Aiiishhh ํ”ผ๊ณคํ•ด
and I can’t find a good gif to share how I feel so this one will do.
Mmmm bonnuit~~

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    Only because I’m not 100% certain, this is Suga right? (Me Gad, is my love not as strong as I thought? Must go see more Suga NOW)

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      Hah! Yes, this is Suga. This is from I think, Give It To Me’s behind the scenes.

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      Oh Greenfields hahahahaha throoooowback

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        HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
        I need to see less of Suga now, if I want to have a chance at a normal life. >.<

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          Pfahahaha. How, how’s that going for you btw? ๐Ÿ˜›

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            Seeing less of Suga? Okay, actually. I’ve sort of stablised now. I listen to a lot of their music, but am more chill with their videos, etc. I catch the new stuff as and when it comes out and forget about it if there’s nothing. ^^;

            Real life? HAHA I don’t have one. Work takes up 12-13 hrs a day, six days a week – which is why I’m on db even from the office. It’s how I relax/take breaks. ^^ The one free day is spent being horizontal on my bed with my dog.

            How about you? ^^ How is Real Life?

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          So I’ve done what I needed to do today so I can be on here for a bit and try reply to things I left un replied.

          Ahhh you are stabilising huh? That is good to hear hahaha.
          *nods* *told you it follows a pattern*

          12-13 hrs a day crikey woman don’t burn out or anything please. hahaha Glad you find time to relax though!!!

          My real life… uh. Busy busy busy and tiring. But I’m pretty much never not tired. Have four art commissions and like very little energy to do them. Also if I spend too long where I live I start to go crazy every two months, so I think I need to plan a wee getaway or something. God and money willing D:

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            Um..stabilising is well, not entirely a sign of good either? HAHAHA at present, they are releasing new stuff at least three days a well – 1. Bangtan Run, 2. Burn the Stage and 3. Run behind the scenes/bangtantv eps/Euphoria dropped randomly/more meaningful interviews/news and announcements. Gosh – its nearly impossible to keep with just the new stuff.

            Ah well, 12-13 hrs is the lawyer normal? I do tend to do things at my leisurely pace- the good thing is I do have control. In this profession, we start out as an apprentice. The proud custom. *rolls eyes* That’s what I am – my pay is next to zero (passion pay: i am paid in experience, not money and expected to be grateful for it). *rolls eyes yet again*; but I am my own boss under the guidance of my ‘mentor’/Senior.

            Sounds like your life isn’t that much different? ^^ On the job all the time? Since I know next to nothing about your field, I have to ask: Four art commissions must be draining depending on your deadlines?

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          How are you WATCHING ALL OF THAT. Even in my BTS hey day… no wait… there was a time at the end of 2016 where I had no new BTS content to find or see, not like variety wise, but just in general, memes and jokes, and news and gifs, there was nothing new on tumblr… o.o so yeah I get it sort of, even though I’ve never kept up with any groups’ episodes of variety for long. Going SVT was the most consistent I’ve got and even that I’m behind on now.

          *is not a lawyer* *shock horror hahaha* *so I wouldn’t know* But wow. Good you can pace it though!! How long have you been a lawyer for??

          Ah well. So I work part time in the library, just 15 hrs a week, over three days, which compared to your 12 probably seems like nothing haha, but well I mentioned this previously might as well say it properly since it’s relevant. So I have burnout, depression and anxiety, meaning I can’t actually work full time, my body won’t let me. We’re slowly trying to get better so I can work more, to earn more to do more things, but right now I just get super tired very very easily, even if I go out at night once a week, I’ll be drained. So I don’t tend to do that. Not a party animal either so that helps haha.
          So I work part time at the library, and then on the side I’m a freelance artist and writer. Primarily artist at the moment haha cos one thing at a time Sic or you’ll crash again. I can spend up to another 15 hrs a week on art or more depending. Which can be really hard because just working at the library tires me out so when I have to use my days “off” which I need for rest, as drawing days suddenly I’m spent and get nothing done D: But when I get these commissions done I think I’ll close commissions for a while and work on my other portfolios and try and get fitter and that kind of thing.
          So yes, drawing is really draining, drawing small things all day for 7 hrs is tiring af, and for me it’s sometimes even MORE draining, thanks fatigue haha.
          tmi? idk haha

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            Not tmi at all. I’m happy to learn more about you, dongseang, even if it’s not happy stuff.

            First and foremost, I’m sorry to hear about your health. As for the work hours – zero judgment from me. Health should be your first priority. So 15 hrs/week + the pressure of Comissions may be to you what 12-13 hrs a day, 6/7 days a week is to me; or perhaps even greater.

            I was surprised to hear (read) library, but now I think it sounds like you. ^^ I hope the resting is good, and you return fit and fighting. ๐Ÿ™‚ I’m also glad to hear you are slowly working on it. *hugs* Isn’t one thing at a time a good thing? You can focus on it.

            As for me, *offers own tmi*

            I have been a law-type person for 10 years. Law school is right after high school. I was a science-type person, and given my way in 2008, would have picked astrophysics or nanotech (I was torn between the too big and the too small ^^), but my Indian family insisted on a professional course and I ended up in law.

            This was a terrible decision. I was a quiet, shy, scared of conflict, underconfident, very sheltered child thrown in an atmosphere that really does call for the exact opposite kind of personality. It’s been tough. I’ve tried to switch fields, including working part-time for a while, but the transition has not been very successful or good for my own mental health. At one point I thought I could see my future stretching out endlessly in front me – bleak and colourless.

            Thus, I’ve had some not very pleasant breakdowns; and today, the 28 year old me IS unimaginably different from the 18 year old me. My mother, who retired a couple of years ago, said once that she doesn’t understand how the child she knew is the person I am now.

            I’ve been working properly as a lawyer for five months. Not with a law firm & souless money – because that would really kill me – but with the lawyers who run around courtrooms. Litigation. Here, passion pay is a proud custom *automatically rolls eyes*, but the pay off, if one can survive the initial years and is lucky, is immense.

            (slightly off topic) It’s what drew me to Agust D. Despite speaking a different language, being in a completely different field and being male, I felt like someone had FINALLY expressed how I felt. He didn’t speak for me, but – for me, he might as well have. Even someone else expressing it meant a lot.

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            personality + interest* mismatch

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          So obviously I really want to reply to this, and have half it written out, but Iโ€™m wondering- are you on Whatsapp or Telegram, or have an email where we could connect to one of the previous phone apps or something?
          Just because what with this comment and itโ€™s reply and you being a Jiyong fan now and the conversation we had about BTS last night (lol), I have SO MUCH MORE I want to talk to you about, and while this thread is on an old wall post of mine so itโ€™s relatively safe, dramabeans is hardly that secure so I was wondering if you wanted to connect in another way? Youโ€™re sleeping right now but hopefully youโ€™ll get this when you wake up ^-^

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          @greenfields *did she see this or miss it or???*

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