Congratulations!!! I’m so happy for you, Coco!!! Thank you for sharing this news with us, and wishing you and PB a lifetime of happiness together!!!!!!
haha, you are well loved in the DB community! I’ve told you before congratulations, but just wanted to add that I couldn’t be happier for you and Pie Boy (what an interesting nickname). xoxo
You and @azzo1 are really setting a precedent of fun nicknames and amazing beaus for future Beanies. Congratulations to you and Pie Guy (I’m so glad I asked about his nickname)!
Haha, we actually got engaged over a month ago! (Some of my panicking I talked about recently was actually over attempting wedding planning in a pandemic)
I’m so very happy for you. He’s had my approval ever since you sent me that panicky message on Discord so many months ago. He’s good people, and you deserve the absolute best.
For coffee lovers (from Starbucks):
“You’re just my Cold Boo.”
“You’re my one brew love.”
“We’re a perfect matcha.”
“Did it hurt when you fell from the sky?”
“Do you believe in ‘love at first sight’? Because I can walk by again.”
“If you were a Transformer, you would be Optimus Fine.”
I’m no photographer, but I can picture us together.”
For Potterheads:
“Is this the Hogwarts Express? Because it feels like you and I are headed to somewhere magical.”
“Somebody better call God, because He’s missing an angel.”
“Do you have a map? I keep getting lost in your eyes.”
Do you have a bandaid? I just scraped my knee falling for you.”
“You’re so beautiful that you made me forget my pick-up line.”
All of these are super funny and cringey
I liked this though:
“I was wondering if you had an extra heart. Because mine was just stolen.”
But everyone would surely run away if they hear this:
“My love for you is like diarrhea, I just can’t hold it in.” 😂
I actually thought the last one you posted pretty funny. 😂 But somehow I think mentioning diarrhea might not sound appealing to some, so I just picked the other one instead.
I actually like these too:
Are you French? Because Eiffel for you.
Aside from being sexy, what do you do for a living?
If you were a Transformer… you’d be Optimus Fine.
Do you believe in love at first sight—or should I walk by again? 🥺🤣🤣🤣
These are really old and 100% cringey, but here they go:
“Did you get hurt? – when you fell from heaven”
“Are you a squatter?- You’ve been living rent-free in my head”
“Give it back – the beat my heart skipped when I saw you”
“What’s your name? – need to know it for my letter to Santa Claus”
Day 10
A new grocery store opened up down the street today, and when we met for dinner before my shift we masked up and went to ogle.
So dangerous sounding now, going to a busy grocery store. But it had the tea I’d been looking for, and a nice prepared food section for us to buy sandwiches from. (we ate them at his apartment, unmasked and snuggling while we watched the latest Lovestruck in the City and debated whether Geon should’ve chased after Sun Young)
That’s all I have to say for today.
Love, February
I’m not sure what happened. It was supposed to be a good day. I made pancakes for goodness’ sakes.
I still had a panic attack Monday night.
It can be discouraging, when you feel like you’re doing everything right, that you’re relaxing, taking time for yourself, that you’re actively TRYING to fix yourself, to be better.
And then the same thing happens again. And again.
Especially with covid, my anxiety (that I thought I knew how to handle) is unpredictable and occasionally violent in how it shuts my body down.
But that doesn’t mean I should stop trying. Today I slept a lot, and took a long walk, and hopefully will be stronger next time. Anxiety is like my kdrama villain, my evil CEO, my diabolically sparkly shoe’d mother in law.
I just want to be my own indefatigable Candy heroine.
And you’ll be. It’s ok to be broken. 😊 You don’t have to try that hard.
You see.. many times it’s a crack or many cracks that make a plate, or a mug unique and beautiful. Don’t be too harsh on yourself.
I had a rough day too today. It was a rare instance but I was angry with one of the classes I taught. I think they also knew, but let’s say that I’m human, and that is bound to happen sometimes.
Bad days, good days, they are still our days. ‘Our’ days make our life unique and beautiful.
I had a patient yesterday who just developed panic attacks after having a milder case of Covid19. It’s a whole new thing for him. I’m treating something else for him which is well-controlled, but sometimes you just need permission to have them. I hope his is just a result of the illness and will get better soon. I hope yours improves as well.
I’ve been there – panic attacks are the worst. I think the worst part of them is how they make me feel hopeless after working hard to get things under control. But I’ve learned that sometimes we have to accept that we can’t control ourselves and out mind and body will do what it needs to get our attention. But I’m sure you know this too.
It doesn’t make things better to know that, but it does remind me that we need to pay attention to ourselves. I remember once, when my depression was at its worst, I had finally had a day where I could go out and get groceries and leave my apartment without feeling like I was walking around with a giant “FAILURE” sign over my head. But then on my walk back, half a block from my apartment, music playing in my headphones, I started to feel like the walls were closing in around me. I barely made back into my apartment. I don’t really remember a lot from that time. It wasn’t even the worst panic attack I had that year. But for some reason it’s the one that sticks with me.
It sucked. It sucks. I’m so sorry you had to deal with that this week. I hope you feel better soon. But also, be kind to yourself. It’s okay to not be okay. (No pun intended.) Just know that you will be okay eventually.
It’s just delightful for me. To spend a morning waking up slowly and staying in bed a while. Puttering around the apartment in my shawl and comfy pants.
Making a pot of tea, then pulling out the pancake ingredients. Listening to a podcast or music as I leisurely cook.
It just, seems so very decadent, making this breakfast for myself. Taking this time for myself.
I talked with a friend of mine today, a long phone call.
We talked about Valentine’s Day, how we used to host parties for our friends back in college, and just generally go all out for the holiday, to celebrate the love in our friendships.
Making heart shaped foods, pink drinks (I highly recommend cherry sprite with vanilla ice cream), crafting, and just enjoying the time spent together.
This year has not been much for times with friends, but I’m so grateful for all the memories to reminisce on, for the love that has been in my life.
I went into work unhappy and tearful, that full feeling where anything can push me over the edge.
I felt dramatic and curmudgeonly.
At one point later in the evening, a float person attempted to make conversation with me. I answered her questions, then apologized for not being very nice tonight.
Her: “What? You’re being very nice!”
It’s strange how we can feel so off inside, yet so conditioned that I need to be overboard helpful to my colleagues as well as doing my own work, that the resulting still normal behavior seems rude.
I’m not sure if that makes sense.
Not sure where the love is, but here is my,
Love,
February
Kdramas.
How many hours I have spent with just you, binge watching at all hours, unable to stop?
I was known back in college for kdrama watching among my friends, who rarely condescended to join into my madness. I was unabashed, unashamed.
As the years have gone on, I have become more reticent about my choice in tv shows, with no desire to have that conversation with acquaintances or workmates or even friends until we reach a certain intimacy.
Earlier today, while I ate dinner before my nightshift, Pie Guy came over to watch the latest episode of Lovestruck in the City.
Had he ever watched more than an episode of a kdrama before this? Yes.
Did he text me earlier in the day excited about the new episode? Also Yes.
(Originally, we planned to watch both episodes together on fridays to have an hour of planned tv time, but the cliffhangers got him, and now we watch them the same day they air)
(Him last week: these cliffhangers are awful! They are such obvious bait to lure us into watching the next episode! *Pauses a moment, then gestures at himself and the screen* Well, obviously they work…)
I’m not sure where I’m going with this, but having a significant other make an effort to join me in what I like, and then begin to enjoy it too, is a joy I haven’t experienced before.
Now I just have to learn to like scifi more for him…
Guy Pie is so right about those cliffhangers…
As a lover of Kdramas and science fiction, I hope you enjoy whatever he proposes. My very first choice to someone who’s never watched would be Battlestar Galactica: first the miniseries, and if you like, go on with the rest. To me is one of the best TV shows ever, and it should be shown in schools. That’s how good I think it is.
Firefly is another great choice, sure you’ll love it, BUT it was cancelled in the middle of its first season and it can be frustrating (not everything is solved or solved the way you’d love in the movie).
Science Fiction covers a lot of different genres…and I& you include the Fantasy part, really huge in scope. Almost anything you have in non-SF&F can be found in SF&F. What do you like in non-SF&F? Perhaps some of us fans can make recommendations?
That’s a good point! I do like fantasy generally! He has watched a few episodes of the fantasy dramas if he comes over while I’m watching ~ Like, Tale of Gumiho, or the Eternal Monarch, etc.
He’s really into space shows, though, like The Expanse currently.
Pie Guy is my best friend and boy toy. He says I cannot use the term sugar daddy anymore because, although he is older (by a whole year!), and makes more money than me, which he uses to buy us sushi, it’s creepy.
(Also not allowed to call him oppa. Because calling him “brother,” even in another language, is also a no-no.)
Reflecting, he likely will dislike the term boy toy too. Killjoy.
I’m with Pie Guy when it comes to nicknames. I would find calling my partner oppa very unsettling (but I’m not Korean, so I’m coming at it from a very different cultural perspective/background).
I haven’t managed to learn to like sci-fi either, but after over a decade of marriage, I don’t think there’s been any irreparable harm.🤞 A number of our other interests align, and some days, he chooses what we watch, so I think it works. Maybe slightly skewed to my advantage.😉 He does enjoy the supernatural element in K-dramas (the ones with ghosts, or ones like Mystic Pop Up Bar), so we both win when we watch shows like that.😄
@raonah & @mellowarmadillo yeah, the nicknames are a bit of a joke, I like coming up with off the wall ones like boytoy and sugar daddy to make him laugh. (He knows I do it for fun, no hard feelings, but his face when I say them is hilarious)
Usually I just call him by his name! He does know he’s referred to as Pie Guy here, and he says it makes sense as I don’t share real names online.
I’m not sure you’ll start to like Sci-fi but you’ll start to watch them for sure.. I’ve started for SNG and we’re now watching the Korean ones so I’m trying to convince myself that we’re both winning at this 😂
I told myself I’m only allowed to talk about him so many times this Love, February ~ but I’m tired and his hugs have become one of my favorite things.
When we first met, he wasn’t much for hugs. Physical affection is low on his list of love languages, and he’d much rather go buy someone food or help with their taxes than give an awkward embrace.
I thought I wasn’t much for physical closeness too, I said when we met. Quality time and good talks are what I love most.
But then, slowly, then quickly, he became like family to me. A comfort spot, one of the few people outside my mom and sister that I will wear sweat pants and hoodies around. When that happened, what my mom calls my “leaning” started. Where, if I’m next to my loved one, I lean on them, relaxing and relying on them to hold me up.
My mom and sister HATE when I do that. You’re an adult, or so they tell me, you can’t put all your weight on us anymore.
Pie Guy didn’t know what to do with me. I catfished him into thinking he was dating an independent adult, then became a clinging girlfriend, constantly holding his hand, leaning, back hugging, etc.
Somehow our relationship has survived the disconnect between our love languages. I let him do things for me, control is something I hate to relinquish but I know he feels fulfilled when he has a task to make me happy. And he makes sure he holds my hand and stands close enough for me to lean.
I feel like I talk about him all the time, but i don’t want to be that person, so I consciously try not to, and that results in me not talking about him. 😅
But like, I’m not if I’m not close to you. So sometimes I forget to warn people when I meet them that “if we get close we are going to be arm in arm sorry not sorry it means you made it to my inner circle”
In my memories you are there in the background, an irritable, complaining figure.
You never got my name right.
I don’t remember talking to you.
I remember your yard so clearly, those games of croquet with those rusting wickets (my mom always got worried when we ventured into your half caved-in shed in search of the mallets and balls)
That yard always amazed me, so deeply back did it extend from your dilapidated house. I remember that house, with the uneven floors and your obese, blind dogs.
I do recall you sharing your cookies with them, but not with me.
Are these memories love? Did I love you? I know I wanted to. Did you love me? I know I wanted you to.
I just got a text today that your breathing is shallow, and the nurse believes it’s nearing your last.
I’m sad.
When I saw you last, five years ago, you couldn’t remember anyone’s name. When I last saw you, I held your arm to help you walk, and cut your food for you to eat. You barely remembered English anymore, only speaking in that Spanish slang of your childhood. I didn’t mind then that you didn’t know my name.
I don’t know if I’ll miss you, but I think I’ll always regret that I couldn’t love you the way I wished I could.
That dorm room, with the mountains of my roommate’s clothes (she tunneled through them everyday)
That sink, that counter, both stacked high with stinking dishes.
Myself, too tired to keep cleaning up after roommates who truly didn’t care. Yourself, frustrated by your own college roommates, escaping to my place for our weekly lunch.
The two of us, so happy on that patch of carpet we cleared.
Laughing until we fell over, delighted with that saviour of a pizza coupon.
In the picture we are a bright spot, tired but young, frustrated but still so very idealistic.
This made me smile. It’s been a long day, and this reminded me of one of my favorite memories from university, when my best friend and I could not deal with our housemates anymore, so on that sunny weekend morning we snuck out to get Chinese food and hide from them for a little while.
I remember that meal especially because it was when one of our nonsensical shorthand phrases was born and we found ample use for it an hour later, when our housemates found us. But it was a good day.
College. I did so much, wether foolish or brilliant, funny or sad, so average or so extreme … but all with the help of wonderful friends. Best time of my life.
I know, I know, I said I wasn’t going to put much work in this year, but now February is here and I can’t help it…
That said, here is the Day 1 Love February round up, attach links to your posts if I missed them. I’ll keep updating throughout the day as I pop on and off of DB.
Posting reminds me how I’ve missed being here with y’all!
As of eight hours ago, (the last time I saw him), Pie Guy is rather overwhelmed by work currently, but still likes to spend his Monday nights buying me food. So I suppose all is well. 🥰
It’s been five years since I was in that bed.
Tired & alone & overwhelmed
Everything seemed cold. So very cold.
I’m proud of myself, that girl who forced herself to write despite that load of coursework.
Who got out of bed to cook herself soup.
Who refocused herself on writing love stories to get through her overwhelming days. Making up a writing challenge that has gone beyond herself and into the world, and letting so many focus on the mundane that surrounds us all.
I didn’t finish Love, February that first year.
Instead, like a kdrama heroine, I fainted at work
But with no first or second lead to care for me.
I’m proud of me. Who took care of me. Teaching myself how to love myself. And somehow, pale and shaky, came through it all.
And this Love, February I dedicate it to that me, who chose love. Love of that bed, love of stories, and most of all, love of myself.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 1:04 AM
February 14th, 2021
Love is us cooking dinner together
Him eating my tofu and me reintroducing fish to my diet to share his seafood pasta
Love is him making playlists specifically for our kitchen time
Love is what made him get down on one knee when my favorite song played
(My response: What?! Now?!)
Love is me crying and promising to always be next to him
Love, February
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 1:05 AM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Ayan
February 15, 2021 at 6:39 AM
Congratulations!!! I’m so happy for you, Coco!!! Thank you for sharing this news with us, and wishing you and PB a lifetime of happiness together!!!!!!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:25 PM
😊 thank you!
pineapplegongzhu
February 15, 2021 at 9:10 AM
haha, you are well loved in the DB community! I’ve told you before congratulations, but just wanted to add that I couldn’t be happier for you and Pie Boy (what an interesting nickname). xoxo
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:24 PM
Thank you! And I think I prefer Pie Guy to Pie Boy for him 😂
beffels
February 15, 2021 at 9:53 AM
Congratulations!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:25 PM
Thank you!!
Karmen ~ 🍜🏢🎭 ~ 📚☔🦋 ~ 🪂🌱💘 ~ ✨🍊💫 ~
February 15, 2021 at 1:50 PM
Congratulations!!!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:25 PM
Thanks!
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 16, 2021 at 4:34 PM
OMG!!! Another Beanie pandemic wedding?
You and @azzo1 are really setting a precedent of fun nicknames and amazing beaus for future Beanies. Congratulations to you and Pie Guy (I’m so glad I asked about his nickname)!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 16, 2021 at 10:07 PM
Haha, you are the one who got me to come up with his nickname!
I like to think he’s the best beau ~
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 16, 2021 at 10:27 PM
🥧🚶🏻♂️
CustardHopia
February 15, 2021 at 2:06 AM
Omg, congratulations!!! 💕💕💕
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:26 PM
Thanks 😊
Eazal
February 15, 2021 at 3:04 AM
So lovely!
isa: I'm not a serial killer I'm just really passionate about things
February 15, 2021 at 3:33 AM
Awwwwww!!! Congratulations!!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:26 PM
Thanks Isa!
greenfields
February 15, 2021 at 4:22 AM
Whoa. Congrats coco!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:27 PM
Thanks! Not what I expected to happen this past year, but I’m very happy to have met him ~
mmmmm
February 15, 2021 at 5:38 AM
Congrats Cocoa 🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:27 PM
🥰🥰🥰
neener ~ Inside the Magic Shop ~
February 15, 2021 at 5:45 AM
Congrats Coco!!!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:27 PM
😁😁😁😁
Ally
February 15, 2021 at 6:27 AM
“What?! Now?!” was my reaction to this post as well! Congratulations! Love, February 2021 has super special significance, now, doesn’t it?!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:29 PM
Haha, we actually got engaged over a month ago! (Some of my panicking I talked about recently was actually over attempting wedding planning in a pandemic)
egads aka Dame Maggie
February 15, 2021 at 6:32 AM
WHAT?
CONGRATULATIONS!!
I’m so very happy for you. He’s had my approval ever since you sent me that panicky message on Discord so many months ago. He’s good people, and you deserve the absolute best.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:30 PM
Thank you so much! Yes, that panicky feeling of falling in love when you don’t expect to…
RaOnAh loves Jay B 💚
February 15, 2021 at 6:48 AM
Congratulations Cocoa!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:32 PM
Thank you!!
parkchuna ❤️🍉
February 15, 2021 at 7:47 AM
Congratulations Cocoa!!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:32 PM
Thank you! ☺️
sirena
February 15, 2021 at 8:01 AM
Congratulations!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:32 PM
Thank you! ☺️
Fatcat007 (Kitty 💜)
February 15, 2021 at 8:50 AM
Congratulations Coco!!! 😃
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:33 PM
Thank you! ☺️
SnarkyJellyfish
February 15, 2021 at 8:50 AM
Congratulations! Wishing the two of you all the happiness in the world.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:33 PM
☺️☺️☺️☺️
Eazal
February 15, 2021 at 9:36 AM
Congrats!!!!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:33 PM
🥰🥰
Kudo Ran
February 15, 2021 at 11:15 AM
wow congratulations Coco , wishing you both all the best 😀 !
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:34 PM
Thanks! 😁😁
Edgar Pordwed
February 15, 2021 at 11:56 AM
Congratulations Coco! 😀
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:31 PM
😊
Cori
February 15, 2021 at 1:33 PM
Oh my gosh ❤ Congratulations Coco!!!!! Sending you both best wishes and virtual pancakes 🥞
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:31 PM
Yay! Thank you for pancakes!
💜🍍☠ Sicarius The Queen of Melonia ☠🍍💜
February 15, 2021 at 4:36 PM
*internally squeals* congRATULATIONS KINDRED SPIRIT
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:31 PM
THANKS
snowy
February 15, 2021 at 9:19 PM
Aww yay!! Congratulations!!!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 9:30 PM
Thanks!
azzo
February 15, 2021 at 11:06 PM
AWW!!! I’m so happy for you, Coaca, congratulations!
Wishing you and Pie Guy all the happiness in the world!
Also, go easy on yourself, I know how stressful wedding-planning in a pandemic can be!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 16, 2021 at 3:25 PM
Thank you! Yes, especially since I work in healthcare, it will be a while before I feel safe hosting a gathering…
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 14, 2021 at 8:49 AM
February 13th, 2021 Late Post
Add your favorite pick up lines below!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 14, 2021 at 8:56 AM
Are you a pulmonary embolism? because you take my breath away
UR IN(E) my heart
I think I’m developing tics. I can’t help but wink at you.
Is it just my olfactory or do you smell really good?
are you covid 19? because your smile is contagious
wapz
February 14, 2021 at 9:31 AM
😂 Did you read it to him?
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 1:06 AM
He knows and dreads my love of pick up lines.
I read this whole thread to him.
mmmmm
February 15, 2021 at 5:30 AM
He is filled with love. 😳
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 14, 2021 at 8:57 AM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Bebe | Nessa❣️
February 14, 2021 at 12:01 PM
For coffee lovers (from Starbucks):
“You’re just my Cold Boo.”
“You’re my one brew love.”
“We’re a perfect matcha.”
“Did it hurt when you fell from the sky?”
“Do you believe in ‘love at first sight’? Because I can walk by again.”
“If you were a Transformer, you would be Optimus Fine.”
I’m no photographer, but I can picture us together.”
For Potterheads:
“Is this the Hogwarts Express? Because it feels like you and I are headed to somewhere magical.”
“Somebody better call God, because He’s missing an angel.”
“Do you have a map? I keep getting lost in your eyes.”
Do you have a bandaid? I just scraped my knee falling for you.”
“You’re so beautiful that you made me forget my pick-up line.”
Okay… I go cringe in a corner now.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 1:06 AM
These are golden!!
Bebe | Nessa❣️
February 15, 2021 at 1:12 AM
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
mmmmm
February 14, 2021 at 9:06 AM
Oh this is fun!
Can I follow you where you’re going right now? Because my parents always told me to follow my dreams. 🤣🤣🤣🥺
Source: https://athlonsports.com/pick-up-lines-funny
wapz
February 14, 2021 at 9:39 AM
All of these are super funny and cringey
I liked this though:
“I was wondering if you had an extra heart. Because mine was just stolen.”
But everyone would surely run away if they hear this:
“My love for you is like diarrhea, I just can’t hold it in.” 😂
mmmmm
February 14, 2021 at 9:47 AM
I actually thought the last one you posted pretty funny. 😂 But somehow I think mentioning diarrhea might not sound appealing to some, so I just picked the other one instead.
I actually like these too:
Are you French? Because Eiffel for you.
Aside from being sexy, what do you do for a living?
If you were a Transformer… you’d be Optimus Fine.
Do you believe in love at first sight—or should I walk by again? 🥺🤣🤣🤣
Fly Colours
February 14, 2021 at 10:33 AM
Optimus Fine 🤣🤣 totally gonna use that one on FlyGuy today
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 1:07 AM
Pie Guy did eye roll at that one
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 1:07 AM
He attempted to ignore me while I tried out the others on him.
mmmmm
February 15, 2021 at 1:10 AM
I believe he secretly liked those! 😅
🙄😐🙄
Fly Colours
February 15, 2021 at 1:58 AM
FlyGuy too… He’s more of a Mazinger Z type of guy 😂
Fly Colours
February 14, 2021 at 10:32 AM
These are really old and 100% cringey, but here they go:
“Did you get hurt? – when you fell from heaven”
“Are you a squatter?- You’ve been living rent-free in my head”
“Give it back – the beat my heart skipped when I saw you”
“What’s your name? – need to know it for my letter to Santa Claus”
Fly Colours
February 14, 2021 at 10:41 AM
Ah! And this one I learned from guerrilla date:
“I want to thank your mom and dad – for making you so well” 😋
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 15, 2021 at 1:08 AM
I really like that last one! 😹😹😹
CustardHopia
February 14, 2021 at 2:36 PM
Morbid, but…
Hey, if Covid19 doesn’t take you out, can I?
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 12, 2021 at 6:52 PM
February 12th
Love is him making a nest in the backseat of his car for me to sleep when we have to drive anywhere after I’ve worked too many night shifts.
Love,
February
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 11, 2021 at 3:40 PM
Love, February 11th, 2021
There are so many little moments that I often take for granted, that I forget to acknowledge as love.
My best friend texting me to check in.
Arriving home to a Valentines’ package of chocolate and face masks from my mom.
My sister texting to arrange a video chat with her and her kids.
A random little boy stopping on his bike to thrust a large magnolia leaf towards me, stating “have a leaf” before cycling into the distance.
Just sitting here, with my cat, eating my dinner.
There is a lot of love in the world.
Love, February
KdramaAhjumma
February 11, 2021 at 9:11 PM
That random little boy is too precious!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:14 PM
Love, February 10th, 2021 Round Up ~
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:15 PM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 10, 2021 at 11:40 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1201713/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/suriyana-shah/activity/1201675/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1201601/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/eazal/activity/1201587/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 10, 2021 at 11:41 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/ally-le/activity/1201586/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/sirena/activity/1201561/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1201555/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 10, 2021 at 11:49 PM
Day 10
A new grocery store opened up down the street today, and when we met for dinner before my shift we masked up and went to ogle.
So dangerous sounding now, going to a busy grocery store. But it had the tea I’d been looking for, and a nice prepared food section for us to buy sandwiches from. (we ate them at his apartment, unmasked and snuggling while we watched the latest Lovestruck in the City and debated whether Geon should’ve chased after Sun Young)
That’s all I have to say for today.
Love, February
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 11, 2021 at 8:17 PM
I was pleasantly surprised that he didn’t chase her. I wouldn’t want to be married to someone like her so I don’t want that for him either.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:01 PM
Love, February 9th, 2021 Round Up ~
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:12 PM
I’m not sure what happened. It was supposed to be a good day. I made pancakes for goodness’ sakes.
I still had a panic attack Monday night.
It can be discouraging, when you feel like you’re doing everything right, that you’re relaxing, taking time for yourself, that you’re actively TRYING to fix yourself, to be better.
And then the same thing happens again. And again.
Especially with covid, my anxiety (that I thought I knew how to handle) is unpredictable and occasionally violent in how it shuts my body down.
But that doesn’t mean I should stop trying. Today I slept a lot, and took a long walk, and hopefully will be stronger next time. Anxiety is like my kdrama villain, my evil CEO, my diabolically sparkly shoe’d mother in law.
I just want to be my own indefatigable Candy heroine.
Love, February
mmmmm
February 10, 2021 at 1:36 AM
And you’ll be. It’s ok to be broken. 😊 You don’t have to try that hard.
You see.. many times it’s a crack or many cracks that make a plate, or a mug unique and beautiful. Don’t be too harsh on yourself.
I had a rough day too today. It was a rare instance but I was angry with one of the classes I taught. I think they also knew, but let’s say that I’m human, and that is bound to happen sometimes.
Bad days, good days, they are still our days. ‘Our’ days make our life unique and beautiful.
mmmmm
February 10, 2021 at 1:37 AM
Or you can tell yourself, like I do, that you’re special, delicate and limited edition. 🤣😘
*hugs*
Ally
February 10, 2021 at 4:31 AM
I had a patient yesterday who just developed panic attacks after having a milder case of Covid19. It’s a whole new thing for him. I’m treating something else for him which is well-controlled, but sometimes you just need permission to have them. I hope his is just a result of the illness and will get better soon. I hope yours improves as well.
SnarkyJellyfish
February 10, 2021 at 6:26 AM
I’ve been there – panic attacks are the worst. I think the worst part of them is how they make me feel hopeless after working hard to get things under control. But I’ve learned that sometimes we have to accept that we can’t control ourselves and out mind and body will do what it needs to get our attention. But I’m sure you know this too.
It doesn’t make things better to know that, but it does remind me that we need to pay attention to ourselves. I remember once, when my depression was at its worst, I had finally had a day where I could go out and get groceries and leave my apartment without feeling like I was walking around with a giant “FAILURE” sign over my head. But then on my walk back, half a block from my apartment, music playing in my headphones, I started to feel like the walls were closing in around me. I barely made back into my apartment. I don’t really remember a lot from that time. It wasn’t even the worst panic attack I had that year. But for some reason it’s the one that sticks with me.
It sucked. It sucks. I’m so sorry you had to deal with that this week. I hope you feel better soon. But also, be kind to yourself. It’s okay to not be okay. (No pun intended.) Just know that you will be okay eventually.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:12 PM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:21 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1201385/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1201227/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/mmmmm/activity/1201181/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/ally-le/activity/1201178/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:22 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/delsatu/activity/1201254/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/purplesheesh/activity/1201320/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:35 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1201106/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 9:56 AM
Love, February 8th Round Up ~
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 9:56 AM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 10:00 AM
I like to make pancakes on my days off.
It’s just delightful for me. To spend a morning waking up slowly and staying in bed a while. Puttering around the apartment in my shawl and comfy pants.
Making a pot of tea, then pulling out the pancake ingredients. Listening to a podcast or music as I leisurely cook.
It just, seems so very decadent, making this breakfast for myself. Taking this time for myself.
Love,
February
Ally
February 8, 2021 at 2:44 PM
It is!!! Enjoy it!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 11:18 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/sirena/activity/1200847/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/mmmmm/activity/1200819/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1200793/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/eazal/activity/1200915/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:31 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1201048/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 9, 2021 at 11:34 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/suriyana-shah/activity/1200995/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1200934/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/sirena/activity/1200923/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 11:22 PM
Love, February 7th, 2021 Round Up ~ Halfway through Beanies!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 11:25 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/lszj09/activity/1200416/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1200376/
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 7, 2021 at 3:44 PM
Now I miss him even more…
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 11:30 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1200729/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/leetennant/activity/1200657/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1200602/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/mmmmm/activity/1200544/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 11:31 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/suriyana-shah/activity/1200532/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/ally-le/activity/1200523/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1200509/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/eazal/activity/1200467/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 11:53 AM
I talked with a friend of mine today, a long phone call.
We talked about Valentine’s Day, how we used to host parties for our friends back in college, and just generally go all out for the holiday, to celebrate the love in our friendships.
Making heart shaped foods, pink drinks (I highly recommend cherry sprite with vanilla ice cream), crafting, and just enjoying the time spent together.
This year has not been much for times with friends, but I’m so grateful for all the memories to reminisce on, for the love that has been in my life.
Love, February
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 11:53 AM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 11:13 PM
Love, February 6th, 2021
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 11:20 PM
I didn’t sleep much, and that makes me grumpy.
I went into work unhappy and tearful, that full feeling where anything can push me over the edge.
I felt dramatic and curmudgeonly.
At one point later in the evening, a float person attempted to make conversation with me. I answered her questions, then apologized for not being very nice tonight.
Her: “What? You’re being very nice!”
It’s strange how we can feel so off inside, yet so conditioned that I need to be overboard helpful to my colleagues as well as doing my own work, that the resulting still normal behavior seems rude.
I’m not sure if that makes sense.
Not sure where the love is, but here is my,
Love,
February
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 7, 2021 at 3:46 PM
I thought this was headed in a different direction. 😅
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 9:53 AM
Hehe, which direction?
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 8, 2021 at 7:43 PM
I was on the edge of my seat waiting for you to tangle with someone.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 3:29 AM
Love, February 6th, 2021 Round Up
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 3:30 AM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 3:31 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/mmmmm/activity/1199957/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1200018/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 9:52 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/eazal/activity/1200056/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/azzo1/activity/1200228/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/neener/activity/1200295/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1200307/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/purplesheesh/activity/1200373/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 11:20 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/hotcocoagirl/activity/1200418/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 10:53 PM
Love, February 5th (yes, I know it’s the sixth already…)
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 11:12 PM
Kdramas.
How many hours I have spent with just you, binge watching at all hours, unable to stop?
I was known back in college for kdrama watching among my friends, who rarely condescended to join into my madness. I was unabashed, unashamed.
As the years have gone on, I have become more reticent about my choice in tv shows, with no desire to have that conversation with acquaintances or workmates or even friends until we reach a certain intimacy.
Earlier today, while I ate dinner before my nightshift, Pie Guy came over to watch the latest episode of Lovestruck in the City.
Had he ever watched more than an episode of a kdrama before this? Yes.
Did he text me earlier in the day excited about the new episode? Also Yes.
(Originally, we planned to watch both episodes together on fridays to have an hour of planned tv time, but the cliffhangers got him, and now we watch them the same day they air)
(Him last week: these cliffhangers are awful! They are such obvious bait to lure us into watching the next episode! *Pauses a moment, then gestures at himself and the screen* Well, obviously they work…)
I’m not sure where I’m going with this, but having a significant other make an effort to join me in what I like, and then begin to enjoy it too, is a joy I haven’t experienced before.
Now I just have to learn to like scifi more for him…
Love, February
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 6, 2021 at 12:02 AM
*ponders where to find my own pie guy* Good luck with the sci fi thing. I have trouble reading it and watching it.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 12:04 AM
Apparently they appear when you’re eating pie!
I’m not enthusiastic about the sci-fi…
RaOnAh loves Jay B 💚
February 6, 2021 at 12:37 PM
I think I need to start eating more pie 😋😄😍
Eazal
February 6, 2021 at 12:08 AM
Guy Pie is so right about those cliffhangers…
As a lover of Kdramas and science fiction, I hope you enjoy whatever he proposes. My very first choice to someone who’s never watched would be Battlestar Galactica: first the miniseries, and if you like, go on with the rest. To me is one of the best TV shows ever, and it should be shown in schools. That’s how good I think it is.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 12:46 AM
I’ve heard that’s a great show! Just never been interested… I guess now is the time to try!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 10:49 PM
Pie Guy is into watching Battlestar with me haha ~ suggested that and Firefly per @ally-le and he prefers Battlestar for a rewatch at the moment.
Eazal
February 6, 2021 at 11:50 PM
Firefly is another great choice, sure you’ll love it, BUT it was cancelled in the middle of its first season and it can be frustrating (not everything is solved or solved the way you’d love in the movie).
Ally
February 7, 2021 at 4:57 AM
The movie is called “Serenity.”Watch it after you see the cancelled series.
Ally
February 6, 2021 at 4:32 AM
Omg! So cute! And yes, you will learn to like sci-fi’s! Have you guys seen the Firefly series? I didn’t like them until I saw this! Browncoats unite!
FlyingTool
February 6, 2021 at 8:30 AM
Brown oats Unite!
FlyingTool
February 6, 2021 at 8:42 AM
Science Fiction covers a lot of different genres…and I& you include the Fantasy part, really huge in scope. Almost anything you have in non-SF&F can be found in SF&F. What do you like in non-SF&F? Perhaps some of us fans can make recommendations?
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 10:47 PM
That’s a good point! I do like fantasy generally! He has watched a few episodes of the fantasy dramas if he comes over while I’m watching ~ Like, Tale of Gumiho, or the Eternal Monarch, etc.
He’s really into space shows, though, like The Expanse currently.
RaOnAh loves Jay B 💚
February 6, 2021 at 9:59 AM
Wait. Who’s Pie Guy and when/how did you meet???
azzo
February 6, 2021 at 12:06 PM
You’ll find that story here:
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/hotcocoagirl/activity/1146289/
Enjoy 🤭
RaOnAh loves Jay B 💚
February 6, 2021 at 12:35 PM
Thanks!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 10:41 PM
Lol, thanks Azzo!
Pie Guy is my best friend and boy toy. He says I cannot use the term sugar daddy anymore because, although he is older (by a whole year!), and makes more money than me, which he uses to buy us sushi, it’s creepy.
(Also not allowed to call him oppa. Because calling him “brother,” even in another language, is also a no-no.)
Reflecting, he likely will dislike the term boy toy too. Killjoy.
RaOnAh loves Jay B 💚
February 7, 2021 at 5:48 AM
😂 Would he approve of the Pie Guy nickname?
dramadillo
February 8, 2021 at 3:31 AM
I’m with Pie Guy when it comes to nicknames. I would find calling my partner oppa very unsettling (but I’m not Korean, so I’m coming at it from a very different cultural perspective/background).
I haven’t managed to learn to like sci-fi either, but after over a decade of marriage, I don’t think there’s been any irreparable harm.🤞 A number of our other interests align, and some days, he chooses what we watch, so I think it works. Maybe slightly skewed to my advantage.😉 He does enjoy the supernatural element in K-dramas (the ones with ghosts, or ones like Mystic Pop Up Bar), so we both win when we watch shows like that.😄
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 8, 2021 at 7:10 AM
@raonah & @mellowarmadillo yeah, the nicknames are a bit of a joke, I like coming up with off the wall ones like boytoy and sugar daddy to make him laugh. (He knows I do it for fun, no hard feelings, but his face when I say them is hilarious)
Usually I just call him by his name! He does know he’s referred to as Pie Guy here, and he says it makes sense as I don’t share real names online.
azzo
February 6, 2021 at 12:10 PM
I’m not sure you’ll start to like Sci-fi but you’ll start to watch them for sure.. I’ve started for SNG and we’re now watching the Korean ones so I’m trying to convince myself that we’re both winning at this 😂
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 10:41 PM
Ooh, which Korean ones would you recommend? Might make the process a bit easier…
azzo
February 6, 2021 at 11:22 PM
I’d say Signal, Circle and Joseon X files.. those are my top pics and we both enjoyed them!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 6, 2021 at 11:24 PM
I will suggest them!
Ally
February 7, 2021 at 4:58 AM
I second Circle.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 11:12 PM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 9:48 PM
Love, February 5th Round Up
(Sorry this is late, been working overtime this week…)
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 9:48 PM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 10:44 PM
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https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1199820/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/ally-le/activity/1199853/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/turtuallysarcastic/activity/1199817/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/mmmmm/activity/1199673/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 10:46 PM
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https://www.dramabeans.com/members/beffels/activity/1199776/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1199774/
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Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 10:46 PM
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Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 10:51 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/mmmmm/activity/1199618/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 4, 2021 at 3:06 PM
Love, February 4th, 2021
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 4, 2021 at 3:21 PM
I told myself I’m only allowed to talk about him so many times this Love, February ~ but I’m tired and his hugs have become one of my favorite things.
When we first met, he wasn’t much for hugs. Physical affection is low on his list of love languages, and he’d much rather go buy someone food or help with their taxes than give an awkward embrace.
I thought I wasn’t much for physical closeness too, I said when we met. Quality time and good talks are what I love most.
But then, slowly, then quickly, he became like family to me. A comfort spot, one of the few people outside my mom and sister that I will wear sweat pants and hoodies around. When that happened, what my mom calls my “leaning” started. Where, if I’m next to my loved one, I lean on them, relaxing and relying on them to hold me up.
My mom and sister HATE when I do that. You’re an adult, or so they tell me, you can’t put all your weight on us anymore.
Pie Guy didn’t know what to do with me. I catfished him into thinking he was dating an independent adult, then became a clinging girlfriend, constantly holding his hand, leaning, back hugging, etc.
Somehow our relationship has survived the disconnect between our love languages. I let him do things for me, control is something I hate to relinquish but I know he feels fulfilled when he has a task to make me happy. And he makes sure he holds my hand and stands close enough for me to lean.
Love, February
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 4, 2021 at 3:32 PM
I really need a finger hearts emoji for this one. *sends finger hearts*
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 4, 2021 at 3:40 PM
*finger hearts*
Ally
February 4, 2021 at 3:34 PM
Love this!!!! And glad to hear something about pie guy!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 4, 2021 at 3:39 PM
I feel like I talk about him all the time, but i don’t want to be that person, so I consciously try not to, and that results in me not talking about him. 😅
Ally
February 4, 2021 at 3:43 PM
😂 I do something similar. I put my leg on top of my husband’s leg. For no good reason.
mmmmm
February 4, 2021 at 6:18 PM
*physical closeness* 🥰
mmmmm
February 4, 2021 at 6:19 PM
I love hugging. 🤓
I’m a totally physical person.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 4, 2021 at 7:19 PM
But like, I’m not if I’m not close to you. So sometimes I forget to warn people when I meet them that “if we get close we are going to be arm in arm sorry not sorry it means you made it to my inner circle”
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 4, 2021 at 6:15 AM
Love, February 4th, 2021 Round Up
I’m already tired y’all but we can do this! Fighting!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 4, 2021 at 6:16 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/manichan/activity/1199299/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/mmmmm/activity/1199232/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/suriyana-shah/activity/1199228/
mmmmm
February 4, 2021 at 7:36 AM
Thank you Cocoa 🥰
Bebe | Nessa❣️
February 4, 2021 at 9:47 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1199408/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 4, 2021 at 3:03 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/eazal/activity/1199429/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/ally-le/activity/1199366/
bbstl 🧹
February 5, 2021 at 7:48 AM
Park Seo Joon will give you strength, good choice! ❤️
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 5, 2021 at 10:51 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1199601/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 3:18 PM
Love, February 3rd, 2021
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 3:18 PM
I’m not sure if it’s love.
In my memories you are there in the background, an irritable, complaining figure.
You never got my name right.
I don’t remember talking to you.
I remember your yard so clearly, those games of croquet with those rusting wickets (my mom always got worried when we ventured into your half caved-in shed in search of the mallets and balls)
That yard always amazed me, so deeply back did it extend from your dilapidated house. I remember that house, with the uneven floors and your obese, blind dogs.
I do recall you sharing your cookies with them, but not with me.
Are these memories love? Did I love you? I know I wanted to. Did you love me? I know I wanted you to.
I just got a text today that your breathing is shallow, and the nurse believes it’s nearing your last.
I’m sad.
When I saw you last, five years ago, you couldn’t remember anyone’s name. When I last saw you, I held your arm to help you walk, and cut your food for you to eat. You barely remembered English anymore, only speaking in that Spanish slang of your childhood. I didn’t mind then that you didn’t know my name.
I don’t know if I’ll miss you, but I think I’ll always regret that I couldn’t love you the way I wished I could.
Love, February
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 3:19 PM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 9:51 AM
Love, February Day 3 Round Up
(I know this is late, but in my defense, I’ve been asleep)
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 9:51 AM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 10:59 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1199064/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 11:05 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/eazal/activity/1199025/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/lszj09/activity/1198999/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1198957/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 12:42 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/neener/activity/1199070/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 3, 2021 at 5:15 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1199142/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 1:20 PM
Love, February 2nd, 2021
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 1:21 PM
It’s like a picture in my mind.
That dorm room, with the mountains of my roommate’s clothes (she tunneled through them everyday)
That sink, that counter, both stacked high with stinking dishes.
Myself, too tired to keep cleaning up after roommates who truly didn’t care. Yourself, frustrated by your own college roommates, escaping to my place for our weekly lunch.
The two of us, so happy on that patch of carpet we cleared.
Laughing until we fell over, delighted with that saviour of a pizza coupon.
In the picture we are a bright spot, tired but young, frustrated but still so very idealistic.
Love, February
SnarkyJellyfish
February 2, 2021 at 2:04 PM
This made me smile. It’s been a long day, and this reminded me of one of my favorite memories from university, when my best friend and I could not deal with our housemates anymore, so on that sunny weekend morning we snuck out to get Chinese food and hide from them for a little while.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 2:11 PM
It’s those little moments, they don’t seem big at the time, but looking back they are just… golden.
Bebe | Nessa❣️
February 2, 2021 at 2:20 PM
Sometimes–a LOT of the times– a hug from that ONE SPECIFIC person just does the trick and is all you (we, I) need 🥰
SnarkyJellyfish
February 2, 2021 at 2:35 PM
I remember that meal especially because it was when one of our nonsensical shorthand phrases was born and we found ample use for it an hour later, when our housemates found us. But it was a good day.
Ally
February 2, 2021 at 2:16 PM
College/uni life. How precious it was.
FlyingTool
February 2, 2021 at 2:36 PM
College. I did so much, wether foolish or brilliant, funny or sad, so average or so extreme … but all with the help of wonderful friends. Best time of my life.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 1:22 PM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@purplesheesh
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 8:12 PM
Love, February Day 2 Round Up 2021
Add your links in the comments below!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 8:13 PM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@sicarius
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@wishfultoki
@purplesheesh
egads aka Dame Maggie
February 2, 2021 at 4:32 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/egads/activity/1198816/
egads aka Dame Maggie
February 1, 2021 at 8:30 PM
Your gif game is always so good.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 3:18 AM
I was just thinking it’s likely not in touch with current drama trends. I’m an old foggy in my tastes 😅
beffels
February 1, 2021 at 9:48 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/beffels/activity/1198542/
Eazal
February 2, 2021 at 11:04 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/eazal/activity/1198720/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 11:47 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/yuyuu/activity/1198666/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/sirena/activity/1198684/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1198689/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 11:51 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/marina/activity/1198732/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1198703/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/ally-le/activity/1198722/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 1:23 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/hotcocoagirl/activity/1198761/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 1:54 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/kudoran/activity/1198747/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 11:26 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/leetennant/activity/1198847/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1198803/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/neener/activity/1198869/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 2:01 PM
I know, I know, I said I wasn’t going to put much work in this year, but now February is here and I can’t help it…
That said, here is the Day 1 Love February round up, attach links to your posts if I missed them. I’ll keep updating throughout the day as I pop on and off of DB.
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 2:02 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/hotcocoagirl/activity/1198278/https://www.dramabeans.com/members/hotcocoagirl/activity/1198278/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/mmmmm/activity/1198331/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/egads/activity/1198392/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/bebeswtz/activity/1198396/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/eazal/activity/1198398/
Ally
February 1, 2021 at 2:33 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/ally-le/activity/1198444/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 5:21 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/pineapplegongzhu/activity/1198436/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 8:08 PM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/silje/activity/1198479/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/snarkyjellyfish/activity/1198501/
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/purplesheesh/activity/1198502/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 3:19 AM
https://www.dramabeans.com/members/neener/activity/1198549/
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 2:03 PM
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@sicarius
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@wishfultoki
@purplesheesh
egads aka Dame Maggie
February 1, 2021 at 2:18 PM
MONKEY!
Eazal
February 1, 2021 at 2:24 PM
Thanks so much!!
Bebe | Nessa❣️
February 1, 2021 at 3:04 PM
Awwww Cocoa!!! <3
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 1, 2021 at 10:31 PM
I’ve missed the gifs! And you, of course. Hesitant to ask, but how is pie guy?
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 2, 2021 at 3:24 AM
Posting reminds me how I’ve missed being here with y’all!
As of eight hours ago, (the last time I saw him), Pie Guy is rather overwhelmed by work currently, but still likes to spend his Monday nights buying me food. So I suppose all is well. 🥰
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 2:44 AM
Love, February Day 1, 2021
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 2:45 AM
Typed up in a hospital hallway at 4 am. In case you ever wondered what your nurses did on their computers, aside from all that darn charting.
@katakwasabi
@leetennant
@ally-le
@snarkyjellyfish
@bebeswtz
@msrabbit
@kat23
@hebang
@ndlessjoie
@yuyuu
@lugirl131415
@tspmasala
@willow
@moomoomoondog
@carmen
@sicarius
@mindy
@gadis
@coffeeprince4eva
@suriyana-shah
@pinklolipop
@egads
@rukia
@pineapplegongzhu
@thetinyl
@sensationalfantasy
@eazal
@rueffie
@raonah
@greenfields
@bammsie
@bcampbell1662
@beffels
@mmmmm
@wishfultoki
purplesheesh
February 1, 2021 at 5:08 AM
May I join?
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 7:29 AM
Of course!
Cocoa, The Fake Poet of February
February 1, 2021 at 2:54 AM
It’s been five years since I was in that bed.
Tired & alone & overwhelmed
Everything seemed cold. So very cold.
I’m proud of myself, that girl who forced herself to write despite that load of coursework.
Who got out of bed to cook herself soup.
Who refocused herself on writing love stories to get through her overwhelming days. Making up a writing challenge that has gone beyond herself and into the world, and letting so many focus on the mundane that surrounds us all.
I didn’t finish Love, February that first year.
Instead, like a kdrama heroine, I fainted at work
But with no first or second lead to care for me.
I’m proud of me. Who took care of me. Teaching myself how to love myself. And somehow, pale and shaky, came through it all.
And this Love, February I dedicate it to that me, who chose love. Love of that bed, love of stories, and most of all, love of myself.
Let’s all choose love, this February
Love, February.
Karmen ~ 🍜🏢🎭 ~ 📚☔🦋 ~ 🪂🌱💘 ~ ✨🍊💫 ~
February 1, 2021 at 3:22 PM
Thanks for sharing this, Cocoa 💛
mugyuljoie is preciousss
February 1, 2021 at 10:22 PM
❤️