A few weeks ago I told you guys that I was in a slump that I couldnt finish ANY dramas.

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    Like how all the stories seemed awful and boring and stupid. All the shows were dumb. And even all the song releases were rarely making me happy.

    I pegged this into my depression and sadness from everything. Which makes sense given the pandemic. Among many other things.

    Now I’m extra upset with the world. Like nothing is going right… in my country at least. Like everywhere else is healing and beautiful except where I am.

    I expected to have an extra extra drama slump, but strangely I am not. I still have difficulty with some dramas Im watching, but I’ve renewed one of my streaming subcriptions and am watching variety shows again. I still hate everything around me and I feel every day like covid will kill me one way or another but surprisingly I have something to look forward to again Is that weird?

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      I don’t call that weird, but a good idea. It’s a way of engaging with the world even when you think you hate everyone. If it helps, please know that all is not healing and beautiful elsewhere right now so please don’t think it’s just where you are. Can you access some emotional therapy and/or prescription support? I’m always told that getting outside for a walk and also mindfulness meditation, however short, will be helpful. There’s lots of mindfulness assistance online and on YT. 🙋🏼‍♀️

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        thanks! i am getting help, not prescription.. for now. i cannot sit still for meditation though. they have said its because i always have to be on the go. ive taken less clinic work because it really made me upset and am trying to focus on grad school and research for now. maybe thats also meditation in a way – staying still somewhere and not having to go back and forth.

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