Beanie level: Loan shark with a heart of gold

Hello beanies ☺️

It’s been a while, just wanted to check on you guys. How have you all been? How’s quarantine and social distancing with you? Hope it’s not too frustrating and you guys are finding ways to make it fun.. pfft!

I miss you but I don’t think I’m ready to be back on DB just yet.. but I promise I keep you all in my prayers and I’m always sending you positive vibes.. just be healthy and happy, okay!

Also, since it’s still 1st of May which means it’s my Oppa’s birthday, I’d want to wish him a happy birthday and DB is the only place that will always understand my love for him so I’m grateful for that.

A Very Happy birthday Oppa, I might have broken the Oppa-law with Forest but I’ll always love you the same, that I promise!

Stay safe everyone ❤

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    Hope you’re doing well too, azzo! I really missed seeing your posts. Happy Birthday to your Oppa too.^^

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    Miss you too. Stay safe, stay healthy, you and all of your loved ones!

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    Miss you, @azzo ❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️

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    Stay safe azzo. Take your time in coming back to DB but this can always be your place to spazz and have fun with oppas and dramas.

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    Miss you Azzo and it’s so glad to see your name again! Quarantine is okay here. As long as the weather is good I can get out and garden!!!!!
    Take care and be well!!!!!

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    Hi, azzo *waves madly* thanks for stopping by 😁

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    Azzo, hi! I’m glad you wrote, I’ve thought of you during this period!
    Take your time and take care! 🙆‍♀️

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    I hope that you are doing well azzo!

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    Hi azzo! *waving* Great to hear from you!

    Hope you’re doing well also and enjoying a drama or two or three! Take care!

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    I miss you. Glad you’re doing well.

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    Hello, Azzo! Stay safe!

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    It’s great to hear from you Azzo! Stay well and healthy!

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    Happy belated birthday Azzo’s Oppa 😀 , may you make lots of good dramas to make her fall in love with you even harder (is that even possible ? 😉 😋)
    so glad to see you Azzo 😘😘😘

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    Azzooo! We miss you and please stay safe and healthy too!

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    Thank you @azzo1 for your well wishes. I hope that you too are doing well and keeping safe.

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    Dear @azzo1, I know you are not around much these days and for good reasons. I hope this message finds you nonetheless, because I want to express my deepest thanks for sharing your story last winter. Because it was so beautiful and simple and relatable, it led me to aspire for something similar for myself, which I had not dared to imagine for a very long time (understand: ever). I was embarrassed to aspire for love and pessimistic about my chances of success, but I gave it a try and registered on a dating app (!!) in a project management approach (!!!) to give me a practice run for real life (!!!!!). And wouldn’t you know: I have realized that they are actually many wonderful men around hoping to commit and that I was actually quite attractive to them. Fast forward five months (including 3 under lockdown) and I am now in a loving relationship with a wonderful man, who happens to be everything I could hope for and beyond. And while we are being cautious, it feels so wonderful and natural and simple to be together that we might stay together for a very very very long time. So thank you, thank you so very much for sharing your happiness (in the middle of elements of shyness) leading me (and others I’m sure) to open my heart and discover that this element of happiness was in reach all along and a beautiful adventure possible. I hope you are being healthy at this time of uncertainty and I wish you the very best for your life and happiness. Take care!

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Hello Beanies,

Just came to say please take care of yourselves and your loved ones, even if it means staying away from them for now!

Scary times so wherever you are be safe, be healthy and, most of all, be kind.

Azzo

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Okay.. I think I don\’t learn my lessons quickly and I think I forgive and trust too easily, don\’t I? There were some more posts .. yes! I\’m not sure if it\’s the same person, I don\’t want to just assume it is.. but please, please, please don\’t be the same person.. PLEASE.. because that will hurt even more.. like, just.. don\’t be!

I\’ve been dealing with a lot lately, a lot of things have been happening, not good things I must say, and I just feel so overwhelmed with everything that I don\’t even have the energy to deal with this right now.. it\’s just so frustrating, like did they think I\’ll never find out? Why would they do this? WHAT WOULD THEY EVEN GET OUT OF THIS! I don\’t understand!

It\’s so sad and I honestly don\’t know what to say anymore.

This is all a bit too much for me at the moment.. and I think it\’s better if I take a break from DB.. it took me 18 months to come back to DB last time and I don\’t know how long it will take me this time but I just have to.. also, don\’t worry about me.. I\’ll be fine, okay.. it just hurts.. that\’s all.

Take care and be well, Beanies.

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    I’m sorry @azzo1. You take care too.

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    Aww. Wishing you the best.

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    Azzo~~~ take all the time you need. Really.

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    I’m so sorry , Azzo.
    I’m mad for you.
    And I’m mad this is happening.

    You’ll be missed, Azzo.
    Take care of yourself too!

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    Oh Azzo. *biggest and longest of hugs*
    I wish I could do more to help and reassure you but just… take care of yourself ok.
    Praying for you.

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    I’m so sorry about this azzo. I understand how hurt and betrayed you’d feel so do what you need to do. Please drop by discord or something now and then – it’d be a shame to completely lose touch.

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      Yes azzo join discord. You don’t have to be regular(neither am I) , you don’t have to engage in discussions either. That is just a way to not lose complete contact.

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    Azzo kindly share that post. I feel like that person needs to be exposed now, so we can collectively ask them to take them down and report or something. We need to do something. Don’t leave us, Azzo. We love you. And we care for you.

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      They went by @real_lifestories, famy.. I can’t find the account on IG anymore, they must have deleted it. I’m just scared that they have saved copies and they will go on creating another account. And now I’m thinking @wapzy was right, they must’ve lied about their DB handle too because why else would they go back to this knowing I can expose the handle, this is so bad!

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        I am sorry this has happened Azzo. And that we can’t even track down this person anymore. If this person ever comes back to haunt you, share it on here, so we can do something about it as a community. Don’t try to solve this on your own. You have us no matter what.

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        I’m so sorry this happened again, and that’s the first thing that came to my mind too, either its a different person or they gave the wrong handle.

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    Aw. Sorry to hear that. Take care of yourself and come back when you can.

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    Oh, azzo 😢 this makes me so angry. Please take care and we will hope to see you soon. ❤️

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    😟😟😟
    Take care Azzo, I wish you all the best 😘😌
    and as a fellow Beanie : may some drama or variety show bring you some joy and escape.

    Please come back when you’re in the mood for it, even just to say hi~,
    I miss you already chingu-ya 💙

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    I’m sorry azzo that you have to deal with this. Take care of yourself and just know that we’ll miss you. Come back whenever you’re ready. *sending you hugs*

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    I’m so sorry @azzo… But there are two things I need to tell you
    Hope you don’t mind me talking to you the way I talk to my kids and students, I’m a bit old and you sound young:
    1. Every time one of my kid gets annoyed because some other kid copies their drawings or hairstyle or whatever, I always tell them that if the other kid copies them, it’s because it’s cool. Nobody wants to copy lame stuff. Now, what this person did was stealing, not copying, but they did because you are gifted. Your posts were beautifully written, were engaging and funny and you saw how the Beanies loved them. Please, don’t stop writing, just find another outlet for your personal stuff and keep on sharing what you feel comfortable sharing.
    2. The internet is a public space. What happened to you is terrible, but keep in mind that talking on the internet is like talking in a crowded bus. You might be talking to your friends, but some others are bound to overhear. Don’t share stuff you might feel embarassed of. When I post, I always consider if what I write would cost me my job or my acquaintances’ respect (mind, not friends, acquaintances). My advice is, be personal, but not intimate. Does that make sense to you?
    I’m sending all my love to you. Wish you the best of luck! Please, keep on writing and being the beautiful person you are.

    Now, to the person(s) who posted Azzo’s stuff, I’m not letting you off the hook. What you did is wrong, it’s stealing. I want you to think hard about why you did it. Did you find the posts pretty? Did you want to get attention for them like Azzo did? How come you feel like you need to take someone else’s posts? I’m sure you also have things to say, you just need to find your voice. I assure you it will feel infinitely better to share your own writing. But now you need to apologize to Azzo. Really. Even if it is embarrassing, you need to do it, because she’s not going to forget what happened and neither you, and you don’t want to remember this episode years from now and cringe at how badly you behaved. Wish you courage to do what’s right and inspiration to find your own way to shine

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    Aww, so sorry to hear this azzo. Please take care and come back when you feel comfortable doing so. We’ll miss you.

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    This whole thing is just so weird to me. I’m so illiterate when it comes to social media. They are using your post as if it is their own story? And your social media overlaps?

    Anyway, I’m really sorry this happened and that it makes you feel unsafe. Which also probably makes you feel angry and it just is not ok. Do what you have to do to feel safe, but I hope you come back soon.

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    [Hugs] Take care, Azzo. I’ll miss your Oppa gifs.

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    You will be missed azzo. I’m sorry that this has happened, and hope you will return soon or that you will join the Discord chat. I hope everything that you’re dealing with is resolved soon and in the best way possible. Take care.

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    I’m not sure what’s going on but I’m sorry. I want to wish you all the best.

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    Take care too. It’s so sad that this is happening to you and I respect you for stepping away even if it’s hard.

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    People suck. That’s all.

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    Oh, azzo. Take care, sweetie. Take all the time you want.

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    Take care azzo. I’m sorry it happened again 😔. *hugs*

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    Take ur time and I am sorry you had to go through this again. Hope to see you around soon.

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    Take care, Azzo. You’ll be missed. *sends hugs*

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    Oh god Azzo, we’ll miss you.
    Take all the time you need, please keep in touch if you can.

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Me every time I start a new Forest episode:

Me every time I manage to finish a Forest episode:

I know Oppa\’s back after such a long time and I should be thanking my lucky stars

But this show..

#IamSorryOppa
#ILoveYouOppa

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    Azzo, I am laughing so hard right now.

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      I think I laughed when I made this.. the only time I laughed when these episodes were involved.. SAD!

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    Awwww~ the gifs match how you feel 😆. Thank you azzo~

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      I kind of want out *CRIES*
      I feel bad for Oppa.. If I break the Oppa Law, Oppa will be sad, that’s the punishment!

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    So appropriate gifs. I saw a clip on viki, I’m staying away, I agree with the last gif.

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      At least Oppa understands how I feel!
      You’re doing the right thing, that much I can tell you!

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    😃

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    lol x) (and ouch, it’s that bad, hwaiting Azzo :D)

    oh and someone sent you a message (hehe)
    #IamSorryAzzo
    #ILoveYouAzzo

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      I don’t feel anything for this show.. like I just don’t!
      I go “Look, here’s Oppa!”, and that’s it! WHY AM I EVEN WATCHING THIS?
      Oh! Oppa!

      LOL!

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    Thank you for the gifs, Azzo. Please keep them coming and keep watching. Oppa loves you! 🥰

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      You’re welcome, Ms. Rabbit!
      I’ll keep doing both.. let’s survive this together!
      I love Oppa too *cries*

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    I posted some of your Oppa GIFs on Discord, azzo, I hope you don’t mind, I credited them to you, but hey, it’s like everyone knows already that they’re yours…there is a Beanie Chat Group there. I am trying very hard to get beanies to watch Oppa. Sadly, I am failing…come and join us anytime…I’m not sure how to extend the invite, I’m pretty new at Discord, but let me know if you’re interested and I’ll get Waadmay to initiate the invite…she’s been asking me to get you over ever since I joined.

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      I don’t mind YY, at all, share away, everyone should at least get to see Oppa’s beauty, that much they should enjoy.. without having to go through actually watching Forest! Don’t do that to them.. why are you trying to get them to watch this? I’m trying to save everyone from it by telling them to do otherwise!

      Beanies have been trying to get me on Discord for the longest time now, I’m still resisting, I’ll let you know if I change my mind, thank youuu!

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This is for everyone who is concerned for the Clams!

@yyishere
@msrabbit
@leetennant
@katakwasabi

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    Okay, azzo. I burst out laughing.

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    So tiny. Why are clams on a leaf?

    Also….these are clams. There’s more than 1 clam on that leaf, female lead~ hua3

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      And how did they even spotted it? 😳

      They are cute though and look a lot less murderous. More like Bean Clams than Clam Zombies. But maybe that’s why they are dangerous.

      Thank you for gifs, Azzo. 😘

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        See this is why everyone needs to watch the Middleman. Clam Zombies are not clams. Clam Zombies are humans with a terrible craving for clams. They shuffle around, pushing everyone and everything out of their way with superhuman strength while they go in search of clams. Their unearthly cry of “Claaaammmmssss” rings throughout the forest as more and more are infected. It’s a terrible affliction.

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          Ah… I see. Sorry I misunderstood. Thanks for clarification.

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            But you know what would be fun .. if these clams are the zombies!!!!
            Why was Oppa staring at their picture that one night in his office? There must be some hidden secret (more secrets).. those Zombie Clams are going to attack the Forest and Oppa is going to save it.. using his magical powers like Fire hands!

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            That is beyond what this writer is capable of, Azzo. That’s a nice illusion, just like Oppa’s fire hands.

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            I should’ve written this show!

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Some No-Context Oppa gifs because Oppa is pretty!
(Also, it\’s better for everyone\’s sanity this way, trust me)

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    He is, and I’m not watching Forest because I just can’t follow anything or simply focus on him 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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      Right! So pretty! The last gif, his profile 😍

      It’s better for you, really, you’re not missing anything, besides Oppa’s face, but I’ve got you covered on that, don’t worry 😂

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        Bless your pretty gifs of his pretty face 🙏🏻

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    ha h aha.. how bad is this show that his awesomeness can’t cover the bad..

    i mean heirs survived.. just because KWB was there

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      Oppa does unlike-Oppa things!
      He carries a giant stuffed bear and acts all cute!
      He sticks his tongue out!
      He chases a lizard and ends up with its tail.. so weird, btw!
      He looks at clams and just stares at them.
      He puts a stethoscope on the FL’s b… part..
      I could go on and on about this but I’ll stop here!

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        how did PHJ agree to do this..
        i hope it is nto a factor of agencies/channels blocking him

        your second last point.. i can’t visualize him doing it

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    geunyang gif are the best. period 😉

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Okay, @yyishere has been asking this on all the Forest Weecaps, that if someone has noticed it too, that Oppa\’s chest moves before the rest of him, so I took it upon me to go study Oppa\’s movements and posture.

And I\’ve come to the conclusion that, yes, it is true! Oppa has what we call \” A Backward Head Posture\”.


Notice how Oppa pulls his head a tiny bit backward and pushes his chest a tiny bit forward when he moves

From different angles!


Yes, I tried my best.
YY would be proud.

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Oppa used to be shy.. Oppa’s changed!
Yes, I can’t get over it!


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    Now we know what he was doing while he waited for the net drama to actually film.

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      I have mixed feelings about this!

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        But maybe he was trying to up his game so his drama could actually make it to air? It’s also possible it’s because the drama includes rescue scenes and he wanted to look like he could do it? But I agree, it’s too bad we can’t have a variety of male leads.

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          He did work hard, becoming an honorary firefighter and then being promoted to Fire Marshal. I’m happy for him for getting work and new offers, his next drama already being set (Old School Intern), I just wish he’d chosen better *CRIES*

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            I know what you mean, azzo. There was a moment at the lake, and he was looking at her, and his face was so serious, and I thought, this was what I liked so much about him, in Cheese, in M2M, the quiet, contemplative him, and I was thinking, this could have been so good, and I just felt sad…then the moment passed, and some ridiculous scene was up next, and I got that tight, frustrated feeling in my chest again.

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            @yyishere I guess we’re just used to the more stoic kind of Oppa, I mean, he stuck his tongue out, WHAT!!!!

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    What exactly is he doing in the 2nd one? Hmmm

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      Putting pain-relief patches!
      He’s put them on the table so he could just drop himself on them!

      Oppa is smart!

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So.. I watched episodes 9-12 of Forest.
Uh-huh.


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    This was over the top. But Oppa’s ruffled hair was so cute. My heart went soft when he turned to look at her and I saw his hair, but then she shrieked again, and I got annoyed.

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      I know, his ruffled hair was the best part in this scene! Also, Oppa’s hurt, why would she even jump on his back?

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So many years ago, in my first year of college, this happened.

My aunt had suggested I attend this guy\’s workshop. He was older than me, 25 at the time, a graduate, giving this workshop on English literature when he himself was in Theatre Arts. I don\’t know why I had thought it was a good idea to skip my economics class to go attend his workshop (most probably because my aunt told me he was going to talk about King Lear and I\’d just recently finished reading it). I had taken her suggestion and had gone and found myself a seat in between the 20 something students, and sat awkwardly waiting for him to start.

The workshop was not what I expected.. to say the least. He had a thing for acting out everything he said, every line he recited, which was okay, he was after all in theatre arts, so that was understandable, what was not okay was him not having any idea of what he was actually saying. He literally didn\’t know anything, he just exaggerated his words to make us believe that he did.

People caught on that right away though and got bored pretty quick. Some guy from the back of the class, commented on that and said: \”Less acting and more talking please!\”. I laughed.. no one else did. He asked the guy to leave the class, the guy gladly did, then he asked to speak to me after he\’s done with the workshop, I didn\’t know why he\’d wanted to do that but I said okay.

After the workshop, when everyone was gone he looked at me and said: \”apologize!\”, not kindly, I must note. I was confused, and asked him why so. He said he felt I disrespected him by laughing. I told him, in all honesty, that I thought that comment was funny. He asked me if I thought the comment was also true. I, again, chose to be honest and said yes. Well.. he got mad.. very, very mad. Screaming happened.. a lot of words happened.. mean, very ugly, hurtful words were directed at me, he called me names, he body shamed me (I was fat at the time, you see). I was seated while he stood towering me, he was loud and coarse, and I remember being scared, I felt actual fear. I was 18 at the time, an awkward kid, who didn\’t really talk to anyone outside of her own people, didn\’t even look at people outside of her own people, and at that moment none of my people were around, I didn\’t know what to do or what to say, I was tongue-tied and found myself crying instead. I cried all the way from college of arts and social studies to my college (15-minutes walk, btw).

This memory has haunted me for years, his words had such a bad effect on me. I couldn\’t sleep for days, I was scared, I flinched at the tiniest voice, it scarred me for such a long time, it was just so bad. Later, when I got older, I hated myself for being such a cowered, for allowing him to say all that to me, for not stopping him or saying anything back. I\’d wake up in the middle of the night and start coming up with scenarios of how that situation could\’ve been different, things that I should\’ve said to him, things I should\’ve done, if nothing else I should\’ve screamed, or went and complained about him. I do get that I might have been a bit too blunt but did I realy deserve all of that? NO, no one deserves to hear the things he said to me, never!

Why am I telling you this, Beanies?
Because.. I met him today! I recognized him the second he walked into my office but he didn\’t recognize me. He came and introduced himself to me, he sat in front of me, he talked about training opportunities, he talked about courses and programs I designed and he complimented my work, said he was impressed with me, he said he\’d want to work with us, he said he wanted to work with me.. He talked and I listened, I shook but I still listened. I tried to keep calm, I tried to be professional, I tried, with the best of my ability, to talk and reach a program agreement that suits both of our workplaces.

When he was done, I asked him if he had any other work-related questions, he said he didn\’t. \”Okay\”, I said, \”Apologize!\”, I told him. He was confused and asked me if he had done anything wrong. I told him I wasn\’t talking about today but that one day so many years ago when he thought he had the right to talk to the 18-year old me like that and crush my self-esteem like that, I told him he probably didn\’t recognize me because I\’ve lost \”the weight\”. His eyes went wide at that, he remembered. He said it was such a long time ago, he was a kid. No, I told him, I was a kid, he was a grown-ass man (sorry for the language), then I told him theatre didn\’t seem to be working for him anymore, his \”acting\” seemed toned down a couple of notches (I was being mean, I know, but I really wanted to be mean to him). I could see him panicking a little at that, I could see his face going red at that, he was silent, just kind of lost. I got up and then said: \”You can leave now, the door is large enough to fit you!\” (Yes, he had said that to me!).

When he left I cried, I cried because I\’m not mean like that, I don\’t talk to people like that but I really, really, really wanted to get back at him, in any way possible, and seeing him walk into my office like that.. I just had to. I don\’t even care if this has any consequences on my work, seeing his face like that is SO WORTH IT.

So yeah, this happened and I FREAKING FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF RIGHT NOW!

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    Awww… [hugs] and 🤜🤛

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    A-MA-ZING ! you did great and I am proud and impressed at your reaction. I hope it gives many women courage to speak up when they are unfairly mistreated.

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      Thank you, I’m proud of myself too, for actually managing to sit through the whole work-related talk without kicking him out! I always speak up when I’m being miatreated, think I learned a lesson from that day, to never allow anyone speak to me like that, ever!

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    Aw, Azzo. *gives you virtual hugs*
    You did well, and you’re right that nobody deserves to listen to those mean things that guy said to you.

    This reminded me to my 1st year in university too. I walked to my class and suddenly found myself face to face with the girl who bullied me in elementary school. I was a really quiet, awkward, and nerdy (well, I still am, but being nerdy is not going to win me a popular friends when I was so much younger) kid. She said mean things and “stole” my friends from me, which is like a nightmare back then. But the amazing thing is she didn’t remember any of that at all. I was shook, I felt the shadow of that 9 years old me too clearly, I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to talk to her. But we did talk. About the subject we learned that day, about the extra assignment. It did come to my mind to remind her of what she did years ago. But then I found myself thinking that it would be such a hassle. I’ve proven to myself with my good grades that being nerdy is okay. I have many friends after her who told me that it’s cool to be nerdy. I felt like I’ve already win. So I said goodbye to her after the class ended, simply marveling at how the bullies never remembered their victims.

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      Thank youuuu!
      It’s true, bullies don’t seem to remember the people they bullied, but you did well too, you had nothing to prove to her, at all.

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      You’re admirable, Gadis. Some years ago the person that had tormented me for three years of school during adolescence contacted me through Facebook to be my “friend”. I never responded. It hit me very much that he could think we could be friends even if through a social media. I have no hate nor anger towards him, but I wouldn’t like to have him in my life or to speak to him.

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      You are so right, they never remember.
      In a class reunion, a friend and I were talking to another classmate, and somehow we told her that it was normal that another one was avoiding her all night as she had bullied her back in school. She was shocked, saying that it wasn’t true, that she loved the other girl and had never bullied her. So my friend and I reminded them some of the things she had done. Her eyes widened and she was horrible shocked. At least, I can tell that she went to the other girl to apologize and I know they talked for a while. What amazed me was that she was not aware of how bad she had been back in school.

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    Awwww @azzo1! what a gift that you got to speak your mind to him after so many years!!! yeah!
    Big hugs and high-fives to you!!!

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      I imagined this so many times, running in to him at some place, how would I react, what would I say, never though, I imagined him in my own office!

      I feel accomplished, LOL!

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    God, azzo. It’s so awful what you went through. The bully. You spoke up for that 18 year old you….how brave of you. Men in power are mean and intimidate the young and the weak. You kickedas* today, azzo.

    💪💪💪💪👍👍👍👍👏👏👏👏❤❤❤❤

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      I always felt guilty about not saying anything for myself back then, this finally gives me closure! I don’t care if I see him again (if he wants to work with us, he’ll have to meet me), it’s all behind me now!

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    Woah girl you clapped back so hard. You know in any such situation I’ve always thought it’s okay to let go and forget but surprisingly one never forgets. You do end up remembering time and again what you could’ve done in that situation to help yourself so it’s a great thing that you finally spoke for yourself because that memory otherwise remains stuck. I hope that man is reflecting on himself right now and hopefully this serves as a lesson that sth only said in anger can be really harsh for others. He deserved it, so glad you spoke for yourself.

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      I’m the worst when it comes to letting go, I know it’s bad but I just can’t seem to forgive people very easily, I remember and keep replaying the situations in my head. I actually didn’t know I remembered that “door” comment but when I said it I was like OMG!

      I’m glad this happened, seeing him embarrassed and lost for words was the best part, I shouldn’t enjoy it but I did!

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    You did great! Give yourself a little leeway & let your 18 Yr old self feel the love.

    So so proud of you.

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      Thank you! My 18 year old self would be very proud of me, I did it for her 😂

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    I can only say this: I’m imagining yourself saying…

    My name is Azzo, you were mean to me when I was helpless, prepare to die of shame…

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    Can’t imagine the consequences of living this at 18, we’re still a kid at that age 🙁 .
    You can be proud of you, having let him talk and then getting back to him : you go girl, Azzo, you got it !

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      It was bad, Kudo! Really! And I told no one about it except my friends and only because they found me crying that day.

      I did, thank you ❤☺️

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    Man, this is perfect dramatic irony. Like epic fucking dramatic justice.
    Final act, THE CATHARSIS
    I love it.
    You’re so amazing.
    Good job.

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      I KNOW!!! I was shocked, really! My colleague told me someone wanted to talk to me so I told him to send him in and then he walks in and I felt like I actually got hit!

      Thank you.

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    Azzo, this is poetic justice!
    You needed to get that out, and it’s done now.

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      Yes, finally!
      No more middle of the night revenge scenarios 😂

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    Oh my God, azzo, you are a f*cking badass rockstar and my new hero. I love that you got your revenge. I love that you called him out for his bullsh*t behavior. I hate it when people try to justify that kind of stuff – they know they were wrong then and they know it now. And I can’t believe he body shamed you. For a laugh. A f*cking laugh. Yeah, his pride was probably hurt, but he was a teacher, in a position of power, and he abused it. People like that don’t change, but calling them out is important. You’re my new hero.

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      I felt like a hero, Snarky 😂 (after I was done crying, of course ). Like yes, I DID THIS!!!! What made me mad the most is him calling himself a kid back then, are you even serious with me right now?
      But it felt good, so so good!

      Also, thank you ☺️

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    Sometimes the hurtful words from the people that bullied us sneak up on us and mess with our now so I’m so glad you got it out Azzo.

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      They did, they messed me up for such a long time! I’m glad, too! I can actually, finally, let go of this!

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    Wow. That’s a great twist. And kudos for knowing what to say and when to say it.

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      I was scared honestly, I’m a crier, I cry when I’m angry but I would’ve never forgiven myself if I had cried in front of him yesterday, so yes, I just had to do it right!

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    O God! I feel good! So so so good!
    I feel like it helped me escape from all the flashbacks of the same situations that I’ve been in! The ones that haunt me in the middle of the night..

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      Thank you and I’m glad this helps.
      It’s really hard to forget hurtful situations like that, I think we need to be more courageous and speak when things happen, we owe it to ourselves!

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    You go Azzo!! I’m so proud of you!!!!
    These bullies never realise the pain they cause because of their thoughtless words. I’m so happy that you were able to speak your mind and get vengeance. 🙌👏👏👏👏

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    high 5!
    gimme 10!
    #PettyNation

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Me watching the episodes:

Awww, Oppa did his blink (double-wink) thing!

Oooh, he did it again!

Oppa is cute!

Oppa smirked!

Serious Oppa is cool!

Look at Oppa acting all cute!

That\’s it.
Thank you!

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Oppa said he\’s shy.
Oppa lied.

It\’s not like I\’ve never seen Oppa shirtless, I mean, I watched Snow in Sea Breeze, he was a swimmer in that (Don\’t watch it, I\’m saying this for your own sanity) but there are things you don\’t expect your Oppa to do, you know, like slapping his abs.. WHAT IS THIS!!!

I wish I could unsee that!

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Azzo: Close your eyes, Oppa, what do you see?
Oppa: Nothing!
Azzo: That\’s what I wish I was watching instead of this show!

Kidding, kidding.. it\’s not that bad, it\’s .. umm.. what is that word.. yes, watchable! This episode did make me laugh at some scenes.. so, that\’s something, right!

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I watched episodes 5-8 of Forest..

Yes, I watched the episodes!
(I’m afraid this is how I’ll begin all Forest Posts in coming weeks!).

@yyishere

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Here it is @eazal, still not entirely accurate translation but it will do.. enjoy!

Between us 
twenty years of age*
between your lips and my lips 
when they meet and stay 
the years collapse 
the glass of a whole life shatters. 

The day I met you I tore up 
all my maps 
and my prophecies 
like an Arab stallion I smelled the rain 
of you 
before it wet me 
heard the pulse of your voice 
before you spoke 
undid your hair with my hands 
before you had braided it 

There is nothing I can do 
nothing you can do 
what can the wound do 
with the knife on the way to it? 

Your eyes are like a night of rain 
in which ships are sinking 
and all I wrote is forgotten 
In mirrors there is no memory. 

God how is it that we surrender 
to love giving it the keys to our city 
carrying candles to it and incense 
falling down at its feet asking 
to be forgiven 
Why do we look for it and endure 
all that it does to us 
all that it does to us? 

I knew when I said 
I love you 
that I was inventing a new alphabet 
for a city where no one could read 
that I was saying my poems 
in an empty theater 
and pouring my wine 
for those who could not 
taste it. 

When God gave you to me 
I felt that He had loaded 
everything my way 
and unsaid all His sacred books. 

Who are you 
woman entering my life like a dagger 
mild as the eyes of a rabbit 
soft as the skin of a plum 
pure as strings of jasmine 
innocent as children\’s bibs 
and devouring like words? 

Your love threw me down 
in a land of wonder 
it ambushed me like the scent 
of a woman stepping into an elevator 
it surprised me 
in a coffee bar 
sitting over a poem 
I forgot the poem 
It surprised me 
reading the lines in my palm 
I forgot my palm 
It dropped on me like a blind deaf 
wildfowl 
its feathers became tangled with mine 
its cries were twisted with mine 

It surprised me 
as I sat on my suitcase 
waiting for the train of days 
I forgot the days 
I traveled with you 
to the land of wonder 

Your image is engraved 
on the face of my watch 
It is engraved on each of the hands 
It is etched on the weeks 
months years 
My time is no longer mine 
it is you

*time spent in separation.

Between us by Nizar Qabbani

Love, February.

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    Beautiful. Thank you!

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    This is beautiful!! Thanks for sharing!!
    I’ve just looked for Nizar Qabbani and I’m going to learn more about him.

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      He is very famous for causing a lot of controversy, his style of writing was very bold for his period of time, he mostly wrote for his wife though, but still very descriptive. If you’re going to look, try for Words, one of my favorites by him.

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    “Your eyes are like a night of rain ” poetry as its finest , loved it, thanks for sharing 🙂

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    I love this 💚

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    wow – this is gorgeous!!!!!

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“I love you, azzo!”
“You don’t!”
“I do!”
“You don’t!”
“I do!”
“You said you hate me yesterday!”
“I love you today and I love you yesterday!”
“You mean tomorrow?”
“Yes, tomorrow!”
“Okay!”
“Do you have chocolate?”
“No.”
“Do you have gum?”
“No.”
“Do you have vanilla?”
“What?”
“Vanilla. V. A. N. L. A”
“You spelled that wrong!”
“Do you have vanilla?”
“I don’t!”
“Money?”
“I don’t have cash with me right now!”

A few seconds of silence.

“It’s okay, I still love you.”
“Thank you, sweetie, I love you, too!”

She smiles and runs out of my room and I realize that she’s the only one I’ve ever said “I love you” back to!

*a conversation I had with my 5 year-old niece.

Love, February.

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Some of my absolute favorites:

Rain.
Beaches.
Sunrise.
Sunsets.
Night skies.
Hills.
Clouds.
Lights.
Ferris wheels.
Horses.
Guitars.
Chocolates.
Dimples.
The Night Circus.
Goldea Roman Night Absolute.
Heels.
Watches.
Photographs.
Poems.
Music boxes.
Notebooks.
Blank pages.
Empty spaces.
Patterns.
Long drives.
Quiet walks.

And..
Hazel-green eyes.

Love, February.

*Gifs made of videos taken by me!



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I\’ll give you all the chances, you don\’t worry Oppa!

Never happening, rest assured Oppa!

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    I’d consider giving Forest a watch if you gif’d all the noteworthy PHJ scenes. “Noteworthy” in relation to his lovely face and not the merit of the show.

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      You mean something like this:

      And this:

      This too:

      See, I’m on it!

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    yay I can upvote your Forest posts, enjoy the most important scenes of it, no need to check the story (and I won’t sorrynotsorry)
    Hoping it won’t be too bad though

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      LOL! It’s okay, I’ll try to stick to Oppa GIFs only most of the time!

      Hoping that too!

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    Laughed my head off. Oppa looks good, doesn’t he?

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      He is! I don’t even know what happened most of the time because I was busy smiling at Oppa!

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So, is it good? Not really!
Is it bad? Not really!
How do I feel about it? Oppa is pretty!
Oh, I already said that.. umm .. yeah!

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I cringed when I watched a short clip of this on IG but it was really funny here, I laughed out loud!


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