What hurts the most is that I had no clue. He must have been suffering so much that he decided that the only way out was to end his life and yet I just knew nothing. I am not blaming myself but I find the whole situation so so sad. He was suffering so much but most of us fans didn’t know about it. Even his family could not help him. It is truly heartbreaking. I realized today what was so hard with death: there is no way going back, you’re only left with regrets.


    This makes me think about how solitary life can be sometimes. There are struggles you deal with that other people may never know anout. You come into this world alone and you leave it alone.