Beanie level: Errand boy

I didn’t have enough time on my hands to participate everyday, but I feel like I needed to say this today…
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I’ve lived a fast-paced life from a young age, because of my family’s lifestyle. We were always moving around. This has been wonderful in many ways. I learned how to quickly adapt to situations, I got to see a bit of the world, and I experienced a lot of cultures. But at times, it’s also been a double-edged sword. Keeping in touch with people is hard, and that often resulted in short-lived friendships, which sometimes made me feel like there were no constant relationships in my life; especially when I’d meet people who had friends they’d known for as long as 10 years! That blew my mind, and frankly made me a little envious.
But I’ve made great friends of my own along the way. Some of my closest friends literally live on different continents now, and we only see each other like once a year (if at all). But they’ve taught me that true friendship isn’t about proximity or how long you’ve known someone. It’s about having each other’s backs no matter the distance between us, no matter how drastically our lives change (among other things).

Having a nomadic life has made me develop a deep love for nature. Especially the mountains, the sea, and the stars. No matter how many times I move, those things will remain unchanged. I can the stars wherever I go, the seas and mountains I leave behind will be the same if I go back. It might be strange to think of it this way: but these things comfort me.
And they remind me that love is what remains when when everything else changes.

Love,
February.

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So I finished KINGDOM over the past two days.
I have to say: as a zombie non-enthusiast and someone who rarely takes a liking to sageuks… I devoured this series to bits and THOROUGHLY enjoyed it!
It’s such a fresh a concept, truly SCARY but I loved the thrill, and it is absolutely gorgeously shot. The writing is tight (duh it’s Kim Eun-hee), and the acting is amazing. And while I’m giving credit where credit is due, let me say that I was really impressed with Kim Sung-kyu’s performance as Young-shin. Such a scene-stealer and definitely worth keeping an eye on.
Now I only need season 2. Where’s a time-machine when you need one?



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This month, I’m currently watching:
– Romance Is A Bonus
– Reach for Sincerity
– Coffee Friends

I’m also planning to watch:
– Kingdom
– Trap
– Item
– Hot-blooded Priest

But I have no time to watch all of these at the same time and at this point, I’m actually hoping some of them will be… terrible?! What is life? 😭


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A few thoughts about Romance Is A Bonus:

– I\’m enjoying this show… but REALLY getting SLS! 😭 Wi Ha-joon\’s character a.k.a Mr. Green-Onion is so sexy AND charming!
– I really like our main leads\’ dynamic, but I\’m just not getting a romantic vibe from their relationship yet.
– I don\’t like how cruel Go issa-nim is, and that they\’re pitting her against Dani. I\’d hoped she\’d be more of a mentor, bc I\’m really tired of the stereotype that women always have to be each other\’s enemies.
– Why TF did the writers give Dani a child? She\’s never around (and Dani seems just fine without her), it seems like she\’s just a plot device to make the OTP\’s relationship awkward in the future.

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    I think SL here is very understandable, Dani really has no idea ML likes her and the other guy is pretty charming with her.
    I’m not sure about the otp yet, they are good friends it seems tricky for him to confess.
    There are other nice people in the office, they can’t all be nice or it would be too perfect.
    I like that she has a child, she talks about her a lot, maybe she will show up later?
    I’m also liking it!

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To REPLY 1988,

Which I finished early this week, but have been reluctant to let go; because I could just NOT find the words to say how and what this show made me feel. The last four episodes especially overwhelmed me with so much emotions. Seeing the gang all grown-up was heart-breakingly sweet, to say the least.😭
And even though I have some quibbles with the finale, like no news of Jung-hwan (for real show?) or Dong-ryong in the present, or not seeing how Deok-sun and Taek’s relationship worked out in the past… I’m mostly satisfied with the show as a whole and would give it a 9/10 in a heartbeat.
I didn’t even care who DS would end up with, because I loved both Taek and Jung-hwan so much! 😭
And I can positively say that after watching the last episode, I was (still am) in a catatonic and almost-grieving state from all the tears and emotions the show wrung out from me. Especially the relationships of some of the kids and their dads. Taek and his dad ALWAYS broke my heart, but I have to say, Bo-ra and her dad take the cake, because I probably cried 10L over them. 😭💔

In the end, this was a story about family and love in all its possible manifestations; be it that between parents, parents and children, friends, or siblings. This show never failed to make me choke on my own emotions, because it was so true to life. It encapsulated everything that comes with loving others so well. The pride, the embarrassment, the guilt, the sacrifices, the pain, the joy, etc.

With all my Tears and Love,
February.


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I’ve learned that it’s easier to give love than receive it, mostly because you really have no say in where your feelings go. You can’t direct them; and once you give your heart away, it’s only a matter of whether your feelings will be reciprocated or not. But to receive love: that can be a long, arduous, and heartbreaking journey; because that involves acknowledging that you are worthy of such affection and attention. That to someone else, you are lovable and worthy for simply being you. I’ve always found that hard, to see myself through the eyes of those who love me. And not really out of low self-esteem issues, but because it is such a scary prospect to have someone’s unreserved trust and belief in you. With that comes the “burden” of not wanting to hurt them or disappoint them. Be that through objective actions or–in my mind–the discovery of all the ways in which you are truly lacking as a person.
So, I have learned that it is easy to love, but being loved requires courage. Courage and belief that even at your lowest point and in your ugliest version, you will still be loved.

Love,
February.

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I’m now halfway through REPLY 1988 (on ep.10)… and as I’m sure that things will get more dramatic in the second half; I’d like to give a shout-out to the first half.

I love how this show simultaneously manages to make me laugh (more like cackle) so hard, but also makes me cry huge and genuine tears of heartbreak.
I love how the whole Sangmungdong gang always stand up for each other and stick together; be it the parents or the kids. They’re all just one big and messy family, who all love each other in their own way. *wipes tears*✨
Now, if you’ll excuse me… I’ll go break my heart some more brb.


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    You’ve never known or felt real heartbreak—like, REAL heartbreak— when watching a drama until you’ve reached episode 18 of “REPLY 1988”…..
    Disclaimer: Make sure you prepare a mountain of tissues… That’s all I’m going to say

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      IF, she is part of the other camp 😛

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        I think, regardless of who’s ‘camp’ or team you’re on, it’ll still make anyone cry T…..T

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          I’m not firmly in any one camp, because I love the dynamics of both potential OTPs. But I’m anticipating heartbreak precisely for that reason, and I will feel really bad for the one who doesn’t get chosen.
          As of now though, I’m rating the Taek-ship a liiiittle higher, because Jung-hwan’s behaviour is SO frustrating. At least Taek is unreserved about his feelings (albeit to everyone but Duk-seon herself…yet).

          The preview of the next episode I’ll be watching showed him saying he was going to confess soon, so I’m looking forward to that possibility… if only so that one of the guys lets his feelings be known!

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            Agreed!! Both men had their own ways of showing their love for her– Taek was more quiet, subtle, reserved but she knew and she FELT that he would always be there for her and I think she finds comfort in that. Jung Hwan, on the other hand, is seemingly more wishy-washy and self-conflicted in whether or not he wanted to show his feelings and have everyone know about them but he still chose to do things for her because of his love for her. Yet, both men were okay and happy knowing that they at least could stay by her side, regardless if it was as a forever friend, family-but-not-by-blood (which I find is actually one of the most precious and BEST relationships that can be formed and had on the face of this earth) or the one she falls in love with and chooses as a life-partner, which is the thing that I find most beautiful in the relationships in the “Reply” series– it all comes down to the root of all your relationships that come full circle in what and who “family” really means for a person

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I’m only 4 episodes in, but I’ve already cried twice about the family stuff in REPLY 1988! 😭
I’m already loving this show and our group of ragtag, gregarious (and one taciturn) friends.
And their mothers are a hoot whenever they’re together! 😂😂😂

PS: Yet another TvN show with ridiculously long episodes.



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    What? Just twice. I cried on every episode. And not just a simple crying. I bawled
    Everytime.

    I will only accept long episodes from this team. This drama needs to be absorbed, rather than binge watch.

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      Oh don’t get me wrong… the times I did cry where straight out bawling your eyes your eyes out/ ugly-crying/ suffocating sounds type.

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    This is my favorite in the Answer Me series. I love the family dynamics and the wonderful friendships ♥

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    My favourite of the series! Enjoy!

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    If you’ve already cried being only 4 episodes in, be sure to have a mountain of tissue boxes handy…. just sayin’

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    The long eps are exactly why I haven’t finished it.

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My exams are over, and I have a bit of free time before the next semester starts… so naturally, I’m going to watch dramas!

So I thought, why not watch something I have been putting off for AGES? This is also where I come out and confess I haven’t watched anything in the Reply series! I know, I know. I’m incredulous myself. But the reason I’ve been putting it off is because NOTHING wrenches my gut as much as family dramas. When done well (and I’m sure Reply series do so exceedingly), the dynamics of a family and the pains of growing up just get to me in a way nothing else can. So, I knew I needed to enter this with: (1) time on my hands, so I can really immerse myself in the universe, and (2) lots and lots of tissues for the emotional torture ahead.
That being said, I’m starting off with Reply 1988…purely because it’s my favorite cast (Ryu Jun-yeol, Park Bo-gum, Ra Mi-ran, Yoo Jae-myung (!!!) to name a few).
PS: I already know who she ends with. I couldn’t escape THAT spoiler (but I don’t mind tbh, because less pain). But I’m looking forward to how that’ll happen.

So for the next week or so, please enjoy (or ignore) my musings and commentary about Reply 1988.

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    Yay!! Enjoy! The family stuff in this drama is 💖

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    Maybe I should watch this with you. But I still have My Ahjusshi to finish! I think I got to ep 3-4 on this one.

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    I finally watched ’88 recently too and loved it. I also knew who she ended up with but I’m actually kind of glad because it helps you not get super attached to other possible couplings.

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    Oh, do enjoy!! It’s one of my all-time faves, and the family bits make me weep from the beauty.

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    I haven’t watched anything in the Reply series either! It’s on my list tho.

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    Try watching them in the order they came out. Reply 1997 is definitely my favorite followed by 1988.

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Beanies! I rarely do this on here, but…
I have a really important exam tomorrow, which only has a 30% passing rate. 😭
I need all the luck I can have 😭😭😭

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ENCOUNTER/ BOYFRIEND verdict:
7.5/10.

Filed under: Shows that I immensely enjoyed, had everything going for it… but had to ruin it with that one episode (ep.15). *flashback to BTLIOF ep.15*
Overall though, this was a lovely show.

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    For me it’s
    Plot: 3.5/10
    Cinematography: 11/10
    Acting: 10/10
    OST: 10/10
    Overall, I’d give it a solid 6/10

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    The ending is that bad??

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      The ending in itself isn’t bad, but they dragged things a bit too much in ep.15 and the first half of the finale.

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        So all in all do you think the ending was satisfying? Sorry, I don’t really watch this show no matter how cute Bo-gummy is. (Can’t really take office romances 😫)

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          I thought the ending was mostly satisfying. It was in tune with how the show started and what it was about, at the core.
          One thing I didn’t like though– and this tends to happen in all office romances–was that Jin-hyuk was still working at the company. It’s just weird for me when a pair gets together and it ends when one half is still working for/under their significant other, because there’s an element of power imbalance.

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            I feel the same!!! That’s why I was so uncomfortable with What’s Wrong with Secretary Kim! (That reason among many others)

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            @waterhyacinth
            It also really bothered me in WWWSK.
            And the thing with these office romances is that often, there’s always a better alternative.
            In Boyfriend, Jin-hyuk was good and really passionate about photography. I don’t really see why the writer couldn’t have made it his dream to be a photographer. It would’ve been a much more interesting arc for his character to have a professional career he wants to pursue, and fit in really well with the larger context of the story.

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Can we talk about how Jin-hyuk still has Soo-hyun\’s shoes from Cuba?!! 😭😭😂😂
Dude, give it back! Or SH as the owner, ask for it!
It\’s been bothering me this whole time.

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BOYFRIEND/ ENCOUNTER ep.15

Well… what an hour of anguish!
More thoughts in the comments:

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    I was seriously too mad to be heartbroken.
    This is the first episode I straight-out HATED, and thought was pretty stupid from a writing perspective.
    The characters were all saying EXACTLY what’s wrong with the break-up… from JH’s dad, to Secretary Jang and JH himself. So why TF couldn’t the writer execute it that way and skip the very unnecessary angst? I think SH’s dad storyline and how that could affect Donghwa could’ve carried us fine into the finale!
    They just literally wasted a whole episode. UGH

    But I do appreciate that ending, and the consistency of JH’s character. He’s taking his own advice, and tbh Idk how many k-drama characters do that. 😂
    I also like the continuity of how whenever one half of our OTP looses faith in their relationship, the other one stays strong. Although, in this particular instance, I think they really should’ve been past that and going through things TOGETHER.

    Last but not least, fuck JH’s mom. Like WTF, no remorse???
    Girl, bye.

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      His Mom was pure manipulation this episode and kudos to Jin hyuk’s Dad for not rolling over with her BS.

      Notice she was sleeping on the couch. Yeah, it wasn’t because she was waiting for her sons to get home.

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        If only the moms in this show were as understanding, trusting and unbothered as the fathers.
        I’m seriously looking forwards to the day k-drama show that’s exclusively about romance shatters all the stupid tropes. BTLIOF was close, but then ruined in ep. 15 too. I was really counting on Boyfriend, but now it’s in the same category.

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          I will only accept a breakup for stupid reasons if it comes before episode 8. Anything after…bothers me.

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I’ve been meaning to say this, but… did he really need to remove his jacket to take pictures? 😂😂😂
PD-nim I see you couldn’t resist PBG’s charms either. Thank you for giving us that sexy scene (Dress shirt+ pulled-up sleeves= Death by hotness). 💫💖💫💖
( I guess this is as close as we’ll ever see him shirtless, hehehe).

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    (Better range of motion? I did it all the time when I had to photograph events..)

    …or the PD loves us. XD

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      I know it’s probably easier to move without the jacket, but even taking that into consideration… it was still extra AF! Not that I mind that in anyyy way.😂
      I’m grateful for PD-nim who loves us and is willing to engage in a bit of fan-service.

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Someone please tell me they have a good theory about Soo-hyun\’s last words in ep. 14 of Encounter.
I can\’t handle this sadness. 😭😭😭

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    This late in the show, I don’t think a break-up would work. Unless it’s a veeery short one. At least, I’m hoping it will be short, if it has to happen at all.

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      Those are my thoughts too, but I can’t help but be apprehensive.
      They sure chose an apt ending to keep us on our toes for the finale.

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        I’m hoping that Jin-hyuk’s conversation with his mom will sway her somewhat. This show is my happy place so I really hope this gets resolved sooner rather than later.

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          And I thought that Soo-hyun’s conversation with Woo-seok after she found out about the fake girlfriend somehow created a shift in her mind, and let her see that breaking up with JH doesn’t make much sense.

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            Exactly. I thought she realised that unilaterally deciding to let someone go, no matter how noble your intentions, would end up hurting them. In other words, she’d learned how to ‘part ways’ the right way by having it done to her in the wrong way. At least that’s what I thought.

            Next week can’t get here soon enough.

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I love how they’re always eating delicious food together!
Can I also get a Boyfriend who brings me on Food Adventures, please?
I’m jealous of our Jin-Soo couple. 😭

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LOL, Romance Is A Bonus seems like fun!
I was already on-board; what with the books, LJS the noona-slayer… I guess I can add dance-offs in the library?
Suddenly, I’m really excited for this!

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THIS was asking to be GIF’d.
Kyaaaaaa I love these two so much, they’re so dang cute!


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“If it’s the sea’s job to make waves, mine is to think of you.”
Right you are, show! You were gone for a week, but I could only think of you.
WELCOME BACK!

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    Damn! I was going to post that final image with the book. This episode was so gorgeous. Every episode of this show is like a slow, contemplative film with a complete narrative arc. It’s like they’re making 16 romantic films. If only they weren’t boring us with the second love line. I really don’t know what the point of it is.

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      Loved Loved that last image! This show is sooo aesthetically pleasing, I could watch it on mute.
      … And the second love line really bores me too. I find it just too forced.

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In honour of the year ending, here are my own 2018 Top 5 Dramas.
In no particular order (but Mother was definitely my favourite), and excluding all the dramas that haven\’t ended yet:

– Mother
– Life on Mars
– My Ahjussi
– Wise Prison Life
– Hundred Million Stars
Hon. Mentions: Misty, Live

(PS: Choosing the Top 5 dramas is kind of hard, but a Top 10 is too much since I only watched 13 dramas this year)

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