help, her speech is still slurred but it’s clear enough that I can understand pretty much everything she is saying. She still struggles with swallowing so she has been on a feeding tube the last few weeks and has been supplemented with eating pureed food. And the few days following the surgery her right eye closed but now it doesn’t fully close anymore and the doctor has no idea why. She also has a hard time with therapy as she is extremely dizzy. They did another CAT scan a couple days ago to see if she might still have issues that was causing the dizziness but everything was fine. Last weekend she was finally able to text on the phone but has some issues because of her double vision. She also has gotten back into her drama watching (with Arthdal Chronicles of all things!). So she does have some big issues that will either never go away or will take a long time to heal from, but there are also small improvements every day. She has sadly been depressed and morbid at times and is upset she did get the surgery as the pain would have been better than the aftereffect of the stroke. And to add to all this there is the Coronavirus. We decided it was safer to either restrict the visits to 1 person a day or not to visit for the meantime. My mom has told us not to visit but it’s a hard decision for all of us, as I know my mom wants our presence there and I want to be there, but I’m also super worried about her getting the virus because she is very compromised physically right now and I think it would kill her. So ontop of worrying about my mom, I haven’t seen her since Monday and probably won’t see her until she is released from the hospital next Thursday (unless they change her release date). Thankfully she keeps us apprised via text of her status.

And then to add to everything we experienced a 5.7 earthquake Wednesday morning with a few big aftershocks throughout the day. I had been in a 7.8 earthquake as a kid but it still doesn’t get less horrifically terrifying to wake up to everything shaking violently. It’s hard to express just how scary a bigger earthquake is unless you’ve been in one. My mom had to be moved to a different part of the hospital as they didn’t know how structurally sound the old part of the hospital is (where she was originally at). But now I have the worry of an earthquake in mind as we live on a large active fault that has been predicted for many years that a huge earthquake is imminent, and according to seismologists, this one was not it.

And then this morning my sister just told me her work has a confirmed case of someone having the virus.

I have decided that 2020 is a horrible year. Everything seems to be coming crashing down (and not just the dishes from the earthquake) all at once. I just want to go to my mom and hug her tightly and wish everything could go back to where it was just 3 weeks ago. Spending the weekends binge watching dramas with unhealthy takeout. I have come to terms with the situation and am very grateful that she is still the same woman I love dearly and after 30+ years of her caring and taking care of me, it’s now my turn to take care of her.

I do want to thank my fellow discord beanies who have been so loving and caring and supportive and genuinely interested in my mom’s welfare. It has genuinely touched and helped me through these very tough times. I know I’m going to miss some people and I apologize if I do.
@egads @outofthisworld @mayhemf @13infamyss @beasassy @maybemaknae @thetinyl @pinklolipop @yyishere @neener @leetennant @halfmoon @ayaan @chakhanseupeu @peony @waadmay @sicarius @shach @katakwasabi @ally-le @mindy

Please stay safe everyone. You are all in my thoughts ❤️

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    @Trinity, you’re going through a lot. Hope things turn out well for you and your mother (*hug)

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    I hope you are safely back together again soon.

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    I somehow now how you feel.
    When my mum was diagnosed with cancer, it was a shock watching the strong woman she was fade away and flying away from me. It was the most terrifying thing I’ve ever lived.
    I know these are scary times in the world and in your life.
    I can only tell you one thing: rest while you can, eat every day and even in the worst situation try to find one good thing. Laugh with your mum about the drama she chose, made her laugh when she makes a mistake, smile all the time, and tell her you love her.
    She will get better. Mums always do.
    And never wish to go back in time. Believe me. This moment will lead you to a better place that you’ll love when you’re there.
    Your mum will be better.
    Just take one step at a time. Don’t worry about what will happen in week. Think only about today.
    That’s what helped me.
    Hope it helps you.
    *sends hugs*

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      I’m so sorry about your mother *hugs* It’s so hard to see someone who has been this pillar of strength, reduced to such a weakened state.

      Thankfully I’m not a person who dwells on things and have come to terms with the situation. So I am pretty much carrying on with things as before (except with more troubled sleep). She still has her mind and sense of humor so that has made things much more bearable.

      And when she was about 8 or 9 episodes in she was like ‘I don’t understand what’s happening’ and I’m pretty sure that wasn’t the stroke that talking 🤣

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    I’m glad we were all there to give what support we could and can. If anything the last months (and especially the last few weeks) have shown me is that online friends are real friends.

    You, your mom, and the rest of your family continue to be in my thoughts, and I hope her recovery continues steadily.

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      Thanks so much egads ❤️ People make fun of online people not being friends but you girls have been some of my best friends and I love you all.

      I’m also very relieved your sister’s surgery was successful, after what my mom went through I was worried for her. So that’s a relief hers went so well and hope you can spend some time with her soon.

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    Trin, sending you the warmest hugs virtually. I’ve mentioned it on discord yesterday how the first COVID fatality in my hometown suddenly made me incredibly miss my dad. The victim was the same age as my dad. It was so nice to hear his voice yesterday even though I keep in contact with him often and I actually saw him at New Years. It’s times like this we miss our time with our families the most. But at the same time I don’t want them near me because they’re old and I`m afraid to be a possible carrier of the virus, unbeknownst to me.

    So sorry to hear about your sister! That is very heartbreaking. I`m sorry you are not able to see her anytime soon as well on top of not being able to see your mom too. 💔

    Chat with you on discord soon. *hugs*

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      Also Bea is this @lugirl131415 😬

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      Thanks fams! And you’ve been missed the last week while you have been seperated from your stalker phone.

      And I live with my sister which is another problem haha. And sadly she isn’t allowed to not work because she works in a Fedex warehouse and they are considered an essential business since they ship needed medical supplies and supplies in general. So I’m worried she will get it (and then of course I’ll get it).

      Love you girl!

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    Thinking, thinking, thinking of you and Mom. <3

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    Not the same situation, but I’m away from my mom and so wish to be physically closer, so I understand that part.

    Your mom is going to fight this and make daily improvement. Keep encouraging her. And take care of yourself as well. You know where to go if you ever need to talk.

    Stay safe, Trin. Hope your sister will be okay too!

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      Thanks so much moon! It is hard to be separated from family, so I am thankful I have most of my immediate family within a 30 min. drive. You’re beautiful!

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    gah ive been in and out of discord so this is the first time i get the full story. im sorry to hear all of it πŸ™ but im glad your mom is improving and she sounds like a strong woman! I hope she gets discharged soon and you all can take proper care of her. dont forget to take care of yourself too!

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      I knew I was forgetting to tag people and so sorry I forgot to tag you 🙏 And thank you very much for all the well wishes ❤️

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    I’m so sorry that you’re having to deal with this all at once, Trin. And the added worry of Covid on top of all of it!
    Just know that we’re thinking of you and are here for you if you need to vent, distract yourself, or talk things through.

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      Ya it’s that situation where just everything happened at once. Thank you so much for your well wishes and for being willing to talk about it privately if needed. That really meant a lot to me ❤️

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    Oh Trin, I’m sorry I didn’t realize the magnitude of everything that was happening to you.
    My prayers & well wishes are with you & your family, you’re free to come & rant to me anytime.

    I can empathise a bit , having seen my grandfather in such a position. Just know that your strength gives strength to those around you, & your presence alone is a source of comfort to the patient.

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      Don’t worry, you will have to put up with me longer! And I am being strong for her, especially in those moments when she is down or depressed about the situation. Having a good outlook I think is one of the best things towards recovery.

      I also hope everything is going ok with you and your family. Family is definitely one of those things that can bring great joy but also great pain and heartache.

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        Thank you Trin for thinking of me, you’re welcome to come to us anytime.
        Copy what LT & bea said

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    Everyone has already said that I wanted to and in such a beautiful way so I’m just here to offer more hugs and rubs on the back.
    My lovely jiejie and shifu, we’ll always be here for you with open arms.
    It will all be alright 💛
    *gives a warm and tight hug*

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      Thank you my beautiful bb who is growing up so fast 😢 You, like the other chaos channel beanies have been such wonderful and thoughtful girls. It’s really meant a lot to me ❤️

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    Your mother will be fine really soon Trinity! Glad to know shes doing better!
    Take care of yourself! Things will surely get better!

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      It is wonderful and hopeful she is seeing small improvements daily, I of course wish she were completely back to normal, but I know that wont happen and to see her full recovery will take time. Thanks so much for your well wishes!

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    I’ve been thinking about you and your mother Trin and I’m so so glad and relieved she is making improvements each day, it will be a long road to recovery but I know you will make it through together. I’m in awe of your strength and I understand how hard it must be to hold everyone together. Please take care of yourself too and you can always reach out for a hand or hug or just someone to listen. I remember in the past, we left voice notes or videos when we couldn’t get to the hospital, that was comforting because I knew that they were ok and safe.
    I think once she is home, in her own environment your mother will feel much more in control and happier. I’m hoping she will be home soon and you can go back to the takeout and dramas and the hugs!

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      Thank you so much Ayan 🙏 You are a beautiful person yourself. I’ve been letting myself get back into things by reading (such as the Emperor’s Edge series) and binge watching dramas. I guess working 10 hour days also helps keep my mind occupied. Thankfully she has her cellphone so she can call or text as needed. We text her throughout the day to get updates.

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    I’m so sorry all of this is happening to your family. You are certainly going through a lot. I don’t know what else to say that hasn’t already been said by our fellow Beanies here but I send hugs and best wishes to you, your mom and your family.

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      Thank you very much. All the love is overwhelming and much appreciated even if it’s been said already. ❤️

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    Prayers for your mom and hugs for you.

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    Hugs Trin! TONS of hugs sending your way!

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    I hope that at the end of the year you will laugh it off with your family all together save and warm outside and inside.

    Mom is like a fireplace to me. I hope that our moms have enough wood to keep the fire on… Dads as well! I’m starting to get emotional but it doesn’t matter everyone is asleep. I miss my parents so much!!!

    All the strength and positive thinking to you and plentiful of warm hugs and back tapping!!! Stay safe!

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      Thank you so much. That’s a good analogy. My mom definitely offers so much warmth to me and do hope she is in a good place physically by the end of this year.

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    Hugs Trin and many more Hugs
    I wish fast and full recovery to your mom , stay safe you and your sister eat and sleep well , hope you’re whole family will stay safe
    I’m keeping your mom and your family in my thoughts and prayers 💚💙💛

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    Huge hugs @trinpie, I hope it’ll all pass soon.

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    Oh Trin I’m so sorry I’m three days late. My email does that. Suddenly forgetting to send me notifs of tags.
    You have typed your heart out on everything haven’t you. I hope that provided you with some kind of solace, letting it all out.
    Everything will work out in the end Trin, I’m sure of that. Our prayers are with you. I’m sending my well wishes across the Pacific for your family.🙏
    Remain strong and dont let that wicked smile you had across your whole face in that baby pic ever go away😃.
    Here’s a favorite instrumental of mine that I almost-daily use to calm and put myself to sleep. 3 minutes of soothing humming.
    https://youtu.be/kldpcaGtnb8

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      Oh I absolutely love that video Peony, so beautiful and yes soothing. Thank you so much for the well wishes and sharing that video. It will be hard to wipe that maniacal smile off my face 😅

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    @trinpie I’m sorry that your mother had to got through this but I’m glad that she is starting to recover. Blessings to you and your family.

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      Thank you so much. She is at home now with my brother (the rest of us are staying away because of the corona virus). And she is improving every day. We all text back and forth though to get her daily account and her progress.

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    I just saw your post n I know it’s late but I’m sending you n your family hugs and love♥️ I hope everything is going all right and your mom is feeling better.

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Happy Valentine\’s Day to all you beautiful Beanies!

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\”You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.\” — Buddha

Don\’t ever forget to love yourself, because everyone deserves to be loved, especially you.

Love, February

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Why do I always misspell love as live on my phone?

Live, February

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Love is my harem of men 😏

Love, February

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    🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 Greggie has made the harem list!!! Yay \0/

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      Grego pleases me well 😏👌

      Who needs oppas when you have didis?

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        time for didis to shine and be 🤤🤤🤤 over!

        I say didi but this did right here is 29 years old! 😆 why am I still older than these didis.

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    Your harem of men is 😍😍😍😍

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    Ah you have two from my list 📃 ❤️

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Xiao Zhan expressing what we all feel when Lan Wangji isn\’t in an episode 🤣#TheUntamed

(Images from ohsehuns)

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Wishing everyone a wonderful and happy Chinese New Years.🧧

You are all wonderful and such beautiful people and I\’m so glad I\’ve found DB. A safe place where we can spazz, squeal, discuss and come together over dramas and life. I also want to especially mention all the great girls on the DB discord chat. You girls are all a blast! ❤ Here is to a great 2020!

(Images from ohsehuns)

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    I love you Trin. Forever grateful that you are part of this food squad. Thank you for being the best eggplant ever. Couldn’t ask for more.

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      Yes what fammy said. forever love the food squad.

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    Love you too Trin, Happy Chinese New Year to you and your family!

    Don’t watch ALTCFL on such a good day 😝

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    Happy chinese new year trin!!!! Hope you are celebrating with lots of good food and dramas! It’s been really fun chatting to everyone on db and discord ❤🖤💜💙💚🧡

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    ASDFHGJ!@#$%!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Did watching A Little Thing Called First Love do something to you? Where’s your husband Sean?

    But all the same, thank you @Trinpie! May this festive period bring us more goodies!

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      I was going to use a Sean picture but those ones of Yibo worked too well for me not to use them!

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Uncle Wu is the sweetest boy who needs to be protected at all cost! ❤ #JoyOfLife #NeedMoreWu

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My beautiful Xiao Zhan looks like a super hot Asian Jack Frost 😍

https://ohsehuns.tumblr.com/post/190234512279/xiao-zhan-for-harpers-bazaar-feb-2020-cover-issue

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Love the mood in these promotional videos, especially the 2nd image. Xiao Zhan would make an awesomely hot villain 😍❤

https://ohsehuns.tumblr.com/post/189813078364/the-smiling-proud-wanderer

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I\’m sad Dramabeans didn\’t have a year end poll this year. I loved those and looked forward to those each year 😭💔

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    There is the Bean Count from earlier this month, will that work?

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    Well, with JB and GF gone, the options wouldn’t be nearly as hilarious as previous years anyway

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So true to their characters even in the BTS 😆

https://ohsehuns.tumblr.com/post/189679691944/the-untamed

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Wang Yibo also did a game ad where he, like always, looks so beautiful 😍 I love his look. It’s a mix of etherial period garb with modern esthetics.



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    I’m having a hard time deciphering what he’s holding in the first pic. Is it a) a calligraphy pen, b) a flying dagger c) a smoking pipe or d) a small handheld telescope?

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Last night I watched the movie The Dude In Me and was pleasantly surprised by how much I liked this movie. I\’ve been in a bit of a slump with dramas, jumping from one drama to the next, not finding anything that really excites me and makes me want to stick around to the end. So I settled for a movie hoping for some fleeting entertainment, and The Dude in Me fit that perfectly. Definitely not a perfect movie but it was funny, heartfelt and had some very well-done action scenes. My only complaint is that Park Sung-Woong wasn\’t in it more, but it\’s a small complaint as Jin Young did a surprisingly good job carrying most of the movie.

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    I did enjoy seeing PSW playing the meek teenager. That was funny!

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    I actually really enjoyed this movie too! I think the role fit Jin-young well.

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I made a post about this earlier showing the BTS of this photoshoot of Xiao Zhan and how I loved his styling. Well, here is the end results (and yes, it\’s for a game and yes I wish it were for a drama) 😍

The last poster looks like the silhouette of Wei Wuxian 😆

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    These are really great posters/shots. With a character looking like him in the game, I’d be too distracted to play properly and will lose all the time!!!

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