My dear precious Ahjussi,
When I started watching kdramas I was a teenager, now I’m 34. They made me laugh, cry, fall in love, get angry, and learn lessons but none of them touched my heart as much as your My Ahjussi did. It changed me to a better person, stronger and kinder. I can write a book about how much it helped me but words have no power when it comes to my respect for this drama, for Park Dong Hoon.
After that I kinda stopped watching dramas because no new one could hold a candle to it imo (except Lost) but I never dreamed of leaving kdrama world for good. I was waiting patiently and checking on every ongoing dramas.
Until yesterday when I got a text message from my friend saying “now how are you going to rewatch MA without crying, Marina?”
And my heart sank. I opened google and typed My Ahjussi, praying to see nothing unusual specially nothing about LSK but there it was…
It felt like someone had stabbed me in the heart. My fingers trembling, tears of sadness combined with anger started rolling down..
My dear dear dear ahjussi had no one in real life to tell him “it’s not a big deal”, “you’re a good person”, “fighting”, “can I hug you once?.. I want to give you strength” ..
He didn’t have a Ji An in real life to protect him from the ones who he worked hard all his life to bring them respect like how he did on Oscar with Parasite..
He was lonely and it breaks my heart..
He changed me with Park Dong Hoon’s pain and now he changed me with Lee Sun Kyun’s pain.
I will never watch anything from SK again till the end of my life because I believe it wasn’t a sui**** but a mur** when one is forced to end his precious life. I can’t pretend nothing happened and go on.
My dear precious Ahjussi, rest in peace. I owe you and pray for you every day. Thank you

Love🤍
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    🙌🏻🙌🏻🌺🌺
    If anyone want to attack me for how I feel about all this tragedy and what I wrote or delete my acc or anything, please feel free. I lost my faith and I guess this is going to be my last post here, on DB which was and is precious to me since I’ve been a member for yearsssss…
    Just want to add a poem in my language:
    جهان ایستاده بود،
    تو اما می تاختی در سینه ام..
    The world had stopped
    But you were walking in my chest..

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      I know exactly how you feel because My Ajhusshi has had a life changing impact on me too. That shared bond is what makes me bold enough to talk to you. Please let us go through this together. Let us be with each other. We need to hold on to each other and walk together to be able to live on. Let us share our feelings, thoughts and emotions. Let us give each other strength to live our lives.

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      I can definitely relate and sympathize, because what you’re feeling now is exactly what I felt and was thinking when the news of Jonghyun’s death took place 💔 We all have that one thing, they one drama, that one character, that one actor/actress who has made an imprint into our hearts, and because of that, we are able to see them as human beings outside of their roles and their jobs (yes, it’s just a job) of being a celebrity (actor, actress, singer, etc.), and LSK must have been this person for you 🥺 I urge you to hold onto the good that he has brought into your life ever since your first encounters with him as a fan and admirer of his works. Not to say that you shouldn’t think of what’s happening now and to dismiss your thoughts and feelings over the who situation, but it is because I really do think that LSK would rather his beloved fans remember him in a more positive light (and he probably maybe thought he there was no more light one had in his life and that is why he made the decision to end his own life). If anyone on the DB Community here has an issue with what you have expressed in your grief over someone who’s precious to you and whom has had such an impact on you, well then, the issue lies within them—which they need to think and reflect heavily upon —and not you ♥️

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      The poem is beautiful. Thank you. Sending you lots of warmth to survive this tragedy. ❤️

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    Marina,
    I share your sadness. For various personal reasons, My Mister is special to me. We lost Lee Kyun-hun far too soon.

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    Marina, I remember you as the ultimate MA fan. It’s hard to top that drama but now LSG has made Park Dong Hoon an immortal character for me. It’s always going to live on in my mind. Wishing you well and as Cera said, let’s walk through it together.

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    *grouphugs*

    I am enraged, too, and think that the police, if they did what they are accused of, should be trialed for the crime you said. BUT you know what I think, there is this one thought that kept crawling into my mind amidst my anger and sadness, LSK loved acting. It was his passion, and he was extremely talented in it. Dramas and movies had been a place of joy for him and his happiness place. Though I am now seeing SK in a different and more realistic light- de-glorified may I say, the reason I may still continue to watch Kdramas is that he loved it…

    I don’t know what else to say but I want to say that you’re not alone in this. It’s so painful. Like you, my feelings towards Kdramas have changed, and I don’t think I will enjoy them as much as I used to. I might try shows from other countries, but I’ll continue to watch some Kdramas knowing that there are many K actors and actresses out there who are enjoying making their craft. But I’m not intrigued by the country anymore. Such a shame.

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      Marina, I forgot to say that reading your post made me cry so much. I felt your deep admiration for him. I don’t know what to say.

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    My Ajusshi is the standard by which I judge all tv and movies. Nothing has come close. I’ve spent some time rewatching the parts with Ji An listening to Dong Hun walking and with the two of them talking, to try and console myself. His death is heartbreaking.

    Someone precious has been stolen from us. I feel terrible for his family and friends, and also for IU who seems like a sensitive soul and has spoken publicly about the death of Jonghyun. My only hope is that as K-ent becomes more watched across the world, more attention will be paid to how the actors, singers and dancers are treated (as well as those who work behind the scenes). From my perspective, those at the top in popularity too often become targets to be destroyed at the first hint of a “scandal” rather than admired for the talented artists they are. Lee Sun Kyun cannot be replaced. Neither can Johnghyun or any of the other entertainers who’ve been lost to us the same way.

    I will miss Lee Sun Kyun very much. I’ve loved him since Coffee Prince. It’s hard for me to imagine a world without another of his movies or dramas to look forward to. But I’ll continue to look for the rare gems while trying to guard my heart.

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    Marina, I share your deep sorrow. Instead of bringing me comfort, all the tributes given to him at the SBS Awards made me even more upset. We know full well had he been alive, the event would have shunned him totally and completely, to pretend he did not exist. They would have gone the extra mile to not show his face or mention his name, the same exact way it happened at Baeksang. I really hope his closest actor and director friends reached out to him in private if not in public, but I have my doubts.

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