Day Ten

I am in a funk today. I feel surly and grumpy and don’t want to do any of the things on my giant to-do list. I feel anxious over the idea of going outside to get things done. Also, my laptop is out of commission which means I have only my phone to get work done until it gets repaired. Anything I find joy in feels fleeting today.

It’s so frustrating how sometimes it is little stupid things that ruin my mood like this. I’d like to think I have control over it all, but these are the days when my brain reminds me I’m only human and no matter how hard I try there are going to be days my anxiety and depression get triggered. I know exactly what triggered me too, but I can’t control it.

Sometimes I just need to ride these days out and let them pass. Today is one of those days. I know I’ll be better once I start being productive an eat properly and sleep well. These are the days that remind me I can’t control everything, and that (hopefully) there will be a fresh start tomorrow.

Love,
February

[Song of the Day: Monster by Eminem feat. Rhianna]

I’m friends with the monster that’s under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You’re tryin’ to save me, stop holdin’ your breath
And you think I’m crazy, yeah, you think I’m crazy