Love, February Day 6

I really hate exercising.

But what makes me even more annoyed that having some kind of regular exercise genuinely helps my mental health in so many ways.

I usually have to drag myself to class (I mostly do hot yoga and boxing) because I am never going to be motivated to do it on my own. And every single time I get out of class feeling more energized and clearer headed.

But more than that, each class reminds me how strong my body can be. I may not be the strongest or fastest in boxing, but I’m still miles ahead of where I was a year ago when I picked it up again. And I still have issues with balance, but at least I can balance, which I could barely do a year ago. And I love that.

It’s not a cure by any means, but it helps clear a lot of the fog that can be brought on by anxiety and depression for a bit. It’s a brief respite from the chaos in my head. And that helps me remember that it is worth taking care of myself, because I am worth it.

So, I guess what I’m saying is, sometimes you have to embrace the things you don’t love in order to find parts of yourself you do love. Funny how that works.

Love,
February

Song of the Day: Zoo by TAEYONG, JENO, HENDERY, YANGYANG, GISELLE

I just love the energy here, and I’ve been listening to it a lot for the last few months.