Beanie level: Errand boy

I was about to skip today, I really was this close to skipping today because well there are such days. Such days when even if you’ve had a good time, you can’t particularly call it a good day. Even if you heard the birds chirping in the morning after quite a while you don’t feel the warmth of the early morning anymore. Such days even existed pre-quarantine (which btw might just end in my region and that’s making me super anxious regarding how far and chaotic the situation might get) and they’ve become a norm. These days when anything good is just overshadowed by thoughts that encompass the sadness in you. So well, I many not feel it right now but today I’m grateful for all the days I don’t feel this way. They’ve become lesser with time but since the birds have started their day and the sun still isn’t fully out yet, I’d hope today is one of those days.
#GratefulMay

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Today is Mother’s day. A part of me says I’ve never made her proud. But she always has. The one person I can never pay back.
#GratefulMay

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    mothers need no “paying back”, however, if you must know — you can “pay back” your mother by living well and being happy!! that’s all we hope for our children…
    *winks*

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    I’m sure that she is very proud of you 😊

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As much as I hate my habit of constantly day dreaming, I’ll have to give it some credit for keeping me sane when the reality is tough. When real life is anxiety inducing and depression drags away every positive feelings I have, I’m glad I’m able to escape… sometimes if not always.
#GratefulMay

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Today I’m just thankful for this guy. His dranas might disappoint but he doesn’t. Never!
#GratefulMay

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    Also I’ve always called both Jo Jung Seok and Jung Kyung Ho scene stealers but amongst these two JJS shines more, he steals the scene from JKH, who can literally steal the scene from anyone. Hence JJS> JKH. Never knew I’ll be saying this for the first actor I genuinely liked solely for on acting skills 😭

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      There’s just stg special abt JJS’s acting, even when his character is being unlikeable you can’t help but get drawn to them.

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        I knowww. Hwa shin in JI had a few unlikable moments but I couldn’t get to unlike him at all. I guess that’s probably because he brings himself JJS out in his role.

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      I love JKH but I can agree that yes JJS is more of a scene stealer between the two!! Also the first actor that I genuinely like solely for his acting skills is Lee Jae Wook!! While I enjoyed his performances in Search:WWW and Extraoridnary you, I really acknowledged and fell for his acting skills in “When the weather is fine”!! He embraces the role so much so that the character is him and he is the character!!

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        JJS is definitely a scene stealer but JKH is a different character in all his shows, JJS sometimes manages to just be himself in some of his characters. Well he’s typecast too even if he’s incredibly versatile. These two along with Lee Sun Kyun are my ultimate favorites and yes I won’t watch a crappy show for them but I know they will shine in that nontheless. LJW is hella versatile too. He is a different person in all the shows he has done so far.

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I decided to voice my gratefulness this month because I was drained by all the negative thinking and whatever\’s happening in the world. However, I do, at times find it extremely hard to figure out even one thing I\’m genuinely grateful for. Cue some youtube videos of people losing their loved ones from covid and I\’m a crying mess. In these times still being healthy is a blessing and staying at home is a privelege. Again I have nothing to be ungrateful for.
#GratefulMay

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Unexpected guidance!
#GratefulMay

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My friend once asked me how would I define the privelege I have. Looking around I told her it’s in everything but if I really had to sum it up in one sentence it would be,
“The tea that’s made for me before I wake up”.
Today I was low and it was there for me again.
#GratefulMay

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The rain, the cold breeze in warm summer and then the beautiful blue sky full of clouds.
#GratefulMay

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I\’m grateful for,
People who help me silently. Without overt display.
#GratefulMay

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May Blues kicked in hard from the very first day. But still I promised myself to celebrate what I\’m grateful for in May. Things I\’m grateful for:
A roof, food, security, family.
#GratefulMay

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If someone needs a good pick me up, I live alone\’s latest episode with Song Seung Heon is gold. The girls are relatably squeeing over him right in front of him 😂

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    I loved this episode. The first bit with the live episode was hilarious.

    Is it bad that I didn’t know who Song Seung-heon was before this week’s episode? I’ve never watched a drama’s he’s been in before. Any suggestions?

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      SSH was very popular in the 2000’s due to Autumn in my Heart. However I am not really a fan of his acting, only recently he has started to act better. In Black, The Player and The Great Show he was good but they weren’t exactly great shows so I dropped them. His popularity does remain huge in Korea because of 2000’s period. That said I actually do want to try his upcoming show with Seo Ji hye, let’s have dinner together.

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      My Princess with Kim Tae Hee.

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Background music is important and in most shows I like the bgm more than the osts. However, I haven\’t appreciated bgm that plays on funny moments unless it\’s wacky like Jealous Incarnate\’s No, No or WLKBJ\’s what or the goat sound in Reply 1988. But even in other shows, there is a music playing around in funny moemts that gives a certain oomph to that moment and adds value to that scene. The King lacks that. There is hardly any music playing in the show anyway. But the lack of bgm is taking away a lot from the scenes. I don\’t find KES\’s brand of humor funny but without any bgm or adequate editing it is straight up bland. While I alsways loved bgm, now I certainly know of its importance and need.

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    Recheck before posting WAPZ!!!!
    Sorry for the typos Jealousy* moments* always*

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    I noticed it in ep 4. It was awfully quiet. But even with bgm, there’s no saving of this lackluster script and execution. Sigh

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      The lackluster script, execution, dare I also say acting, isn’t saving the show at all. The pace is slow too with lots of filler. What has happened till now, should’ve happened by the second episode. And even if it did, I would’ve still called it slow.

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Do we have a theme for May yet? Can we have a Grateful/Thankful May? These are testing times and I often forget that I have much more to be grateful for. Let\’s discuss what we\’re grateful for this May

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    I’m not sure if we’re in the mood for any more themes just yet… We suggested 2 for the month of April— #LiteratureApril & AhjummaApril— but so far, I’ve not posted or seen any posts for #LiteratureApril and have only seen 1 post for #AhjummaApril

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      Lol. I think I posted like 2 poems and then just…..eh.

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        I also posted two entries for Ahjumma April but the interest is low reasonably. Well, I was thinking of doing this as a personal activity anyway, I just thought the more the merrier.

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          Practicing and voicing thankfulness is always welcome in my book!! ☺️☺️☺️

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          We came up with the two themes – Music March and Ahjumma April – but hadn’t thought about May. I haven’t seen a lot of Ahjumma posts. I didn’t even write the one I intended to myself. I think the wall has theme fatigue.

          Still, posting things we’re grateful for isn’t a bad idea. It’s a stressful time for everybody and that’s not likely to change in the next month.

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      I posted a couple of things on Ahjumma but wit no tag (I never tag my posts), and we are also having the six words challenge (now I correct myself because I’m tagging those).

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The King\’s time and space travel is giving me Someday, One day vibes which dealt with travel both ways too. Big shoes to fill.

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Ahjumma April
Yesterday, I was having a conversation with my friend over how humans have to make an effort to please in every non blood relationship, I also recognized that effort is required in blood relations too. There is just too much pressure to live upto the expectations that so many of us end up faking many things, the ones we don’t inherently want to do. While watching Kim Ji young born 1982, I could not ignore how close this was to the reality of several women. From the moment we are born, to the experiences we share growing up. My favorite scene from the movie was essentially, a sad one. KJY’s ex colleagues find out that they have a camera in the ladies washroom and that footage is being watched by few men in their office. The women are sad and enraged but amidst all this, they crack a joke. All 3 of them laugh at that and then sigh again! How many times have we done this? I feel like making fun of the issues has been the coping mechanism most women use when they realize they can’t solve the problem and they can’t change the world. Cry, get over it. Laugh, get over it. I once had an idea to write a similar story as this but I thought it’ll be very preachy, surprisingly KJY born 1982 wasn’t. It was just life. It’s how many women around the world live all their lives. It isn’t exaggerated, yes as a movie it focuses on not the happy parts of a girls life but the sadder ones for the critics who think that this movie only has complaints. And yes those happy moments exist for which we are thankful for being born a girl but the society fails women on many more aspects and that needs to be addressed and that’s what this movie does, incredibly and simply. To all the moms here, do me a favor, show this movie to your boys. This is the movie you show boys to because the women already know all this, they live through all this.

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    When I began to act more as a feminist activist, I began not by trying to convince women to be like me, but to convince men to talk to the women in their lives and listen to their stories: how we ignore patronizing, how we are discriminated at work and in life, how we are hysterical but boys have strong personalities, the reason we go together to a bathroom, why we would never alone a friend that has drunk too much, why we always ask the taxi driver to wait until we’re in. Those things men don’t. And then, I got male friends that listened and realize there was “another life” that they didn’t know about. I’m not saying every man is doing certain things on purpose, but because we all have learned certain things, it doesn’t mean we have to go on with them.

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      That’s great! And that is the approach that should be taken. While I do think that there are several women who have internalized misogyny and they are a problem too but they still understand because we share experiences. However, that’s not the case for men, so many things that people have normalized for women is actually sth that shouldn’t exist in the first place. For instance when I drop friends at their home at night, I stay in the car long enough to see them go inside their homes. This might seem like a caring gesture but no it’s actually just that we want them to go inside their homes because it’s dangerous outside. It’s a normal thing, it shouldn’t be. I studied in a class of where there were 4 women to 1 man, so generally most men wouldn’t really want to bring up discussions that discriminated against women but they still had those concepts. However, my degree encouraged discussions and these men took the effort to speak to women, some didn’t as well. The ones who did, I saw a considerable change in them by 4 years, they promoted feminism and spoke for women rights. They finally got it. Women have very different experiences than men and men can just not understand them without noticing or discussing because they are more priveleged and it’s a concept that any sort of equality will lower them, terribly wrong concept.
      Please watch this movie, I’m sure you’ll like this. I will however say that I got really bad subs on drama c**l so look somewhere else or wait for better subs.

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        I’ve already have the link to k*ssa**an, I believe the subs are also pretty bad.
        I can’t find it in any other site.
        I will tell you whenI’ve watched!

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Ajhumma April
I realized there is a special reason behind me liking I”ll find you when the weather is fine
It’s the lead MOK HAE WON. Dramaland has some awesome women. Search WWW’s women had me in awe, Bae Ta mi and Scarlett being their true badass selves and holding leadership roles made me think  “I’d like to be like them”. Be Melodramatic’s trio picking themselves up after falling and acing at life and career made me think “I wish to be like them”. Then there are also women in dramaland that I relate with but they don’t entirely represent me, the Candy. My inability to say no, endure, or even be an underdog is similar to theirs, but a guy certainly can’t solve my problems and unlike most Candies (lol) I have never been the center of attention. Unfortunately while watching the Candy I feel that even if I hold any similarity to her, I should be ashamed of that. So whenever I look at them I say “I definitely don’t want to be like that”. Then came Mok Hae Won. She was quiet, introspective, I would also call her introvert. She couldn’t fight back work pressure but she had a say. She has few good friends. She doesn’t forgive easily if someone wronged her. Cool people don’t appease her and she knows how to find her warm spot and get away from uncomfortable positions. Mok Hae Won is the first woman in dramaland that is completely amazing while being herself. She is the one female that I see and think “I am her and I don’t need to be ashamed of that”. Her character is the only female lead I remember that doesn’t make me feel that I’m not living the right way, I hope I was more upfront and daring or whatever I am, I hope I wasn’t. She’s just there being normal and her awesome self, not badass, not dependent, not extraordinary. She doesn’t need to do something to become better. She is the best already.

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Besides Kingdom it\’s also a terrible time to watch Hi Bye Mama. Showing the deceased\’s perspective and how every moment is precious with your loved ones is so depressingly appropriate rn when most of us are either scared of purs or someone\’s else\’s life. Stay safe guys, I hope the world gets through this safely.

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Hospital playlist: Umm so what exactly is the story? Is it just going to be random case to case and person to person for the next 10 eps. This totally has an episodic series feel but that\’s what this team doesn\’t do. As of yet it is just giving me atypical medical drama feel with things being more over the place. Against the popular opinion, I don\’t feel anything. I thought episode 2 will be better but again it\’s just random patients combined with an emphasis on the humanistic side where they definitely want us to feel things. I\’m not invested but I will stay watch for my favorites. Show you have both JKH and JJS, don\’t disappoint me!

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    You’re not alone in your opinion, I was okayish with the first episode even with the weird tonal shifts. But I finished the second episode feeling quite detached from it all. There needs to be some continuing plot-lines as the medical storylines are getting wrapped far too easily for me. Also there isn’t really anything different about this show from other medical dramas. We are getting very similar medical cases and stories and conflicts to other medical dramas. At least, RDTK (S1 I have not seen S2) gave high pressured cases and a fun, memorable character in Teacher Kim. Some of the characters feel a little one note (JKH character only seems to be angry all the time and the overt focus on Kim Dae Myung’s character’s far too close attachment to his mother is getting a little annoying and far too strange for a character who is supposed to be 40 years old). T

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      Oh yeah I was tired by this episode. As you said in your post, there seems to be no end goal. I was hoping this would be something like Life. While Life focused on hospital politics maybe this would’ve been slice of life, but right now it’s just juggling everything and I’m not impressed. The only running theme seems to be the song the band is going to play. There should still be a story, there is no story at all for now.

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Given my reluctance to watch medical dramas, I still made it through the first episode of Hospital Playlist. Like every other show by this writer-pd duo, I\’ll have to give this show at least 4 episodes, I\’ve mostly found their first few episodes to be all over the place because there is always a huge ensemble cast. On the other hand Sung Hwa is such a badass girl crush. I\’ve always wanted to be like her including being the main vocalist of a band lol. It\’s weird that I\’m more envious of characters like her rather than inspired.

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Looking back at my playlist, I hardly have any song that speaks to me as a woman. Today is international women\’s day so please link me to any song that speaks to you as a woman!

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