I am soooo late, but Happy Valentine’s Day Beanies!
I hope you all have a great day with your loved ones!!

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    This is the third year in a row, when I hope to join Love, February and I don’t get the chance to do so until the last day. I thought it would be easier opening up to people who don’t actually know my face, but I guess it’s even harder. Even though I am hiding behind a keyboard, opening up is kind of hard because you have to think about what you want to write about and how much you want to share about yourself. Sometimes I don’t want to think, you know. It opens up a lot of unwanted thoughts like how lonely I feel. Covid has made me feel even lonelier than ever, but I haven’t necessarily been too unhappy. All things considering, it hasn’t been so bad and I have been very blessed. But, still, if I get to thinking about what I love, I come up empty. I like many things, but do I love them. Even when it’s not about romantic relationships (still solo T.T) or the love I have for my family (crazy as we are, there is still a lot of love there!), I find it really hard to write about other things I love. Why? I really don’t know. All I really want is to find someone to talk to, someone to really know me. I joined DB thinking I was going to be this chatterbox. Here is a community of like-minded people, they love dramas, they love books, they love stories, and many times through a post they make, I find there are many other things we have in common. Still, I hold back. Even in this anonymous community, I find myself staying quiet. If I want to be heard, then why do I not speak? I don’t really understand this about myself either. Many times while reading Beanies’ posts, I find myself nodding and agreeing or sympathizing, yet every time I want to write my own thoughts, I come up empty. This Love, February, I have taken a quiet time reflecting on myself. I want to grow in love and be able to demonstrate it to the people around me and to the things that make me happy. I hope to be around this community for next year’s Love, February so I can show you all how much I’ve grown in love, especially for myself. Thank you Beanies for always being so real and open and vulnerable. I love y’all!
    Love, February

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      This is beautiful Jelly and you’ve opened up a lot! I noticed from some notifications that you liked my post so I knew of your existence a long time ago. 🥰 May this year bring you many things to smile to and about. If you’re bored you can comment on my wall because I’m easily bored too lol. 🐙

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        Thank you @mmmmm for your sweet comment!! 🥰 I also recognize your name and will definitely be sure to comment when I see you around!!

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