Day One

I had a post all lined up and ready to go for today – one that was a reflection on the last few years of this project and what it has meant to me. I’ll post it in comments. But the thing is, today was a really good day. It was the first really good day in a long time. I suppose it’s fitting that it is the Lunar New Year, and a new beginning, because today I learned that I got the job that I had wanted.

My last post here was almost a year ago, when I was laid off. In the time between, so many things have happened and it’s been a rough ride. But I held on, I was blessed with a wonderful support system, and I made it through. There were dark moments for sure, but I knew that the universe held something better for me. Today it delivered, and I feel like I can breathe easier again.

Granted, with the good comes the bad, and I expect to be a hard month. Last February created a lot of shadows over this time of year. But shadows exist because there is light to make them. I will try to channel this positive energy into my life, to find joy where I can. I hope you all can do the same.

Love,
February

[Song of the Day: Love Poem by IU]

I’ll be there, behind you when you walk alone
Singing till the end, this song that won’t end
Take a deep breath
I’ll sing for you, who forgot how to cry out loud

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    So. Here we are again.

    Last year Love, February was a real struggle for me – I felt uninspired and overwhelmed. I had a small crisis in the middle of it that made me really reevaluate my life. That small crisis turned into one of the worst moments of my life not long after this ended.

    I’ve always said the first Love, February was a turning point in my life – I was finally able to heal some old wounds and put to rest the fears I had been holding onto. The second year was less deep, but it let me have fun and really think about the people and things I hold dear.

    It’s been almost a year since my last post on this wall – and my penultimate post was my last Love, February post of 2021.

    This year instead of feeling uninspired and overwhelmed, I feel overwhelmed and have a year’s worth of thoughts which have been percolating and growing inside me. But I also still feel raw and don’t know how much I want to say.

    But I do know this: no matter what I do or don’t say here, I know that there is love in the world. Even when it feels dark and lonely, even when you are at your lowest, know that there are people out there who love you and are thinking about you.

    Love,
    February

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      Happy new year and I hope this year is filled with light and laughter 🙂

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      Both sets of your words make me feel emotional… Thank you for sharing, thank you for the hope you showed even before knowing about the new job.

      Happy New Year! I pray this year is filled with love and light for you.

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      I’m glad things worked out Snarky. I’m sorry to read about this – it must have been so rough. Proud of you for persevering through the job hunt.

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    Congrats on getting the job you wanted 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

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      Thanks! It’ll have been 11 months since I last worked when I start, but it feels like a decade has passed. I had to take time off from job hunting for a while, and it is so intimidating to jump back into everything again.

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    Happy new year! It sounds like you’ve had a tough ride for a while – I hope this year brings many good things for you.

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      Thanks! It’s been a rough year, that’s for sure. A fresh start is definitely welcome and needed.

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    I love this song and sending you virtual hugs from this side of the world.

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      Thanks. This song really helps after a rough day. IU always seems to have a song for every mood. She’s definitely a staple in my music collection.

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    Fighting!

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