I know IOTNBO is just another drama and that they might not have connected such stories/emotions while writing the scripts. But Gang Tae’s visible conflicting thoughts, self reassurances to fight those thoughts and resulting pain hit close to heart yesterday as I’ve seen
similar scenario. Having a terminally ill, handicapped or gifted family member is inexplicable, especially when the love comes genuinely from heart. But when fatigue hits every cell of the brain and body after tending to their needs you cannot help but feel a bit complaining, irritated… but right after having those negative feelings, things get uglier as guilt towards that person and self loathing rushes in. It’s really fascinating how love for kith and kin works.
Prayers for all the real life Gang Tae-s who need all the strength to love themselves and the other person they share their hearts with.

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    It’s exactly that way.
    You bare the burden because you love that person, but all your energy is drained away, no time to think because when you think it drives you crazy, whether it is how exhausted you are or what can happen in a few months.

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    “Hypocrite.” And the reaction… really hits home! None of us are perfect, but for those still trying, still doing, god bless.

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      At one point one starts to question whether they have imposter syndrome or not when the hypocrisy, guilt, self loathing and negative thoughts reached peak.

      Kim Soo Hyun was kind of able to show that self-loathing when he realized he did wish at some point(s) in his life that he was able to live a rather “conventional” life.

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    Beautifully said @Playstore. I remember a young boy who came to the library where I work looking for a book on cathedrals. I believe that he may have been autistic. As I was searching for the book, he would periodically ask if I’d found it yet. I would say not yet and assure him that I would find one soon. Every time he would come up to the desk and ask if I’d found a book, his mother would give “Thank-you-for-being-so-patient” look. I felt terrible at the thought that she felt concerned that I would perceive her son as bothersome. Well, I found the book, and I cannot tell you how happy he was! He opened it up and starting looking through the photographs and explaining why he loved cathedrals. When he walked away with his book tucked under his arm I felt so happy.

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      I wish society was more compassionate to the people who lead ‘unconventional’ lives. It’s weird how we make conventionality objective when it is not.

      The boy who asked for the cathedral book is just passionate to get his book. It’s not because he’s defected or something. I think his mother also felt self conscious. Because not everyone reacted like you dear.

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        I agree, the boy was truly passionate about this topic. One of my colleagues was making an evening announcement informing patrons that we were closing soon. She told me that the same boy asked her if she was going to wish everyone a good night. He stayed at the desk until she wished everyone a good night!

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