Beanie level: Loan shark with a heart of gold

SSR in all black with a whisper of guyliner and a hint of 5 oclock shadow? Yo I dont even know whats happening right now. That man is some kinda pretty. Pretty hot pretty tempting pretty sexy pretty

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Now looky here your royal hotness, SSR. Ima need you to simmer down with your murdery ways. Leave. SONG YI ALONE. You cant see it bit Im wearing my “not thrilled with you” face.
Looked fly though. Falling through the air to your near death.
That face.
That face is perfect.
He is DANG PRETTY.
I want to bite one of his cheekbones. Just to see if its real.
Is that weird?
I dont care.

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There are some SERIOUSLY attractive people in My Love From the Star. Like this may be the prettiest cast of any drama ever. There are no weak links!

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I have nowhere to watch dramas!
My computer is just nonsense. If i tried to do more than the watch it would pack up its mouse and keyboard and walk away.
I have a roku but its on the tv in my bedroom. Theres no place to sit in there! But just laying there watching tv makes me fall asleep.
The tv downstairs is just a tv. I cant watch dramas on it.
But today. Today I wanted some dramas so I hauled the good tv downstairs and the My Love From the Star marathon is back in full swing.
It occurs to me I need to learn balance. 8 books read in 3 days. Havent touched a book all day.
Binge a drama in a day. Wont watch another one for a month. How do people balance things?

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    It’s a mystery to me.

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    Oh it is going down. My little Song Yo did the opposite of the adage: keep your friends close but your enemies closer. She kept Se Mi close because she considered her a friend but noooo honey. Se Mi is not your friend girl. And now Se Mi is being a jerk to Song Yi. But looky here, punk. You were the fl in what? The last few eps of an established drama that the fl was fired from after being accused of murder. If you couldnt handle that then….get out of the business. A few short eps dont make you a star, honey! Youre gonna get yours child!

    I now speak like my grandma and my aunts. So theres that.

    Why is there suddenly all of these murder attempts in my fluffy romcom?

    Yeah sweetheart. I dont think youll be able to write this one off as a “you saw it wrong”.

    Also. Your Royal Hotness. Stop doing terrible things. Thank you in advance for your cooperation.

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      I binged this entire series in two-ish days a week before I was supposed to take my licensing ethics exam. I had not even looked at the material at that point. I still have zero regrets about that. I think I ordered a ton of takeout and just curled up in an ikea chair with my laptop on the desk and didn’t move unless it was necessary. I should do that again one day, but with a tv this time.

      What books did you read? I’ve been reading a lot lately and could always add to my overly long list. (Also, how are you? I feel like it’s been a while. I haven’t been around these parts much lately. Existentially exhausted these days.)

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        I have been thinking about you all week! It has been ages but Ive not brrn hanging on the wall or discord super often here lately so its possible Ive just missed you. Lets see. I read this weekend:
        Charming as a Verb (basic teen novel but excellent characters amd writing)

        How to speak boy (i have read this exact plot 78 times in the last 3 months. Two enemies accidentally atart writing to each other anonymously and fall in love)

        Felix Ever After a sweet romance. Lgbtq

        My almost flawless tokyo dream life. The teen part (friends and romance) boring. But the rest of it? So interesting! I wish she had focused on it more. Her mom had a relationship with the japanese equivalent of a chaebol and got pregnant. They paid her off and he was sent back to japan. When shes 15ish her mom gets in a car accident and becomes addicted to pain killers and falls down a slippery alope to dealing to prison. She goes into all of these foster homes (bad to worse) when on her 16th birthday shes swept up to Japan and finds herself dealing with an unemotional alchoholic father amd a racist grandmother. But the author mostly focuse on the teen romance/friendship stuff.

        The Princess Saves herself in this one. A book of poetry. It actually got a ton if bad reviews on goodreads but iy legit spoke to the broken parts of my soul and made me tear up.

        Oh. Meme. I keep forgetting that I read this book on friday. These kids think that their good friends ex is bullying her and actually think hes a legit threat. Isntead of going to the police they decide to strup down to their all together and murder him. Interesting premise. Terrible book.

        An Inconvenience Woman. SO GOOD! A woman named Claire is convinced that her exhusband is a child molester (her daughter said as much before drowning) . Everyone thinks that Claire is crazy and Simon (the ex) is perfect. Simon hires a sin eater (is that a real thing?) to protect him, his fiance and her daughter (the same age as Claires daughter when she married Simon. A coincidence? Hmmmm) from Crazy Claire. The book is from the pov of Claire as she tries to figure out how far shes willing to go to stop a monster and the sin eater who is trying to stop her.
        Oh and I finished Ritials. The last book in a Kelley Armstrong series. By the time I got to this book I eas basically hate reading. The first and thr last are decent. The 3 in the middle are total trash.

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          I’m going to tell my daughter about these books.

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        Also, what are you reading? Are you watching anything? I was/am hard core slumped and retreated to 90s nostalgia. Literally the only thing I have been watching is an ep.a week of It Started with a Kiss eith ayaan on discord. I started watching My Love maybe back in November. It took me almost an entire ep to remember why everyone was so mad at Song Yi. I downloaded the discord app since my computer is nonsense and now get notifications every single time anyone posts anything and that group is loving Run On. So I started that today when I couldnt find the new Noona romance anywhere.

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          I really should figure out discord one of these days and join y’all over there. I’ve barely been here since what I thought was a month but my wall tells me I haven’t posted since October…I know I’ve lurked a bit but not as much as before. It’s been a wild few months, hasn’t it?

          I’ve been catching up on some of the YA Fantasy that was big when I was in law school and too busy to read – just finished Six of Crows last night, starting sequel today. Also just finished A Sky Beyond Storm which was a great conclusion to the Ember series. Was on a Shirley Jackson kick at the end of last year, and have been listening to audiobooks too. Currently listening to Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman and Three Dark Crowns. Not sure how I feel about the latter, may not finish it. Also reading Amber Ruffin’s book, which is funny.

          Plan to read the Daevabad trilogy next – I read the first book when it came out but the other two were so long I never had the time.

          Currently watching Run On which is my weekly crack. I also like LIVE On but the subs are taking fooorrrrevvvverrrr on Viki. I watched most of Sweet Home over new years weekend, just need to finish last two eps. May check out Sunbae this week. I was basically glued to the news from Jan 6-12, and then watched the figure skating championships this weekend. No drama has really grabbed me lately, and I have like four dramas from last year that I like a lot but still haven’t watched the last 4 episodes of.

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    I don’t balance things. I stay up way too late because I have kids/a job that require me to do stuff, but then I want to watch dramas/read anyway 😅

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    Drama? Are you trying to make me feel badly for Se Mi? Because shes the literal worst.

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I love books. This has been an awesome weekend for me. Friday was the anniversary of my moms death and I was sad but I threw myself into one of the passions that we shared: reading. Since Friday Ive read 4 or 5 books. I havent thrown myself into books like this in years!
A book that Im about to finish up is My Almost Flawless Tokyo Dream Life (friendship/romance:dead boring. Foster care and family stuff: super interesting). But one of the things she talks about is how Christmas is a really romantic holiday instead of a religious holiday. That made me think of ISWAK and how Zhi Shu brings Xiang Qin KFC on Christmas. In this book she says that the people have to make reservations for KFC months in advance because they sell out. So ZS bringing XQ the chicken isnt just a cute moment its a deliberately romantic gesture that he planned for months?! Is this trrue or have I been lied to by a twen romance novel?

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This is a bad weekend to be a fan. Brian Litrell is pro-terrorists and GOT7 is disbanding. Its only 7:08am. How could the day be so wrong already?

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    I’m also sad to hear that GOT7 is disbanding.

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      And I want to kick Jackson Wang right in his shin. Every other member of the group put up the same pic and Got7 forever so that we know that even though the group may be over they are still GOT7 and he hasnt done it! It makes me think–a couple of years ago he did a sort of video introducing himself as a solo artist. Do you remember this? It was like his life story and then he stepped onto the stage alone? I remember the comments of the video everyone mad that he didnt mention GOT7 at all–like they had nothing to do with his success (like Justin Timberlake constanly distancing himself from Nsync). And then someone said that GOT7 was represented by the 6 lights that he stands next to for a second before going on stage. Is Jackson Wang going to be that guy?

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        I know GOT7 fans are sad about what is happening but I honestly chuckled when I read that one of the members might be going to AOMG, which was started by a former JYP idol

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        @isa Hopefully Jackson will post something acknowledging his group members. I truly feel sad for GOT7 fans; this news cannot be easy. However, I do wish each member all the best and I hope that they will continue to support one another.

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    Some people are super disappointing (kindest thing I can think of to say). Also sad about GOT7.

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      I knew Brian voted for Teump and I knew that he was a Republican but aligning himself with the mob that that tried to flipping COUP and start another Revolution or whatever the heck they thought the outcome was going to be? That is several bridges too dang far. I have been lietening to them since I was 14! I am seriously considering just listening to like..50s and 60s music. Temptations. The Supremes. They are too dang old to be problematic.

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    Is changing agency disbanding?

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      This is the new question! The internet says that just because theyve all left JYP to go pursue solo activites at separate agemcies3 doesnt mean disbanding necessarily.
      For my own hearts sake Im just going with disbanding. I used to like NSync and they said for years that they werent disbanding–just on hiatus. And then like a decade later without telling anyone they officially disbanded. By that time I had already read Lances book and hated Justin so I wasnt holding out hope all of that time but Im not doing it again.

      GOT7 has said theyll put out music together again and after the official report came out several of them posted pics of them hanging out together. I guess to remind us that even though the parting with JYP is business GOT7 themselces are brothers. But my heart wont wait on another boy band. Im too old for this game! I need me some old lady hobbies….

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Something slightly less horrible: i watched a video of Jae from Day6 playing Among Us with Bam and Mark from GOT7 and some gamers. It was hilarious.

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Im sorry, I need to write this and I don’t have anywhere to put it. But in order to function today I need it out of my head and out and interacting with the world. Feel free to ignore me.

Being black in America means

just cooperate!

Smile

But not too big (that’s aggressive)

Keep your hands visible (what are you hiding? What are you reaching for?)

Don’t argue. Don’t fight. Don’t be rude (you’re not a stereotype, are you?)

Being black in America means staying calm

No matter what happens

Even if you’re being killed.

Because if you fight back while you’re being killed then you were the problem to begin with. With all of that black skin and all.

So this is what you do when dealing with police, in America.

I have been pulled over by the police 3 times in my entire life.

Once, I was pulled over for turning right at an empty cross section in the middle of the night when there was a “no rights on red” sign. I did NOT see that sign.

Once I was pulled over for going 70ish in a 25 mph zone. Yeah. I deserved that one. My foot? She’s heavy!

Both of these times that I was pulled over I was aware of police brutality. I was aware of how often black bodies are needlessly murdered by police. I’ve read the statistics. I’ve said the names. I’ve hosted programs with kids and teens so that they can have a safe space to get all of those emotions out and try to make sense of it (theres no making sense of it). But both of those pull overs happened before 2020. Before George Floyd and Breonna Taylor and all of the other police shootings that happened this year (two that I can think of happened right here in Ohio! Last. Month.)

I was pulled over this morning and my first thought was “Please don’t murder me.”

My second thought was “Oh my god. He could murder me.”

And my third thought was a jumble of everything that I’ve ever been told about interacting with the police.

My fourth thought? That shit doesn’t work.

Being polite.

Being respectful.

Being kind?

That won’t keep me alive as a black person in America.

Where I was pulled over at?

Deep in Trump county.

In a time where being a trump supporter is basically tantamount to being a member of the klan.

My interaction with the police was pleasant.

I was going 6 over the speed limit. 11 when you factor in that it’s a school zone.

He let me out with a warning.

He told me to have a nice day and a happy new year.

I said the same.

He tipped his hat and said, “don’t let me have to pull you over again!” the young lady was implied. A kind older man who looked at me and was reminded of his college age daughters, being pulled over for similar reasons.

I didn’t hear that. I heard “don’t let me have to pull you over again or next time I’ll drag you out of the car and murder you!”

Good ol’ boys.

I smiled. Told him happy year. Thanked him for not giving me a ticket and drove off.

For an hour after I couldn’t stop crying. I couldn’t stop shaking.

The entire time he was talking to me he had his hand on his gun.

Is he going to shoot me? Right now? Is he going to shoot me? Oh god is he?

So that’s how my day started.

Happy Monday, friends.

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    Isa. Thank you for sharing. Hopefully your day ends better than it started!

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    This is so horrible!
    I hope you feel better now and I really wish something like this will never happen again. Sending you hugs!

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    Thank God nothing happened. I Hope you have something exponentially better happen to you to cap off today on a good note.

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    isa, I’m so sorry your New Year had to start this way. Thank you for sharing, I hope it helped calm you from the experience and please know that you have friends here who are working to correct what’s wrong.

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    That is a truly awful and unfair way to have to live. I really hope things can get better.

    I also hope the rest of your day was better!

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    I’m so sorry that you have to live with this never ending anxiety and fear on top of everything else, Isa.

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    I can’t imagine what it is like to live with this sort of terror. It makes me angry and my heart breaks for you. It’s just not good enough.

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      I agree. The systematic oppression of black people in the US really needs to end. This is why the BLM movement is so important.

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    😭 I’m so sorry. I’m afraid when I’m pulled over but I’m not afraid for my life. I’ve made a career of being pulled over because I drive an older car with lights that easily go out and I live in an area with so many police it’s nuts. I’ve been pulled over twice in less than 5 minutes (thank you tail light that went out after I left home).

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    we are with you. i cannot imagine how you must have felt all those times… stay strong. stay safe. stay smart, as you are.

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    Sending you lots of virtual hugs, support and love, Isa. <3 I'm so sorry you had such an awful and terrifying experience, and at the start of your day, no less. Thank you for posting and sharing – I truly believe that it makes a difference when others get to read your story and experience (I just wish that we lived in a world where you wouldn't have this experience at all) .

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    Hugs, Isa 😔

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I have a few dramas that I can talk about all day long. And by talk about I really mean write several essays on. ISWAK is one of them. Pretty Noona who disappointed me is another. There are a couple others out there but for sure whenever those two are mentioned I find myself writing essays.
Is anyone else like this? What are some your chattiest dramas?
Im assuming if they make you write that much they are either REALLY good or REALLY bad. Who has that most passion and energy for something merely mediocre? A third one for me is A Gentlemans Dignity. I love that drama except for…well. There are essays about it.

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The blue robe of seduction has YET to come into play but ZSs not subtle at all no not at all 100% need to be in XQs personal space is in full swing.
1. When he comes out to help XQ amd her dad unload their truck he decides the best way to be helpful is to stand thisclose behind her and smirk. Oh Zhi Shu.
2. For a genius–his brain just stops working around her. It really does. I think its lack of blood flow. His mom puts his gym clothes in XQs bag and XQs gym clothes in his bag. Instead of sending a minion he goes to huffily make the swap even though hes the one to make a huge deal out of no one knowing that they live in the same house. And everyone knows about his rejecting her so him deliberately coming from on high to see her is only going to cause rumors. And yet…there he is. Chasing her around the school yard. Looking quite flirty.
3. ZSs favorite form of communication when it comes to XQ is to come and literally put his nose on her nose (even though they have the tall/small thing happening and he practically has to bend in half) and tell her how much he dislikes her. While she is 100% full swing smitten every time this happens (basically whenever they are in a room together) her response is to bend backwards away while sideyeing him like MY DUDE. PERSONAL SPACE. HAVE YOU NEVER HEARD OF IT?
And it makes me think of AoMikes Kiss Me and how instead of having THEIR ZS (Mike) constantly in her face he starts stealing kisses. After a certain ep Im pretty sure he kisses her in every ep. And our poor, sweet, dimwitted bunny accepts the kiss. Amd spends then confusedly scratches her head. She thinks this is some new weird form kf teasing. Should I rewatch that? Of course I should. AoMikes chemistry is fire.

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    You made me want to do an ISWAK rewatch, arghhhhh

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      See! Isa, get a rewatch together. Go to discord and ask @leetenent to help you. We need this.

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    Which itakiss are we talking about here?
    *i want to fangirling too🤣🤣

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    Yess let’s start a watch again!!!

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    OhYay! You mentioned Kiss Me which I just discovered this year, well I knew about it but hadnt seriously tried which turned out to be perfect timing because if you need a hit of fluff and like you said some Fire chemistry this has been a boon! I haven’t finished it or their Full House Ive just using it when I need something light and sweet. I am flippin in love with Mike Angelo- those Eyes, any way I just hopped over to the Beanie wall for the first time in forever and your name was the first I saw-SWEET, though Im sorry you had when seems to be a real rough week. heartbreakingly disappointing week for everyone to be sure. I think cocoa and AoMike may be just the thing. Have a good(better anyway) Sunday

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      Oh their chemistry is fire in the innocent Kiss Me. It turns into some other sort of fire in Full House. The ice cream kiss! Shoot.
      How are you? 2021 is terrible but I have cake.

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        Yeh 2021 is not living up to the very small requirement I had, which was to simply to be a bit better than 2020. I have a symphony chocolate bar calling to me. I cannot get over the chemistry those two have in Full House and Kiss Me -whew. They need to work together again. Personally I’m doing pretty good I don’t enjoy winter very much but I’m working and my people are healthy so I’m trying to appreciate that. My current shows are Awaken, Mr Queen and my favorite Run On? You watching anything current or us the It Started With A Kiss rewatch still ongoing?

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          Its kind of neither. The group was watching Mr. Queen but I dont think anyone was enjoying it and theres talk of switching it up. I was supposed to meet up with Ayan but I had to work and was cranky. At this point I should embrace being cranky.

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            I understand cranky, it’s why cake was made to begin with!

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            I thought about dropping it but apparently some hot reciprocal kisses were enough to stall that decision for a minute

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Im watching ISWAK on youtube. Yall. I loce this drama. But I swear Ive never seen this scene before. In the opener scene Xiang Qin is holding out her letter for Zhi Shu and he walks right past her. She falls down and is holding the letter out, straight into the air.
The scene I dont remember is his friend calling Zhi Shu, him stopping and turning and being distracted by Xiang Qin. The entire time Zhi Shus friend is talking Zhi Shu is staring at Xiang Qin. Fascinated. Ive always thought that from the moment Zhi Shu becomes aware of Xiang Qins existence that hes drawn to her. This just shows before she ever even speaks to him hes fascinated. He approaches her, speaks to her.
Hes probably aware of her the entire time they were in school together.

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    Is it possible that Ive never watched this drama before? How have I forgotten so much? Zhi Shu NEVER takes the letter? The parents have this whole plot line with a violin? I know I havent watched in a while but this drama feels brand new.

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      Lol yeah those all happened in the beginning! Aw I love this drama. Always feels go to rewatch

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        Really?! Even the violin? I swear I have never seen that violin before a day in my life. But @egads and I were saying ages ago that the sites we had normally watched from (df (rip, always) and the illegal sites) must have cut things out because youtube showed stuff that we had never seen before. I was watching on youtube willing to believe Id see some stuff that had been cut for whatever reason but this feels like A WHOLE LOT, man.

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          I… don’t remember that.

          I think DF cut A LOT out. I don’t remember that scene you described, and what violin? There’s a violin?

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          Aha! That’s true I think they did cut some stuff in the DF videos. I watched this on dvd wayyy back.

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      Actually reading that first letter in itself is a consistent plot point, isn’t it..

      she sleeping, him reading the letter when he started tutoring her, and then reads it aloud from memory in front of parents. Never not funny.

      *********************
      Anyone japanese on this forum. I am curious, if that is truly an ingrained part of japanese culture (must be given kanban)… the whole manga is around sincere hard work and laser focus on your goal can realize your dreams

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    @isa which version are you talking here – TW or Jap (and which Jap version if the latter)?

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In order to start 2021 on the best most positive way that I can think of Im going to spend the day watching ISWAK–a drama that I already love–and continue my watch of that alien drama that I started to like. Positive, happy, funny.
Start the way I mean to continue.

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    You go, girl! Maybe do a discord watch?

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      Oh I didnt even offer it up! I should totally offer it up. Thats a great idea. Its been so long since Ive actually done anything on discord other than show up for the watch with the group formerly known as the iswak group that Im not even sure if I know how. But Ill figure it out!

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        I’ll try joining again. Now that I know you’re finding new scenes! 😆

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My dear beanhomies
Happy New Year!
The dumpster fire that was 2020 is over!
For me, I felt numb for most of 2020. I felt cut off from everyone and everything. Even db and discord hit differently this year. For the past several years I could cheerfully say that db and yall were the best part of the year. This year with the numbness and isolation to quote Hamilton (the best part of 2020) “the fact that [Im] alive is a miracle”. For me, making it through the year was enough.
In spite of all of the changes here on db this remains the kindest, safest place on the internet.
No matter what 2021 throws at us, keep being the best Beanies.

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Well I woke up this morning with throw upingly bad cramps and the sound of the neighbors having loud sex. The complaint about the thin af walls is reinstated!

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Beanies. This kid is just getting better and better. I kove this collab. I need some JJ Lin in my life.

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Ok. Back to the Cosby Show.
Bill Cosby is a serial rapist and a monster.
That being said its a shame that this show is tainted by his evil as the show itself is really funny. A couple ofthe things that are always mentioned is seeing a black in tact family and seeing that Cliff and Clair are a doctor and lawyer. Here are a few things that I love about this show.
1. Clair Huxtable. She was fierce and a feminist well before it was a cool thing to be. Whenever Elvin comes over and says something ridiculous Clair tells him something about himself and gives the world a lesson about gender roles. And its always serious. Its always hilarious. And its always ahead of its time.
2. Diversity. From the pilot episode until where Im at now (beginning of season 3) whenever the family has people over or they venture outside of the house they interact with various other cultures. They are friends with people outside of their race. I also love the lack of colorism. The Huxtables are a wide range of skin tones and they are all considered to be attractive to their peers. Sondra and Denise are the lightest of the Huxtables and have boys falling all over them. When Vanessa started liking boys the most popular boy in her class was her boyfriend.
3. What I love most I think is the focus on education. Sondra goes to Princeton in the first few seasons. When its time for Denise to go to college she gets accepted into 5 schools including Berkeley and NYU. So many times (especially during this time period) if black kids were on tv they were playing stereotypes: maids, drug dealers, gang members, sassy best friend. If they were interested in college at all they got there on a basketball scholarship. For the longest time black people on tv were only allowed to be so many things. The Cosby Show broke so many molds.
Its insane to think that while Bill Cosby was a part of creating such an amazing, dynamic show with such amazing writers and actors he was also raping his way through hollywood. Why? Why did he do it? To prove he was powerful? Because he knew he could get away with it? Is he like that nightclub scandal that rocked kpop world a couple of years ago where he was bored and thought he was so big that even if he got caught it wouldnt matter. Which I guess it didnt for 30 years.

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    To answer your last questions, yes he did it because he was powerful and would get away with it and because. That’s what abuse of power is: from bullying someone in school to raping a woman. The one in control wants to let know the other how little he/she is and how powerful he/she is and that there’s nothing you could do about it. In short: he is a monster.

    And also, he was a genius (it comes together so many times: think about Picasso, or Polanski, or Michael Jackson, for instance) and knowing he was a genius and better than so many people also gave him his position. And the fact that he helped so many people not only in your country but all over the world to change their idea of what a black family could be, made him such an impressive artist. But still a monster.

    And also yes to Claire. I loved her. I loved her wide smile and how she was an independent, intelligent and sexy woman, and a loving mum, and a feminist.

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    This show (called The Robinsons in my country) was an important part of my childhood. I loved that loving family and Claire, of course, that was so different from the submissive “heroines” of the soap operas that were so popular back then.
    Here the show has been on TV till the horrible news about him was out, then it disappeared.
    The other day my mum was watching The Jeffersons and I remembered The Robinsons and thought that because of him being a horrible person the show is forever stained and years of work and good messages are lost…

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    bastard, I grew up listening to his albums my dad had several and it was, well it used to be one of my fondest memories of just laughing and laughing now it makes me ill to think of the pain he was causing…. anyway

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      I tried to watch it over the holidays. I figured I was alone, I wanted something warm and nostalgic and comforting. It reminded me of being a kid and gathering around the tv with my family and I wanted tbat feeling since I couldnt have that in actuality. I watched maybe 3 seasons? Maybe a couple eps into season 4? And I saw someone–a guest star –and thought to myself: he raped her. He 100% raped her. I dont know if he raped that particular woman but while the thought had occurred to me several times before watching the show it had never hit quite that hard. I almost threw up. I turned it off and havent turned it on again since.

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        I did something similar in that I downloaded his comedy routines on Amazon music trying to tell myself not to hate the art because the artist is trash, couldn’t do it I deleted it off my phone, he is a monster and it hurts my brain as well as my heart that someone with the gifts that he was given can do what he did.

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          He is a monster. I listen to this podcast called That Black Ass Show where this black comedienne invites other pocs on to discuss black culture classics. I listened to the ep on Cosby Show amd they were like we have no problem separating the man from his art. Hes not the only one on thr show anf everyone else deseves credit for being amazing as well. Which is totally true. Even if you can forget that hes a monster Cliff is the least interesting of the characters. And its a shame that he ruins the show. I cant imagine trying to listen to the albums. At least the show has a bunch of other people to focus on. The albums are jjust him and his opinion. Amd his opinion is its totally cool to rape people.

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            Yeah there is no separating a comedian from his comedy, if there is anyone who thinks so dandy but I couldn’t, I can’t.

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So. This latest GOT7 comeback. I was admittedly not a good aghase and go stream everything immediately to drive up views and listens and everything else that counts. Ive been so slumped drama-wise I didn\’t really want to listen to it. And then I didnt want to watch the videos because I was like…well they are so dang HOT that it doesnt matter and Ill go all gushy with how much I loved it all. So this morning Ive listened to the album all the way through a few times and I have to say I think this is their best one. They really sound like theyve come into their own–especially considering how much they did on this album. I think this is the most creative control they\’ve ever been given (youd need to confirm that with a superfan like @raonah). But I loved the whole thing. I love the mellow and chilled out vibe on this comeback. There are still fun bouncy pop songs–of course–but on the whole much more mellow. I loved the whole thing. Top to bottom.

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    I miss the @raonah updates.

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      So do I.

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        🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I didn’t know you guys missed me so much. I kinda stopped posting because I felt like all I ever posted about was GOT7 and I was probably annoying people who came here to talk about dramas. No one ever said anything but I felt like that. Although I did log in today to post a JB birthday post 😅

        They did have a lot of creative control with BOL:LP! I love that each of them got to write a song. It feels like their style is maturing. I also waited a while to listen to the album. I was scared this might be their last comeback so I wanted to wait to listen to it so I’d still have new GOT7 songs to listen to even if they disband. But I couldn’t resist and listened to the whole thing after a few days 😅 I love Breath, I Mean It, Thank You Sorry, Waiting For You, 1+1, Last Piece….I should just say I love all of them 😂 That would be faster. I think my favorite album is still Dye though just because I loved the Romeo and Juliet concept and felt like it built a cohesive story for the album.

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The walls in my apt are thin af. But for the first time this isnt a complaint. I was worried about being sad and lonely this Christmas. But its like I was there as their little son opened his Christmas presents. I didnt hear everything he got but he for sure got a spiderman backpack that he lost his mind over.
It was real cute.
Enjoy the day and I hope you all find the cute moments!

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Merry Christmas Eve and Christmas Beanhomies!
And Beanhomies who dont celeberate this holiday I hope you have a lovely, safe, and happy couple of days as well.
Last night in the pursuit of warm, and comforting something I found myself watching The Cosby Show.
Bill Cosby is an awful man. A rapist who deserves to spend the rest of his life locked up for what hes done to those women.
I havent watched a single ep of The Cosby Show since he was arrested. But I started listening to this podcast That Blackass Show. This comedienne Dulce Sloan invites a black or poc comic to come on and discuss a black tv show or movie. I listened to the ep on The Cosby Show a week or so ago and havent stopped thinking about it ever since.
Last night when I was cold and bored and lonely having another holiday by myself I was craving something nostalgic that makes me think of my parents and my siblings and the next thing I knew I was curled up on the couch LAUGHING MY PANTS OFF. Every time I see Bill Cosby all I can think is: what an awful man. But this is a genuinely good and HILARIOUS show and hes not the only one on it.
Im a bit torn. This show was SUCH a huge part of my childhood. Curled up on my couch it takes me back to curling up next to my mom on our burgundy floral couch while my dad lay on the floor and my brother–torn between being too cool to watch a 30 min sitcom with us and being cool somewhere else– would hover on the edge of the living room before sliding onto the arm of the couch. And my mom would tell him to get his ass off her couch like that and he would slide to the floor next to my dad.
Watching–especially when theres a female guest actor (did Bill Cosby rape that woman?) is tough going.
However. 2020 is a dumpster fire and were in the middle of a pandemic. Ill figure it out later. Right now Im going to curl back up on the couch and watch and feel comforted. Next year when were hopefully no longer in a pandemic aill work out my complicated feelings towards this show.
My dad has your list so well see if he watches any of them (fingers crossed). And Ill get caught up on Mr. Queen, Ji Chang Wooks new drama, and You From the Star on 12/26.

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    Also Keisha Knight Pulliam was flipping the cutest little thing basically ever.

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      I was fascinated by Lisa Bonet.

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        Lisa Bonet is SO PRETTY. But Denise is so mean to her siblings which I hadnt remembered. And is so true to life for her age. Its been interesting to see how they reuse actors. The guy who ultimately plays Denises husband was first introduced as a guy named Darryl from Ohio who Sondra asks on a date to get over Elvin and Cliff loves him. We see Dwayne Wayne from ADW for the first time early in season 1. Denise tries to make a fancy shirt for Theo to wear on a double date and the guy from the other couple is Kadeem. Dont remember the characters name but it certainly isnt Dwayne!

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    Merry Christmas to you, Isa!
    ¡Feliz Navidad!
    I understand so much your feelings about Bill Cosby. I had them myself and I restrain myself from rewatching the show which I LOVED while I was a kid. It happens to me everytime I find about some artist (being actor, director, singer) who turns out to be a monster. I find it so complicated to separate the artist from the human being…

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      Merry Christmas!! I hope you do fun and safe things!
      Im always good in the beginning but something happens and I get weak.
      The actor who played Kramer went on a racist rant? I dropped that show like a hot tamale.
      And then I moved cross country and was lonely and Seinfeld reminds me of my dad. At first I ffwd his scenes but before too long I was just…watching. Like he isnt a monster.
      When that woman from Dream accused Nick Carter of rape I nearly lost my mind. Ive been a BSB fan for over 20 years. Being a fan is a part of my identity. Its one of the first 5 things people learn about me (my religion, love of juice, love of kdramas, and pride and prejudice the version with Firthy). How to accurately pronounce my name isnt even in the first 5.
      It was hard to start watching the show and I probably wouldn’t have if I hadnt been listening to that podcast. But I will say that I probably wont keep watching it past this holiday weekend. I started it because Im lonely and it has such strong and familiar comforting ties to family members far and wide and I needed it. I kept watching because its SO MUCH FUNNIER than I remembered. From the pilot episode to where I am now (middle of season 2) if you didnt know that Bill Cosby is a horrible monster then you woukd confidently say that the only bad episode on over 40 viewed so far is the mid season 1 backdoor pilot. I laugh so hard at dang near every episode that I make myself stop watching at like 10 so I dont wake the neighbors.
      But part of the show is that Cliff and Clair are a loving couple. On eps where they share a kiss or two in passing or cuddle a bit here and there it makes my stomach turn. But eps that are devoted to him are hard to watch. Eps that are devoted to their relationship are disgusting.
      There have been a couple of eps where Cliff obviously wants sex and Clair laughs and says no or not now and he keeps pushing and those have been impossible to watch.
      Like I said…Im giving myself this weekend as its what I need as Im spending another holiday alone and its literally everything I can do to keep my head out of the darkest places. But yeah. I dont think Ill be able to separate.

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    Merry Christmas to you too!

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So my dad has become obsessed with Nigerian dramas on youtube. He keeps telling that I MUST watch one. To which I say, \”sure my papa. Ill watch a Nigerian drama. Just as soon as you watch a kdrama.\”
Apparently theres one hes so obsessed with hes willing to watch a kdrama to get him to watch.
So what should i give him? Hes 70 years old. Black man in the south. He LOVES star trek (indifferent to star wars) watches every sport that has spectators (not the biggest fan of bowling but would still rather watch that than baseball). He loves westerns. He can take or leave a love line. He loves superheroes and when the good guys win. He loves comedies with Seinfeld being his all time favorite.
So what should I give him?

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