Day 14

Words words words words
I can’t handle words today
My head is full of them
I make them into sentences, paragraphs, and stories
They’re all so petty
Petty
Petty
So I start again
I want to say something profound
Inspiring
Sincere
Real
It’s the last day
But my experience just seems overdramatic
My love is so very, very petty
I can’t handle these words
To the kitchen
To the front door
To the window, my bedroom, the bathroom, and back again
And back again
Back
Again
Again
I try a new story, of my history with valentine’s
I have to sit down for a moment to cry
I’m pathetic, a coward, I cannot share
As usual, my feet won’t stay still
While my head burns with words and my hands shake, clammy with heat
Wait
The thermometer reads 102 Fahrenheit
I sit down with a shiver
My icy hands only warm when I have a fever
Is love like a sickness? That warms cold hearts, cold hands?
I learned growing up that love is a healer
I wonder if there is any love in myself
Cause I only find sadness and anger when I look inside
Maybe that’s the fever talking
I don’t know anymore
I want to know love
I think I did once
Maybe
Maybe
Maybe
We can meet again
I think I need to sleep

Love, February

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    Thank you thank you thank you everyone for participating, even if you say you only commented, or posted just one day, know that you mean so much, and I am so grateful for this sharing of hearts.

    Happy Valentine’s Day!
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    My daughter was just diagnosed with the flu. Today. It’s going around. But we did get the vaccine. So it should be less severe. I hope you feel better soon! Get some sleep. Drink something warm. Hot cocoa, maybe?

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    Get well soon Coco!
    And yes please get a good amount of rest.

    Also thank you for starting this. The first 2 weeks of Feb has been amazing thanks to you & all other beanies who contributed

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    Thanks so much for this prompt, Coco. It’s been a bit of a revelation; a powerful one.
    And I really relate to this piece so much.

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    “To the kitchen
    To the front door
    To the window, my bedroom, the bathroom, and back again
    And back again
    Back
    Again
    Again”

    I can’t pinpoint exactly why these lines touched me so much, but i absolutely love them. The whole poem is wonderful–poignant and real, which is always my favorite–but these lines stood out especially much. Maybe because I feel in some ways that they describe what the whole LF experience has been for me? Going back and forth through memories to see what love is (to me and to others), coming and going through thoughts and posts to build a fuller idea of love. I feel like I’m not making sense, but maybe you’re taking flu meds now and will think its you and not me 😉 In any case, these lines spoke to me. This poem spoke to me. This whole endeavor has been a meaningful journey. FEEL BETTER SOON. you are loved ❤️❤️❤️

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    Thank you so much for this Love Feb idea! It was cathartic, emotional and so wonderful to read the posts.

    I hope you feel better! Sending you healing vibes!

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    Oh Cocoa. Thanks for championing this idea and for making us all bare our souls at one point or another. Now rest! That’s an order. From your Queen. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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    *Hugs* Coco , Take a long proper rest and get well soon 💙💚💛💜💙💚💛💜🖤🖤

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