[2018 Year in Review] Take my tears
by Guest Beanie
Thirty But Seventeen
I am a selfish cryer. I only cry when it’s about me. If I am hurt emotionally or physically, the best remedy to calm down is to just cry. When I feel anxious or stressed out, my chest constricts and I may get an anxiety attack, but once the tears start rolling, I’m good.
Don’t worry, I don’t go crying or wailing around my neighborhood like K-drama heroines do. No, I do it in the privacy of my own room or while showering and most likely while I am alone. I might cry in front of my immediate family but that’s it. If I hear a sad story, I sympathize and empathize, but I just don’t cry. My heart feels for people in real life and on-screen, but my tear ducts close up. This year however, that dam broke and my selfish tears are no more. (Well, in regards to dramas. In real life that is still a different story.)
Hundred Million Stars From the Sky
2018 has been a tough year, personally. Just emotionally, I’m a mess. To escape a little from it all, I of course turned to dramas. Why not get away from real life an hour at a time? Since my life is not where I want it to be right now, I typically watch dramas that are fun and or funny to lift up my spirits. I tend to avoid dramas with hard topics that could relate to me. But, somehow, this year I ended up watching and loving so many dramas that have made me cry. Before 2018, I could count on one hand the movies and dramas that made me shed a tear. Now, I can give you a top ten list on dramas that made me cry just in 2018.
It all started with I’m Not a Robot. My favorite robot related drama! Going into this drama, I didn’t know I was going to love it so much, let alone that I was going to cry. Seriously, how could Min-kyu believe that human Ji-a was a robot?! When the time came for all the secrets to be revealed, the Santa Maria team couldn’t reveal it themselves. So instead Min-kyu found out by himself that the only people he considered to be his friends had lied to him. Oh, my poor heart! I shed a tear for him thinking of how lonely he felt and how the trust he handed out was broken. It’s hard when you hardly trust anyone, but you still decide to open up and then they let you down. However, he allowed them to tell him the truth and, in the end, the friendships were mended. That brought on the happy tears because not all relationships have to end, some can even be brought back to life.
I’m Not a Robot
Just Between Lovers had me bawling all over the final episode. I just wanted Moon-soo and Kang-doo to be together and healthy. However, the scene that really hit me hard was when Moon-soo thought her mother had drowned. There is not one drama that does not have a drunk scene or someone turning to alcohol to help them get through a heartbreak or job hunt. But alcoholism is real and when the people you love use it for their depression instead of seeking professional help, it really does hurt. You can’t do anything to help them until they decide to help themselves. I cried for her, myself, and all people who have a loved one with an addiction and the feeling of helplessness through it all.
I cried in happy moments too! Like when Sol, the cutest baby of 2018, called Dong-goo “appa” for the first time in Woohoo Waikiki. At the end of (and all throughout) My Ajusshi, when both Dong-hoon’s and Ji-an’s smiles were genuinely happy and the main OST played in the background for the first time sounding bright.
I also cried out of frustration. Like in Smart Prison Living, when some of the inmates’ stories where just so unfair. In Live, when the police officers went through a lot, but would get slandered in an instant in the media. In Hundred Million Stars From the Sky, when no one would tell Jin-kang the truth and things could have been alright if they just talked it all out together. When Lee Yul (aka Won-deuk) of 100 Days My Prince didn’t want to go perform the rain ceremony, but his father overrode him and didn’t even ask or care why he didn’t want to do it. When Tae-joo found out his dad was very shady and, after many events, decided to stay in an alternate world or possibly dead (I still haven’t figured out the ending) in Life On Mars.
It probably looks like I spent most of my days huddled in front of the TV screen crying. Do not worry though, I actually felt good after I shed those tears. I now have a little understanding as to why some dramas are categorized as “healing” dramas. I turn a lot towards dramas because I want to be entertained and temporarily distracted from things that stress me out. But the thing is, after I am done with an episode, my problems are still there. They don’t just go away because I watch a drama or try to forget about them. I’m glad to say that although this year has been tough, relaxing and de-stressing with an episode at night has been helpful to my emotional well-being. After that hour of distraction, I can go face my problems head on and — for the most part — fix them.
One of my favorite dramas this year has been Thirty But Seventeen. Just like Seo-ri and Woo-jin, I definitely don’t feel my age and it’s something that I constantly find myself thinking about. However, its okay! Although I really want to say, “Don’t think, feel!”, I instead want to remind myself, “Let’s be happy!”
- [2018 Year in Review] Part 1: The Bean Count
- [Theme of the Month] Year in dramas 2018
- [2017 Year in Review] Editors’ Picks
- [2017 Year in Review] Beanie Awards: Vote for your favorite dramas of the year!
- Dramabeans Podcast #39: 2017 Year in Review
- [Vlog] Our least favorite dramas of 2017
- [Theme of the Month] Tell us about your year in dramas 2017
- [2017 Year in Review] Part 1: The Bean Count
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