Beanie level: Rooftop room dweller

OH AND BTW SO THERE’S THIS TAIWANESE SHOW CALLED LOVE IS SCIENCE AND I SHIT U NOT THEY HAD THIS DUDE WHO IS GAY N IS W A DUDE WHO HAS A CHILD ON THE WAY OK THEY HAD THAT MAN, NOT EVEN THE FATHER, GO INTO THE BABY MAMA’S FUCKING ABORTION APPOINTMENT AND DEMANDED SHE HAVE THAT FUCKING BABY WHEN HE FOUND OUT SOMEHOW IT WAS HIS PARTNER’S BTBICH I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE BEEN IN SO MUCH AWE taiwan really be having crazy stories i cannoOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
wait lemme be more specific:
girl (A) has sex w boy (B) i guess theyre too stupid to use protection cos she already had a baby but whatever lemme chill
boy falls in love with [gay — i mention this and will follow up with why] boy (C)
A knows she is pregnant, knows the father is B but she can’t handle another kid and she’s also a single effing mom and young
C goes to the hospital with A? for some reason idk the subs weren’t there and also the reason is that they needed it for this stupid story
A is, of course, having second thoughts about her abortion so they can justify that when C, miraculously somehow form her phone? finds out that the clump of cells in A’s body is B’s sperm
then C walks into the room when this bitch’s legs are spread wide, she’s having a hard time bc it’s just a TOUGH PROCEDURE AND THING TO DO IN GENERAL FOR WOMEN/PPL WITH REPRO SYSTEMS SO LIKE then he demands that A not get an abortion. he literally demands it. i mean there was no subs but what else am i supposed to infer when this fuckin idiot walks into the fucking room when this girl is TRYING OT GET AN ABORTION AND MAKES HER KEEP IT?!?!?!??! i mention being gay because that’s why our identities can only take us so far in how we act. he took his cis male-ness and used that but now i’m supposed to be sympathetic that people judge him? are you effing kidding me? i heard abt this bc of the ~BL~ but i was like lemme just see and when i realized that which btw was because of the context of another scene and i was like wait wait wait wait it’s not possible for what i think is happening to be happening

it was. oh man. o-gsjhi0uaisfhoijpok[g. turned that shit off. wrote angry comments. i would have looked that nigga dead in the eye and gone on with it even if i wanted that fucking baby. like no. it’s over. that’s done.the baby is canceled get the fUCK out of this room and OUT of my goddamn fucking vagina like bitch i will kill u

in the series because of you this woman told her rich abusive ex he’s garbage, left him, didn’t talk to him until she was dying, then calls him up to say she hates him essentially and i believe he believes that bc she (iirc) was pregnant that her son is his.

so here he is searching for this son and she aint even tell him it doesn’t exist. i’m dead srs he only finds out bc he tries to find his “son” and i think she wrote him a letter like LMAO SIKE U DUMB BITCH IT’S GONE I WILL NEVER KEEP ANYTHING OF U IN MY BODY. that’s some fucking BOSS BITCH MOVES. she said i don’t want u, ur sperm, ur likeness, ur energy in me so goodbye and she aint even let him know she died knowing that she did it and that was enough. it’s beautiful.

i would hvae gotten that abortion right then and there even if i wanted it like oh word? bye bye baby and watch me get it too

LIKE?!?!?

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    ooh wait i think she knew iirc she deliberately called him up so he could be suspicious and search then find out after she died LMAO. oh my god the bad bitch behaviorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

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    C’s point was.. B can’t have child with me.. so why not let A deliver 😀

    Mostly gay shows are stupid..unless coming from China..or some acclaimed driector

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i cannot tell u how dumb america and this world are but u must know. crew workers might go on strike here. a thing called IATSE is a union for below the line workers (what we are called) that’s from production to post so everyone that is not the “talent” or director or DP essentially. for corona they extended the hours to be “safe” and may have changed the pay but it’s been fucking laborious and they are again putting us in danger and trying to skirt union rules. even for editors those are speaking up because of the turmoil and the work.

people don’t know HOW MUCH goes into this and fuck the rich. i say all this because the kdramas we watch would be NOTHING without the crew absolutely nothing. they deserve everything and more. i wanna watch squid game simply because of the set-up. without us they cannot function and that’s why gorgeous work is there NOT because of the rest. all those things you see, that amazing trailer? thats someone’s fucking work that people don’t have a name for. so respect us pleaseeeeeeeeeeee

anyway what else have u been watching? i watch a lot of leftists on youtube and uh nothing else. well that’s not true lmao i watched some BL (bad) and rewatched inspector jo and cried but i refuse to watch the last ep bc i fucking love that show sfm. rewatched HSK and cried. watched a bunch of eng youtube like i said. uhhhhhhhhhhhh hm

oh. i watched strong woman do bong soon again and let me fuckin tell u the chemistry bettween them is absolutely not enough for how disgusting that fucking show is

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    All power to the workers. They deserve so much better and it’s appalling how most countries treat them.

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      YES AND THANK YOU. so many people don’t understand what is going on and are judgemental about it. it’s so hard. we’ve also lost tons of jobs in this industry like others. but it means a lot to hear people even think about solidarity and support. ~we all deserve to live with dignity~*~*~**~ lmao

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me looking at namgoong il even tho i don’t perceive him: damn daddy u fine as hell i hope yr wallet got condoms in it (cardi b, proverbs)

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    i mean i’m the age that he likes soooooooooooooooooooooooooo. hey.

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lol

sup

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the people we are moving in with or might potentially are like….fancy in a way we arent cos we\’re broke like i\’m bougie and love luxury but i also decided to go into the stupidest career choice and have debt im never paying off (im not worried abt that cos it\’s like whatever atp lmao who cares abt student loan debt yea my loans are the size of a house oh well the government will deal) so 1k/mo out of my current salary is ridiculous out of the question but if there\’s for people in one apt there is 0 reason why 1k/m is reasonable idc what city it is lmao like what the fuck? plus i\’m ot tryna live in a non-diverse area. i\’m seriously thinking of harlem

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    You’ve reminded me of a room hunting in NYC😭 I’ve finished on Church Avenue in Brooklyn in a really bad room big as a little closet for 600 a month 🤯 with mice keeping me a company. But at least I had a roof over my head for two months where I’ve been feeling safe.

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      just saw this omg im sorry! long time no talk i hope ur doing well. i am glad you moved out but holy shit. if you’re still in the area i hope ur ok from the floods? it’s been so bad. the housing here…

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        It was in 2004🤣. I was there on J1 visa – work and travel, although I didn’t travel but deplaced myself 😉. I love NYC but I prefer South America to Northern one – people are different, much closer to my nature. We had kind of dry summer in here although it was mainly cloudy with mild temperatures. I don’t like heat so it was a good summer for me. Did you find your place? How are you adjusting to NY?

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          have you moved to south america? i wanna visit so bad there’s so much culture and history. i want to go to brazil, colombia, guyana, and trinidad the most because that’s where a lot of my ppl are (lmao black ppl/africans) and i WISH I WISH I WISH i spoke portuguese. also i know a bit about SA politics bc i watch this youtuber badempanada and he does (leftist) videos and stuff and lives in argentina. he has a real love for that region which i think is interesting.

          i haven’t found it yet! my best friend and i are going to move and she’s worried about money. in the US my unemployment was taken away (pandemic unemployment) because those who weren’t viable for it before got it for the pandemic and then, even though the pandemic is sitll here, they were like “sike since ur freelancers we’re taking it back now” so i have some money saved but i’m looking for jobs in my area and she wants to be a bit more steady. i’m more optimistic that we can find a place although so much has change, u no?

          also re:summer i wish it wasnt an indication of global warming. i CANNOT STAND the heat lmaooooo how hot did it get? here our highest was like 103 but we have so many heat waves then rain.

          ok that was long and u probs dont care that much but sry my brain goes so fast

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            It wasn’t that long! I’m glad that everything is almost fine with you. I’m living in Brittany, France now. I did travel through Patagonia for 3 months 11 years ago – time flies so fast. 😂 Yeah, summer in NY especially in NJ is terrible. When I first came to Newark airport I thought I couldn’t breathe because of the heat and no breeze. I wasn’t far from a panic attack, it took my brain a while to reprogram itself to that weather. I hope all will go well for you although the beginnings are so tough. 🤞

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ironically my real life is getting better but my emotional life? lmao. anyways so finding an apt in NYC is awful and i was having such a hard time on these websites. nyc is no longer the most expensive city it’s just up there with all the rest atp. sf, la, boston, dc and i’m sure tx will get up there. hawaii is actually the most expensive place to live period. when i lived in london though i was paying for some old old houses and shit my last place, though needed cleaning, was my fav. i lived in a split level house with 3 other people in the property. we were in the basement, we had a backyard, i had a huge window in my room and i lived with 4 ppl (5 at some point) there was a second bathroom and 2 bedrooms at the top. now like……..modernity wise it wasnt perfect bc mold and england and landlords are trash. but i LOVED that place so fucking much, it was big and so convenient in the shouth which i loved bc diversity. but i never paid more than 900 USD a month to live in my places in LONDON so i was like i KNOW this is ridic. my cousin and his wife live in fucking harlem, have a dog, and a baby on the way and pay like 2.5k/mo for their place there’s nO FUCKING WAY that every single place im looking is this atrocious like i know. and then….i found it. as expected, my senses were right. i am not being shown things at all and the filters are BAD. google google and saw this and thankfuckinggod so it can be helpful and i can figure out a fucking place we can go bc my god. fuck capitalism man

https://cityobservatory.org/a-field-guide-to-median-rent-statistics-contd/

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    It’s hard isn’t it? Keep looking though something unexpected might turn up. There were some polish newspapers and website were it was easier to spot something cheaper and still decent but it was in 2004😂

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r94 THOTS in this thread

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    so the two of them have obviously liked each other for a long time. trash confesses in ep 11 and gives his reasons why. i get why, though it is a bit overdone in terms of narrative, but it makes sense. regardless of a reason it would have made sense because that’s what happens sometimes when you like someone. no one is obligated to hold on and to answer but it’s very very very clear that everything we saw was cemented through the conversations in the rest of the episode. him being confused about their feelings for each other but not being able to push her away. the reason we like them sm is because of their feelings and interactions.

    i found it odd that when hai tai was like “hey i like date rape all of a sudden” that was funny in the recaps and within the drama sphere but not alarming. on the other hand, trash being spurred on by a “rival” who is not a rival at all is also…normal. people are weird. it’s obvious they like each other. i saw that people were saying that they built chilbong up and made us connect with him to the detriment of trash. i cannot see how. chilbong is there as an extra boarder, a friend, and in the ensemble cast as the ensemble. but his life centers around her instead of the others. we see from her POV so the less she is in contact with him, the less he is shown since she is HIS STORY for a dumb reason

    and we dont get growth and we NEVER see her return feelings and i think that’s important because….in a lot of these shows they dont and the second lead goes full steam ahead. and it’s just like….what is a girl supposed to fucking do? everyone is allowed to pine but it depends on who the audience wants to see do it and the reasons behind it. if cb wasn’t super good looking maybe it would have turned out differently idk but the point is that through the process it seems like what najung wants and does doesnt matter and is at the whim of men supposedly when every step of the way it’s mostly her doing what she wants. trash isn’t an oppressive figure and we seeeee consistently his respect for her. my fav part is when she gets extremely upset at him insinuating she should stay at home and work bc that was realistic and it is painful and a ping to your pride if you are the type of girl who studied hard and stood on her own feet just to not do things she wants to do bc of an econ crisis u kno

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      he wasn’t doing it to be misogynist or patriarchal (for the most part—he didn’t think before about how insulting that would be and how that would make her feel because he was putting their finances and stability first albeit his mind is clouded by how a man grows up bc…socialization) and then when he tells her he can stay at home, it doesn’t matter who as long as they’re ok….i was so happy. my fav parts of the rship and the show is that they are true people. the whole condom fiasco was HILARIOUS and it made me glad that they didnt demonize it.

      soooo the date rape thing was a shitty thing, the double date and the girl is “Fat and ugly” i hated. and the one time that i think there was too much of a rush—though this is also cultural and listne sorry i just can’t get it. it’s the same with a lot of countries in the global south and kind of the same for nigerians but i just refuse to rush ever and idek if im getting married lmao i just want a longterm mans—and he was insecure about not seeing her. that i think was stupid just in a life course way, in a why the fuck are you so insecure way (and he can be! it makes sense! she was extremely upset when he moved for that reason; she also gets jealous) but i was glad still esp bc she wnated him to propose as seen by his horrific previous gift bc he cares abt her back

      another thing….their issues arose and it was never because of outsiders. long distance is hard she was in fucking australia, he’s dong doctor shit as an internship, the economy is upside fucking down and there’s om uch shit happening. life got in the way—it became more important to live their lives separately which is good and great i love the time they spend apart because that’s, again, life and it’s good to be your own person (the best part about them, too!) and that struggle.

      i’ve been watching most of it in whole scenes as opposed to skipping around like i suu do when i wanna see my friends but quickly. i keep forgetting what a deep world that was created. i don’t um love these writers i guess but the cast and crew knocked it out of the park. r94 to me is by far the best and a great decision. and their chemistry was amazing but what makes me even happier is that they had a good time and were friends while working. we can believe they love each other and have the capacity to IRL, but it’s so wonderful when you can do your craft and be this other person who can be in love but IRL you make your choices. that’s how it should be imo and less people should date on shoots I M O

      this is truly go ara’s best perfomance and i fucking WISH I WISH SOOOOO BADLY she will get someone that brings out more in her like with this show and jung woo….sigh

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anyway so i\’ve been watching things (nothing new) obvs i wanna see DAYS cos those are my bitches. i have been rooting for them since day one. i love SIG (and im glad he and his gf broke up shes a lil 2 yung) and i love his spirit and what he chooses AND i love how he didnt go to the army. I LOVE DRAFT DODGERS 😉

but yea he and PBY….me and a friend of mine literally were fancasting bc HSK and OMG had come out around hte same time (made by the same person too) and we were like WHAT IF: TOGETHER. because im dealing with grief tho and lmao cancer (5 ppl on my dad\’s side had it including dad, one on my mom\’s side……..so yea we have to get gene testing isnt that nice) it\’s a lot.

i have been rewatching r94. now that was 8 years ago. let me tell you abt me as a wee lass-slash-adult….i realize i don\’t have to give a shit what people think about my thoughts but it doesnt invalidate them. back in 2013 i was like \”what if i\’m wrong? why do i love this show?\” and going back through the recaps…
1. the show was good; it was slice of life and always focused on na-jung. r97 had a major pitfall imo when sig\’s char is pining after her for literally like most of the show and htey get ~3 eps together and it seemed very reluctant at times (they had chemistry and they kissed cutely remember when ppl freaked out cos eunji was like…ive kissed someone b4 like duh? lmao but i mean combatively between them) and yelled so. the show also had a major flaw in the loveline with the useless brother. so that show is actually, to me, less enjoyable. because r88 was a clusterfuck imo i stay away
2. going through the recaps you would think trash fucking murdered someone like holy shit the love for chilbong was (is?) astronomical but he isn\’t anything, she doesn\’t like him like….at all. and he\’s annoying. typical second lead—not quite sure how people had fallen so fast
3. i don\’t think a lot of people have had a crush or been in relationships
4. just like…not understanding production
but most importantly
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to make myself feel better im rewatching and i love najung and trash my lil babies my otp 4evah<3 so to see the comments in the recaps is hilarious. people were so fucking sure and at the time i was terrified (that\'s one o fmy few complaints the possibility of what if it could change but it wouldnt have bc…she loves trash) and it\'s hilarious to see all the like intense dislike and protection over chilbong but not paying attn to the show or who na jung likes or wants in her life. na jung\'s character\'s romance didn\'t become central to the plot at the expense of the writing (imo) because that\'s….the point of the show. slice of life and loving is part of it. that\'s what 97 and 88 are based on as well. confused about that but regardless it\'s just hilarious to read back cos people were mad mad and they were like if they end up togehter ill hate it! well bitch they did LMAO shoulda known back from ep 1 I LOVE IT HAHAHHAHAHHAH it\'s so fucking funny. my god

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i…don\’t know what to say. i haven\’t been through this much pain because of grief in forever. before he died, he looked just like my grandfather. as crazy as my family makes/made me, my grandpa was the one who didn\’t have to say anything and got me. even if he, too, drove me nuts sometimes. when he died, my bulimia went into a tailspin but i wasn\’t able to process this at 21. i had returned from a 6 month study abroad in paris, absolutely loathed it, and previously i had gone insane at home and i had to go basically and when i came back….my grandpa waited to see me then died the next day.

my uncle….there\’s no words to describe. he was a really prolific photographer, like a very famous one, but he was just this dude. who got a lot of us young kids, who was a gen x-er as opposed to a boomer, who was an artist. who was deeply insecure and had to prove himself and he always did. because i\’m 29, because i saw him deteriorate, because because because it\’s too much. i don\’t want to grieve like this anymore.

i have been helping my aunt with his studio and orders of his products (his prints, sk8board decks with his photos, post-cards, etc) and getting things in order. before he died….my bro, me, and my cousin saw him in his studio in the beginning of may. he said: you can come here, you can shoot (film) here, you should do youtube, you can do anything.

i\’m so mad at myself and him and the world because he should have stayed. he\’s so fucking loved. why did this happen? thank you for all your condolences and i\’m so sorry to people that have had this happen, too. thankfully my (maternal) aunt can get help hopefully. her diagnosis was terminal but she\’s still here; we thought my uncle would go into the hospital, get surgery, come out. things are getting better but also worse. too much.

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    May your uncle RIP amara and you feel better soon.

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    I’m really sorry for your loss.
    Life is unfair sometimes, some people go before their time and the ones who are left behind have to learn how to deal with it. I can’t say it will be easier, only that you will learn to live with that void in your soul. I firmly believe that as long as you remember him, talk about him, share the stories about him and laugh when you think he would have laughed, he will always be by your side, living in your heart and taking care of you.

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      hi eazal thank you so much for this comment. i am saving it. it’s really hard to remember but this is helpful. thank you. he is here.

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      You’ve written it so nicely. Thank you for those words!

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    I am sorry for your loss.

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    🕯️I hope you can make a nice farewell to your uncle. Life is a like a fish – when you finally think you got it in your hands it slips away and disappears. Not for everybody so I hope you catch your fish and hold onto it.

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    I’m sorry for your loss amara. Hoping you feel better soon and find the answers you are looking for.

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so my uncle died. we were all close to him. he was 54. he has two kids (11, 14) and a wife. 4 siblings, one my dad, and my grandmother. it progressed so fast we saw him two weeks ago and now he\’s dead. my mom\’s sister has breast cancer and we\’re getting her to come here so we can get her on clinical trials. this has been the worst year of my life.

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everyday i wake up and miss kurt cobain and everyday he is still dead that\’s unfair sir

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the only bad thing about ha ni running away is literally because if she runs into the people she\’s not supposed to she\’s going to find out THE most devestating thing ever so every time she does esp with her sister i get so worried. it\’s a miracle that nothing has slipped, although i am sure she probably has an inkling something is off. but that\’s literally the only reason like bitch run away for the 50th time and you\’re gonna learn what\’s really going on lmao but then again i guess that\’s also the point. impulse and decisions. it would be silly to say that her running wasn\’t a catalyst but it\’s too simple to say it\’s her fault and those are emotions she must process but goddamn she\’s really laying her own traps. such is life as a teen i spose

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i am so happy lmao

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even if this stupid bitch tanks her extremely cool brother\’s company they\’ll still be happy you dumb stupid bitch i I HATE YOU can u tell im having a good time yes yes i am lmao

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she was on IVF? OH MY GOD IM SO HAPPY FOR HER OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD AND A GREAT HUSBAND

omg her worry is so cute im sooooooooooo happy for her oh my god poor jieun but she gets to be a mom and wont leave someone lonely. i cried lmao this was one of the best things! i wasnt surprised but i think the fibroid ivf thing and having her rest was really great i now for people that is just a fucking miracle and the actress did a great great job

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\”yes i am 37 yes i have a man i regularly have sex with and am married to but what is this mysterious stomach issue i have?\” (lmao i am mostly kidding ive never been pregnant but fo rall those that have i know it\’s tough and weird!!!!!!!)

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