didnt care about using audio of jonestown by kpop person then i saw the apology.. i think people know how i feel about south korea and non black people’s obsession with black thought and labor. 70% of jonestown was intentionally black. i dont care if he feels bad and i don’t care if people care that i don’t care. fuck celebrities, fuck kpop, fuck the rich, fuck the ruling class, and frankly south korea needs to get their fucking shit together.

i am glad the precinct was burned, i am glad the corporations are gone, i am glad the daughters of the confederacy is gone. i can’t wait to see more statues praising my people’s death to be decimated. but i am fucking angry it’s here. i am enraged, actually, that i have to hear this shit when it’s 4 black people being murdered in less than 2 days.

fuck the police and fuck antiblackness fuck capitalism fuck the pig fuck imperialism fuck the ruling class fuck patriarchy fuck all of it. if the feds see it? fuck you and you and you and you and you and you

i am absolutely not doing well but i am safe and i WILL be okay. if you have the money please find a grassroots org to donate to. look at @blkwomenradicals @surviveandpunish @bailfundnetwork, find some trusty RADICAL (not neolib liberal or whatever fuck u can even start at jacobin mag) rad people to read via those twitters. learn and fight the way you can.

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    Even if you’re not well I hope you stay safe Amara.

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      ty bb. im not going out to any protesting or anything. i want to but i cant bc my parents are immunocompromised. kinda feel useless but i know im being safe. a lot of ppl i know really holding it down. idek. tbh the two days ago i had a breakdown but im much better! hope you and yyourss are healthy

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    I’m thankful you’re safe.

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      i am, thank you. and are you? hope mentally this isn’t too much.

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        I’m doing all right and hoping that change is actually coming.

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          angela davis said she’s never seen this before and honestly. i think that if nothing else this year has changed the world for the better. struggle will come, but wow.

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      omg wat

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        Ugh, I never came back like I meant to, and my only excuse was I hadn’t slept for a couple days because I was glued to the television, and the sound of helicopters and sirens, and all the horror of that murderer living only a few miles from my home still makes me want to scream at those in power that have entrenched the systems which allow police officers to commit murder and other crimes with impunity.

        Anyways, I deleted my comment because I was centering my anger and fear inappropriately which is wrong. As a white woman to answer you the way I originally did was insensitive and stupid and I should know better.

        I hope you are doing better. It’s hard to not be able to go out on the street and physically protest and while I can’t do that either, I have been donating money left and right to big organizations, medium ones, and to individuals who are buying supplies and driving them to neighborhoods where essential services and stores have been suspended or destroyed.

        Now that all four officers have been charged and jailed I do have some small (really small) hope that maybe justice will happen in this case, but the actions against protesters here and across the country are beyond horrifying, and it’s time we dismantle this machine. Long past time.

        You stay safe. Stay well. And if you want to talk/rant/yell at me just give a holler with a tag. And if you want to join the discord group, just say the word.

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          ohhh ok. o fuck, you’re from that area, right?

          i am sorry. i’m literally…all i can do is cry. thank you for donating and caring. and for thinking of me in your response. it means a lot. i am trying to think this is possible. i know i can’t die, but all i can do is rip my hair out. every black content creator on youtube or creative on twitter like outside of my activist sphere. seeing them in pain. i feel. i know we are connected via our trauma, i’m proud of being a black american woman, but i don’t want this anymore. my mom was born in 57 and she is assuring me things will get better. that thegood outweighs the bad. i know she has lived through hell, but i’m so scared. i am so tired of this.

          it does help to know that non black people care and that we are coming together. that multiracial working power, the understanding and love of community, so many more people have lost their lives since the 25th, all sorts of them, but many still black. you know, i am so…fucking glad that we are talking about abolition and the first step of defunding. i don’t know about you, but did you ever think this would be here?

          still, i feel like my bones are being crushed. sometimes the tears are of pain, sometimes of pride for our comrades and people who carelike you, and sometimes just crying for my people but also humanity. i love this earth so much, i just don’t understand it.

          one day i would love to join you guys.i feel like i’m just a buzzkill tbh. i dont know. i really. man. but thank you for your reply, and thank you for being sensitive, and thank you for doing what you can too. all the best to you and your family.

          i am hoping so badly that in a year, maybe the day of June 6 2021, we can look at this and say wow we lived through it. there’s a general strike on juneteenth, that’s pretty cool. it’s gonna be okay. the way we have taken care of this virus until the first murder we heard of. man. yea. since 2014, i hve been on this journey.i know there will be more. it’s ok. i’m going in circles. but it means alot. i dont have the capacity to always check on people and reply but i hope you feel how grateful i am.

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