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Kill Me, Heal Me: Episode 4

This episode takes some time to slow down, giving our main trio some time for introspection. But there’s no shortage of new news, as hints pile up around the locked room that is everyone’s hidden past.

The biggest developments come for Do-hyun, who takes direct hits on more than one front and has to come up with new ways of dealing. On the up-side, nobody can complain that life’s boring. Time flies when you’re having…multiple personas? Something tells me that’s nobody’s definition of fun but ours.

EPISODE 4 RECAP

Ri-jin reminds Do-hyun he promised to tell her his name if they survived. It’s a long moment before he answers, “With this face, and this look in my eyes, I am Cha Do-hyun.” Feeling the weight of the moment, they smile at each other, eyes moist.

A current of doctors and nurses flows down the hospital hallways. Dr. Park asks what all the commotion is about, but is fearful when he hears the booking guy is here to see Ri-jin (“in an expensive suit and a foreign car!”). But curiosity gets the better of him, and he follows.

Ri-jin asks after Do-hyun’s injuries and he assures her that he took care of them himself. Dismayed, she darts in and examines his work — not bad for an amateur. Impressed, she likens him to Batman, following up with a dorky bat-flying impression. This unguarded smile of his is so sweet.

She remembers to ask why he’s here, and he tells her he had something to ask her. But their moment is broken by a literal revolving door of hospital staff ogling and waving, while they so caaaasually pass through. Horror makes Ri-jin beg a favor of Do-hyun first.

She explains that she’s sorry for making Do-hyun fix a problem caused by Se-gi, but she has a reputation to repair. He can only apologize, again and again.

She makes a round of the biggest gossips, starting with the hospital’s biggest gossip and putting on a good show. Do-hyun tells him how much he’s heard about him from “our Ri-jin,” laying the flattery on thick while the doctor just eats it up.

Hilariously, the two of them speak to each other through their teeth as they make the rounds, maintaining the huge grins they’ve got plastered on their faces. Getting the hang of it, Do-hyun strolls up to a nurse and charms her socks off (while Ri-jin makes the best yuckyfaces). The nurse begs Ri-jin to tell her about the club they met at.

Another doctor thinks she made up the whole story and sent herself flowers and balloons. Arms around each other, the fake couple laugh it up, and Do-hyun promises to treat the doctor to dinner sometime.

But when they come upon Dr. Park, he runs at the sight of them. Ri-jin explains to Do-hyun that last time, Se-gi had the doctor by the neck. Do-hyun chases Dr. Park down, and the terrified doc protests that he didn’t do anything wrong.

To his astonishment, Do-hyun drops to his knees in front of him. He apologizes to Dr. Park, saying that he made a big mistake. “When I drink alcohol, I become a different person,” he explains. Affected by his sincerity, Dr. Park stammers that anybody can make a mistake when drunk, and urges him up.

The scene gives Ri-jin pause. She remembers Dr. Seok’s words about how Do-hyun is constantly fixing what the other alters do, and how he fights alone in his never-ending battle against his selves.

Ki-joon takes a report from the secretary he previously dispatched to investigate whether Do-hyun had checked into any hospitals. Do-hyun was recognized for being involved in a scandal at Kanghan with Ri-jin, and he notes she’s a psychiatrist. He also hears Chief Ahn met with Dr. Seok, a prominent psychiatrist who used to work in the U.S. “It didn’t seem like they were meeting for the first time,” the secretary adds. Uh-oh, Do-hyun’s not going to get found out already, is he?

Ri-jin thanks Do-hyun for his cool acting and reminds him about his question. He asks if his alter sought a favor from her. After a moment’s thought, she says yes, Se-gi wanted her to play. But that’s not it, and Do-hyun asks if Se-gi requested anything of her as a doctor, angling to find out if she was recruited to get rid of him. That’s not it either, since Se-gi was disappointed when he found out what she was.

He’s suddenly struck by the thought of Se-gi’s first love. “Could it be that it’s not Chae-yeon who is his first love, but Oh Ri-jin?” he thinks. Agitated, he questions if she’s certain she had never met Se-gi before that night — when Se-gi’s voice cuts across his consciousness: “You called me.”

Suddenly, Do-hyun imagines that they’ve swapped places, that he’s trapped behind a reflection while Se-gi sits across from Ri-jin. Se-gi continues, “Since a really long time ago.”

But a moment later he’s back to himself, and Do-hyun grips Ri-jin’s arms anxiously and tells her to stay away from him no matter what. Hit him and run away if need be, “Because it isn’t me, it’s Se-gi. He’s very dangerous.”

In a mixture of impatience and compassion, she asks him, “Did you always send people away like this?” He’s frantic to obtain her promise to stay away, but a sudden pain makes him clutch his head. Ri-jin runs for medicine, but when she comes back, he’s gone.

Do-hyun drives away. He answers Ri-jin’s call, only to reiterate his warning to be wary of him. She asks a string of doctorly questions, and he dispassionately points out he’s not her patient and she’s not his doctor.

She says she’ll speak as a friend, then. Do-hyun: “I don’t make friends. I don’t need friends.” He also says he won’t answer her call again and hangs up.

Ri-jin fumes. After what they’ve been through together, she thinks he’s being a twit. If he really thinks he’s a spellbound beast because of his multiple personalities, “Then he should get help from a beauty!” Exactly! Think logical, Do-hyun! But her fuming is fueled by worry about him.

Meanwhile, Do-hyun replays his mental blip and wonders what the hell happened.

A dreamlike sequence shows us a boy and a girl playing on a trampoline together, happy laughter filling the background…when all of a sudden the boy is replaced by a sparkling Se-gi, who asks her to play.

…and Ri-jin wakes up in her bunk. She takes a proffered drink and a man’s voice asks if she had a nightmare. She confirms, saying she hasn’t had one for a long time. Suddenly she bolts around and belts a long shriek, but it’s only Ri-on, who screams along mainly for the lols, which earns him a smack. It turns out Mom sent him — on the phone, she tells her daughter to come home after work.

Dad is disappointed Ri-jin won’t be home since she’s already gone back to work. He brags about her full marks in the college exams to the visiting produce supplier and the ajusshi wonders whom she takes after. Mom gets visibly perturbed when the man says that the kids look remarkably unalike for twins, and the implications upset her so much that Mom refuses to buy his goods and sends him packing.

Dad consoles her that he only said those words because he didn’t know. Didn’t know what, Dad? Are they BOTH adopted?

Ri-jin tells Ri-on about her dream, and novelist plays interpreter for psychiatrist (while also demanding an appearance fee for showing up in her dreams, lul). He sums up: She was jumping on the trampoline with a boy, both of them about 7 years old, and it was as vivid as a memory. Ri-jin asks if he remembers any real trampoline from when they were kids.

The hospital staff spy on Ri-jin, wondering if she’s some kind of femme fatale to be with yet another man, until a nurse adds that Ri-on is her oppa-twin.

Heo Suk-hee pops up and says the way he looked at her while she was sleeping suggests otherwise. It takes them a second to register the party-ready escapist and run after her. Kim Seul-gi is such a scream.

Ri-on asks if there was anyone else in the dream apart from the two kids, and latches on to the idea that there was a man. She eventually admits it was the guy who told her he liked her. He convinces her to divulge Se-gi’s pick-up line (“You called me/Now play with me”) and interprets it for her as “Go to a hotel with me.” Man, their chemistry sure isn’t siblingly. Mad, she hits him and chases him out.

At the door of his car, he “remembers” the trampoline, and places it at a park near their house. He warns her against meeting her admirer again since he’s probably a con man, which leads to another round of beating, but they cutely make up as he winks at her and drives away alone.

Ri-on is sorry to her for lying about the trampoline, and wills her to forget about it. He wonders if she’s tired of his oppa’s concern for her. It’s a rare moment of real solemnity from him.

Ri-jin receives a call from Chief Ahn. Between them, they figure out Do-hyun hasn’t checked in since he left her the day before. At that inopportune moment when he hangs up, he sees Ki-joon at the door. Not knowing how much the boss heard, he covers for Do-hyun, saying he’s in a meeting elsewhere. Ki-joon doesn’t seem to be buying it.

Ki-joon meets with his father, who asks after Do-hyun. He notes that the board directors liked their first impression of him, and warns Ki-joon to up his game. Ki-joon asks Dad if he isn’t too determined, but Dad has been preparing for this fight for twenty years. His own father’s ownership rights were unjustly taken away in favor of the older son (Do-hyun’s grandfather), he tells Ki-joon. Now, he’s thinking of swallowing Seungjin Group whole.

That means Do-hyun is Ki-joon’s natural enemy, and Dad tells his son not to underestimate him. Ki-joon says he may have something on Do-hyun — a “silent gun” — but has to confirm it first.

Ri-jin and Dr. Seok try to figure out Do-hyun’s whereabouts. Ri-jin recounts that he’d asked if Se-gi sought a favor of her as a doctor, then describes his abrupt behavior and Dr. Seok thinks he could be experiencing co-consciousness — an alter coming out while the master-identity is still aware. But Do-hyun has never displayed this symptom before.

Dr. Seok expands: If Se-gi becomes stronger after co-consciousness, he could even dominate Do-hyun and control his actions. He deduces that something must be inciting Se-gi’s outings, and that may be the cause of the co-consciousness and battle for ownership.

Ri-jin tries to call Do-hyun again and leaves a concerned voicemail, uring him to hold onto his consciousness and sanity no matter what, and be strong.

Do-hyun opens his eyes. He lies on a bare floor, a bear clutched in his arms. He’s in a dark playroom filled with children’s drawings and toys — this must be a dream or a memory. A closer look reveals mutilated toys and beheaded teddy bears.

A child backs into the corner, and the scene intercuts between little boy and grown man. A shadow approaches child-Do-hyun and adult Do-hyun cowers. This is freaking me out — what the hell happened to him back then?

A woman’s voice cuts in, and the ominous playroom morphs into a wine cellar at Grandma Seo’s, a surprised ajumma looking on. He tries to get a grip on himself, and starts to leave when he sees a hidden message chalked onto the floor: “I’m NANA,” accompanied by a drawing of a teddy bear.

The ajumma takes him up and tells him that his aunt, Ki-joon’s mother, is here for dinner. Seeing his condition, she tells him to take his time washing up.

Meanwhile, Grandma Seo takes dinner with Madam Shin and Madam Yoon, aka Do-hyun’s and Ki-joon’s mothers. The latter was summoned to explain the golf-course fracas and Grandma holds her responsible for not being the better woman. Do-hyun’s mother berates her in-law, and Ki-joon’s mother sniffs to Grandma that this proves her point.

Inflamed, Do-hyun’s mom hurls her glass of wine at the other woman and accuses her of trying to drag her down so she can be at the top. Unable to beat irreproachable daughter-in-law Min Seo-yeon, she must have been relieved by her death, she says. That makes Grandma lose her temper: “Don’t wake up a person who’s sleeping in heaven!” She orders Do-hyun’s mother out of the house.

This makes Mom flash back to her visit to her husband, Do-hyun’s father, who lies comatose in a private room. She tells him that Grandma’s been holding Seungjin for his return, with no intention of giving it over to Do-hyun: “That’s why it’s been a while since I changed my dream. Instead of you, the son of that woman, my son Do-hyun will become the owner of Seungjin.” With tears in her eyes, she apologizes to her husband, and asks if he can just not wake up.

Mom wonders to Grandma if Seo-yeon is really at peace, or if she died full of bitter feelings — and her words carry an ominous tone that actually make Grandma look scared. Mom threatens to spill Seungjin Group’s worst secrets if Grandma insists on kicking her out, adding that if Do-hyun were to recover his memory, a lot of people would get hurt. She cautions Grandma not to touch her if she doesn’t want to get bitten.

Do-hyun overhears the last of this encounter and drags his mother away to confront her: What secret does he know? She laughingly pretends that she made it all up as a way to stay alive in the household. Disturbed and not taken in, he leaves right away.

In his car, Do-hyun checks his phone and sees all his missed calls from Chief Ahn and Ri-jin, and finally listens to her voicemail. In a flashback montage, he thinks about his conversations with her — how she isn’t scared of him, and her offer of friendship. Then Chae-yeon calls, and he ignores it.

Chae-yeon meets Ki-joon for lunch, and is crabby with him for being late. She complains about Do-hyun being too busy for her, and asks oppa to try calling him instead, since he might take his boss’s call. Ki-joon lets her in on the fact that his cousin skipped out on work today — he was too busy dating.

She fires off a round of questions about the woman’s status and background, and Ki-joon notices her interest. She covers with the excuse that she’s she’s just curious, and he replies that she’s a psychiatrist.

Finally back on the grid, Do-hyun checks in with Chief Ahn. The chief worries if he’s okay, and asks if he’s been in touch with Ri-jin, but Do-hyun simply excuses himself from the office for the day. He confides that he’s in a dangerous condition.

He tells Dr. Seok over the phone that a completely new alter appeared, one that he’s never seen before — a young child. The doctor asks if he knows what might have triggered it, and Do-hyun struggles with anxiety and confusion. He asks the doctor, “Am I going crazy? Or am I…becoming a monster?”

Ri-on surveys his Cha Dynasty info-board. That really looks creepier every time I see it.

Fresh from the shower, Do-hyun scrolls through Ri-jin’s many calls. Just as he’s about to leave, his reflection twitches and Se-gi asks him through the mirror if he’s scared. “If you find your lost memories, do you have the confidence to face that pain?” he asks.

Do-hyun tells himself this isn’t real, but Se-gi continues that he knows the full truth of the things Do-hyun can’t handle. He taunts him to carry on living like he doesn’t know anything, and reminds him:

“That time, too, you ran away because you didn’t have to courage to handle the pain, and I fought that pain instead of you. Do you understand? If it hadn’t been for me, you would already have died, miserable and alone. But who is calling whom a fake?”

It’s too much for Do-hyun, and he tries to shut the hallucination up by throwing a fist into his reflection. When he takes his hand away, everything is flipped around and Do-hyun is trapped inside the mirror. Freed, Se-gi tells him that he’s the owner now — of time and this body.

At the hospital, Ri-jin takes a break from research and studies her phone. Do-hyun’s number is saved as “Shin Se-gi,” and after a moment’s thought, she changes it to “Cha Do-hyun.”

A new message arrives from him right then, asking to see her. She runs down to meet him with a great big grin on her face. An arm snakes out to catch her, and she comes face to face with Se-gi, all guyliner and red coat. “Did you forget the look in my eyes already?” he asks her.

Her squawk of dismay is priceless. She examines him toe to tip, and shudders at the overflowing cheese-slick. He remarks that she looks disappointed not to be meeting the person she expected. But he needs to check something, so he makes off with her.

They speed away in a red Ferrari and Ri-jin’s lungs get a whole lot of exercise from all the shrieking she does.

Unruffled, Se-gi tells her, “I don’t have much time allowed to me. We should get rid of things that get in our way,” and goes even faster.

COMMENTS

It took longer than I thought to see Se-gi again, but it was worth the wait. Now that transition is what I’m talking about, and it would be hard to overplay the horror Do-hyun feels. It strikes at both literal and figurative levels, and the way the scene was crafted taps into a darker vein that amplifies not only how trapped and helpless he becomes, but also how confusing his sense of self is. Similarly, the earlier scene with Ri-jin at the bleachers was practically poetic, playing all of those contrasts against each other — Do-hyun, blurry and lost in the reflection, while Se-gi was sharp and there.

The appearance of co-consciousness adds a new layer of conflict in the personas’ battle to dominate. So far, Do-hyun’s alters have been completely self-contained, without any memory-overspill between them. With this development, it raises the question of whether there’s more safety in their complete separation. If Ri-jin’s fears prove to be true, he’s in danger of becoming Se-gi’s unwilling puppet. On the other hand, as Dr. Seok said, there could be positive implications for his treatment. If the general aim is to reintegrate his alters back into the core identity (Do-hyun), then this could be a first step. The only problem is that it’s Se-gi fighting for the wheel.

But…is it really? As the last few minutes make clear, among the alters, Se-gi is the survivor and fighter, and the one who holds the keys to the locked room of Do-hyun’s lost memories. To me, getting Se-gi on his side sounds like a good game-plan for Do-hyun, if that’s viable (or even doable). Because however antagonistic he seems, Se-gi is still ultimately a fragment of Do-hyun’s psyche, who is the way he is because he remembers the truth.

As for what that truth could be, all I know is that it must have been terrible if it literally shattered his mind, so I don’t want to know either. The wine cellar makes me wonder if it really was the scary playroom in the past, which means the bad things that happened to him happened in that very house. So creepy.

What I’m loving about the show is how effortlessly it handles its emotional flow, going smoothly from light comedy to deep pathos and back. I was affected by his humble apology to Dr. Park. He’s like a man carrying the weight of the world — which some misplaced sense of guilt dictates — and he carries it ALL THE TIME. But I’m with Ri-jin here, because he doesn’t need to, and that makes him both pitiful and infuriating to her. But maybe that’s the medicine he needs, especially with his emerging fear that he is becoming a monster. He needs a friend who can look him right in the eye, unfazed and unafraid, and Ri-jin’s got that. Her profession is a testament to her being dependable and steadfast, and her sense of humor will certainly light her way. So come on, Do-hyun. She’s already rooting for you.

Ri-jin’s question to him is an incisive one: Does he always push people away? Once again, Do-hyun’s isolation is at the fore, but this hour shows how much of it is also elective — perhaps habit driven by fear. But he made the choice once not to be afraid, when he decided to battle Se-gi head-on, he just needs to keep making it.

The family relationships on both Ri-jin’s and Do-hyun’s sides are (deliberately) tangled. Most of us already knew Ri-jin and Ri-on weren’t biologically related (how else could he be a second lead, huh?) but I don’t know where that leaves us. Her dream suggests she really might have some previous connection with Do-hyun/Se-gi, and there are also multiple hints that there is some repressed trauma in her past — from her nightmares, to her reaction to the warehouse explosion when she was with Perry. On Ri-on’s side, his investigation highlights Min Seo-yeon (he has her name circled on his info-board), so I’m beginning to wonder if neither of them are related to their parents — which makes their family bond even more moving.

I hope Nana shows up next week — it shouldn’t be a spoiler to say at this point that the character descriptions tell us she’s a 7-year-old girl. I’ve been touched by the vulnerability with which Ji Sung plays Do-hyun, and his depiction of Se-gi is edgy with a touch of madness. He’s shown three completely different faces so far and man, I’m curious to see what he does with Nana. I don’t want to see a grown man acting like a little girl — I want to see a little girl inhabiting a grown man’s body. Bring it, Ji Sung!

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just wanted to say ep 3's recap actually inspired me to watch this ep and like you said, the scene with both of them.... chills, man. most horrifying non-horror scene i've ever seen.

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Ji Sung, one truly fine actor, so compelling. And how could they apply that guyliner so thin and slick?

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Did Hyun Bin gave this up coz there are a lot of characters to play? tho he is a good actor, I think playing jekyl and hyde is easier than to play a guy with an MPD and 7 personas at that.
Ji Sung is so splendid, I missed him, it's been years since Protect the Boss. just glad, sp glad, the Boss is Back!

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hyun bin just wants to collect the salary for both the lead and 2nd lead

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hehe you have must heard about HB's payment scandal for the show.

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I thought lee seung gi was first offered the role of ji sung's? Hyun bin too?

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I know Hyun Bin's show is much more hyped than KMHM but Ji Sung has set the bar really really high here, I love Binnie but if he has to dazzle me with his acting in HJM after seeing this.

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there is not much scarier than seeing your image in the mirror talk to you in horror movies

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and also, AAAAAA about the ri-on reveal!!! knew he had to be non-biological to be a 2nd lead. no bio brother was ever a 2nd lead. well well ilPSJ, sign up me for a disturbing fauxcestual side romance :P

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I'm still hoping he doesn't become too second leadish but it looks like it's the goal. I understand they're not blood related but, um, they were still raised as siblings. Adopted siblings don't normally grow up and fall in love. That just bothers me. Blood isn't the only thing that makes you siblings.

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He knows that they're not related, and I think she joined them when she was older, the age we saw in her dream. He remembers, so he's never once thought of her as a sister. I don't think it's too squicky, although it will be to her when she finds out how he feels.

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I don't see that being adopted at an older ages changes anything. Do you think older kids who are adopted aren't seen as siblings in their new families?

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I think I speak for a lot of us when I say Choi Dal Po and Choi In Ha of Pinocchio were in a similar situation and it was acceptable for them to get married.
Just sayin'.

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I don't think anyone thinks adopted siblings aren't siblings. But a lot of our disgust at incest is a gut-level reaction level developed as children. It's not something we have to think about. (Luckily, since sexual attraction is so often irrational!) Something in the brain in childhood takes into account who we grow up with and decides they are "off limits." Unrelated children raised together in kibbutzim, for instance, report as adults that they can't imagine being attracted to each other (even though their parents kinda hoped the kibbutz kids would marry each other and form a stable socialist community).
Still more surprising, on the other side of the equation, UK adoption counselors acknowledge that when people who were adopted early in life meet their birth families for the first time, they sometimes develop huge crushes on biological family members--even though the thought of incest is repellent to them. (It's called "genetic sexual attraction.") These unwanted emotions are extremely stressful, because of course no one thinks incest is okay. They don't want to feel this way, but it seems like they missed something mysterious in childhood that would allow them to be "immune" from crushing on family.
So maybe it's at least theoretically possible for kids adopted later, (7 or 8, for instance), to miss that window? I don't think Cute Second Lead thinks a sister adopted at an older age isn't his sibling. But I do think he might be tortured by feeling attracted to her anyway.
Man, if both our male leads are psychologically tortured, this is going to be a tough one!

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Ri On has never ever thought of Ri Jin as his sister. If he has never thought of her as his sister, then even if their parents tried to raise them as siblings, it wouldn't make a difference because he knows they're not and he clearly likes her as a man. I mean, this is dramaland, where children somehow have the maturity to fall in love with a person and remain in love with that person until they reach adulthood. And that's what I think has happened with Ri On.

I can't reply to Odessa's comment below but what she says about being adopted late and missing that 'immunity' window sounds quite plausible.

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*Odessa's comment above, lol. Look at me, forgetting how comments work!

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Yeah, let's just kick it out there.
The brother is uber messed up in the head.
A lot of mystery writers are actually according to history.

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I think we should see if they are really legal brother and sister as in going through legal adoption process and registered as family or it's something like reply 94 when at first they gave viewers impression that they are brother and sister when they actually not.

Anyway, I'm pretty sure they were introduce as twins at the beginning? or was it a mistranslation?

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They wre definitely introduced as twins and they have a whole seen showing that non family members think they're the bio kids of the parents. So they were clearly raised as siblings whether legal or not. Her mom was super upset at any implication that they weren't her kids.

I think we as viewers are all oh we know the actors and he's second lead...but I think the implications are pretty messed up. (I really like this show though so it's not ruining things for me but I just really don't agree with this concept)

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I agree with Odessa. There is also something like in my culture where if kids share breast-milk, as in fed from the same breast milk provider then they are basically siblings and are not allowed to marry.

But again, I agree with Odessa, when introduced late in life, I think Ri On also accepted Ri Jin as a sibling would also have a part of his mind that still considers her as a person of the opposite sex. It could happen.

And since they aren't blood relation, I'm okay with that. I come from a very tight knit community where we grow up to highschool in the same school and raised almost communally, our parents hang out with each other and stuff and take care of each other's children when needed. Most of us actually, even when we finally go to college to different islands and countries, come back and marry the people in our community. It's weird.

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It keeps getting good. :) I'm so glad for this show. MBC owes Ji-sung a lot for stepping in. You can really see the differences in the 3 characters we've seen so far.

I'm also starting to like Do-hyun as Do-hyun more.

This reintegration thing gives me Flame of Recca vibes, where you have to understand 1 entity and make it a part of yourself.

(PS Is it weird of me to wish for some bromance between Segi and Do-hyun before Segi says goodbye for real?)

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Nope, it isn't. They are both so cool (all thanks to Ji Sung's acting) that I don't want either one to disappear completely and that even Se Gi does disappear, he leaves Do Hyun with his ability to kick ass (figuratively) and umm, maybe guyliner? Hehe

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BROMANCE!!! Would be epic. Rather than only one side disappearing, I would really love a merging. Like Dohyun's quite strength with the edges and kickassery of Segi.

Btw, I still have thoughts that if Ri Jin and Segi had met when they were small, maybe the traumatic event was the same thing, like they were playing and Ri Jin got caught in the cross-fire or something and 'NaNa' was actually a reflection of Ri Jin when she was small entwined with Dohyun's self.

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That's a good theory, we've gotta assume that's the case, that they were entangled in the same incident back then. I'm so curious to know what exactly happened. What connection does Ri Jin have to Do Hyun? Why would they have played with each other as children? Is she his dead non-bio mum's daughter that she had with another man? She must have been adopted as a child and not a baby, seeing as her brother knows that they're not related but Ri Jin doesn't seem to.

On another topic - Wouldn't it make sense for Do Hyun to stay away from Ri Jin, seeing as Ri Jin is the one that Se Gi wants to take over Do hyun for? If Do Hyun constantly hangs around her and gets treated by her, won't Se Gi keep trying to come out of Do Hyun to be with her?

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I think that is why her 'twin brother' has that info baord, he trying to find out about what happened to her when she was little and must somehow remember that is was linked to Do Hyun family, also likey why he became a mystery/crime writer, in fact at first when I saw the baord I though he was basing his next book on Do Hyun and the series of deaths in his family, but then the, he not really her twin came out.

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Well, he was trying--that's what all the "I won't be appearing in front of you anymore, so don't find me and get away when I come near because it won't be me but Se Gi" is about, right?

But all that did was get Se Gi riled up...

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Maybe some horrible Freddie Kruger type of criminal got hold of all three kids when they were small.

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Oh man, that's just super creepy.

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Yeah, and how Se Gi keeps saying that she called him.. may be something happened where he tried to save her but either 1) he failed, or 2) he tried and got captured instead...

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Thank you thank you thank you! You have said everything and more with how I feel about the alters and the characters. I am strongly suspicious that Ri Jin and Do Hyun did meet as kids and whatever mutual trauma they share was probably the one that caused Shin Se Gi to appear. It will be interesting to find out what caused Do Hyun to create Se Gi.

On a different note: did anyone else notice that Se Gi with his hair done all up looked an older version of Jang Geun Suk from You're Beautiful? Or am I mixing up all my flower/guyliner/ bad boys up now? Lol

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Finally, someone sees that same uncanny resemblance and Se Gi and Keun Suk really do look alike. I find Se Gi´s role and the other alter egos pretty fascinating and I would love for JKS to take up a meatier role/subject like this in the future. His quirky and easygoing personality would have suited this colourful range of characters just fine....one can only dream!

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Yup, definitely looked like Tae-kyung. You're not the only one thinking it.

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Now that you've said that, I can totally see it! It especially that styling and outfit. I think he really did wear something really similar in YB.

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I actually thought he kinda looked like Joo Won.

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that's true! His hair and eyebrow (lol) reminded me of Tae Kyung from YAB.

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I felt that too.. I was like, he is looking like someone I know, and bam Jang Geun Suk ? He is looking like Jang Geun Suk

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It's totally not weird (I'm wishing for the same thing) because part of Do Hyun's recovery would probably be accepting Se Gi for what he is, namely, Do Hyun's protection against that traumatic part of his past. To recover, he'd have to make peace with Se Gi if he wants his memories back, and I think part of why Se Gi is so violent and angry is because he's the alter shouldering the trauma and the bad memories. He has to be that aggressive because that's how bad the memories are. So when Do Hyun proves that he's strong enough to face his past on his own, Se Gi may back down on his own.

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I've absolutely np idea about D.I.D but isnt it a fractured personality that supposed to be mended?

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Yeah, it is, which means Se Gi would have to disappear, but I didn't want to say it 'coz I quite like Se Gi and I don't want him to disappear.
Yes, that sounds extremely childish, I know.

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Thanks, Saya, for the wonderful recap. You answered a few questions that came up because the subtitles in the version I watched lacked some of the dialogue.

The plot thickens--on many fronts--and am waiting for the truth to be revealed as the drama progresses.

Ji Sung is awesome, as always. Has been one of my faves, since Save the Last Dance for Me.

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Omg, same here. STLDFM was my first Ji Sung drama. It amazes me how much he is able to churn out all sorts of different characters and look different everytime too.

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Hello everyone! Thank you, Saya, for the recap!

As an aside, didn't Segi's red-orange coat make an earlier appearance in episode three, when Perry Park was opening boxes in search of his own clothes? I remember him flinging some red-orange coat aside. I notice more details when I re-watch episodes (which, unfortunately, I don't usually do due to time constraints).

Yeah, this drama is making me wonder if anyone is biologically related, lol!

I was wondering if Nana might be inspired or influenced by the young Oh Rijin, who most likely encountered Dohyun (or was it Segi?) during the time of the as-yet undisclosed trauma.

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I'm really glad that I watched this show because of the leads! :) this drama keeps on getting better and better!

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Is it actually impossible for dramaland to give us actual blood related siblings outside of revenge dramas?

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ikr? :/
I don't actually mind if one of them is adopted, but must we ruin a perfectly adorable sibling relationship with ye old forbidden fauxcest love?

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Hear hear to both of you!

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I really am enjoying the different tones of the current dramas. I can fully pinpoint what that tone is in this one but it shifts back and forth between different emotions so seamlessly. And while there are some heavy topics, the show just feels so fun. I can't wait for more characters to come out...and also more SG next episode. We rarely get such full bad boys as a lead. I know DH will become a bit more like SG (his admirable attributes) but it's fun having such a raw character for a bit. Also, as discussed in the last episode comments, I think SG meeting Chae-Yeon is going to be so fun.

If DH and RJ really did witness the same event then I think it shows that family can really have a big impact on coping. Hers is amazing and his is horrifying.

I feel like what happened to do DH though was something ongoing and not just one incident. He blacked out over a year of his life. I have some ideas but I don't know how dark a kdrama would go with their lead.

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Love this show to bits! Another amazing hour of thrills and fun! Thanks for another great and entertaining recap!

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I vote for bromance! I would love to see Kijoon's character break the mold and join Dohyun's side against Granny. I suspect she's the real villain and Ki-joon and his father are patsies angling for power.

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I see: SG is the detective out of all the personalities. He deals with stuff head on and he is the one to take DH back to Korea and to start pushing him towards the secret (= what happened when DH was a child).

In that way SG is an important plot device, also making the connection to RJ.
I am guessing out of the twins she is the one who was adopted, and before that she had something to do with DH, why else would SG remember her?
RO found out about his 'sister' some time ago and investigated into her past - and that is why he has a ton of information about DH, since he probably figured out the incident already.

Once again, a very small world, where everyone is connected by fate and history. How very Korean drama of you, Show.

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In that way SG is an important plot device, also making the connection to RJ.

I had this niggling question of how SG recognized adult RJ as the childhood RJ without knowing her name or any sort of clue.

Once again, a very small world, where everyone is connected by fate and history. How very Korean drama of you, Show.

And I wouldn't have it otherwise. Lol.

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True, how DID he recognize her? Well, since it's a Drama, let's blame it on fate and move on? xD

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The way JS acted so convincingly at the mirror scene (he was really just talking to himself!) is so cool.
That said, I hope Kijoon and Chaeyong can make better appearances soon because right now they're rather flat. Even Do Hyun's mom is making bigger splashes.

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it is one of his strenghts I guess.

since I was recommended in OT I just took a look at Roayl Family which was a hard to find drama. and this guy has a deep and meaningful conversation with a friggin teddy bear.

of course with the help of the writer and PD but I dont think I have seen anyone so convincingly act alone with just a wall / mirror / emptiness / reflection as a partner.

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damn typos, I mean Royal Family...

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Wait, Healer talks to air all the time.

But it was you, who didn't like Healer, right?
It isn't that impressive either, but I just noticed :D

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not that I dislike him, but I am not crazy over the acting either. wont say anything else, everything about Healer starts a war...

the fact I cant remember shows it was not very memorable though

it is not just talking to objects though, it is more like.... actually TREATING them as a partner. I cannot really explain. think Hamlet and the skull

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"The way JS acted so convincingly at the mirror scene (he was really just talking to himself!) is so cool."

I knoooow. It really felt like two different people talking to each other. So naturally done and well directed.

"That said, I hope Kijoon and Chaeyong can make better appearances soon because right now they’re rather flat. Even Do Hyun’s mom is making bigger splashes."

Glad that I'm not the only one who thinks that. I just feel like fast-forwarding their scenes.

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there were a little bit too many phone conversations this time.

but I still love it.
would it not be totally twisted if Nana was like a memory of Ri Jin (that is not hard to deduce, many have done so) BUT with a turned-around personality (evil)
huuuuu or maybe not. Do Hyun has it bad enough he doesnt need some children of the corn in his soul

it sort of reminds me of Liar game except instead of the 3rd child we have Se Gi being the only one who remembers

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I wonder how it will do this week, when Twin Bin steps into the game on another channel. I find that Jekyll, Hyde & Me sounds a little more typical like one actor is just playing the usual cold chaebol AND the sweet second lead.
what Ji Sung is doing is more challenging and there is a lot more to explore... but I guess we´ll see

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Yeah, this episode wasn't as fun as the last one, but I think it set us up for funner one next time :)

I totally get what you mean about Liar Game! It is kind of like that...

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also, I would totally watch a spin-off of all the personalities as a one-man A-team. Perry Park = Murdoch, Se Gi = Face, Do Hyun....what was the name... but who would be a match to B.A. .... hey but Do Hyun was put on the plane in a similar way except he didnt drink milk. LOL

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so maybe the story isn't very realistic, and maybe everyone's lives tangle too conveniently in the past but damn if the story isn't riveting, the humour excellent and ji sung's acting awe-inspiring! really enjoying the show, but sort of dreading the reveal about their past. all hints indicate it's going to be nasty x.x i find the step brother as second lead somewhat disturbing as well, but what you gonna do, his research on dohyun's family might be because of ri jin's and not his own past, since he jumped to hide it from her. i think it's more likely that he's the real child and she was adopted after suffering the traumatic incident and perhaps losing her family? can't wait for more episodes (and more personalities of dohyun)

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I agree, siri, the humor and acting is amazing. I loved the walk through the hospital where she did all the introductions. I am actually disappointed Ri On and Ri Jin aren't twins, they make the cutest bro/sis set ever. I have to mention my fav nickname ever Dispatch, for the reason behind it. Hilarious! Oh, and the revolving door scene, priceless~

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ikr! I love the humor in this show, it's almost like a parody with all the references here and there, it cracks me up every time. kudos to the actors too, especially HJE, she's totally a natural in her role

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Um... could someone explain what "Dispatch" refers to? People mentioned it in the Viki comments too, but... I have no idea, hehe *sheepish*.

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Dispatch is a korean media outlet (with questionable working ethics, see Ailee's scandal for example) known for being the first to let out "scandals" involving korean celebrities, 2014 was a particularly prolific year for them. I love how they kind of shitted on them in this episode

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Well, as long as fiction is interesting just the right amount of sadness, humor and love, I can take it. About everything and everyone being connected, they can still explain it all if they want to. So Ri-Jin is Do-Hyun's lost friend whose memory is safe with Se-Gi. He is supremely rich, using the money he could have discretely tracked down the little girl. Ri-On, being a mystery writer got suspicious and found out that either both of them or Ri-Jin was adopted. He did some digging and found Do-Hyun and did all the research and even followed him back home from US. See, it can all be explained or it can all be fate, either way I love this drama.

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Anyone notice the name Oh Ri Jin? Don't know if it means anything in Korean but when you put it together in English= Origin meaning the beginning, the cause or the source. Definitely think she is at the center of Do Hyun's split. On the other hand, Oh Ri On would be Orion= the great hunter from classical Greek. Don't know how this fits but he is also the author Omega 3 = the last or the end of 3. Since he has been collecting articles about Do Hyun, he is connected and knows much more than he is telling.

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why aren´t you a genius. we did this during the 1st episode.

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yeah that was rude.

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That's interesting. I didn't think of it like that. And even if it may have been discussed in episode 1 recap, I'm glad you brought it up because I totally missed it.

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You get the big HUG for that!! :)

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If that was posted before I missed it.
TY for posting on it Toodles.l

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This gets me wondering if possibly DH is Omega 3, since Ri-on is so much the hunter.

Ughhh! So many possibilities!

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After this episode it gets clear that Ri Jin met Do Hyun when they were kids, but i'm not yet sure how Ri On it's involved to this story. And i didn't catch their name meaning before, so the writers definitely put some clues for us viewers.

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Thanks for the lovely recap and for your time and energy writing it!

Adding my praise to the crowd here.

I love the smoke and mirrors this show is doing with the DH/SK/PP personalities.

We are looking at the qualities we like about each, but let's face it, they are all facets of Do-hyun. When, and if, they integrate, we may see him out at a nightclub with the guyliner, or he may buy and sail a ship down to Jejudo.

My theory is there was ONE thing that poor little DH witnessed, but the trauma was over a longer period. I don't think you can disassociate into 7 personalities over one event.

The horrors did happen in the basement that is currently a wine cellar. Here is a thought, Nana isn't new. One of the barrels was rolled away. It could possibly have been covering a scribble that had been there a long time. Nana could just be a stuffed toy that Ri-jin gave to SK to "protect" him before she was dragged away.

Love the top photo! I screen capped that and compared the soft lovely colors associate with DH against the harsh red, black and neon green behind SK at the hospital.

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"I love the smoke and mirrors this show is doing with the DH/SK/PP personalities."

The directing is definitely getting better as the show goes on. I noticed there was less focus on bringing out visual cues when the personalities shifted which I'm glad for because Ji Sung is doing a great job even without them.

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I think they sort of purposefully set it up like that. They get you used to the visual cues so that when it's not there it's more shocking. Kind of like Jaws where they set your mind to think the music will let you know when there's an attack...and then there's the attack with no music and it's the most shocking.

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Interesting thought! Either way, the directing seems much better and seamless and has more impact.

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It is kinda like (emotional) conditioning

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After rewatching the early episodes, I was wondering why Ri Jin screams so much. I'm beginning to think its not just an acting response but and acting choice for her character. Maybe, as a child, she was traumatized so much that she was unable to scream. Because surely she was abused. Why else would she dream of herself as a child and a grown man asking her to play with him.

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.....although I need to add that I don't think Se Gi abused her. Some other man did.

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Hmmm, not sure about that. To me, it seems like that's just part of her personality to scream and shriek at things.

The part about the dream....the show alluded that it was more of a real memory of her and Do Hyun....except the memory was distorted to include older Do Hyun in an alternative personality (Shin Se Gi).

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That's what I thought, too. I thought subconsciously she was recognizing Se Gi as the kid she was on the trampoline with.

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Saya, I am thoroughly enjoying your recaps for this show.

It's also very nice to see that there are plenty of people enjoying this show while the Healer craze is going on.

Love Do Hyun and his personalities. They are all fun in their own ways. Like so many have raved, Ji Sung is totally nailing this role. I can't get enough of watching him. The sad trembly smiles; the cute rambly ajhusshi act; the intense guyliner-filled eyes; etc. So much to love.

Ri Jin definitely needs to tone down her screaming a little and become more professional. However, her personality is refreshing. Love her way of thinking, especially when she wanted to be the Beauty to Do Hyun's Beast. A lot of heroines often fall into the Disney princess roles (mostly Cinderella) that it was pretty nice to see one heroine actively want to fulfill one of those roles instead of being helplessly cast into it. Other than that, I also enjoy her friendly camaraderie with Do Hyun. The way these two smile and talk to each other....so many feels. The Secret lovers' chemistry is still alive.

I'm not too into Ki Joon. The actor was interesting as Assistant Manager Kang in Misaeng but he seems bland here. I dunno why. Am I the only one?

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I agree with you on Ki Joon. Most bad guys look more scheming and show more slyness but he does not show those. It might be something to do with how the script writer portrays him or Assistant Manager Kang is closer to the real actor in terms of his personality and he has a hard time to portray Ki Joon. Still he has more time to display his acting chop as the drama progresses. Let's see.

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I think what you wrote about AM Kang being closer to the actor's real self might be true because he keeps pulling off AM Kang-esque expressions that makes me feel I suddenly switched the channel to a brighter-looking Misaeng. Oh well. I do hope he can improve.

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Can't agree more about Ki Joon. I was so excited that AM Kang was in a drama so soon after Misaeng, but I guess my excitement was too much.

What I'm hoping is that Ki Joon will eventually take Do Hyun's side and go against Granny, like someone said up there (sorry I could not find who made that comment). Then maybe I can forgive Ki Joon for being a bland baddie.

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Lol at "bland baddie." Right now, with the way Ri On was creepily looking at his board, I think he has the greater potential to be the resident baddie of the drama.

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But I don't think RJ is unprofessional at all. Just because she's a loud person doesn't change how she does her job. Actually she picked up on all of the important clues about Se-gi/Do-hyun rather quickly and diagnosed him correctly after meeting him only a few times. In the scene where she first talks to Doctor Seo about it we can see she was even considering various possible diagnoses and observing and asking questions to narrow it down, all while being kidnapped and nearly blown up I might add. And I think the way she is completely unfazed by DH's disturbing changes, instantly empathizes with his point of view, and wants to support him makes her an exceptional psychiatrist. The screaming has been exaggerated for the comedic aspect of the show, and even if you don't like it you should judge it as a piece of comedy and not as an indicator of her professionalism. Instead use the cues the show actually intends to be read as indicators of RJ's competency.

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Actually, I also think she is very smart and competent for reasons you've listed. It's just that she's a bit of a manhandler (tackling patients) at times. I won't be harsh about it though because it only happened in the beginning and I feel like the rest of the hospital is unprofessional too as they spend more time on gossip than anything else.

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Isn't this similar like Do No Harm?

Where Se Gi actually is the original personality, that fell in love with Ri Jin when they were children and Do Hyun personality took over after whatever happened to him because he can't handle it and became "the real personality".

Isn't this similar to Do No Harm?

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Nah. Se Gi said he bore all the pain and memories Do Hyun ran away from, so I have no doubt about his being an alter.

His words are still ringing in my ears, though. "You called me. Since a really long time ago." I feel like Se Gi is Do Hyun's very first alter and have been born out of his desire to save young Ri Jin. Idk. Maybe that's how it ties up with her Save-me-I-did-wrong speech during the explosion.?

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Thanks for the recap Saya.

I think this was the best episode so far, revealing some mysteries and adding some new ones. I know the theme of fate is overused in Kdramas and it gets old after a while to discover in every other drama that the characters had a connection in childhood and were fated since then. But in some dramas that’s what makes the story so it makes total sense. The latest ones I can think of are Liar Game and Healer. I think KMHM also joins this club because that mysterious childhood connection that is so far only hinted at is the reason why Se Gi fell for Ri Jin and also why Ri On is researching Do Hyun. Ri On obviously knows much more than Ri Jin about her past with Do Hyun. What is he hiding and why? Then there’s the issue of her birth secret. It sounded to me like Ri On was biologically theirs but Ri Jin wasn’t. No point in asking why that is a secret as it is Kdrama staple and although I never understood the reason, I get that having no parents or being adopted is really really bad in Kdramaland.

There are mysteries in Do Hyun’s past as well. There’s the one year of his life he cannot remember during which his father’s wife on whose name he is registered to gets killed mysteriously. And he knows things about this event that can cause trouble so not everyone wants him to recover his memories. Maybe triggered when he is 17 but this trauma that caused his memory loss most likely also caused his D.I.D.

At which point in this childhood he met Ri Jin we don’t know, maybe during that lost year so that subconsciously he only remembers it through Se Gi. Ri Jin isn’t aware yet but she also subconsciously remembered him through her dream on the trampoline.

Ri On knows some of this and is obviously researching the rest. Initially I had thought he was collecting information on Do Hyun for a novel but maybe not.

The explosion when Do Hyun was a kid, the people it kills, the trauma it gives him and the resulting succession battle reminded me of Birth of a Beauty. These kinds of stories bore me to death so I hope they either weave it into the story well or don’t dwell on it too much. Do Hyun’s grandmother and mother are awful characters whereas Ri Jin’s family is awesome.

I find it a bit disorienting for them to show scenes which haven’t aired yet at the beginning of the episodes.

Nana seems to be a new personality Do Hyun isn’t aware of yet.

I truly hope cousin isn’t all bad.

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My thought was that perhaps the preview flashes mixed in with the flash backs were intended to be disorienting to go with the theme of insanity and losing your grip on time. That's how I read it and I actually really like the idea as a piece of meta-...... meta-something, lol couldn't think what kind of meta that might be XD. You know, meta.

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Yes, I noticed it. The rap is almost same with that of Secret. But I like this one. Don't know why I think this song has the capacity to get the viewers hooked to this drama.

Sorry for the grammar mistakes :)

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Kill Me, Heal Me (Predictions)

After watching 4 episodes of Kill Me, Heal Me, I actually am going to lean myself out of the window with my suspiciouns about what is the deal with Do Hyun.

First of all, people who watched Do No Harm, are you feeling a little deja-vu over there? Because I sure do.

What I definitely see coming on KMHL is that actually Se-gi is the original personality, or at least Do Hyun’s personality and Se-Gi were once half and half (explains why he is so much more present and powerful than the other personalities), but whatever happened to Do Hyun made him push Se-Gi and every memory he had back and what was left was the peaceful Do Hyun. That’s why I come to the conclusion that actually Ri Jin really is Se-Gi’s first love, just that Do Hyun’s part forgot and made new memories from year eight/nine onwards.

Ri-On, of course, isn’t her biological brother (he is the second lead after all, even if it is strange considering they grew up as children and Ri Jin doesn’t know the trueth), but whatever happened to Do Hyun/Se-Gi also has to do with Ri Jin and why she has surpassed memories. That’s why Ri-On wants to find out who Do Hyun really is, because he probably knows what happened to Ri Jin.

I actually enjoy Do Hyun’s character, especially because of all the facets. Each personality shows an extreme version of one single person. We have for example Nana, who is a little 7-year old girl and is one part of Do Hyun because that’s what he is missing. He lost his childhood and therefore nana appeared. We have Perry/Ferry Park, the extreme risky and laid back humorous guy and Yoo Sub, the extreme of sadness (in wanting to commit suicide). And don’t forget Shin Se Gi, the most powerful personality, who is the extreme of violence, the past that Do Hyun wants to forget.

Since Ri Jin obviously has a love triangle going on between Do Hyun and Shin Se Gi, in my eyes the perfect and logical ending would be of course both. Ri Jin’s first love (I presume he is hers too) doesn’t exist without Se Gi nor Do Hyun, because the boy she met when she was a child are both personalities in one body. The perfect solution would be Do Hyun accepting Shin Se Gi and everything that comes with it (=> his past) which would resolve in losing the other personalities, but gaining Se Gi’s memories and become the Do Hyun Ri Jin knows and that Se Gi (as Do Hyun’s past) treasures. I actrually have to say that would be a brilliant way to solve the love triangle (since I don’t consider Ri On as a real threat xD)

I hope this makes clear where I think the show is going and I’m proud of myself, because I actually thought this after the first two episodes, but episode 4 confirmed my suspiciouns and sealed the deal for me.

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Lisa..

I couldn't agree more with your prediction..!

I thought the same too :D

I hope that eventually, Se Gi will convince Do Hyun to stand up on his own to fight back against all his bullies..!
I get the hunch that Se Gi is actually trying to help Do Hyun, juz that his way is more aggressive than Ri Jin.

I love that this drama always leave us to ponder on the storyline..unpredictable..exciting..

Ji Sung really is a charmer..i don't think Lee Seung Gi can pull off this kind of complex acting :D

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Watch it online here :) http://www.seriespilot.us

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Se Gi may be the real identity and Do Hyun is the alter.

The 'real' twins maybe them and one of them was dead and 'living' in the others mind. It's like combination of Monster and Jekyll & Hyde.

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How old are RJ and RO supposed to be? I assumed they were a little younger than DH, but if they're all the same age that would be funny. That's what happens when you switch up your casting so late in the game XD.

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Thinking about it, DH lost his memories of ages 7-8 and RJ said she was about 7 in her dream, so... I guess they are the same age XD. Am I right on this?

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I think Ji Sung is like Johnny Deep. He can play many roles and absorb it very well. Makes me fall in love with Cha Do Hyun, Shi Se Gi, and Ferry Park until now. Well, in the next episode, I'll wait to fall in love with cute Nana! ^^

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Wow! This drama just keeps getting better and better! :D
I can't wait to find out more about Se-Gi and Ri-Jin. And why does Ri-on keep appearing with that board?!?

I also think that is probably the reason Se-Gi may be the way he is. Him having to shoulder all the real pain can be very hard.

Keep up the good work! :)

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The last version of Se Gi looks like Taemin.

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I love this show.
I actually a little bit worried to start watch this show, because hyun bin rejected it, and then Lee seung gi too. I am afraid they rejected it because of the bad storyline.
But after 2 episodes, I really likes this. Ji Sung really good.

And love the ost so much.

Cant wait to see other characters.

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KMHM is positively interesting and exciting for me to follow each upcoming episode and relish every moment when a secret of any character's is unveiled.

+ Ji Sung's acting is just so sweet and complete. I can watch his scenes countless times and not get tired of his characters!!

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First week I fell in love with this smexy bad boy Se Gi.

Second week I fell in love with Do Hyun, the nice gentleman with sad eyes carrying the weight of all his personalities.

Who will it be the next week??

...or I just love Ji Sung :--) ...he is GREAT!!!!!!

PS Thanks for the recap. Love this show to pieces (with all its absurdity and shrieking ;--) )

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THIS DRAMA SERIES IS AMAZING BECAUSE OF JI SUNG'S PERFORMANCE. NO DOUBT ABOUT IT!

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oh, and don't forget to add Hwang Jung Eum too :) they've been a very good pair :)

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sorry to ask this unrelated question but do you know what brand of car that cha do hyun use???hehehehe it's just that my curiosity kicks in.

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big thanks! now I understand what the song means.
this is the ENGLISH TRANSLATION OF Kill Me, Heal Me OST (CREDIT: PoPGasA)

Jang Jae In (feat. NaShow) – Auditory Hallucination (환청) Kill Me Heal Me OST

There are so many hidden things inside of me
It made me change so much
It put me to sleep, it tied my hands and feet
It trapped me in a dark room
The pieces of lost time
The memories of love that I threw away
They have been deleted and thrown away
Only the outer shells remain
Without knowing anything, I just shouted
I just have that memory
My heart that was cold as ice
It will be forgotten after I sleep
I want to escape from this pain that chains me down
Someone wake me up
From my soul that is filled with scars

The deeply colored night sky
Is filled with you, who won’t leave
It wakes me from my sleep
Kissing me again

Your voice that whispered I love you
Your scent, I hear it in my ears every day
Where are you?

You’re hidden in a place where I can’t see you
The pain you received for me
When my anger becomes one
I’ll chase the lost memories from the deep sleep
I want to find the real me that is not you
But the bruises in my heart are too big
I try hiding it but they hide in my heart and wake me up
I met you on the other side of my horrible memories
You embraced even my lost feelings
Helping me get up from being broken
I’m trying not to let go of your hands
I’m trying to erase the nightmares
I’m trying so hard
In this place where I trapped myself

I want to roll up the darkness
And find you
Though I can’t touch you
Or be held by you

What controls me
Isn’t what lives in me
What can heal me isn’t strong medicine
It’s just love
The voice I hear in my ears
Wakes me up from being lost
After it wraps around me and kisses me
It disappears and I can’t see it anymore

The deeply colored night sky
Is filled with you, who won’t leave
It wakes me from my sleep
Kissing me again

Your voice that whispered I love you
Your scent, I hear it in my ears every day
Where are you?

In the night sky that I can’t touch
I see you turning back
Making me escape from the exhausted days
Making it into a picture

I’m sorry, I say as I hold onto you
Don’t go far away, I call out to you
In the sadness that I can’t ever see again
Tears fall again

credit: popgasa

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Thank you, Saya for the recap. I saw the first episode right after it aired but it did not do much for me. But now I am so glad I am on board with this show because Ji Sung is killing it out here. *Still makes me wonder why Hyun Bin refused it.*

I might be grappling at threads here but if Se Gi remembers Ri Jin, then is it because the original personality of Do Hyun was Se Gi? I mean, Se Gi's persona could have been Do Hyun's original persona. And after that, the tragedy happened and Se Gi's persona which had already met Ri Jin took all masked the memories and pain. Whatever happened to Do Hyun is connected to Grandma, Se Yeon and Ri On, so makes it wonder, does Ri On doesn't know Do Hyun suffers from DID? It looks like he has a lot of research on him.

Overall, this show is just amazing. And I loving every part of it. Do Hyun, take the beauty's help. She has a lot of answers.

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The scene at the bleachers with Se Gi making his presence known and that scene with the mirror! God, such good scenes! Chilling, beautiful, poignant. Ji Sung is melting my heart into a puddle here, I feel for his character(s) so much. He is killing this role. Wow.

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I do not think at the end that was Se Gi. The hairstyle was different, his eyebrow was doing a funny quirk, and his eyeliner was different as well. My guess is he is suppose to be Mr. X. The raised eyebrow will signify Mr. X like the finger taps signal Se Gi. That's just my opinion! :)

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Agreed with everything you've said in this recap! That transition was the most chill-thrilling yet more memorable scene I've ever seen in a Kdrama and that reflection in the hospital, did you notice how it seems like SeGi was also in pain? He's the only one who knows all of Do Hyun's painful childhood and nightmares, carrying the weight on his shoulders for DoHyun!

My guess though, what if DoHyun and RiJin was actually kidnapped when they were young and tormented? Both has missing elements in their childhood, seems to know each other, and they just scream mystery! I love how RiJin is a heroine not just for the perks and happiness but someone who actually has the same mysterious past like DoHyun which will link them together as one.

I seriously dig this drama so far and it's going to be interesting to see what is more to come. I really hope no dull moment will be seen and everything well transitioned like it did today. This drama is horrorifically beautiful

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Thank you for the recap! I've been hooked with this drama since the first episode and every time after Thursday I spent most of the time rewatching the scenes until the next episodes come around. This drama left such deep impression to me that I'm willing to rewatch the episodes countless times! And I also appreciate how this drama actually makes the viewers think as seen in the comments, a lot of you posted a lot of theories and I enjoy reading all of them! Well as for a theory of my own I have a thought that since Dohyun and all his other personalities are of the same person when they integrate they will form the original personality, therefore there's no such thing as Segi or Dohyun being the original and so on. Also when the abuse happened, his original personality split the way it is, in which each of them hides different traumatic memory that allows Dohyun to continue living normally (or maybe not). Segi, being the first alter to emerge was then given the task to face Dohyun's first traumatic experience. Therefore it's only right if he says he has all the truth of his childhood. There are a lot more theories circulating in my mind but we'll have to see how it'll unfold in the next episodes I think. Can't wait for tonight and tomorrow's broadcast! >w<

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The actor knows every character. Awesome!

Ji Sung plays each one so differently. His facial expression, his body language, to the way he walks and holds himself.

2 thumbs up!

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thanks for the recap.

Ji Sung is stellar, as always.

Though I'm a fan of seunggi, it's a good thing he turned down this drama. I think he doesn't have enough experience to pull out this kind of role. :)

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Yeah, I'm glad Lee Seung-Gi and Lim Ji-Yeon both walked away from this project.

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Exactly !♥

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Saya, glad you're recapping Kill Me, Heal Me.

So far, so good. Boy oh boy did we luck out with the casting of Ji Sung, Hwang Jung-Eum, & Park Seo-Joon.

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Die laughing of the eyeliner every time Se Gi appears. Because a bad guy NEEDS to look like a bad guy and be all rock & roll no matter how old he is :v

Anyways, thank so much, Dramabeans, for the recap. It always helps me to read you guys' recaps everytime I can't understand something from an episode.

Ji sung's acting... I'm so so in love. He's so wonderful.

But why is there suddenly so much DID going on in dramaland? If I remember correctly, the mother in Heart To Heart also has it. And, of course, Hyde Jekyll.

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