I thought I knew you
I mean I knew you since I can remember
But time passed
We grew up
I saw you always there but I chose to ignore you
I chased after loves that were never returned
So I chased after a career but something still felt empty
When I finally noticed you, I realized
You were there waiting all the time
Did I know you? Did I like you?
The answer to both questions was no
Why?
Because I thought you didn’t deserve it
You had a smile on your face but you always hid your emotions
You were nice to everyone but yourself
You burdened yourself and was okay not being noticed
Why were you the way you were?
I wanted to know
It’ll take some time
But I want to get to know you, like you, maybe love you
Please stay patient with me like you always have

A letter to myself

Love,
February

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