Got a call that my best friend passed away this morning due to COVID complications and that she will be immediately cremated. As someone who is asocial, I find it difficult to make friends and talk to people in real life. She’s my longest friend and this news breaks my heart. Life is so unfair to treat a person who worked hard her whole life to support her family and her studies. She was only 30 and was only starting to pay back debts. She has yet to fall madly in love and finally start living her life. I’m angry but I don’t know where to direct it. This government isn’t taking this pandemic seriously. Her family isn’t making any move to pay for her hospital bills. I feel useless because of what’s happening. When I didn’t have a single friend in College, she approached me with a smile. Her smiles always comforted us. No one in class dared to complain cause she never once did despite her multiple part-time jobs. She deserves the world but she no longer lives here. I want to see her and hug her and thank her for always being there for me and my family. I cannot risk going out cause I have a baby. I wish I had spent more time with her. I wish I had sent her messages every day. I wish I had been a better friend. I’m sorry for this post. I just don’t know where to say this. Hug your loved ones tighter, Beanies.

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    i am sorry to hear this. May, she rest in peace.

    Agree, it is frustrating when one doesn’t have any agencies left that one can place hope in. Governments! 🙁

    But, your post does scare me. I guess at some level, some complacency wrt to the pandemic creeped in as people start getting back to regular lives. But knowing world lost such a young life jolts me back into the reality…

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    i’m so sorry for your loss… keep her in your fondest memories, that’s how you can keep her close to you.

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    I’m so sorry. You’re right, she’s far too young to be gone. It might help to hold your own memorial service for her, maybe by writing down some of your fond memories.

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    I’m so sorry you have lost your friend. This virus and the incompetency of those in charge and the complacency of many around us makes these losses so much more painful.

    Your friend sounds like she was lovely. Maybe, to help you formally celebrate what she meant to you, you could write a letter to her family and share some of your memories of her. While it is certainly no substitute for having her in your life, it might be a gift that could be a bright spot for her family, and also allow you an outlet of sorts.

    Give your baby a hug, and take care of you.

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. She sounds like she was a great person. I pray she finds peace.

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    My condolences on the loss of your best friend. Definitely gone too soon. May she rest in peace.

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    Oh no…
    I’m so sorry for your lost candy. I remember your stories about her. May you find the strength and peace in this difficult time. Prayers for her family as well 🙏🏻 🙏🏻

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. I am speechless as I’m far from my family and knowing that this could happen to anyone scares me. Hugs to you.

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    She sounds lovely and I’m so sorry for your loss. May you find peace and strength during this challenging time.

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    I’m so so sorry for your loss. I don’t know your friend, but this news breaks my heart so I can’t imagine what you are going through right now. Hugs to you.

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    **hugs** sorry to hear about your loss. Talking about it and writing a letter may help you grieve better. Its natural to be angry that things are happening beyond our control. Also hard to accept that the govt that is supposed to protect its people has failed. We are in unprecendented times and my heart goes out to you and her family.

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    This is heartbreaking to hear. I’m so sorry.

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    I’m so sorry for your loss.
    Your friend was a nice person, keep her memories with you and later on, maybe you’ll share stories about this great friend of yours with your child.

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    I’m so sorry for your loss! I’m also 30 and it’s way to young to leave this world. Many hugs to you!!

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. I know your friend only through your stories but I was sure that she’s an amazing person. This isn’t what I wanted to read about her, I wanted her to be happy and live her own life. May she Rest in Peace. I honestly don’t know what to say, I was very hopeful and optimistic for her, this has shaken me. If you have any unsaid words, pray for her, write for her, she’ll hear.

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    I am so sorry to hear this, my condolences

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    I’m so sorry to hear this. Your words are a beautiful tribute to her. I’m so sorry for your loss and wish you comfort while you grieve. May her memory be for a blessing.

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    My condolences on your loss.

    We always think of what we could have done better in situations like these, but I’m sure your friend wouldn’t want you to have anything other than fond memories of your precious times together. I pray you find peace and comfort during this difficult time.

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    I’m so sorry for your loss. This news breaks my heart though I don’t know you nor her personally; I’m sure she is a beautiful person.

    Some day the world is a garden and the most beautiful flowers are often picked first. In my religion, we believe that when we do some good deeds we can send the loving and positive energy to people who have left us. When I do something good I often think of those who has gone before me and the ones I’m thankful for. I hope you find some comfort during this difficult time.

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    I am so, so very sorry for your loss.

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    @candysbff I am truly sorry for your loss.

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    My condolences for your loss. May your friend Rest In Peace.

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    oh no… my deepest condolences, dear @candysbff

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    I am so sorry for your loss. I really enjoyed the stories about her and the updates. I was truly shocked when I read this. I Iost many people in their late 20s when I was in my twenties and it impacted me greatly. Hugs to you. This is such a hard time and with a young child even in good times it can be so exhausting. Be as kind to yourself as you can. I am sure that your friend felt your love and friendship.

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    I’m so sorry for your loss Candysbff, life is really unfair.

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