Met someone at the local bookstore today and she reminded me of how and when I used to love reading so much. I currently live in a non-English speaking country but I’m a native English speaker so my access to English books is limited to a small section in the bookstore in the mall. I haven’t been reading much as of late either though my library grows bigger 😁. Old me read every day and was always itching to read something new. Now, I have so many ‘excuses’ as to why I don’t read as much anymore. It’s my vision and the fact that I’m constantly exhausted and how I’ve lost interest in so many things that gave me joy. Also, I’ve become a snob. I used to be excited to read anything because I felt I could learn something but I find I’ve become too conscious of the volume of the book. ‘If it isn’t more than 400 pages long, then they don’t have much to say. Not worth my time.’ 😕
The encounter I had today has made me reflect on myself. She’d read a lot of the books there and was recommending them to me. I could see her face light up even though she was wearing a mask. It was her eyes – it twinkled. It made me want to read again. I want to read again! Maybe if I read more, I’d start writing again. I don’t write anymore. Words don’t come as easily as they used to and I’m growing more and more unsatisfied with my writing style and flow. I used to be accused of being too much of a romanticist. Now, my words barely have any rhythm. If you don’t use a tool, the duller it gets. The less I read, the less I write and the more depressed I get. 😔 I want to learn how to read again.

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    Thank you for sharing this story. I know how you feel. When I was younger I used to read a lot; not so much these days. I pick up a book and read the first few pages and then put it back down. There are a few series that I love and that I can read over and over. However, it is hard for me to find new books that make me excited to read.

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      Finding a book that excites me is now a problem. I long for those days I got lost reading books. Maybe it’s cause times were easier for me, then. All my problems were mainly about my grades and passing so I had time to kill. Lol. But adulting is a scam! It’s a greedy pyramid scheme that’s sucking me dry of all my favorite pastimes. Even dramas are slowly becoming a chore.

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    What a lovely story! I can empathize. Although my assessment of books nowadays is usually the reverse of yours – if it’s more than 400 pages long, then they’re full of faff, is my conclusion, mostly!

    I used to read a ton of books, and usually several at a time. Like you, I’ve also lost the habit! I’ve tried to revive my interest in reading in different ways – instead of randomly picking up whatever was available, I look for books around topics I am currently interested in.

    For example, my current work requires me to look at China more closely, a country that I know nothing about. So I have started with four books on or from there – a travelogue, a political history, a literary biography, and a pulp fiction novel. I got these about ten days ago, and have nearly finished two! This was a pleasant surprise given how my pace had generally dropped recently.

    This method has worked for me in the past too. Of course, it ends up waning once I lose interest in the subject, or I feel I have exhausted the ‘main topics’ I wanted to learn about.

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      That sounds like a very good method. I’m currently interested in African pre-colonial history. The last book I read was a mythology based on African history so I thoroughly enjoyed it. The problem is I don’t know where to find more books based on themes like this. I don’t do well with non-fiction. I don’t know why but I just don’t.

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        Argh, yeah that can be frustrating. If you are social media, maybe sending out a tweet or some such thing could help? (I’m not an active user, but from what I see, it seems to work for a lot of people).

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    The story of my life…. I really become sad these days when I see my fading reader personality. I wish I could read like my young self.

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      HONESTLY!! Realizing I’m not alone is both comforting and also depressing. There’s comfort in knowing I’m not alone but it just shows how being an adult entails loosing interest in things that you used to love because you’re drained after a whole day of ‘being responsible.’ Arrgggg!!!,

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    It’s like reading about myself… I read 2 pages and fell dead asleep especially when reading in different language as my native one or english or another language very close to mine. My brain became so lazy, maybe because it works overtime every day 😭

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      It’s being overworked. That’s the problem!! I’m currently struggling with a book. It’s a good book but I’m just lazy. I’m on break so I’m very bored. I’m not watching anything or enjoying anything. I’m just laying down on my bed, staring at the book I want to read but have no strength to. 😔

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    I am the same. I last completed a book in 2018. I am embarrassed of some of my DB comments due to the grammatical errors and don’t come up with words easily while writing either. My friend and I decided just today to take up a reading challenge. We exchanged books and decided to complete them in a week. The book I got is short, so it should be possible to read within a week. I’m going to try it. Maybe this will work? 🙂 You write really well btw.

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      I, too, get very embarrassed when I read som elf my DB comments because of grammatical errors. I always reply late to comments because words don’t flow like they used to. It’s harder now and after composing and erasing and composing, I give up and either don’t reply or reply days later when I feel like I’ve settled down. Sadly, it’s becoming a chore for me. It doesn’t help that I suffer from *mild & undiagnosed* social anxiety. If you know how many times I’ve deleted my messenger apps because someone messaged me and I didn’t know how to reply or because I didn’t want to be confrontational…🙈 I’m not proud of myself.
      Reading buddies sound very nice. It can be encouraging because you have someone to talk about it with.

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        @esther I know how you feel. I agonize over how to respond to people’s comments. Sometimes I would love to respond but I feel that my response isn’t witty enough or smart enough. That’s why I love the “like” option because I can show my appreciation for a post without having to comment.
        I am currently reading the Harry Potter series with my younger sister. We are on book five 🙂 Having a reading buddy might be an excellent way of getting out of a reading slump.

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        I understand. So I still haven’t started reading the book I’m supposed to read this week. I’m a little afraid of what my friend will say than not being able to complete it. 😛 I think its possible to get back into the habit with a little effort. But if you think about it, reading recaps here and the drama subs is also not bad although its not the same thing of course. Also the internet thesaurus really helps! 😛

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