So.. wedding preparations are underway, I’m a lot more relaxed now than I was the first two days after the date was set. I mean, I’m really good at freaking out but you know what else I’m really good at? Making lists, yes! So, I’ve made a list of all the things that need to be done and I’ve assigned everyone with something on that list and we’re slowly checking all of those. My mom wants to be incharge of everything food related so she’s got that and SNG’s mom is a pastry chef (Pâtissière she says and I absolutely love the way she says it) and she said she’d make us our wedding cake (she also made us our engagement cake but that was mostly devoured by his dad and mine so I hope I get to taste this one).

As for the wedding dress.. hehe.. I was honestly not planning to wear a white wedding dress, I was thinking of wearing a traditional dress of our own but when I told SNG he went: “You’re not going to wear a white dress?” I said no and he looked so hurt at that (I’m not exaggerating when I say he looked like I just crushed his heart by telling him I was not going to marry him anymore). I wasn’t expecting that kind of a reaction so I asked him if he was sad, he said no and laughed but YOU DON’T LAUGH AT ME WITH THOSE SAD EYES!!! So yeah, now I am going to wear a white dress (which I still need to find) but he doesn’t know and I’m just going to surprise him with it ☺

Also, the venue.. I wanted a beach wedding but with the current situation we have most of our beaches locked and the private beaches we asked said they’re not allowed to hold any sorts of events no matter how small of a group of people it is. I know I shouldn’t have expected anything or had my hopes high, but I admit, my heart still broke a tiny bit.

After getting another rejection today, we were sitting in the car and sulking (Okay, I was sulking and he was just watching me sulk) and he asked me if I was alright, I told him I was but maybe I should’ve tried saying that without crying (I lied okay, it wasn’t a tiny heartbreak!). He told me not to cry and I told him I wasn’t crying (I don’t know why I always do that) but okay confession: I never thought I’ll ever get married, I never wanted to actually, it was just never a priority in my life, I couldn’t imagine being with someone, really, just the idea of it weirded me out (You could tell I guess from all those stories I told you 😅), but then.. SNG happened and things changed and beach is were A LOT of our “firsts” happened (He confessed at the beach 😭) and I just really wanted our wedding to be at the beach 💔

So I was saying all this to him and I was complaining about how unfair this is and how sad I am but he just kept looking at me and smiling (Yes), so I asked him what is it and WHY IS HE SMILING? And he just went: “I’m realizing this for the first time.. you have really cute teeth!” (HUH? WH.. WHAAAAT?!). Beanies, I’m really not kidding, I actually had to take a minute to calm myself down before punching him, and he laughed, HE LAUGHED! Seriously, I was pouring my heart out there and he was doing what, STARING AT MY TEETH! I told him he is a freak and he laughed even more and then went: “Yes, I’m your pervert and I’m your freak!” And, OH MY GOD, WHO SAYS THAT? I didn’t even know he was holding that “pervert” comment against me, it killed me, I couldn’t stop laughing at that, I still can’t stop laughing at that! (Also, I’m not sure I should be happy about this but he said “your” ☺).

P.S. All the usual wedding halls and venues are closed, we have to get creative here and we only have 8 WEEKS LEFT!
P.P.S. He called me to tell me that he got a bruise on his shoulder and I thanked him for still wanting to marry me 😭

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    Also, 70+ notifications!!!
    I will try to get to all of those later tonight, I promise!

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    I …. I have no words…. YOU 2 ARE SO FLIPPIN’ CUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTEEEEE STAHP IT 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 Don’t actually stop sharing, I actually enjoy reading about your story, just as long as you are comfortable sharing 🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘

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      Thank youuu!
      I don’t actually know how much more I’ll share.. but we’ll see 😂
      Also, I only share the things I want to and I’m comfortable sharing, a lot of other things are omitted ☺🙈

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    @azzo Your updates always make me smile!

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    Omg, this is the cutest thing everrrrrrr. I don’t know much about your story, but first off: congratulations!! You two seem so happy together and (although sort of late) I’m here for it!! Your post just made me feel so much more single 😂😂 Good luck with the rest of your preparations!! 💗

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      Also, I just caught up on all of your SNG posts and also found out about what happened earlier this year (I am so, so sorry that that happened, you seem like such a pure and nice soul), and can I just say I’m fan girling right now over your story EEK

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    Oh my word!!!! Congratulations!!!! ❤️🌷
    I pray blessings on your marriage.
    I pray that all plans will fall into place and that on your most special day you will have the most wonderful day of the start of your lives. Hugs 🤗

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    I read all your recent real life posts and “Kim Woo Bin” aka Joseon Saja murmuring ‘I have seen this drama’ gif plays in my brain.
    Anyways, Best wishes to you dear.

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      I went through all my gifs because I remember having it but I couldn’t find it!

      Thank you!

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    Omg I’m anticipating his reaction when he sees you in the dress!

    Sucks about the venue problem. Hope things work out. Maybe still an outdoor space if not the beach?

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      The thing is, anything outdoor needs a permit and they’re not giving those anymore 😭

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    The love story continues 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
    That is really disappointing about the beach. The papers here carry so many stories about people who had weddings planned for 200, 300 guests and they had to end up getting married with 3 people in their backyard. Or so many couples who have postponed the wedding not knowing when on earth they can have it. So, it will be great no matter where you do it!
    Wow, that’s neat that your future MIL is a patissier! Just like Kim Sam Soon! (My favorite kdrama heroine).
    Sorry to add to your notifications (who knew it could even go as high as 70?) but I had to wave 👋🏽 and wish you well!

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      We are planning a very small and private wedding, 25 people max and we might go down to 20 even (let’s see how things go). My mom actually wants us to wait till the pandemic is over but who knows when that is going to happen, so no, small wedding it is (I really prefer this).

      Yes, she is and I asked SNG if he’s learned anything from her and he said cookies.. well, something is better than nothing 😂

      Thank you!

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    Just when we think you two can’t be more cute, you prove us all wrong.
    By the way… does a traditional white dress make sense? I mean, could it work as a wedding dress?

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      I was thinking along these lines too but then I thought maybe traditional dresses are another color rather than a different style.

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        They come in a different style (a lot of different styles, actually), and they do come in all colors but the most popular colors are red, green and white/gold!

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      We do have traditional white bridal dresses, they usually come with gold embroidery and I was thinking of something like that but in our language we call the white dress and the traditional dress two different things.. and he just looked so sad when I said no to the white dress.. now I just have to!

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        I know he would be happy with whatever you wear.
        And I know you will be stunning with whatever you wear.
        But if you’ve made up your mind to the white dress, then be it!!
        You’ll be perfect!

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    How do you magically know a beanie is having a hard day and post then?😂
    The “urri” always counts, so does the “your”. You have a right to be giddy about it. Teeth, eyebrows, wrists, dimples, can’t say there’s a difference.

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      I’m sorry that you’re having a hard day, I really hope it gets better and I’m glad if this post helps in any way 💙

      You know what I just realized, he never commented on my dimple!!!

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    I have the biggest smile on my face reading this. You two are adorable!

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    Aww, Azzo… Wedding preparations can be stressful (and I can’t imagine how they are in these strange time)… But try to soak all the excitement in!

    I bet that SNG will tear up seeing you in a white wedding dress.

    As for a beach wedding… You could always wait until the pandemic ends and beaches to reopen, to have an intimate, simple, planning-free wedding vows renewal on the beach.

    Either way, your wedding day will still be very magical and I’m truly happy for you !

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      I’m really trying not to stress but just going out to get things done is very stressful, especially because we have to constantly remind ourselves to be careful and to be safe, it is kind of exhausting.. but yeah, I’m trying!

      I don’t know about him but the thought of it all makes me want cry 🙈

      Thank you.. we might actually do that!

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    *reads first line*

    So.. wedding preparations are underway


    I missed the news. You are getting married??!!!!
    Also, congratulations! You are your SNG are so cute.

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      Hehe.. yes.. umm.. things kind of happend and somehow we’re here!

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    Not sure it’s legal for you two to be this cute!! Reading your updates always makes me smile. Thank you for sharing your joy with us and good luck with your search!

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      My heart dropped at the first line because I thought you were saying it was not legal for us to get married, I was like WHY? What kind of a plot-twist is this?

      Thank you!

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    Azzo, this is so sweet to read!!! Such a lovely surprise to see your update!
    Yeah,it must be tough organising the wedding during this time but I know you can do it! You can always hold a private beach ceremony on a special date later on, it must be nice walking around the town and looking back on your memories!

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      It is but we’re trying not to get ourselves all worked up when things don’t go our way (not sure how well that is going 😂💔).

      Thank you, we’ll do that!

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    “You’ve got your self one swoony guy Azzo.” This is what i thought when he said “you’ve really cute teeth”!
    Best of luck with the wedding preparations 🎉.
    I was wondering if your traditional dress is the same red coloured traditional dress that Indians and Pakistanis have? Otherwise I would love a picture of it 🙂

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      Thank you!

      No, it’s different, or I should really say they’re different as we have more than one traditional dress. I was thinking of a modernized version of a traditional dress, something like this:
      https://www.instagram.com/p/B9e8MHEBPtL/?hl=en

      You could also check her account as she’s a traditional bridal dress designer!

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        That one in the link you shared is gorgeous!

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          I knowww! I had my heart set on that one, I even talked to the designer and she was so nice with everything, I told her I’ll get back to her but I never did.. because change of plans!

          Will SNG know the difference between this and a white dress? LOL!

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            Hahaha honestly it really is beautiful! I hope you find one that SNG and you, both love it a lot!!

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        That dress is spectacularly gorgeous!!!!!!!

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        That dress is spectacularly gorgeous!!!!!!!

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    but he doesn\’t know and I\’m just going to surprise him with it

    Uh, are you sure he doesn’t check Dramabeans?

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      He doesn’t really know what site this is, I never told him! When showing him the comments I made sure the site name was hidden. Also most of the comments were sent to him screencapped and cropped to my liking, LOL!

      (@kudoran said if he’s ever going to google azzo and sticky-note guy, he’s going to find us but I don’t think he’ll actually do that.. so yes!)

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    The sweetness continues! I’m wishing all the best for you guys.
    Good luck with finding a dress and a venue, I was without dress about four weeks before the wedding even with a whole year to plan and no pandemic getting in the way, it’s stressful! ( I ended up making mine 😅 Which I do NOT recommend for a stress free time but you can’t see the safety pins in the photos).
    At the end of the day the most important thing to have at your wedding is the right person to get married to, and it sounds like you’ve got that ❤️

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      Thank you!

      I don’t think I can make my own dress, I don’t have that kind of patience and it will drive me crazy.. but yeah excited and also kind of nervous when thinking of finding a dress!

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        I definitely wouldn’t recommend it for a fun time, I had to safety pin myself into the bodice because i discovered too late I’d made it too low cut😂
        Buy (or borrow?) something fabulous!

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    Love your update! But why are updating when you have a wedding in 8 weeks????? Kidding. Have fun. SNG sounds like a keeper.

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      Because.. writing is my way of de-stressing and no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to sleep at all these days (seriously, almost 3:30 am here), might as well check DB then!

      Thank you!

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    Congratulations 🙂

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    Dearest Azzo,
    I think one of the most wonderful things about DB is that this is such a warm and loving group of people who for the most part, have never even met in person. I so enjoy reading the thoughts of other beanies and how they think about life.
    Then there are the outstanding writers like yourself who have a wonderful way of writing so that we can feel your excitement/embarassment/determination/love for your family/awe for SNG through your words.
    You have let us into your world a bit so that we can enjoy it a bit surreptitiously through your clever writing.
    thank you for that.
    And thank you for trusting us enough to come back to share the wonderful news.
    SNG sounds like such a wonderful man and I am so happy for you.
    Your family sounds so wonderful as well.

    So Congratulations and I’ll be thinking of you all on September 18. Who knows, maybe a miracle will happen and you get some kind of a ‘beach’ wedding. Most importantly is that you are with your love and the families that love and support you both.

    Really and truly – all the best for you!
    🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

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      @stpauligurl ☹❤
      DB to me has always been this sweet, kind and loving community, I’ve known most of the beanies for years now and I’ve always thought of everyone as one big group of friends. I did have one bad experience earlier this year but I really don’t want that to be what I think of DB now.. It took me a little to write again here and I admit, I hesitated before sharing my story again but seeing how it makes everyone happy, I’m really glad I did!

      Thank you so much.. I think it was you who told me last year to keep writing about SNG and I even if I was never going to post on here.. and I took that advice and I never stopped writing since then (three whole notebooks and counting, LOL), I might never share those stories here but I’ll cherish those forever, so thank you, really, and thank you for all the well wishes, it means a lot ❤

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    Dearest Azzo,
    I think one of the most wonderful things about DB is that this is such a warm and loving group of people who for the most part, have never even met in person. I so enjoy reading the thoughts of other beanies and how they think about life.
    Then there are the outstanding writers like yourself who have a wonderful way of writing so that we can feel your excitement/embarassment/determination/love for your family/awe for SNG through your words.
    You have let us into your world a bit so that we can enjoy it a bit surreptitiously through your clever writing.
    thank you for that.
    And thank you for trusting us enough to come back to share the wonderful news.
    SNG sounds like such a wonderful man and I am so happy for you.
    Your family sounds so wonderful as well.

    So Congratulations and I’ll be thinking of you all on September 18. Who knows, maybe a miracle will happen and you get some kind of a ‘beach’ wedding. Most importantly is that you are with your love and the families that love and support you both.

    Really and truly – all the best for you!
    🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

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    Aw, azzo. I came here late, and was super excited to get a notif from you. As usual, your story transfixed me. Gee, I even get mentioned. I am so honoured. What an incredibly swoonworthy and exhilirating experience your love story has been, complete with the gasps, the pounding heart, the pink-faced moments, the tears and the laughs. Thank you for sharing all your giddy moments with us. I am so happy that you are marrying HIM, Mr. SNG, and it is the bright spot of this new, dim reality. 8 weeks will fly by, and in no time at all, you will be embarking on the next adventure of your life with him by your side. I can’t wait. Happy planning, and if you feel somebody’s watching over your shoulder, no worries, it’s just me, an invisible wind….wooooooo

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      YY you make it sound like an actual drama!
      I’m so happy I’m marrying him, too ☺
      Thank you so much, I promise I won’t freak out whenever I feel you around 😂❤

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    thanks for the update 🙂
    wow so many things happening and your mother-in-law is a pâtissière *assa* hehe.
    Good luck with all the preparations going on , even more in this weird year of 2020.

    We all melt down when they use “uri” in Kdrama , he said “your” , wait for him to say “our” house, and so on ^^ .
    Hwaiting Azzo , seems like you need it ^^’ (and don’t deprive yourself too much of sleep)

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      She is, how cool is that? LOL!
      Thank you.. it’s been tough but we’re managing I guess, one step at a time!

      We have “our” apartment now and that seems CRAZY!!! Like, I’m really still in disbelief!

      (I can’t seem to sleep still but what is sleep anyway? 😂💔)

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    Azzo!! I know i’m late to the party (have been passively reading stuff on DB, just not logged on hahaaha) but congratulations for your engagement and upcoming wedding!! Reading your stories has been one of the reasons why I’m smiling so much lately! thank you for sharing your experiences with us! You and SNG are so cute and adorable!!

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      Thank you ❤
      And thank you for enjoying this, I’m glad my stories make you smile!

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