Beanie level: Loan shark with a heart of gold

Week 38~

To dressing up like a 19th century heroine to go see a superhero movie, blowing bubbles, gallivanting around in search of rubber duckies, climbing rickety play structures, lifting your heels up to touch the top of the tallest tree from your position on the swing, gliding down halls in your socks, and going on wild adventures all while parked on a bench.

Or, to the things that you can do for you and yours, because they bring you joy or peace.

*snatches away any worries or self-consciousness for the week*



Get Memeing!

Hey y’all! Recently, during some of our discord adventures, we found out about custom emojis! Our server can have up to 50 at a time, so now I ask you :

What images would you like to have as your emojis? Do you have serious, wacky, or dramatic ideas in mind? Please comment with any potential ones you would like, or PM them to me on discord, and I shall assemble them into a folder and make them as soon as I can.

Sending the call out to all the discord people, and anyone else who may have a particularly fun face to add~~

@13infamyss @adieunoire @ally-le @minminfan @ayaan @babybeast @lugirl131415 @bluekoi @moomoomoondog @delphy010 @egads
@leetennant @esther95 @fatcat007 @frabbycrabsis @hades @infinitize @isthatacorner @ultramafic @llljr @jaelegant @justme @christina41218 @seashell @katakwasabi
@vivanesca @sensationalfantasy @lordcobol @mindy @noobita @outofthisworld @rukia @maybemaknae @saturtledaisy @shindy @sicarius @superwhopotterlock @hotcocoagirl @umbrellaman @waadmay @zetteceniza


I really really love this. That is all.


    One of their better songs lyrically.

    Sooo…I only just realized that the pieces they’re holding form the heptagon that is their logo. 😂🙃


    I love You Are so much! It’s the first title track that JB wrote and he did such a good job 💚 The song, lyrics, and MV are so beautiful.


      Awwww, really? That’s so cool! He did do an awesome job, indeed! I’m enjoying the atmosphere and mood the song brings – and it’s so good on all those different levels.


    And I forgot to say the choreography is beautiful too! I love the part where they look up at the sky and spin around. That’s exactly what I feel like doing on beautiful days 💚

    Also, have you heard Page?? I’m recommending it to everyone right now because I love it so much. It’s another song written by JB and it’s book themed 💕💕💕
    (Turn your volume up because the louder it is the better 💚)


      Yesss to the choreo! It reminds me a bit of Maria. I confess to running to the hills – or really any clearing, and spinning around, face to the heavens. It makes me feel so free. <3

      I haven't heard Page yet! I'm doing a music room right now, but I promise I'll listen and get back to you! I just want to make sure I have time and attention enough to give it the proper treatment.


      I have added the choreo to the list of ones I really want to learn! I’m claiming practice time in the fall to dance, so I hope I’ll be able to figure it out. <3

      And I really like Page! The lyrics are so sweet, and remind me of the letters I send to my friends….

      (I'm SO sorry for the late reply! I listened a bit ago but thought I had replied when I hadn't..)


Week 37~

*grabs you some custom-made, sturdy trekking shoes, slippers, and Wonder Woman socks*

β€˜Cause the journey is long and you’ve gotta keep trudging on, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be made a little bit more comfortable and a little less of a struggle.

Happy dayday~


Week 36~

”Even if I’m bad at it, I like the word beginning”

As the perfectionist I am, I often don’t want to start something that I think I won’t pick up quickly, and struggle with continuing if I have already started.

But there’s a difference between being horrible at something, and lacking the skills because you haven’t had time to settle in. So if you want to learn or try the new thing, please do. And I hope you can do all of the things you wish to, and enjoy them, no matter what objective skill you end up gaining from them.

*shoves other people’s thoughts and judgments to the side*

If you need the encouragement to start… *holds out my hands for you to step up on*

If you have started.. Thank you for your hard work in carrying on even when it’s frustrating. It is appreciated, and you are doing well.

*whispers* You can fly!

Have a good week, errybody~
Thanks for listening to my musings..


    Thank you bammie!! A much needed post this morning , I hope you have a wonderful day 😊


    Your posts always makes my week feel better 😊 have a great week ahead, Bams!


    Thanks for the encouragement you give us every week, Bams! I hope that you also remember these things!! Have a great week😀


      Huuuugs, Jelly! Thank you for the encouragement back! Looking for the good throughout my week to share keeps me accountable, and makes me better able to see and find sweet things. And then comments like these inspire me further. It’s the best kind of cycle! I try to keep these messages in my heart.. a lot of the time, they’re little things I’m learning in my life, and I share just in case anybody else might need to hear it, too.


    Happy Tuesday Bammsie 💕 Thanks for your encouraging posts. I hope you have a great week. That picture is beautiful!


      Thank you, Ra On Ah! Hope you had a beautiful Tuesday!

      I was in the car for that picture – saw the birds flying overhead and felt like I just needed to capture the moment!


Holy mother of megazon.

I’ll just be over here…

screaming and swooning…

until the movie comes out.

I am so flipping excited. What the actual heck.


Some News And A Farewell

Hello, dear Beanfriends.

As many of us are aware of at this point, our wonderfully terrible group-watching site/app Rabbit is shutting down. (If you’d like to know a little bit about the situation :

We aren’t sure as to when it will cease to exist, but we have a couple of backup plans forming. Several of us have been looking into alternative sites and apps, although it’s rare for them to have both in one.

For now, we have a main chat on Discord, which seems to be the best option, with a chatting function outside of watches (which helps with coordinating times and plans) along with a screen-sharing function.

The link for that chat is here :


As frustrating and buggy as Rabbit could be, I am so grateful for the opportunities it gave us all to chat in real-time while watching/listening to things we love (or hate).

The initial idea was borne out of feverish desperation, a need heightened by 2AM excitement to share music with some Beans who didn’t have yet streaming access.

After the success of that first room, we thought to spread the news in the case that anyone else might be interested in the little site.

It’s been a over a year now since then, and in that time, around a hundred Beans have been brought to the dark side.

We’ve had hours-long music rooms, absolutely amazing live-translation watches (@kimbapnoona and @jenmole, have I mentioned that I love you recently?), crack watches,”I’m in this for the robot” watches, hate watches, accidentally traumatic watches, “put this dumb episode on 2x speed so we can get it over with” watches, “we’re replaying this five-second clip of Mr. Thornton for scientific research” watches…

And best of all, we’ve had a space to connect, to bond together through expertly-written keyboard-smashes and stimulating, intelligent discussions.

I want better words to describe my feelings for all that Rabbit has facilitated for us, but I’m afraid they are beyond my possession right now.

The experiences we’ve had over the past year are irreplaceable. Thank you all for sharing them with me and making them so very amazing. I’ve loved getting to know you all a little more through Rabbit.

P.S. I believe @babybeast among others are organizing farewell watches in the bunny’s honor, so please do join us, if you wish.

P.P.S. Lee Min Ki would look good in a mohawk. That is all.

P.P.P.S. If anyone has any questions regarding the changes, or has any insights into steps moving forward, please let me know! Thank you so much!

@greenfields, @fatcat007, @neener, @waadmay, @mindy, @estee, @hotcocoagirl, @kimbapnoona, @outofthisworld, @natzillagorilla, @giegie0384, @cloggie, @hades, @tspmasala, @isthatacorner, @rukia, @suriyana-shah, @sweetiepie54, @pbnjelly513, @jenmole, @lcaro13, @seashell, @samantha1, @parkchuna, @fencejumper, @delphy010, @paperclip, @minnetter, @shindy, @ally-le, @khalessymd, @manohira, @moomoomoondog, @ultramafic, @justme, @earthna, @baieda, @stpauligurl, @tsutsuloo, @kdramaswimmer, @giocare, @obsessedmuch, @vivanesca, @leetennant, @chingu, @sicarius, @coffeprince4eva, @miraalmano, @marybee, @jaelegant, @charlieblue17, @frabbycrabsis, @luzitania, @jaelegant, @crysta, @mollyp, @whoopeeyoo, @babybeast, @silvermists, @esther95, @beesgiggle, @zetteceniza, @dokutokunaneko, @feenah9895, @egads, @noobita, @samurai, @adieunoire, @christina41218, @saya, @festerfaster, @ravennightstar, @adieunoire, @blissfulennaira, @1tea1, @bebeswtz, @saturtledaisy, @snarkyjellyfish, @lordcobol, @llljr, @amilia, @katakwasabi, @infinitize, @superwhopotterlock, @minminfan

and alllll of the other Beans who have fallen into the bunny crock. (So so sorry if I missed you, this list hasn’t been updated 😭)


Week 35~

Thank you.

I hope in the following week, you have all of these in some measure :

– the courage to step out of your comfort zone, should you need to
– laughter, even in the harder moments
– remembrance of the fact that your mistakes aren’t what define you
– and that you are allowed to mistakes, because I’m 99% sure that you’re human
– hugs, good news, and more laughter

the funnies and the softies


β€œMaybe it hurts more because I thought it’d be easy.” 💔💛


Week 34~

Take what you need today.

A hug, a resting place, some reassurance, someone to shout or cry or laugh with or, or cheer you on… (Maybe you need a poke in the side? Who knows?)

It’s your Room of Requirement. Do what you will, but make it yours. It’ll be beautiful.

Decorating ideas for the room


A very very happy anniversary to the fellows who have inspired me, lifted me up on hard days, and facilitated the start of some absolutely beautiful friendships.

Thank you for your time, your artistry, your philosophy, your vulnerability and honesty, your heart. It is a precious gift.


Week 33~

”If you fall back a little, just rest
You’re doing fine, when things are hard
I’ll run with you, don’t worry
Get up and roll up your sleeves, don’t give up

Feels like you’re running without knowing where the end is
It’s a cycle of having a tired body and tired heart
You’re about to give up
But you’re the one who decides the end
What’s your decision?
Just the fact that you’re running toward the end

You’re doing enough
You’re doing just fine
I know you and you’re trying your best right now
That’s all you need
Just keep your pace
Don’t be nervous, trust yourself

You’re doing fine
Have strength, just endure a little more
I’ll be next to you
You gotta take your time, you can do it
You can do just fine”


Thank you for all you do – the service you give to others with your presence. Hope you’re giving the same service to yourself.

The warm things of the week (that aren’t my sweaty forehead that disagrees with the heat)


Thank you for your heart, Jin. Just… thank you.


Okay, okay, okay!!!! I admit it, I love you dearly!


Week 32~


You nice.

Keep going.


Week 31~

I’ve been finding more and more that oftentimes, I have an issue with perspective.

Not just when I’m trying to draw that pesky leg of that cat, and it ends up pointing in the opposite direction that t was supposed to..

But with what I think is important, what I prioritize. I freak out about exams and the exact phrasing of the words that come out of my mouth, because of course the world will end tomorrow if I say that thing wrong or get (heaven forbid) lower than a 95 on an assignment. My worth is tied directly to these things, right? (The seasons are changing; who will stay when the wind strips away these things that are obviously the pieces that define me?)

And on the other side of it, I give no consequence to the things that maybe, are where my eyes should be focused. The waking, the breathing, the determination to start again each day. The being myself, without (much) quavering or hesitance. The β€˜acknowledging what I’ve done well’ thing.

(Since when did school, jobs, responsibilities take precedence over good mental health?)

I know I need new glasses. I’m working on it.

Today, I had the best kind of affirmation.

β€˜Speak yourself’ is a phrase I’ve held close to me for a little while, a reminder to myself that I can be kind while standing firm in expressing my views, and boldly asking for what I need and want.

(Today, I got a great big hug from the professor who intimidated me.)
(Today, I got a demand to keep in contact from a gal who I thought was too cool to associate with the likes of me outside of class.)
(Today, I wasn’t fully prepared for an exam, and I probably didn’t do as well as I could. And that’s okay.)
(Today, I was able to affirm to myself that my worth isn’t found extrinsically.)
(Today, I found that loosening my grip on the reins and removing my hands from where they were covering my eyes allowed me to see the people who stayed. And not only that, but that the people who stayed stayed for me.)

Don’t let anybody (and not you, especially) stop you from pursuing what you love, from pursuing a state of peace, of contentment with yourself.

(Did any of this make sense? I don’t know, I’m very sleepy.)

Respectfully yours,
Little things that take up a big space in my heart

Have a good week, you opalescent tree sharks.


“A-yo, when it’s tough
Doong tah dak, lean on the rhythm, oh
With our song for you
Everyone a-yo, everyone a-yo

Even if it seems there’s no end
To the sleepless night,
Never give up
Your way, your way”

I love songs like this – the ones that let you let go for a little while, letting you forget everything as you sway and clap to the rhythm. Thank you, SHINee, and a very happy anniversary to 5 incredible artists. β™‘



Week 30~

*whisper* You got this.

What is β€œthis”?

Don’t know.

But *gives you a little boost*

Be it getting through the day, a certain task…

You got it. (*hands you a blanket, a fan, tea, cookies, a listening ear, water, a green tree, and a reminder that it’s okay to let yourself rest or lean on a friend*)



Week 29~

To face-splitting smiles and the things that bring you joy, encouragement, and comfort. May you all have them in plenty.

The smells that would waft from my amortentia, and have caused the widest grins I’ve had this past week


Week 28~

I didn’t get a chance to take too many new photos this week, so I’ll instead tell you five beautiful things from the week :

~ Waking up to the sound of lightly pattering rain
~ The feeling of being enraptured by a novel
~ A full, full, full hug from a friend
~ A finally-organized shelf of books
~ Warm tea seeping through my bones

*tries to share the warmth (or some coolness, if you’re too hot to handle) with y’all*

Have a rad week full of the best of the little things.


    An organized shelf of books is the best. Have a beautiful week Bammsie 💕


    @bammsie I love these too! Little things can bring much joy.

    I’ve always like the sound of rain, watching the rain drops on the window pane. The weather here is hot throughout the year so we only have rain to bring respite from the heat. One of my favorite things is to lie in bed, with a good book and listening to the pattering rain.

    Is it your birthday today? Wishing you a blessed birthday full of joy and happiness!


      Yesss, that is an absolutely delicious feeling. We’ve been getting more rain here this year, and I almost don’t know what to do with it, I’m so used to the drought. It is a total blessing whenever it comes around.

      And yes, it is! Thank you so much! πŸ€— Have a wonderful day, too!


    Happy Birthday Bams!!!🎂🎉🎊 I hope you have an awesome and amazing day! You are such a sweet person and I am very thankful to you for being one of the first Beanies to get me out of my shell and talking to me on DB:) May God bless you so very much😀

    P.s. I really love your Tuesday posts! They remind me to look at the beautiful things around me when life gets hard, so thank you for that!!


      Jelly!! How I’ve missed you, it’s so good to hear from you. Thank you for the lovely wishes and words, I’m so warm. I smile whenever I see you posting, your reviews or little comments are such fun to read.
      Hope you’re doing well, and God bless you, too!

      I sound like Pollyanna at this point, so let me lean into it completely to say I’m so glad, glad, glad that they serve as a gentle reminder and not a completely silly, preachy thingamajig.


        I’ve missed you too Bams! I’ve been doing good, just busy, busy. Then wouldn’t work on my phone and my bro has my laptop so i haven’t had the time to catch up with you all, not that my fam would let me since they are soooo needy, lol. Hopefully I get to chat more with you soon!